Kayla- Yes, I do agree with you.
I know Dillon very well, and so do the rest of his close friends.
The ones that actualy cared about him when he was alive.
Mainly people are doing this to just get attention, and just acting like he actually meant something to them.
Dear Dilly,
I miss you dearly,
and I think of you everyday,
I tell you I love you everynight,
just like I used too, I just wish things can be the same
It’s not fair. and I tell myself that a millon times everyday.
I love you dillon<3
lovemeggyboo.
Dear Dillon,
I’m sorry people are so selfish and pathetic that they would have to disrespect you in that way. I wish those people who are acting like they knew you and actually cared about you would truly realize the hurt your family, and your true friends are going through.
It really disgusts me dillon. People just don’t understand. All they want is sympathy and it is just so wrong.
Ughh, :/
I love you dillon,
I saw another elmo again today and instantly thought of you,
actually I have seen three of them the past three days.
Sometimes I feel like you are slipping awaay, and that people are just going to forget about you, sometimes it seems like people already have, maybe they are just moving on and dealing with it in a different way, idk.
It’s just so hard.
Hey dill, (:
I have only four school days left and they
are all finals, stay with me through them, I hope they won’t be that
hard. I’m doing quite well in all my classes so I should be good,
On monday I have to give an oral presentation in Spanish II, and then I alreayd finished making my stepstool in woodshop, I took my P.E final yesterday. I presented my book talk in Academic Literacy today, and took my english test for romeo and juliet. So I’m getting everything taken care of, which is good, I’m just happy to get things over with,
I love youu dill,
miss you.
<3Meggyboo.
Dillon and Marissa weren’t left out of the Video Extravaganza Ehren its just that i know the person who made it very well and he didn’t exactly know whether or not to put them in. It was a difficult situation some people would have wanted them in, others wouldnt have so it was compromised and random pictures of them were put in.
Just letting you know that they weren’t forgotten
Hey Dillon,
I just wanted to let you know, that you can’t ever be forgotten.
Never it’s impossible. You can be taken physically, but I have memories.
And I will hold on to them for dear life, and I will never loose you. You’re always with me in my mind in heart, I’m still left with this hole in me, but I’m just going to close my eyes tight, and count down the days till I can see you again.
Sad way to look at life, I know.
But it’s how I feel.
Dillon!
Geeze kid how I miss you so much sometimes. I moved out to Livermore, and am now living with my daddy. So much crazy stuff has been going on since like, February! From Momma Peralta kicking me out, to my crazy move to Modesto to live with my (ex)boyfriend. But you know all of that, cause you’re watching down over me. Ashlyn and Courtney came out to see me on Friday, we went to Shadow Cliffs which is a little lake like literally, 5 minutes from my house. You would’ve loved it. We sat there and reminisced about you babyboy :] Like at military ball, your junior year! Remember with the tic-tac? You tried to juggle it on your tongue, like the commercial. But, then it fell on the floor and you picked it up and put it back in your mouth. So gross Dillon, but something only you would do :]] And i wanna get a tattoo. Something that represents me. From where I came from, and where I’m going. And yes, you’re initials will be in there. But you already know that! Lol. Well I thought I would come and write to you because I haven’t in a while, but just know I think about you all the time :]]
I Love You Dillon :]
Ali
Hey dillon,
I am finally finished with finals, tommorow is my last day at school
For some reason it makes me kinda of sad.
When I’m at school, I’m kept busy the whole day doing work and what not,
so I don’t think about you as much.
But during the day, when I’m home with nothing to do, my mind just wanders, I miss you so much.
I want more than anything to talk to you again
I love you dillon.
Dill Pickle,
i miss you like crazyy!
i think of you lots and i wish you where here to see the person im becoming(: but i know either way your proud! and i love you.. visit me sometime.
The other day i was looking through my freshmen yearbook and i automatically flipped open to the page yu signed on. it was probably one of the nicest things anyones ever said to me idk if i ever told yu that. Made me thinkk abt yu. Oh and yur name on the catwalk always makes me smile because for some reason i get that flash of yu walkin around with yur red jersey on. miss yuu dillon. <3
Heyy dillly,
I miss youuu.
Break isn’t good so far,
my brother’s girlfriend is always here :/
ugh, she bugs mee.
I know you would have some things to her. aha
I miss how things used to be.
I love your personaality, we just clicked and we got along so well://
Heyydillon.
I’m at shelby’s house right now,.
This brings back memories of when i would prank call you and you’d play along, and then after I was done you were always like megan maybe next time you should block your number before you try to prank call me, lol I miss that and then whenever me nd shelby would hang out you’d always say megan if you are going to prank cal me, make sure you do it soon, and remember to block your number,
ahaha mann I miss that://
i just got home from colorado a few days ago. i wrote you a poem on the plane ride there and back. here it is:
________________________
Many months have gone by
And im still here
Lonely and empty
Wishing you were near
We always used to joke around
And constantly make fun of each other
It was an everyday type of thing
You were practically my big older brother
I know you hated me saying that
But you honestly were
You wanted to be so much more than just that
With all my problems; you were my cure
I remember when you would drive
To San Jose just for me
I never really realized how far it was
But now I can really see
I would guess & say I wouldn’t be worth it
But apparently you thought I was
You were the first guy I said I love you to
Because I had so many reasons; not “just because”
So many people loved you;
appreciated you, and more
But when you do something like this
It makes our tears poor
Everyday I wear this bracelet
Because it reminds me of you
If im not wearing it for some reason
I feel like something else is missing too
Without it I feel incomplete
Like something is so wrong
I feel so naked and bare
When you’re not here for so long
I liked how we were last summer
I like how we kissed, cuddled, and got along
We always had so much to talk about
But now all I have is a song
Quite a few songs remind me of you
And what we could have been
Why cant you come back to life
So I can be happy again
I know its selfish for me to say that
To say that you to
But honestly it’s the only thing I want
To really be true
Your laugh made me happy
And your smile brightened my day
every time I heard your voice
I would have so much to tell you and say
We talked all the time on the phone
And texting all day too
Why cant we just go back to normal?
Why does everything have to change and be new?
Words cant describe
Each moment with you
How I felt then and now
And knowing our feelings were true
Everyday thinking about you
Makes me want you so much more
This was the only think that could ever separate us
Almost like we were on opposite sides of the door
I wish we had more time together
I wish I could have had a helping hand to lend
But everything happens for a reason right?
And for you; maybe it was the end.
This experience opened my eyes
And helped me appreciate people in many ways
You learn the most important things from the ones you love
each and everyday
Whenever I see two birds flying by
I always think of me and you
That one day god will bring us back together
And we’ll start off completely new.
You will always be my baby
You will always be my love
So Dillon Chiulli make me a special promise
To always hold me tight and watch me from above.
Dear Dillon, I miss you a lot,
people always tend to bring you up,
like the other day, my mom was talking to her friend about it right in front of me,and then she looks at me and was like do you want me to tell him,ughh I’d rather you not say anything at all butt, no you have to open your big mouth,
:/
Heyy dillon,
Well this morningg, I woke up, watched my tv show,
got in my bathing suit, did 25 laps in the pool at my neighbors,
then came home, did some research and went to the gym later, now I’m home.
and In aboout 15 minutes, it’s June,18. Your birthday.
I remember last year, I made a little sign for you, and held it in the mirror, and even though it showed up backwards you still loved it.
Oh man dillon,
I miss you.
I miss talking to you, and just the way it was.
It’s hard to describe, but I know you understand.
Here’s my picture from June,18,2009
I love you so much dilly,
Happybirthdayy<3
It’s the big day
your eighteenth is here
I’m going to try hard
not to shed a tear,
I remember this day
just last year
I drew you a picture
and showed you in the mirror
you were so happy
and I was too
because you knew I would have never
forgotten about you.
I wish you a happy birthday
but, it so hard to see
no reply from you
on my phone screen
I will never forget you
just to let you know
my feelings will remain
and i’ll never let you go<3
Happy Birthday Dillweed!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hope u r celebrating your 18th birthday in high style. Conner and Evan are at your favorite place today. That’s right…. Disneyland. We love you and miss you more than you know. Not a day goes by when we don’t think of you. I just wished you could have told us your innermost thoughts, since we talked about EVERYTHING else. I would have duct taped you to my house the night before, if I only knew.
Love and birthday hugs…
Dan, Mary, Conner and Evan (also Merlin, misses you too)
okay so last year i remember talking to you on the phone; i think hayden was there too. it was the day before your birthday actually and we were trying to figure out a way for me to spend time with you on your birthday but it didnt work out :/
then i remember trying to convince my mom to drive me to your house and bring you balloonss and the bracelet you asked me to make for you that i kept forgettting to give to you.
also, i remember one day after school, i went to my grandmas and i was soo bored so i just started drawing & writing random stufff, and in my planner; i wrote dillon’s birthday in huge letters. i sent you a picture of it and you were like “awh i love you and beautiful handwriting :)”
i was thinking about you yesterday and thinking that your birthday was tomorrow; which would be today. i wish you were still here and i wish we could spend the day together.
it’s just everytime i think about this happening; i can’t believe it and accept it. i’m always gonna think it was a huge misunderstanding and you’re still here somewhere.
i love you dillon; more than you’ll ever understand.
you were, still are, and will always be my everything.
Heyy dilly,
So Friday your mommm and dad came and got me and brought me to your
house, we had a great party for you and it turned out pretty good, I went to your grave today too,
and sat there and talked to you for a while,
man I miss you so muchh dilly
Heyy dill,
okay so this will be the last time I write on here till next monday I believe,
I’m going to San Diego with Katelyn for FQ, I miss you a lot
Dill, and I hope you will be with me,
I love you so much.
I wanted to let you know that you are always going to be with me,
cause I’ll always think of you,
you were so good to me, and you helped me alot
and for that I am truly gratefull.
But, I miss you more than you will ever know.
dillon chiulli,
i miss you more than i could ever put into words.
ive written letters, poems, and notes and everything and its just not the same. i physically need you here.
last weeek when i was coming home on the plane from colorado, we were flying above the clouds and when we were gettting higher and higher, i was hoping to seee you but i didn’t.
this sucks.
i would give anything for you to still be here.
anything for you dillon
i cant move on.
i cant even find any guys to talk to.
guys are assholes. i cant even be friends with them
their still asses to me.
you changed my thinking about guys, we had so many nice talks and everything. i had the confidence that everything would be okay because you told me you would always be here for me and never leave me. i finally found a good guy which was you but now you’re gone.
you are amazing dillon. no one will ever compare to you.
and i think thats why i cant find anyone else ,
i have high expectations ever since i met you. and just nobody is as amazing as you were.
i love you babbeey.
& you know i mean it.
Yes, this girl named Kayla did the same thing with Marissa. You pretended to be her mother on myspace which, by the way , is extremely disrespectful. Being someone who knew Dillon and Marissa. It’s offensive to have someone try to act like they are in such deep pain. Think of their best friends and how much pain they are in, I don’t think your pain will ever measure up to theirs. Even if you were supposedly so close to them, don’t try to act like you were best friends with them, because you were not. I know dillon and marissas best friends, in fact I’m very close with marissas good friends, and to see what they are going through makes me realize I can’t feel sorry for myself and act like I was their best friend, I wasn’t. I knew them both well, they were in my class and don’t get me wrong I grieved and so did alot of other people. But seeing how marissas close friends and family cope, you have no place pretending you feel as they do.
Anyways, what I came to say.
Miss you Dillon happy late birthday. Haven’t been on here in a while and just decided I needed to say some things. Well rest in peace chewy. I’ll never forget you <3
Dillon,
I miss youu<3
Sorry I haven't been on,
I've been in San Diego,
And I got back last night, and spent the night at Katelyn's
It was pretty fun,
I like hanging with her family, and her grandpa is so funny,
he was playing with katelyn's little sister on wii and was telling her to eat dirt, lol
he's so competitive, we went to FQ,
and saw Aunt Laura, and went To Kyle and Brittany's graduation parties.
I remember last year when I was in SD, You were in disneyland, and I was talking to you and Hayden, and I remember Hayden lost his hat on the ride, and I remember you guys went and got so many tacos at taco bell,
I haven't eaten taco bell since you've been gone,
you loved taco bell.
imissyou dilly,
come see me in my dreams and make them better.
ily<3
Meggybbooo.
dillon,
you were the only person who called me lee. and i don;t let anyone else call me that now. i miss you so dang much. i remember the time you drove to my house after a game. that was so fun. you were compying everything i said and i got sooo angry at you. lol. i walked away and you asked if i wanted a ride home and i said no, i didn’t wanna get raped in the backseat. lmao. buht you just ended up looking for me everywhere and then you called at like midnight and asked to come over. my madre was like wtf, aha. i was out there for like a half hour listening to yur apology. you were mean to me, buht idc. i know you were kidding. you were great friend. and so fun to be with. haa. everyone loved you. you’re amazing. i cried so many tears for months after you were gone. i tried moving on, i just couldn’t. buht now, i’ve excepted the fact that you’re gone. all yur friends miss you. it was recently yur birthday, buht i didn’t know about this website then. lol. buht happy late birthday. you would be eighteen. big boyy. ;] and me and raeann walked by the graduation and thought of you. you prolly would have partied big time after. aha, me and raeann wanted to go see how boring it was without you, buht we didn’t. you were so cute, i remember i liked you like two weeks before you left. i was so sad. i wish you were here. i miss you. i want you. i need you. you made me laugh when i was sad, and when i didn’t wanna talk to anyone. you were there. i remember the weekend we went to yur house and went tping. buht i didn;t go cause you pissed me off, lol. i hid in the truck while brittnee and karrie went up to yur house and talked to you and hayden and ehren. that was fun. i wish we would have made more memories together. i still think about you all the time. i miss you. come visit me soon. i love you, dilll. <3
love, lee.
Heyy Dilly,
well 9 months today, :/
I miss you so much,
sometimes I feel like you are slipping away,
like people are just going about with their daily routines,
and moving on, I guess that’s the only thing we can do right?
I mean you wouldn’t want me to sit here and pout about something I can’t change, but I can’t help myself.
you never let me do that before, you always made me feel better even If I didn’t want to listen to what you had to say,
and even on my worst days where I felt so hurt, and worthless,
you told me I was beautiful and that I meant so much to you.
you kept me going for the longest time dill,
and now you aren’t here, I miss the comfort you always brought with whatever you said.
We talked about so much, and we helped each other, I’m so glad we were bestfriends, because I don’t think I could have been as happy as I was when you were here. sometimes I sit here and think what would I have done without you. Whenever I called you from having a bad day, you always listened to me no matter what, people don’t really understand what they have till’ it’s gone, and that is so true,
I knew I could get mad at you, and you’d always be there, but I never realized you could be gone the next day, It’s something people don’t think about, and honestly it’s something people don’t want to think about, why would they want to think about their love one being gone the next day? I realize now that it’s something I should do. I need to realize that tommorow is never promised, and people aren’t always going to be here the next day, so I need to make sure they know I love them,
I hope you knew that dill. It was so hard getting the phone call in 5th period that my bestfriend was dead. It’s something I never want to think about, but something I deal with daily.
I’m glad that our last words were “I Love You.” but I wish our tommororw was promised, and the days after that were too. I was definitely not ready to loose you, and I don’t think I’ll ever be.
Hey man, i dont know if anybody still reads this
But i just wanted to say hi, been thinkin bout you lately man, missin you a lot too. Just letting you know we still remember you fondly.
Peace man
Heyy dilly,
went to the beach today, it was nice. the tides were really high.
but the wwater was freeezing.
tommorow is fourth of july, another holiday..
I’m so tired right now. just sitting at home.
i miss you <3
love meggyboo.
Heyy dilly.
I misss you
Tessa is here, we are going to the beachh tommorow,
it’s not really much of a beach but it’s something,
I went to the gym today, and then came home and walked my doggs,
one by one, cause I can’t control them both together,
But yeahh, today there was a lot of reminders of you, I will always love you dill<3
illondaaa. I havent been on here in so long. I’m sorry. Happy late birthday. I bought a loaf of bread on your birthday and sat on it for about 15 minutes just thinking about you and crying. Dylan, Ashlyn, and I all sang happy birthday outside for you. as loud as we could hoping you could hear us. I wish you were here. I miss you. I love you.
-aylortaaa
Heyy illondaa.
So i had a job interview today at Funworks at 3,
And i didnt go. I dont know why. I was too scared.
You know how i am with that. You always said “You
Burst threw that door and say, heyyy-loow!! I am
Taylor!” I can just hear you saying that right now!
My mom is dissapointed in me cause i didnt go. I dont
blame her.. I miss you Dill.!
-ayylortaa.
P.s. I boat some bread today.
dillllllon<3
i miss you so muchh
so many things remind me of you; reminded of you everysingleday
like a song or a saying or memories that we had
and i get signs here and there that you're watching over me.
i'm wearing the bracelet everydayy, no matter what.
iloveyouubabey http://i141.photobucket.com/albums/r51/ilovsnickers00/245-1.jpg
Heyy dillon<3
I wasn't feeling good today,
and stuff happened with my dad tonight,
didn't have a good day,
wish you were here to talk too :/
ily dill.
and I miss you soo much.
Heyy dillon,
Well I just finished my first two days of drivers
ed :/ theyyy are sooo boring and easy,
and I have to do next weekend too :/ its 9am-4pm :/
it takes FOREVER.
Ughh, I know you probably would have said something like awwe meggy you
are growing up. You really made an impact on my life,
and as cheesy as this sounds, I wouldn’t be who I am without you.
You have helped me so much, and you were everything and more,
I miss you everyday, and I can’t wait to see you again.
lovemeggyboo.
Ps:Debbie, if you are reading this I hope you and your family are doing
good I miss you and love youu.
-Megan.(Antioch).
Megan
Of course I read them – everyday! We’re doing ok. I miss you too and am so proud that you’ll be driving soon. Next time you come over, I’ll let you drive. Take care & enjoy your summer days. ly2.
Heyy Dillon,
I was with Katelyn all day today,
and then she left, I went to the gym
and then rented movies,
I just finished watching, Edge of Darkness,
and The Crazies,
The first one was pretty good, the second one was very gory and was kinda like the happening,
so I’m just sitting on my couch right now,
Oh and my brother is gone right now, he went to go to this army place,
and is getting sworn in tomorrow. :/
I’m scared.
Heyy dill,
well I went to the hospital today,
my friend jeff is in there becauase his lung collapsed
He is doing okay now, just in some pain.
but otherwise,
It amazes me how many times a day my ear can pick up the word suicide,
it makes me want to yell at people to make them shhut upp.
ugh,
imissyou.
Hey dill, okay so tommorrow is my lass drivers education class, sometime this up coming week I have to go take my permit test, then take my first driving on the road test to make my permit official.
:// these classes are 7 hours long ://// it takes forever!!
I hope I pass the test tomoorow that I have to take.
Heyy dillon,
So, I passed my driversity test!
Now I just have to pass my permit test, and then get my permit,
finallly,
thats all thats really going on right now,
I’m just watching family guy right now with katelyn,
its good to have some good laughs,
but I really miss laying on my hottub cover with katelyn and shelby and
having you on speaker and having the craziest conversations,
I remember not wanting to share you with anyone too,
and you were the same way, lol
I always loved talking to you, I really miss you.
Heyy dill,
so i went to the dmv today,
I got my picture taken and stuff,
and then they told me I couldn’t take my permit test because it was too late :/ whattheheck, I was so mad so I have to go back down tommorow ://
ughh, wish me luck
I miss you.
lovemeggyboo.
dillon,
i realized alot today.
thank you for watching over me
and even looking after me and caring about me
when you were still physically here.
you were basically my big brother and my bestfriend.
i love you with all my heart
and it won’t ever change.
i live for you and only you.
i miss you so much.
Hey dillon,
I’m sorry I haven’t written, I’ve been at my cousin’s house since friday,
I wish I could have had a chance to tell you how much you mean to me,
I don’t think you ever really knew,
I guess I never really expressed it.
I hope you knew one thing at least, and I hope you never questioned it ,
It’s that I love you,
I was always there for you, and I hope you knew that.
I miss you
Hey illondaa.
Sorry i havent been writing lately.
I still think about you evey day.
Its almost been a year, and it still hurts
like crazy. I’ve been doing everything I can think
of to try and not think about how it all ended up,
i even went out looking for a job. Wow, me a job i know.
I finally landed n interview at Funworks! I wish you were
here so we can go celebrate. Man I miss you Dill. So much.!
Iloveyou and Imissyou.
Love you ALWAYS an FOREVER,
aylortayyy.
Heyy dill. <3
I'm just hanging with alot of my family,
I made a vanilla cake with wwhite frosting, and strawberries,
Mmmm. it's goood
I wishh you wwere here.
I keep thinking of old times and I wish I could have it back more than anything. ily
<3 meggyboo.
Today is July 30th,
Ten months dillon 🙁
It makes me miss you even more sometimes because I Have had to go without you for so long,
I miss our long night talks about everything that has been going on,
I miss having little petty arguments just to make each other laugh,
I just miss everything so muchh,
I love youu <3
lovemeggyboo.
Hey dill, I miss you like crazy! My heart still hurts and I can never get you off my mind. I still remember the day I asked you to sadies. I wrote it on the board in your class and you texted me right after and said really? haha. I love you dill, and I always will. Look after me and the rest of us okay? Be good up there 😉
Heyy Dill,
Well I miss you so much,
I’m just home right now, I went swimming and now I’m about to go
to the gym when my mom gets home, I remember before i’d go to the gym you would say you better be wearing appropriate clothing, cause I don’t want any pervs staring at you.
I miss you so muchh,
I just read this guys myspace,
He just lost the girl he loved in march, I don’t know how she died,
But I know he loved her alot, and I know what he’s going through.
I wish i could change things, and I wish life was easier,
I love you dill,
I always will.
love,
<3 meggyboo.
Dillon, its been too long. Everyday i think about you and wishing there was some wayou could come back.
Everynight before i go to bed, i Stillll look up at the ceiling or the sky if im outside and i talk to you. I know youre listening.
I love you<3
Foreveeeer & Always My Lovee
Heyy Dillon,
I’ve been taking care of my neighbor alot lately,
she really enjoys me coming over and almost cries everytime I say it doesn’t bother me, and thanks me, she’s such a sweet lady.
Other than that nothing much.
I wrote a poem about you last night.
I miss you<3
lovemeggyboo.
dillon, you came to my mind today. i miss seeing you at school. i didn’t get to take marine bio. like you did thoee./: i’m in stupid general science. but i miss you. come visit me soon. i miss you&i love you.
; lovelee.<3
Sorry Dill, I’ve been at autumn’s, I went shopping today.
and Did stuff with her family, then came home and made cookies. I cannot explain how much I miss you. I will love you forever and always.
It came to my attention today, that you were the only guy I really trusted and got along with like perfectly, and talked to constantly. Idk.
I just really miss you.
<3you
Love meggyboo.
Heyy Dillon… It’s 1:37 and I just woke up from a dream of you. I think of you every day. I miss you so much. They say it’s supposed to get easier, but I still cry every morning in the shower. I moved to massachusettes and everyone I meet I end up talking about you. It’s wierd tho, I can say whatever I want && tell watever memories I have of you and ppl assume ur still on this earth with us. U guess in a way it’s refreshing being able to talk about you without getting that look from ppl. That “I feel sorry for you” look. I feel guilty because I tried to push u into my past but I coulddnt do it. I could use ur advice now more then ever. I’m tired of putting on a smile every day for ppl when I just don’t feel like it. I just wish you could give me a hug right now cuz they were the absolute best. It’s almost been a year, and it still hurts just as bad. I’m so mad Dillon. Not exactly at you but at everything. I don’t get why somebody as loving and funny as you… I just don’t get it. I love you Dillon. Soooo much. It’s a struggle every day for me, but to be honest I would rather struggle then not have you in my memories at all. Ppl tell me I have to let go, but holding on to you has made me stronger. I’m gonna beat the demonds that have got hold of my soul and I’m gonna do this by keeping you in my heart. And even tho there are many days I think of you and feel sad, not a day goes by that you don’t make me smile. I love you Dillon. Night hunn. <3
Hey dill, Got up, cleaned my neighbors poool, cleaned my house and then went to the gym,
nothing special.
We got a flat tire the other day and we were stuck on the freeway :/
till tripple a came, and they had to tow us to a car place and had to wait like 3 hours for them to fix it. gay ://
I miss youuu.
I would of called you and you would have talked to me for days.
You were always there to talk to,
I love youu
meggyboo.
dillon,
i still think about you everyday. every morning and every night before i go to bed. it’s nothing new.
it’s almost been a whole year since you’ve been gone. it was a hard year for me with other things happening too but you seem to always calm me down and watch over me.
things liike this happen for a reason and maybe you were meant to leave and be in a better place to be happier.
i love you dillon
visit me in my dreams tonight <3
It’s almost been a year, i still think of you EVERY night crying, wishing that i could of helped out some how, but i didnt. I love you and i hope your happier.
Hey Dillon <3
I miss you :/
Today my dad's girlfriend came and picked me up,
she actually let me drive so I drove around and then we went to the mall and she got me a new purse and and new outfit,
But she was using my dad's card? lol
but whatever.
I wish I can talk to you about stuff again
I wish I can here about your days,
There's so much I wish I had back,
But I know you are happy right now,
I have no right to be selfish for my own benefit
but I still think you had a great life ahead of you,
I know you. You were so talented even if you didn't think you were.
I miss you every day, but I know you are still so close to me,
I love you<3
meggyboo.
Heyy dill,
Well Things haven’t been so good with my family,but today I started practicing my guitar more, and i really like it.
I went bowling with my dad and tanya, she’s actually really sweet.
I like her better than my dad, lol
Then we had a little family get together at my house,
I talked to some of my cousins more so it was nice.
Iloveyouudillon
and I miss you so much.
Hey dillon,
Well I need to work on my sleeping schedule, I’m going to die when
school starts because I can’t go to bed, I rearranged my bed like 3 times tonight and it so heavy and I did it all by myself lol.
I wanted a change in my room and the way it was positioned it kept touching my blinds and it was bugging me,
I really miss you,
and I actually talked to you outloud last night instead of in my head,
It’s so hard dillon,
Iloveyou
meggyboooooooo;
Heyy dill, My internet keeps going out cause the stupid phone company is having malfunctions.
Well school starts monday and I don’t even have my schedule because they called me last minute and told me that mine isn’t valid that I have to come in on monday and get it in the morning :// pooooooop.
I really don’t wanna goo. I hate antioch.
I miss you so much.
Lovemeggyboo;
I always think about you.
hope your fam is doing well<3
Heyy dill,
It was my first day of school today :/
It suckkkked! I don’t like my teachers or classes
and I’m in like ap
):
It seems like they are going to be hard,
and I might switch and now, my ankle is hurting really bad for no reason ://
ughh not a good day,
I miss you so much,
I love you
<3meggyboo.
Hey illondaa.
So school this year is pretty intense. I wish you
were here to help me with everything. And get me
from school. My mom got me to drive finally! It
was soo funny. I wish you could have been there :/
I miss you soo much! I can’t believe its almost been
an entire you year already. It still does not seem real.
I miss you dillon. I really do.. I wish you would come
see me sometime soon. You know how sometimes memories fade?
Well yours, NEVER will. You are my favorite memory, and you
live on with me<3
Iloveyou Dillon.
Forever and Forever.
-ayylortayy.
Heyy dillon,
Okay so school,
CRAZY,
Been doing like three hours of work since it started every night to get caught up from the summer program, then I have a couple weeks to read a book and do a report,
I’m kinda streessed and I don’t like my school,
I miss you :/ It’s almost been a whole year.
I will always love you dillyboo.
<3meggy/
dillon my love,
it’s almost been a whole year. sorry i havent written on here in awhile. i’ve been busy with school and stuff. i actually never really have time to goo on the computer but you are still included in my mind. i wear my “dillon chiulli” bracelet every single day no matter what but i take it off when i shower. haha. but today was really hard for me. In my “TOPS” class which stands for teens offering peer support; they are the ones last year who helped me on the day i found out you were gone. & now i’m in the class this year. but today in class , we did the “cross the line” thing where the teacher names of things people might or might not have done and if it happened then you cross the line. well my teacher started off easy and she got deeper and deeper and deeper. and then suddenly she says “okay please cross the line if you know of someone who has attempted suicide” and just hearing the word made me blank out and get teary. but thanks to you; i know you were there with me and you helped me cross the line.
i reeally do love you dillon
i love you with all my heart and
i hope you always know you will ALWAYS be my motivation for everything i do because i know you’re looking down on me i wouild love to make you happpy. making you happy makes me happy.
i can’t wait to see you again
rest in paradise untill i get there <3 & then we'll see what happens 😉
iloveeeeeeeeeeeyooooouuuuubaby
you’ve really been on my mind dillon. sometimes i get soo scared that im never going to see you again, but then i thought that maybe you were just an angel sent to us for a little while and that we’ll all get to see you again someday. its almost been a year and i still think about you every single day. your picture is on my dashboard in my car and my mom saw it the other day and told me how handsome you were. you still are handsome. i miss you sooo much dillon, and ive wanted to talk to you but i never know where to start. i didnt have a very good day, and then out of no where andrea texted me and we started talking about you. theres not a memory i have of you that doesnt involve a smile, well except when mr singh kicked us out of class every day, but even then you were making me laugh. i love you so much dillon. thank you for being a part of my life. sooo until im up there with you someday keep the angels busy and try not to show them how to draw perfect penis’s. misss you.
Hey dill, alright well finally my first week of school is done,
I changed my schedule today say I get out at 2:00 instead of three, even though it’s not much shorter It gives me extra time for homework, cause I have a lot so far, but anyways. I so tired. This week has been an okay week at school, a little hectic but it’s alright,
I found out my aunts sick and that my grandma is in the hospital..
my crazy ass nana, you know about her. Well I think there is some problems with her heart, but she is all the way up in shasta so Idk,
Hopefully I can see her soon.
I miss you so much
I wish I can talk to you.
<3meggyboo.
Dillon. So today is one of those days that I woke up and you were the first thing to enter my mind, but not that you were gone that you were still out there..up there. Im so sorry that I havent written anything to you in awhile, my days are getting busier and somedays I get on here start to type but then delete it cuz my words might not be the thing you want to here, especially my bad news. Its hard because you were the person I would always go to. You inspired me to not to dream my life but to live my dream..and i wont let you down. Your things are still sitting in my room right where i will see them every morning. Some mornings are harder then others but i remind myself i will see you someday. I still bring you up everydayy at some point, somehow your name is always jumpin out my mouth to someone..I miss you Dilly, I promise to write soon.
<3 you.
Dana-Pearl.
Heyy dill,
Long weekend not a lot of rest, busy busy busy.,
Then I found out my dads girlfriends mom died :/
I felt so bad,
I bought her some flowers and a card. I brought it by but she didn’t want to see anyone so i left it with my dad.
I really miss you..
I would love to call you right now,
I love how we never had to think of what to say,
We just talked about anything and everything.
Today i saw this elmo hat thing my neice has and i sooo thought of you.
I remember that elmo shirt you had, and i remember one day in art class you were wearing it and it was when we were all painting the signs for the classes for the rallys and you were painting the mouth of elmo, saying “No one likes a faded smile”. Hahaha oh my, i miss art class with you and you always fighting with me with some kind of art object, and every time i drink gatorade i think of you, ALWAYS stealing my drinks. Ha love ya hope your happy 🙂
i miss you dillon.
tooo much to describe.
i almost emailed your mom something the other day but then deleted it. soo i decided to talk to you instead. I miss everything about you and there isnt a single day i havent thought of you. some days are harder then others though. thats when i wish i could talk to you. i know you hear me and i know your watching over us, but it would just be so much easier if you were here with us. its almost been a year since talked to you. it was so hard walking into that class the next day, where you should have been. It was soo quiet that you could have heard a pin drop. Im sure you know this by now but you made such an impact on sooo many people. I just still dont understand a lot of things, and no one ever will. but its soo hard to live with the what could of beens and what if’s. I pray for your family and friends often dillon. please continue to watch over them, they are going to need you soooo much in the next month. More then ever. please give them peace. I love you soo much dillon and i wish i could take back every mean thing we ever said to eachother, but that was us. you’d make fun of me and i would bounce right back with something. but we always ended up being on the same team because it was always us getting in trouble. I wish i could see your face dillon, just one more time, but then that would just leave me wanting more. I hope your livin it up in heaven every single day, dont ever forget that we all love you so much dillon. you may have thought that you didnt mean much to the world, but you meant the world to a lot of us. Im sorry we didnt always show it the way we should have. take care dillon. im missin you every single day.
xoxo kallie jacobs
dillon,
i come on here so often even if i dont write anything. sometimes i start typing, and just delete it all because it doesnt make much sense and my thoughts are kinda all over the place.
i can’t exactly put into words how i feel at this exact moment and i just wish i could call you to try and talk about it. you were my solution to all problems; even the little ones that i over exaggerated. i know you didnt like being “a brother” to girls but you were basically my brother and boyfriend in one.
i think about you everyday and i know you can hear me when i talk to you. i’ve had a hard time in the past year just dealing with everything and i know for a fact, you’re helping me through it. you’re guiding me to success and to be happy for once.
i actually really thought about you last night and i remembered a year from saturday was the last time i saw you. even with all our memories, their so clear to me, i can tell you ever little detail about them. that’s how much i enjoyed being with you. you made me feel like i was literally on the top of the world and you made me laugh harder than i’ve ever laughed just making fun of me or what someone was doing.
it’s just so hard being here without you.
please stay by my side and help me.
but honestly dillon, thank you for being there for me, helping me through everything, and proving to me all guys arent just assholes.
you dont even know how much you changed my life. & as days and months pass by, i know for a fact that its making me a better, stronger, happier person because you are my confidence and i do everything for you.
i love you dillon
<3
It’s a year now, oooh boy do i always think of you, especially before i go to bed. (NOT LIKE THAT YOU NAAASTY) haha. Any who, i always think of how things would be if it would have never happened, but thats me, i always think.
Remember sophomore going into junior year summer school, hahaha that was funny. You’re sooooo lucky my mother didnt go through my phone and see those texts, eeeeeven though you said it was a wrong number lol. You and chris sure did have a blast calling me a bop, even though thats so not true Dilllllooonn.
OH!! remember you had to barrow my book for Dr.Samborski’s class, well when you gave it back i remember reading one of the pages in class and i see the word BOOB on top of the page, i start laughing and i was like uh oh i hope this is a joke, but it turns out it was your book not mine. good thing i erased it, … i think, lol. Well i hope your watching over everyone, especially the three people that need it, you know who im talking about. <3 Love ya BOP!! 🙂
Dillon. I miss you. Its almost been a complete year… Thats soo long.. 🙁 Its crazy how long its been since, i’ve seen you, heard you, talked to you. I think about you every single day, i wear my rip braclet every single day. I never take it off. I wish you were here. I miss you soo much. I called your phone the other night just to here your voice… Disconected… I cried soo hard. Imissyou dillon. Iloveyou.
-Taylor.
It was very hard to disconnect Dillon’s phone and we only did it about two weeks ago. The message from Dillon was garbled and you couldn’t understand it or recognize his voice. I’m sorry. I wish I could hear him too ~
Hey dillon,
thought about you alot today,
It’s so hot here and I don’t feel good,
I’m planning a dinnner with friends on friday
I think it would be good, and I think you know just about all of them
I miss you, we were so close,and I miss that.
😀 heeeeyy, i was watching the YES dance video, and for some reason, i pictured you doing the fork in the garbage disposal dance. hahah thats like the only funny part in video, but ya i miss you, we all do. love yaaaa 🙂
im watching Jersy shore, and oooh my goodness i honestly feel really innocent haha, these people are sooo dramatic, but any who, i cant sleep so i thought i would write ya something, aha i know its random, but its entertaining me:) any who MAKE ME FALL ASLEEP
i need to get my sleep ooonn, oooh well, alright i cant stop thinking about you, i you know i love you, ttyl 🙂
hey dill,
I kind of did a lot today,
I went to the john muir house so that was cool,
I ran some errands and now I’m on my computer and its acting weird
and I’m kind of irritated :/
but anyways,
I miss you.
it will be a year soon.
I don’t even know what I’m going to do.
My next door neighbors anniversary is on that day,
and it’s so weird that there could be any happiness for anyone on that day, it’s really hard to ponder, but it’s obviously because if something happens the whole world isn’t going to stop,
even though sometimes we wish is would.
iloveyou
meggyboo.
dillon. thank you for what you did for me today. it was really overcast and cold at school today, and as i was waiting for my dad to pick me up i thought of you, as my mind often wonders how you are doing and hoping you are watching over me. i remembered your awesome hugs, and i swear i could feel your arms around me and saying ALI PERALTA I LOVE YOU! and right then, the sun peeked through the clouds and i felt warmth. thank you dillon. i know you are with me, and everyone else. keep us all close as the end of this month approaches. make your presence known. miss you and love you best friend :]
p.s. when i get to see you, we’re getting taco bell and scaring courtney again. :]
love you.
Hey dillonnnn,
I had a dream about you the other night, it was really short, and In my dream I remember going on my myspace, and checking my inbox with a message from you saying hey love. It made me smile when I woke up, I misss you so much, hoping to visit your grave soon.
I also got a new necklace the other day of a butterfly with cool designs in it. For some reason it reminds me of you. I miss you<3
lovemeggyboo.
I wish that I could hold you now
I wish that I could touch you now
I wish that I could talk to you
Be with you somehow
I know you’re in a better place
Even though I can’t see your face
I know you’re smiling down on me
Saying everything’s okay
And if I make it out this life
I’ll see you again someday
I wish, I wish, I wish
I wish, I wish, I wish
– i miss you so much dillon
i wish i could change things but i can’t. it’s the way it is i guess because everything happens for a reason. this month is gonna be rough. stay with me
i love you<3
Dillon. You have been all that i’ve been thinking about. Since September 1st, it just hits me more and more each day harder than before, I miss you so much you don’t even know. I still wish that this was all a dream. and that you are still here. But I know you are happy where you are. I still don’t understand why you’re gone, and why you left us here with unanswered questions. Why, seems to be my main question. I wish you could just come back. This month is going to be more than rough for all of us, and my heart goes out to your family, and you’re other friends. Because i know how hard this hurts. It was a year yesterday that one of my teachers, Mr.Boardrow left us also, so yesterday was pretty rough. I miss your voice, your smile, your laugh, your hugs, your chuckles, your hummor, your advice, your everything. I miss YOU. 🙁 You are one of my truest friends Dillon. You know they say that pictures and memories fade? Well you Dillon, Your memory will NEVER fade. You are a huge piece of my heart that’ll always be missing till i see you again. I cannot wait till I see you again, and so that we can sit on a loaf of bread together. I love you Nemo. You’re my illondaa forever. And no one will ever replace you in my heart. You are my greatest memory, and you’re going to be apart of me forever. I love you honestly, truely, and dearly. I love and miss you Dillon. I hope you’re having a great time up there. Keep lookin down on all of us. We all love and miss you. The 30th is creeping up faster than ever, So i’m asking for you to help me stay strong on that day. Please Dillon.
Iloveyou & I miss you.
– Love ALWAYS and FOREVER,
Taylor Rosa aka, ayylortayy.
Hey dillon,
Sorry I haven’t been on in a few days, i’ve been so busy lately and last night I passed out, I was going to write on here and few nights ago because I had a dream about you and i keep thinking about it I miss you so much. I always look back at old messages or comments., I haven’t been doing to great though, my dad bailed on me again and I’m about ready to give up. I miss you and I love you
meggyboo.
Dillon, soccer season for co ed has started… memories keep poping into my head from u been on the side lines of my games from the past two years. This season definatly wont be the same. I cant believe its almost been a year. I look at my cookie monster shirt and laugh then i bring myself to tears. and everytime i seee someone wearing an elmo shirt i think to my self.. take that shirt off nobody can work that shirt like you did haha for some reason it just fit your personality perfect. School this year has been soo stressfull dillon likee uggh.. sat. was homecomming and on our way to the school our float got destroyed!! it was miserable but by time the game came my day had gotten better.. and omygoodness i soo wish u were there on saturday!!! like one of the best things had happend at the game.. with an eski person… haha im sure u saw and probably wanted to kick some butt, i know luke would have lol danng i miss you i have so much to say to you and i wish i could just call u like i always did with my problems or wen i was so hyper and couldnt sleep i could just call u and talk to you for hours… Oh yah and junior year sucks by the way if u didnt already know, like seriously its miserable… but ur guiding me i can feel it.. in my roon i have a picture of us at my house working on the stupid mustang which btw is still not finished after three years, anyways i look at the picture all the time and i just talk to it. my brother finds it quite odd but i dont care. but i need to go and do my homework:/ but ill talk to you later budd right before i go to sleep… i love you!:)
my love,
i completely opened up to my friend tanner last night. i completely fell apart and cried all night. I’m miserable, i miss you so incredibly much and it doesn’t help that you’re not here to help me. i don’t think you really realized how much you meant to me and i can’t believe it’s almost been an entire year. it was definitely the hardest, most stressful, depressing year of my life. i think about you every single day & someway, somehow, i get signs from you that you’re still here with me. I’ll never forget about you. i don’t think i ever could. when I’m having good days, i feel like you’re guiding me to success and when I’m having a bad day, you’re punishing me for something i did so I’ll learn from it& I’ll realize what it was eventually.
every time i hear your name or just think about you, i get the chills.
i would give anything in the entire world to have you back.
you were the first guy i said i love you to because i honestly did.
i hope you love it up there. if it made you happy then i should be happy you’re happy.
iloveyou.
please visit me in my dreams tonight.
Dillon,
I applied to PetCo and In-Shape! I hope I get the
job, One of these days im going to bring a turtle
to your grave<3
Iloveyou and Miss you so much.
-ayylortaaa<3
Heyy dill,
well i’m at home right noww.
I’m about to go to sleep in a little because I’m so tiredd.
I don’t really know what to do right now. I’m kinda blank,
and feel a little weird. I feeel like I need a change, but I don’t know what. I miss you so much. <3
iloveyou
meggybo.
Dear illondaaa,
I made a poem tonight. It’s not that good, but here it is…..
I wish you weren’t so far. I wish we weren’t so many miles apart.
I wish you’d come visit me. I wish you were here with me, where you’re supposed to be, happily.
I wish you never left. I wish that you saw that I gave it my all, nothing less.
I wish you were as happy as I was with you in my life, I wish you would have stayed in mine.
I wish you weren’t so far. I wish we weren’t so many miles apart.
I hope you know that you’ll always be in my heart♥
Iloveyou Dillon
-ayylortayy
Heyy dill,
So, Katelyn came over last night and we went to the football game,
and we lost terribly. Then we went back to my house, and hung out. Then we went to the mall today, and were going to my cousins birthday party tonight at pump it up, so hopefully we will have fun. We are watching celebrity ghost stories, its preety intense,
Sometimes Ill be sitting there watching something or having a conversation with someone and ill remember previous conversations that we had, and sometimes I just want to call you to talk about something new. I don’t know. It’s kind of hard to explain, I just want to go back to like a year ago, and live over all the times we were able to talk and tell goodnight stories, to be close again, and talk everyday like usual. I miss that so much.
You used to call me your angel
Said I was sent straight down from heaven
You’d hold me close in your arms
I loved the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holding me
I miss you
I miss your smile
And i still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it’s different now,
You’re still here somehow
My heart won’t let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
You used to call me your dreamer,
And now I’m living out my dream
Oh how i wish you could see
Everything that’s happenin to me
I’m thinking back on the past
It’s true the time is flying by too fast
I know your in a better place yeah
But i wish that I could see your face, oh
I know where you need to be
Even though it’s not here with me
i love you dillon.
i know you’re still with me. i can feel it.
stay withh me forever<3 and i wont let you dowwn.
Hey illonDaaa. Man this month has just been horrible! Nothing has been goin well for me :\ There are soo many guys you probably want to hit right now. I miss you soo soo much. I can’t do Powder Puff cause my dang back hurts too much. I wear my bracelet every day Dill.
Iloveyou & Miss you so much
-ayylorTaa.
Heyy dill,
Today was not so good, I woke up late,
and I went to school, I had a headache all day! it felt like my day there took so long,
Then I came home and had to do a but load of history, my headache finally went away, I went to the gym and got like three sideaches hella bad :/ wanted to come home and relax to find out my brother is having a party for monday night football.
I’m exhausted. He’s a jerk.
I love youu, and miss you
goodnight<3
Dillll.
Ughh, i’m soo sore and tired. Idk why?
:/ i’ve been so exausted lately.. Ahh.
Well, today was a good day, well a better day.
I still just haven’t grasped the fact that you’re gone.
I miss you dillon.
Iloveyou,
Taylor.
Dillon,
I miss you! You have made such a deep impact on a lot of peoples love and have in a way shown that i need to truely listen ppl. Even going to a new school you still come up. Recently a student killed himself at MC and now i listen to how everyone talks about. You have given me the experience to make it through situations like this so thank you. I still cant help but want to cry anytime someone says the word “suicide”. You are always on my mind dillon. I see an old black camero and hope to see you driving it but i know it’s silly and stupid to think that. your forever in my heart mr.dillon
Heyy dillon,
I just read erin’s post and I completely understand,
I feel the same way,
everytime someone says the word suicide I want to cringe,
We never really notice how much that word comes up in our life untill we have to deal with it :/
Well I just wanted to come on and say that I miss you and love you dilll,
goodnight <3
meggyboo.
dillon,
along with megan’s post, i honestly never really sat down and thought about death before but in this past year it’s the only thing on my mind. i’ll never understand why it had to be YOU of all people. i can’t even put into words how you made me feel. you always put into this mood that no one else has ever done in my entire life. you are the only guy in my life that i never wish would leave me and i’ve gotten through this but not all the way. you are the only person on my mind alll day every single day and i don’t think it will ever change.
you dont know how much you effected me. in good and bad ways. im not exactly sure which one. or maybe a little bit of both.
i want to come visit you but i want you to still be alive. i want to hang out with you and spend time with you laughing and doing whatever. you left me in a place where i don’t know what to say but yet so much to say.
i’m always going to have that regret that i wasn’t the one talking you out of it. i wasn’t the one overreacting because i didn’t believe you. it’s the worst mistake of my entire life and it’s all my fault.
death was the only thing that could
ever seperate us and i screwed it up.
i’m sorry
Kayla ~ The only one who could have convinced Dillon not to do it was Dillon. You didn’t screw it up, he did. Use this as a “life lesson” and know that the only mistake we make in life is not learning. Live with no regrets.
Heyy dill,
Well I had to read this stupid pointless book for english tribe,
and I just finished it today, and the ending turns out that the guy killed himself. I hate school,
I’m going camping this weekend, annd I miss you so much
why does this stuff happen to me, like everyday there is something
A million different thoughts have crossed my mind this year. They all go back to you, and how I wish you were near. I think about your smile, and I think about your laughter. I think about the times we shared and how I’ll always hold them near. I think about the times you’ve missed and how much we wish you were still here.
Hey Dillon
I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately. We’ve been talking about suicide and death in my classes and my mind always seems to wander back to you. I can’t believe its almost a year. I can still remember that day vividly and yet at times it still seems unreal to me. Little things make me think of you and make me sad but then I think about how lucky I was to at least get to know you, even though it was only for a short time. Whenever i hear a joke like “she’s not the sharpest tool in the shed” I think back to art and how you always said that to me and brenda. You’re in my prayers Dillon.
Hey dillon,
I’ve been camping, with tessa. It sucked we sat in the rv the whole time.
It was so boring. Then, I got a text message while I was there that My dad went to tahoe with his gf, and got married. On top of that my brother is leaving for the army. All of that is added on the end of the month. I miss you so much, and I talked to you again last night, I think it helps because I can think of more memories. I love you, and I know you are looking down on me, and I can even feel you sometimes.
Thanks for everything you have ever done for me dillon, I would not be the person I am today if it wasn’t for you.
There is so many things you helped me with, especially my dad.
You are the most amazing person I have ever met, and I would do anything in the world to be with you again, I know I will be someday.
I love you
Meggyboo.
Heyy Dill,
Soo, i’ve been so down lately :/ Vinny Warda from Modesto Christian
comitted suicide. And my friends come to me for advice, cause they know i’ve been through this with you. It sucks :/ I miss you so much
Dillon. There’s this song called Zero by Hawk Nelson. I listen to it all the time. I cry when i listen to it but the lyrics are just how i feel. There’s so many songs out there that remind me of you Dillon..
I can’t believe it’ll be a year since you left us, in 2 days..
Iloveyou&Missyou
-ayylortaaa
To Dillons Family
You are always in my thoughts and prayers,especially this week!! I am a mother of a child that struggles with depression and suicidal behavior and this hits home to me.. We have her in the best care we can find, but live with this fear daily!! Dillon was a special boy, and will forever be missed!! Thank you all for helping all the teens through this!! You through your tragedy have been there for so many of our children!! God Bless You!!
i will love you forever.
and a day.
thank you for teaching me how valuable life truly is.
i wish you would have taught me in a different way.
im missing you everday dillon.
my prayers are with your family.
Hey Dillon, it’s Tuesday, Scout meeting night again. I don’t remember talking to you much today, just a fist-bump as we walk in. I guess I was busy, I guess we all were today. My dad just signed up for tree-lot yesterday, and Fresno is coming up for Post, I wonder how much more hectic my schedule can get? Anyhow, looking forward to seeing you next Tuesday.
-9/29/09
honestly dillon, i don’t want tomorrow to come. i can already feel it being a horrible day. its gonna be exactly one year that you’ve been away from me.
you dont know how much it hurts me not having you here
and not having just someone to talk to.
you were my everything dillon; i cant put it into words.
i just love you and i can’t ever let you go.
I want to give your mama a huge hug dillon.
just like you gave me.
It hurts my heart so much to know that i didnt see your pain.
im soooo sorrryyy.
watch over your family today bub, they need you now more than ever.
its been a who year now. we all miss you so much. some of the girls and i were talking tonight and its still unreal to us that you are gone. watch over everyone from up there.
We lost a friend,
So dear to us,
A life so young,
It was not just.
He was a son, A friend,
A classmate, and more,
And now he is above,
With our dear Lord.
He was sweet, and kind,
Always a good friend,
We all will miss him,
But this isn’t the end.
He will live on in,
Our hearts and memories,
From now until forever,
For we will miss him,
Our dear friend,
Dillon Chiulli.
Dillon Edward Chiulli, today September 30, 2010, is officially one whole year since you left us. And it has hit me harder than it ever has before. Finding out you were gone was a complete shock. And a piece of me left. I’m angry, hurt, sad, etc. If i could go back in time, and be there for you more, and listen a little more closely to things that you said, i would in a heartbeat. I feel like a bad friend knowing that you didnt come to me when you were depressed about something. You know that I was just a phone call away.. A phone call.. And Megan, and Kayla, we were all here for you:/ I jsut miss you soo much Dillon. And It’s just soo hard to accept that you are actually gone. Like gone gone. It’s soo hard there’s so many times that i have started to dial your number and have to realize that
“oh.yea.he’s gone..” and then the tears come. And its just 🙁 I’m soo confused. I just want to know why. We all want to know. When we would hang out, you were soo happy. and smiling. Making fun of my dad calling him ramathorn.. Playing soccer with Ashlyn. And playing soccer with Dylan. Just being around us you lightend the mood. Your little texts just brightned my days, my moods, my everything.. Life without you is definitley different. You have taught me soo many things in life. And i thank you. We ALL miss you. You. You made such an impact on so many lives. Whether a person talked to you once, twice, or every single day, that person will NEVER forget you. You made the first impression on everyone, that no one will ever forget. You will never be forgotten. You will never fade. You will never leave our hearts.
I love you so much. And I miss you so much.
illonDaa, don’t forget me.
-love, ayylortaa.
dillon
i know ive been stopping by a lot, but im here in san diego going to school and it has literally been 107 degrees this whole week.
today i woke up and it was pouring rain.
and now there is a rainbow.
funny how things work out that way.
i know your messing with my mind because thats what you do.
but i want to say thank you and i love you
and im missin you every day <3
To everyone who loved Dillon. We too can’t believe a year has past since we’re heard Dillon’s laugher or saw his bright smile. We wish we could turn back the clock, we miss him. Be kind to yourself & others today and try to remember Dillon with happiness not sadness.
Here is a poem we’d like to share with you:
Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning’s hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there; I did not die.
Forever loved, forever missed.
Dillon,
Its crazy thats its been a year and there hasnt been a day that you havent crossed my mind. My earliest memories have been with you and since you have been gone i forever hold those close to my heart. And when i think of these memories they make me smile and laugh. so thank you for that. To me you will always be the the little boy with bleach blonde hair and smiling blue eyes….and the one who gave me chicken pox in kindergarten. Anyways i just wanted to come by and say hi and that i miss you.
dillon,
i knew today wasn’t gonna go so smoothly. i woke up crying, i tried my hardest to keep it together but i just couldn’t. during my aiding period, i sat in the counselors office talking to him for an hour and a half about this. he kinda helped but kinda didn’t. but i knew you were there in the office right along with me. i know you hate me crying, i know you do, but that’s all i ever do. you don’t know how hurt i’ve been since you left me. this is the one thing thats permanent. you’re not coming back dillon but you’re staying here in spirit with me, at least, that’s what i want to think. everytime i think of your voice, the first thing that comes to mind is talking to you untill like 3am, me whispering because i was supposed to be asleep but you insisted on me talking to you while you watch tv with your dog on your lap and then me falling asleep on the phone and then you finally saying “goodnight kayla chiulli i love you text me tomorrow” it repeats in my head all the time.
honestly, it’s beeen the hardest year of my life but i just have to learn from it because it’ll only make me stronger.
here’s a poem i wrote today:
one year ago today
you sadly left me here
clueless and broken
hoping youre somewhere near
even though its been a year
i think of you every single day
i think what would have happened if i talked to you about this
what would you then say?
you were the first guy i ever loved
and the first that honestly cared
why did this have to happen to YOU
when our relationship could of been shared
i hope you stay with me forever
stay with me by my side
because you are everything to me
and the one who gives me confidence to fly
everything i do is for you
because youre the special to me
as long as you promise me forever
to never spiritually leave me be
this whole experience changed everything
and my outlook on my life
with everything ending, theres a new beginning
but i will always be kayla chiulli, your wife.
Dear Dillon, its crazy that its been a whole year since you have been gone, We all miss you and would do anything to have you back in our lifes but I know you are in a better place now and are looking down upon us with a big smile. R.I.P Dillon
Heyy dillon,
Today was harder than I expected,
I tried not to cry today, but I just couldn’t help it,
I went to your grave, and put purple flowers there. I read you a poem I wrote. I send my love to your family to.
I miss you so much, and I talked to you about so many things, and you were always there. A year has gone by, but I still wish I could hear your voice again. I love you more than you can ever imagine, and I remember so many memories, and Me and my mom were talking about how she called you officer ramrod. You were so funny, and such a quick thinker, you always made me laugh. I am so glad that I had such a great person in my life who was always there for me, you and katelyn mean the world to me, and you guys are my bestfriends. You made a tremendous impact on my life. I learned so much from you, and sometimes when I think of how we acted together it was hard to find one category, we were silly, serious, emotional, and anything anyone could think of, we have pretty much covered it in our late night 5 hour conversations. I really miss that, and just so you know I have a spot in my heart that always will be yours,and only yours. Death can not separate us, I love you Dillon Chiulli. ForeverlovedForevermissed.
Hey Dill.
So I found that CD you asked me to make you awhile ago. That I never got to give you.. I put it in the CD player and These songs are totally just like woah. The first song is Everything Changes by Staind. And now its on reply, reminds me of you. Its been 3 days since a year.. And these past couple of days, i’ve changed a lot. Just realized you dont know what you have until its gone. You taught me that Dill. I love you i miss you. You were and still are such an amazing person.
-aylortayyy
Dillon my love.,
Today was my 17th birthday. It was hard not hearing from you and not hearing from you last year either. I just woke up this morning, went out to breakfast and felt like a huge surprise was coming because thats what i dreamed about last night. My friends threw a surprise party for me last night at my work at the hotel downtown and as soon as evrryone jumped out and said surprise, i was still looking for you.
Youre all i wanted for my birthday and i didnt get you.
I miss you so much babe
I love you<3 & you know i mean it.
I just hope youre still with me somehow, someway.
Heyy dillon,
Well I had my first day on friday,
My boss said I did really good,
So I’m glad that worked out, my brother is leaving to go to the army soon,
I just miss you so much and I wish I still had you here to talk to,
I feel so helpless sometimes,
I just hope you knew That I love you so much
and I never ever could imagine my life without you because it would never be the same, and it isn’t. It’s so different, and I hate it.
Yoou always made me in a better mood,
Ily<3
Heyy dillon,
I miss you so much
and I think about you daily,
I love you so much
and I am glad that I get little reminders of you
all the time,
<3 foreverloved forever missed
Megggyboo.
its hard realizing that your not coming back.
I still hear your voice and see your goofy smile.
life feels so heavy sometimes but you were always there to lighten the load.
I miss you dillon and I think about you everyday.
Its really not fair.
I want you back, just so I could say hi.
well i have not been on Dillon’s site in such a long time. I can not go onto his or Marissa’s without wanting to cry reading what people write. I read all the comments about how people miss Dillon and Marissa but yet it seems like it has been the same things being said over and over again for the past year. I understand how difficult this is for everyone and especially those that were really close to the two. I know it is much easier said then done, but what i am about to say is not in anyway meant to come off rude or disrespectful. But the 2 girls who constantly dread each day that comes because they can not see Dillon make me really upset. Both of you know he can not physically ever come back. I wish I could somehow make you both happier and not feeling like you did when we all first heard of the news. But you have to move on in your life. Dillon will always always always always be in your heart and you will both always love him and want him back, but he is gone. You need to move on for Dillon. He would not want everyone having a bad day all the time because of this. He knew what he was doing and that is the part that upsets me. Everyone he left is always going to miss him. But you really need to try and be happier. I know its easier said than done. But it wont make the grieving period any easier if you keep dwelling on the past. Keep him in your heart as close and you possibly can, but move on. Go find something that can bring happiness to you and find something that you can look forward to each day. Dillon would want you to be happy and have a good time, so do it for him. It just upsets me so much when i read the things people say about feeling it is their fault for what happened. Its not. Just please stop dwelling on the past and move forward. Go do something Dillon would be happy to hear about. Please. and i promise i am not in anyway trying to come off being rude. I just want people to accept what happened and move on in life and try to be happy. thats all.
I agree with this student. There is beauty surrounding us. Dont miss it!! Grab ahold of it!! Live your life!! Dance, Laugh, Smile Love!! There is pain, yes, that is how we grow but there is so many more happy moments!! Please girls, move on ,never forget him, Dillon was so very special, but ,as a song I listen to says’ Cause the pain that you are feeling, cant compare to the joy thats coming!! I promise you!! And Dillon will be there laughing, dancing,and smiling right along with you!! That is how his memory will live on!!
Thank you for agreeing with me on this! It’s like I understand all the pain and emotional stress it causes people, but it wont get any better if you keep dwelling on it. You need to move on from it. That is the only thing to do.
Dear Dillon,
Its been a few days since i’ve been on here. And people need to realize that EVERYONE grieves their own way. Some move on quicker than others, others will move on slowly. I for instance move on slowly. I dont like rushing things, I know i will NEVER forget you wether I move on soon, or in 50 years from now. I will move at my own pace, the pace that i feel comfortable with. I love Dillon. I miss you also. 1 year closer to seeing you again.
-Taylor Rosa.
Heyy dillon,
So today I had to run some errands with my mom,
been busy all day, then I went to the gym
and then katelyn came over and we made cupcakes
and had a cake fight !
it was funn.
Times like those is when i’d call you and me and you and katelyn would have the weirdest conversations.
I miss you so much
i still have the urge to calll you,
ily dilly
lovemeegggyyboo
Heyy dillon,
well this weekend sucked,
I had work saturday night which was good, when I came home my brother was having a party since he’s leaving for the army, and things got hectic,
And right now I’m staying at my dad’s. Shocker right?
I just didn’t wanna be home,
I miss youu and love you bunches
-meggyboo.
Ohh Dillon.
This week has been horribleee.
Monday: First I had detention. Then My mom and I got in a HUGE fight. It wasnt even supposed to turn into an argument. I stood up for her against my dad, and when I told her that she got mad! So I was like confused you know? I thought she was gunna be proud… Obviously not.. And I cried myself to sleep.
Tuesday: I randomly woke up, and my left eye was swollen shut! Like would not open. I like didnt know what to do haha. So i went to sleep. When i woke up it was still swollen! And my right eye was all puffy at the bottom of it. My mom called me Rocky Balboa! Haha.
Then today, Wednesday: STILL swollen. I might have to go to the doctors :/ and you know how i feel about the doctors.. Help.
Iloveyou & Imissyou
-ayylortaa.
Kayla- Yes, I do agree with you.
I know Dillon very well, and so do the rest of his close friends.
The ones that actualy cared about him when he was alive.
Mainly people are doing this to just get attention, and just acting like he actually meant something to them.
Dear Dilly,
I miss you dearly,
and I think of you everyday,
I tell you I love you everynight,
just like I used too, I just wish things can be the same
It’s not fair. and I tell myself that a millon times everyday.
I love you dillon<3
lovemeggyboo.
Kayla didnt you do the same for Marissa to? Also learn some proper grammer before you attempt writing on here
Dear Dillon,
I’m sorry people are so selfish and pathetic that they would have to disrespect you in that way. I wish those people who are acting like they knew you and actually cared about you would truly realize the hurt your family, and your true friends are going through.
It really disgusts me dillon. People just don’t understand. All they want is sympathy and it is just so wrong.
Ughh, :/
I love you dillon,
I saw another elmo again today and instantly thought of you,
actually I have seen three of them the past three days.
Sometimes I feel like you are slipping awaay, and that people are just going to forget about you, sometimes it seems like people already have, maybe they are just moving on and dealing with it in a different way, idk.
It’s just so hard.
I love you.
love meggyboo. <3
Hey dill, (:
I have only four school days left and they
are all finals, stay with me through them, I hope they won’t be that
hard. I’m doing quite well in all my classes so I should be good,
On monday I have to give an oral presentation in Spanish II, and then I alreayd finished making my stepstool in woodshop, I took my P.E final yesterday. I presented my book talk in Academic Literacy today, and took my english test for romeo and juliet. So I’m getting everything taken care of, which is good, I’m just happy to get things over with,
I love youu dill,
miss you.
<3Meggyboo.
Dillon and Marissa weren’t left out of the Video Extravaganza Ehren its just that i know the person who made it very well and he didn’t exactly know whether or not to put them in. It was a difficult situation some people would have wanted them in, others wouldnt have so it was compromised and random pictures of them were put in.
Just letting you know that they weren’t forgotten
Hey Dillon,
I just wanted to let you know, that you can’t ever be forgotten.
Never it’s impossible. You can be taken physically, but I have memories.
And I will hold on to them for dear life, and I will never loose you. You’re always with me in my mind in heart, I’m still left with this hole in me, but I’m just going to close my eyes tight, and count down the days till I can see you again.
Sad way to look at life, I know.
But it’s how I feel.
I love you,
Meggyboo
Dilly i miss you so much! i know you would be proud of me. ily
Dillon!
Geeze kid how I miss you so much sometimes. I moved out to Livermore, and am now living with my daddy. So much crazy stuff has been going on since like, February! From Momma Peralta kicking me out, to my crazy move to Modesto to live with my (ex)boyfriend. But you know all of that, cause you’re watching down over me. Ashlyn and Courtney came out to see me on Friday, we went to Shadow Cliffs which is a little lake like literally, 5 minutes from my house. You would’ve loved it. We sat there and reminisced about you babyboy :] Like at military ball, your junior year! Remember with the tic-tac? You tried to juggle it on your tongue, like the commercial. But, then it fell on the floor and you picked it up and put it back in your mouth. So gross Dillon, but something only you would do :]] And i wanna get a tattoo. Something that represents me. From where I came from, and where I’m going. And yes, you’re initials will be in there. But you already know that! Lol. Well I thought I would come and write to you because I haven’t in a while, but just know I think about you all the time :]]
I Love You Dillon :]
Ali
Hey dillon,
I am finally finished with finals, tommorow is my last day at school
For some reason it makes me kinda of sad.
When I’m at school, I’m kept busy the whole day doing work and what not,
so I don’t think about you as much.
But during the day, when I’m home with nothing to do, my mind just wanders, I miss you so much.
I want more than anything to talk to you again
I love you dillon.
<3meggybooo
Dill Pickle,
i miss you like crazyy!
i think of you lots and i wish you where here to see the person im becoming(: but i know either way your proud! and i love you.. visit me sometime.
The other day i was looking through my freshmen yearbook and i automatically flipped open to the page yu signed on. it was probably one of the nicest things anyones ever said to me idk if i ever told yu that. Made me thinkk abt yu. Oh and yur name on the catwalk always makes me smile because for some reason i get that flash of yu walkin around with yur red jersey on. miss yuu dillon. <3
Heyy dillly,
I miss youuu.
Break isn’t good so far,
my brother’s girlfriend is always here :/
ugh, she bugs mee.
I know you would have some things to her. aha
I miss how things used to be.
I love your personaality, we just clicked and we got along so well://
I just wish I had you backk.
I loveyouu
lovemeggyboo.
Heyydillon.
I’m at shelby’s house right now,.
This brings back memories of when i would prank call you and you’d play along, and then after I was done you were always like megan maybe next time you should block your number before you try to prank call me, lol I miss that and then whenever me nd shelby would hang out you’d always say megan if you are going to prank cal me, make sure you do it soon, and remember to block your number,
ahaha mann I miss that://
i love you
lovemeggyboo.
dillon my love,
i just got home from colorado a few days ago. i wrote you a poem on the plane ride there and back. here it is:
________________________
Many months have gone by
And im still here
Lonely and empty
Wishing you were near
We always used to joke around
And constantly make fun of each other
It was an everyday type of thing
You were practically my big older brother
I know you hated me saying that
But you honestly were
You wanted to be so much more than just that
With all my problems; you were my cure
I remember when you would drive
To San Jose just for me
I never really realized how far it was
But now I can really see
I would guess & say I wouldn’t be worth it
But apparently you thought I was
You were the first guy I said I love you to
Because I had so many reasons; not “just because”
So many people loved you;
appreciated you, and more
But when you do something like this
It makes our tears poor
Everyday I wear this bracelet
Because it reminds me of you
If im not wearing it for some reason
I feel like something else is missing too
Without it I feel incomplete
Like something is so wrong
I feel so naked and bare
When you’re not here for so long
I liked how we were last summer
I like how we kissed, cuddled, and got along
We always had so much to talk about
But now all I have is a song
Quite a few songs remind me of you
And what we could have been
Why cant you come back to life
So I can be happy again
I know its selfish for me to say that
To say that you to
But honestly it’s the only thing I want
To really be true
Your laugh made me happy
And your smile brightened my day
every time I heard your voice
I would have so much to tell you and say
We talked all the time on the phone
And texting all day too
Why cant we just go back to normal?
Why does everything have to change and be new?
Words cant describe
Each moment with you
How I felt then and now
And knowing our feelings were true
Everyday thinking about you
Makes me want you so much more
This was the only think that could ever separate us
Almost like we were on opposite sides of the door
I wish we had more time together
I wish I could have had a helping hand to lend
But everything happens for a reason right?
And for you; maybe it was the end.
This experience opened my eyes
And helped me appreciate people in many ways
You learn the most important things from the ones you love
each and everyday
Whenever I see two birds flying by
I always think of me and you
That one day god will bring us back together
And we’ll start off completely new.
You will always be my baby
You will always be my love
So Dillon Chiulli make me a special promise
To always hold me tight and watch me from above.
Dear Dillon, I miss you a lot,
people always tend to bring you up,
like the other day, my mom was talking to her friend about it right in front of me,and then she looks at me and was like do you want me to tell him,ughh I’d rather you not say anything at all butt, no you have to open your big mouth,
:/
i miss youu
lovemeggybooo
Heyy dillon,
Well this morningg, I woke up, watched my tv show,
got in my bathing suit, did 25 laps in the pool at my neighbors,
then came home, did some research and went to the gym later, now I’m home.
and In aboout 15 minutes, it’s June,18. Your birthday.
I remember last year, I made a little sign for you, and held it in the mirror, and even though it showed up backwards you still loved it.
Oh man dillon,
I miss you.
I miss talking to you, and just the way it was.
It’s hard to describe, but I know you understand.
Here’s my picture from June,18,2009
I love you so much dilly,
Happybirthdayy<3
http://de.tinypic.com/view.php?pic=jhggvo&s=6
It’s the big day
your eighteenth is here
I’m going to try hard
not to shed a tear,
I remember this day
just last year
I drew you a picture
and showed you in the mirror
you were so happy
and I was too
because you knew I would have never
forgotten about you.
I wish you a happy birthday
but, it so hard to see
no reply from you
on my phone screen
I will never forget you
just to let you know
my feelings will remain
and i’ll never let you go<3
ily<3
Happy Birthday Dillweed!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hope u r celebrating your 18th birthday in high style. Conner and Evan are at your favorite place today. That’s right…. Disneyland. We love you and miss you more than you know. Not a day goes by when we don’t think of you. I just wished you could have told us your innermost thoughts, since we talked about EVERYTHING else. I would have duct taped you to my house the night before, if I only knew.
Love and birthday hugs…
Dan, Mary, Conner and Evan (also Merlin, misses you too)
Happy birthday nig.
Hope you’re having a good day up there.
love you
happy birthdayy babyy!
okay so last year i remember talking to you on the phone; i think hayden was there too. it was the day before your birthday actually and we were trying to figure out a way for me to spend time with you on your birthday but it didnt work out :/
then i remember trying to convince my mom to drive me to your house and bring you balloonss and the bracelet you asked me to make for you that i kept forgettting to give to you.
also, i remember one day after school, i went to my grandmas and i was soo bored so i just started drawing & writing random stufff, and in my planner; i wrote dillon’s birthday in huge letters. i sent you a picture of it and you were like “awh i love you and beautiful handwriting :)”
i was thinking about you yesterday and thinking that your birthday was tomorrow; which would be today. i wish you were still here and i wish we could spend the day together.
it’s just everytime i think about this happening; i can’t believe it and accept it. i’m always gonna think it was a huge misunderstanding and you’re still here somewhere.
i love you dillon; more than you’ll ever understand.
you were, still are, and will always be my everything.
happpy birthday dillon<3
happpy birthday man :]
Happy 18th Birthday Dillon:) wish u were celebrating down here , but ikno it must b a big party up there right now!! =]but Happy Birthday
Heyy dilly,
So Friday your mommm and dad came and got me and brought me to your
house, we had a great party for you and it turned out pretty good, I went to your grave today too,
and sat there and talked to you for a while,
man I miss you so muchh dilly
love you
meggyboo
Heyy dill,
okay so this will be the last time I write on here till next monday I believe,
I’m going to San Diego with Katelyn for FQ, I miss you a lot
Dill, and I hope you will be with me,
I love you so much.
I wanted to let you know that you are always going to be with me,
cause I’ll always think of you,
you were so good to me, and you helped me alot
and for that I am truly gratefull.
But, I miss you more than you will ever know.
I love you,
meggyboo.<3
dillon chiulli,
i miss you more than i could ever put into words.
ive written letters, poems, and notes and everything and its just not the same. i physically need you here.
last weeek when i was coming home on the plane from colorado, we were flying above the clouds and when we were gettting higher and higher, i was hoping to seee you but i didn’t.
this sucks.
i would give anything for you to still be here.
anything for you dillon
i cant move on.
i cant even find any guys to talk to.
guys are assholes. i cant even be friends with them
their still asses to me.
you changed my thinking about guys, we had so many nice talks and everything. i had the confidence that everything would be okay because you told me you would always be here for me and never leave me. i finally found a good guy which was you but now you’re gone.
you are amazing dillon. no one will ever compare to you.
and i think thats why i cant find anyone else ,
i have high expectations ever since i met you. and just nobody is as amazing as you were.
i love you babbeey.
& you know i mean it.
Yes, this girl named Kayla did the same thing with Marissa. You pretended to be her mother on myspace which, by the way , is extremely disrespectful. Being someone who knew Dillon and Marissa. It’s offensive to have someone try to act like they are in such deep pain. Think of their best friends and how much pain they are in, I don’t think your pain will ever measure up to theirs. Even if you were supposedly so close to them, don’t try to act like you were best friends with them, because you were not. I know dillon and marissas best friends, in fact I’m very close with marissas good friends, and to see what they are going through makes me realize I can’t feel sorry for myself and act like I was their best friend, I wasn’t. I knew them both well, they were in my class and don’t get me wrong I grieved and so did alot of other people. But seeing how marissas close friends and family cope, you have no place pretending you feel as they do.
Anyways, what I came to say.
Miss you Dillon happy late birthday. Haven’t been on here in a while and just decided I needed to say some things. Well rest in peace chewy. I’ll never forget you <3
Lol is all i have to say happy late bday my nigga
Dillon,
I miss youu<3
Sorry I haven't been on,
I've been in San Diego,
And I got back last night, and spent the night at Katelyn's
It was pretty fun,
I like hanging with her family, and her grandpa is so funny,
he was playing with katelyn's little sister on wii and was telling her to eat dirt, lol
he's so competitive, we went to FQ,
and saw Aunt Laura, and went To Kyle and Brittany's graduation parties.
I remember last year when I was in SD, You were in disneyland, and I was talking to you and Hayden, and I remember Hayden lost his hat on the ride, and I remember you guys went and got so many tacos at taco bell,
I haven't eaten taco bell since you've been gone,
you loved taco bell.
imissyou dilly,
come see me in my dreams and make them better.
ily<3
Meggybbooo.
dillon,
you were the only person who called me lee. and i don;t let anyone else call me that now. i miss you so dang much. i remember the time you drove to my house after a game. that was so fun. you were compying everything i said and i got sooo angry at you. lol. i walked away and you asked if i wanted a ride home and i said no, i didn’t wanna get raped in the backseat. lmao. buht you just ended up looking for me everywhere and then you called at like midnight and asked to come over. my madre was like wtf, aha. i was out there for like a half hour listening to yur apology. you were mean to me, buht idc. i know you were kidding. you were great friend. and so fun to be with. haa. everyone loved you. you’re amazing. i cried so many tears for months after you were gone. i tried moving on, i just couldn’t. buht now, i’ve excepted the fact that you’re gone. all yur friends miss you. it was recently yur birthday, buht i didn’t know about this website then. lol. buht happy late birthday. you would be eighteen. big boyy. ;] and me and raeann walked by the graduation and thought of you. you prolly would have partied big time after. aha, me and raeann wanted to go see how boring it was without you, buht we didn’t. you were so cute, i remember i liked you like two weeks before you left. i was so sad. i wish you were here. i miss you. i want you. i need you. you made me laugh when i was sad, and when i didn’t wanna talk to anyone. you were there. i remember the weekend we went to yur house and went tping. buht i didn;t go cause you pissed me off, lol. i hid in the truck while brittnee and karrie went up to yur house and talked to you and hayden and ehren. that was fun. i wish we would have made more memories together. i still think about you all the time. i miss you. come visit me soon. i love you, dilll. <3
love, lee.
Heyy Dilly,
well 9 months today, :/
I miss you so much,
sometimes I feel like you are slipping away,
like people are just going about with their daily routines,
and moving on, I guess that’s the only thing we can do right?
I mean you wouldn’t want me to sit here and pout about something I can’t change, but I can’t help myself.
you never let me do that before, you always made me feel better even If I didn’t want to listen to what you had to say,
and even on my worst days where I felt so hurt, and worthless,
you told me I was beautiful and that I meant so much to you.
you kept me going for the longest time dill,
and now you aren’t here, I miss the comfort you always brought with whatever you said.
We talked about so much, and we helped each other, I’m so glad we were bestfriends, because I don’t think I could have been as happy as I was when you were here. sometimes I sit here and think what would I have done without you. Whenever I called you from having a bad day, you always listened to me no matter what, people don’t really understand what they have till’ it’s gone, and that is so true,
I knew I could get mad at you, and you’d always be there, but I never realized you could be gone the next day, It’s something people don’t think about, and honestly it’s something people don’t want to think about, why would they want to think about their love one being gone the next day? I realize now that it’s something I should do. I need to realize that tommorow is never promised, and people aren’t always going to be here the next day, so I need to make sure they know I love them,
I hope you knew that dill. It was so hard getting the phone call in 5th period that my bestfriend was dead. It’s something I never want to think about, but something I deal with daily.
I’m glad that our last words were “I Love You.” but I wish our tommororw was promised, and the days after that were too. I was definitely not ready to loose you, and I don’t think I’ll ever be.
I miss you so much dill<3
loveemeggyboo
Hey man, i dont know if anybody still reads this
But i just wanted to say hi, been thinkin bout you lately man, missin you a lot too. Just letting you know we still remember you fondly.
Peace man
Heyy dilly,
went to the beach today, it was nice. the tides were really high.
but the wwater was freeezing.
tommorow is fourth of july, another holiday..
I’m so tired right now. just sitting at home.
i miss you <3
love meggyboo.
Still thinking about you man :/
I miss you a lot.
-Kevin Ton
Heyy dilly.
I misss you
Tessa is here, we are going to the beachh tommorow,
it’s not really much of a beach but it’s something,
I went to the gym today, and then came home and walked my doggs,
one by one, cause I can’t control them both together,
But yeahh, today there was a lot of reminders of you, I will always love you dill<3
-meggyboo.
illondaaa. I havent been on here in so long. I’m sorry. Happy late birthday. I bought a loaf of bread on your birthday and sat on it for about 15 minutes just thinking about you and crying. Dylan, Ashlyn, and I all sang happy birthday outside for you. as loud as we could hoping you could hear us. I wish you were here. I miss you. I love you.
-aylortaaa
i miss you dillon. i love you.
Goodtimes<3
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iloveyou(:
Heyy illondaa.
So i had a job interview today at Funworks at 3,
And i didnt go. I dont know why. I was too scared.
You know how i am with that. You always said “You
Burst threw that door and say, heyyy-loow!! I am
Taylor!” I can just hear you saying that right now!
My mom is dissapointed in me cause i didnt go. I dont
blame her.. I miss you Dill.!
-ayylortaa.
P.s. I boat some bread today.
dillllllon<3
i miss you so muchh
so many things remind me of you; reminded of you everysingleday
like a song or a saying or memories that we had
and i get signs here and there that you're watching over me.
i'm wearing the bracelet everydayy, no matter what.
iloveyouubabey
http://i141.photobucket.com/albums/r51/ilovsnickers00/245-1.jpg
Missing you each day…. thinking of you often and still laughing at some really good times… Missing you today and always, love ya!
Heyy dillon<3
I wasn't feeling good today,
and stuff happened with my dad tonight,
didn't have a good day,
wish you were here to talk too :/
ily dill.
and I miss you soo much.
People and friendships fade, but memories will always last.
Love you nig <3
Heyy dillon,
Well I just finished my first two days of drivers
ed :/ theyyy are sooo boring and easy,
and I have to do next weekend too :/ its 9am-4pm :/
it takes FOREVER.
Ughh, I know you probably would have said something like awwe meggy you
are growing up. You really made an impact on my life,
and as cheesy as this sounds, I wouldn’t be who I am without you.
You have helped me so much, and you were everything and more,
I miss you everyday, and I can’t wait to see you again.
lovemeggyboo.
Ps:Debbie, if you are reading this I hope you and your family are doing
good I miss you and love youu.
-Megan.(Antioch).
Megan
Of course I read them – everyday! We’re doing ok. I miss you too and am so proud that you’ll be driving soon. Next time you come over, I’ll let you drive. Take care & enjoy your summer days. ly2.
Heyy Dillon,
I was with Katelyn all day today,
and then she left, I went to the gym
and then rented movies,
I just finished watching, Edge of Darkness,
and The Crazies,
The first one was pretty good, the second one was very gory and was kinda like the happening,
so I’m just sitting on my couch right now,
Oh and my brother is gone right now, he went to go to this army place,
and is getting sworn in tomorrow. :/
I’m scared.
I miss you..
love meggyboo.
Heyy dill,
well I went to the hospital today,
my friend jeff is in there becauase his lung collapsed
He is doing okay now, just in some pain.
but otherwise,
It amazes me how many times a day my ear can pick up the word suicide,
it makes me want to yell at people to make them shhut upp.
ugh,
imissyou.
lovemeggyboo.
Hey dill, okay so tommorrow is my lass drivers education class, sometime this up coming week I have to go take my permit test, then take my first driving on the road test to make my permit official.
:// these classes are 7 hours long ://// it takes forever!!
I hope I pass the test tomoorow that I have to take.
I miss you <3
lovemeggyboo
lovemeggyboo
Heyy dillon,
So, I passed my driversity test!
Now I just have to pass my permit test, and then get my permit,
finallly,
thats all thats really going on right now,
I’m just watching family guy right now with katelyn,
its good to have some good laughs,
but I really miss laying on my hottub cover with katelyn and shelby and
having you on speaker and having the craziest conversations,
I remember not wanting to share you with anyone too,
and you were the same way, lol
I always loved talking to you, I really miss you.
loveyouforever&alwaays
-meggyboo.
Heyy dill,
so i went to the dmv today,
I got my picture taken and stuff,
and then they told me I couldn’t take my permit test because it was too late :/ whattheheck, I was so mad so I have to go back down tommorow ://
ughh, wish me luck
I miss you.
lovemeggyboo.
dillon,
i realized alot today.
thank you for watching over me
and even looking after me and caring about me
when you were still physically here.
you were basically my big brother and my bestfriend.
i love you with all my heart
and it won’t ever change.
i live for you and only you.
i miss you so much.
Hey dillon,
I’m sorry I haven’t written, I’ve been at my cousin’s house since friday,
I wish I could have had a chance to tell you how much you mean to me,
I don’t think you ever really knew,
I guess I never really expressed it.
I hope you knew one thing at least, and I hope you never questioned it ,
It’s that I love you,
I was always there for you, and I hope you knew that.
I miss you
lovemeggyboo.
Hey illondaa.
Sorry i havent been writing lately.
I still think about you evey day.
Its almost been a year, and it still hurts
like crazy. I’ve been doing everything I can think
of to try and not think about how it all ended up,
i even went out looking for a job. Wow, me a job i know.
I finally landed n interview at Funworks! I wish you were
here so we can go celebrate. Man I miss you Dill. So much.!
Iloveyou and Imissyou.
Love you ALWAYS an FOREVER,
aylortayyy.
Heyy dill. <3
I'm just hanging with alot of my family,
I made a vanilla cake with wwhite frosting, and strawberries,
Mmmm. it's goood
I wishh you wwere here.
I keep thinking of old times and I wish I could have it back more than anything. ily
<3 meggyboo.
Today is July 30th,
Ten months dillon 🙁
It makes me miss you even more sometimes because I Have had to go without you for so long,
I miss our long night talks about everything that has been going on,
I miss having little petty arguments just to make each other laugh,
I just miss everything so muchh,
I love youu <3
lovemeggyboo.
Heyy Dillon. you came to mind Thursday. and i cant beleive school is about to start.. i miss you Dillon. and i love you.
Hey dill, I miss you like crazy! My heart still hurts and I can never get you off my mind. I still remember the day I asked you to sadies. I wrote it on the board in your class and you texted me right after and said really? haha. I love you dill, and I always will. Look after me and the rest of us okay? Be good up there 😉
Heyy Dill,
Well I miss you so much,
I’m just home right now, I went swimming and now I’m about to go
to the gym when my mom gets home, I remember before i’d go to the gym you would say you better be wearing appropriate clothing, cause I don’t want any pervs staring at you.
I miss you so muchh,
I just read this guys myspace,
He just lost the girl he loved in march, I don’t know how she died,
But I know he loved her alot, and I know what he’s going through.
I wish i could change things, and I wish life was easier,
I love you dill,
I always will.
love,
<3 meggyboo.
Dillon, its been too long. Everyday i think about you and wishing there was some wayou could come back.
Everynight before i go to bed, i Stillll look up at the ceiling or the sky if im outside and i talk to you. I know youre listening.
I love you<3
Foreveeeer & Always My Lovee
Heyy Dillon,
I’ve been taking care of my neighbor alot lately,
she really enjoys me coming over and almost cries everytime I say it doesn’t bother me, and thanks me, she’s such a sweet lady.
Other than that nothing much.
I wrote a poem about you last night.
I miss you<3
lovemeggyboo.
dillon, you came to my mind today. i miss seeing you at school. i didn’t get to take marine bio. like you did thoee./: i’m in stupid general science. but i miss you. come visit me soon. i miss you&i love you.
; lovelee.<3
Sorry Dill, I’ve been at autumn’s, I went shopping today.
and Did stuff with her family, then came home and made cookies. I cannot explain how much I miss you. I will love you forever and always.
It came to my attention today, that you were the only guy I really trusted and got along with like perfectly, and talked to constantly. Idk.
I just really miss you.
<3you
Love meggyboo.
Dillon,
I miss you so much….
Dillon,
I miss you so much…
Heyy Dillon… It’s 1:37 and I just woke up from a dream of you. I think of you every day. I miss you so much. They say it’s supposed to get easier, but I still cry every morning in the shower. I moved to massachusettes and everyone I meet I end up talking about you. It’s wierd tho, I can say whatever I want && tell watever memories I have of you and ppl assume ur still on this earth with us. U guess in a way it’s refreshing being able to talk about you without getting that look from ppl. That “I feel sorry for you” look. I feel guilty because I tried to push u into my past but I coulddnt do it. I could use ur advice now more then ever. I’m tired of putting on a smile every day for ppl when I just don’t feel like it. I just wish you could give me a hug right now cuz they were the absolute best. It’s almost been a year, and it still hurts just as bad. I’m so mad Dillon. Not exactly at you but at everything. I don’t get why somebody as loving and funny as you… I just don’t get it. I love you Dillon. Soooo much. It’s a struggle every day for me, but to be honest I would rather struggle then not have you in my memories at all. Ppl tell me I have to let go, but holding on to you has made me stronger. I’m gonna beat the demonds that have got hold of my soul and I’m gonna do this by keeping you in my heart. And even tho there are many days I think of you and feel sad, not a day goes by that you don’t make me smile. I love you Dillon. Night hunn. <3
Hey dill, Got up, cleaned my neighbors poool, cleaned my house and then went to the gym,
nothing special.
We got a flat tire the other day and we were stuck on the freeway :/
till tripple a came, and they had to tow us to a car place and had to wait like 3 hours for them to fix it. gay ://
I miss youuu.
I would of called you and you would have talked to me for days.
You were always there to talk to,
I love youu
meggyboo.
dillon,
i still think about you everyday. every morning and every night before i go to bed. it’s nothing new.
it’s almost been a whole year since you’ve been gone. it was a hard year for me with other things happening too but you seem to always calm me down and watch over me.
things liike this happen for a reason and maybe you were meant to leave and be in a better place to be happier.
i love you dillon
visit me in my dreams tonight <3
It’s almost been a year, i still think of you EVERY night crying, wishing that i could of helped out some how, but i didnt. I love you and i hope your happier.
Hey Dillon <3
I miss you :/
Today my dad's girlfriend came and picked me up,
she actually let me drive so I drove around and then we went to the mall and she got me a new purse and and new outfit,
But she was using my dad's card? lol
but whatever.
I wish I can talk to you about stuff again
I wish I can here about your days,
There's so much I wish I had back,
But I know you are happy right now,
I have no right to be selfish for my own benefit
but I still think you had a great life ahead of you,
I know you. You were so talented even if you didn't think you were.
I miss you every day, but I know you are still so close to me,
I love you<3
meggyboo.
Heyy dill,
Well Things haven’t been so good with my family,but today I started practicing my guitar more, and i really like it.
I went bowling with my dad and tanya, she’s actually really sweet.
I like her better than my dad, lol
Then we had a little family get together at my house,
I talked to some of my cousins more so it was nice.
Iloveyouudillon
and I miss you so much.
<3lovemeggyboo
Hey dillon,
Well I need to work on my sleeping schedule, I’m going to die when
school starts because I can’t go to bed, I rearranged my bed like 3 times tonight and it so heavy and I did it all by myself lol.
I wanted a change in my room and the way it was positioned it kept touching my blinds and it was bugging me,
I really miss you,
and I actually talked to you outloud last night instead of in my head,
It’s so hard dillon,
Iloveyou
meggyboooooooo;
Heyy dill, My internet keeps going out cause the stupid phone company is having malfunctions.
Well school starts monday and I don’t even have my schedule because they called me last minute and told me that mine isn’t valid that I have to come in on monday and get it in the morning :// pooooooop.
I really don’t wanna goo. I hate antioch.
I miss you so much.
Lovemeggyboo;
I always think about you.
hope your fam is doing well<3
Heyy dill,
It was my first day of school today :/
It suckkkked! I don’t like my teachers or classes
and I’m in like ap
):
It seems like they are going to be hard,
and I might switch and now, my ankle is hurting really bad for no reason ://
ughh not a good day,
I miss you so much,
I love you
<3meggyboo.
Hey illondaa.
So school this year is pretty intense. I wish you
were here to help me with everything. And get me
from school. My mom got me to drive finally! It
was soo funny. I wish you could have been there :/
I miss you soo much! I can’t believe its almost been
an entire you year already. It still does not seem real.
I miss you dillon. I really do.. I wish you would come
see me sometime soon. You know how sometimes memories fade?
Well yours, NEVER will. You are my favorite memory, and you
live on with me<3
Iloveyou Dillon.
Forever and Forever.
-ayylortayy.
Heyy dillon,
Okay so school,
CRAZY,
Been doing like three hours of work since it started every night to get caught up from the summer program, then I have a couple weeks to read a book and do a report,
I’m kinda streessed and I don’t like my school,
I miss you :/ It’s almost been a whole year.
I will always love you dillyboo.
<3meggy/
dillon my love,
it’s almost been a whole year. sorry i havent written on here in awhile. i’ve been busy with school and stuff. i actually never really have time to goo on the computer but you are still included in my mind. i wear my “dillon chiulli” bracelet every single day no matter what but i take it off when i shower. haha. but today was really hard for me. In my “TOPS” class which stands for teens offering peer support; they are the ones last year who helped me on the day i found out you were gone. & now i’m in the class this year. but today in class , we did the “cross the line” thing where the teacher names of things people might or might not have done and if it happened then you cross the line. well my teacher started off easy and she got deeper and deeper and deeper. and then suddenly she says “okay please cross the line if you know of someone who has attempted suicide” and just hearing the word made me blank out and get teary. but thanks to you; i know you were there with me and you helped me cross the line.
i reeally do love you dillon
i love you with all my heart and
i hope you always know you will ALWAYS be my motivation for everything i do because i know you’re looking down on me i wouild love to make you happpy. making you happy makes me happy.
i can’t wait to see you again
rest in paradise untill i get there <3 & then we'll see what happens 😉
iloveeeeeeeeeeeyooooouuuuubaby
you’ve really been on my mind dillon. sometimes i get soo scared that im never going to see you again, but then i thought that maybe you were just an angel sent to us for a little while and that we’ll all get to see you again someday. its almost been a year and i still think about you every single day. your picture is on my dashboard in my car and my mom saw it the other day and told me how handsome you were. you still are handsome. i miss you sooo much dillon, and ive wanted to talk to you but i never know where to start. i didnt have a very good day, and then out of no where andrea texted me and we started talking about you. theres not a memory i have of you that doesnt involve a smile, well except when mr singh kicked us out of class every day, but even then you were making me laugh. i love you so much dillon. thank you for being a part of my life. sooo until im up there with you someday keep the angels busy and try not to show them how to draw perfect penis’s. misss you.
Hey dill, alright well finally my first week of school is done,
I changed my schedule today say I get out at 2:00 instead of three, even though it’s not much shorter It gives me extra time for homework, cause I have a lot so far, but anyways. I so tired. This week has been an okay week at school, a little hectic but it’s alright,
I found out my aunts sick and that my grandma is in the hospital..
my crazy ass nana, you know about her. Well I think there is some problems with her heart, but she is all the way up in shasta so Idk,
Hopefully I can see her soon.
I miss you so much
I wish I can talk to you.
<3meggyboo.
Dillon. So today is one of those days that I woke up and you were the first thing to enter my mind, but not that you were gone that you were still out there..up there. Im so sorry that I havent written anything to you in awhile, my days are getting busier and somedays I get on here start to type but then delete it cuz my words might not be the thing you want to here, especially my bad news. Its hard because you were the person I would always go to. You inspired me to not to dream my life but to live my dream..and i wont let you down. Your things are still sitting in my room right where i will see them every morning. Some mornings are harder then others but i remind myself i will see you someday. I still bring you up everydayy at some point, somehow your name is always jumpin out my mouth to someone..I miss you Dilly, I promise to write soon.
<3 you.
Dana-Pearl.
Heyy dill,
Long weekend not a lot of rest, busy busy busy.,
Then I found out my dads girlfriends mom died :/
I felt so bad,
I bought her some flowers and a card. I brought it by but she didn’t want to see anyone so i left it with my dad.
I really miss you..
I would love to call you right now,
I love how we never had to think of what to say,
We just talked about anything and everything.
lovemeggybboo.
Today i saw this elmo hat thing my neice has and i sooo thought of you.
I remember that elmo shirt you had, and i remember one day in art class you were wearing it and it was when we were all painting the signs for the classes for the rallys and you were painting the mouth of elmo, saying “No one likes a faded smile”. Hahaha oh my, i miss art class with you and you always fighting with me with some kind of art object, and every time i drink gatorade i think of you, ALWAYS stealing my drinks. Ha love ya hope your happy 🙂
i miss you dillon.
tooo much to describe.
i almost emailed your mom something the other day but then deleted it. soo i decided to talk to you instead. I miss everything about you and there isnt a single day i havent thought of you. some days are harder then others though. thats when i wish i could talk to you. i know you hear me and i know your watching over us, but it would just be so much easier if you were here with us. its almost been a year since talked to you. it was so hard walking into that class the next day, where you should have been. It was soo quiet that you could have heard a pin drop. Im sure you know this by now but you made such an impact on sooo many people. I just still dont understand a lot of things, and no one ever will. but its soo hard to live with the what could of beens and what if’s. I pray for your family and friends often dillon. please continue to watch over them, they are going to need you soooo much in the next month. More then ever. please give them peace. I love you soo much dillon and i wish i could take back every mean thing we ever said to eachother, but that was us. you’d make fun of me and i would bounce right back with something. but we always ended up being on the same team because it was always us getting in trouble. I wish i could see your face dillon, just one more time, but then that would just leave me wanting more. I hope your livin it up in heaven every single day, dont ever forget that we all love you so much dillon. you may have thought that you didnt mean much to the world, but you meant the world to a lot of us. Im sorry we didnt always show it the way we should have. take care dillon. im missin you every single day.
xoxo kallie jacobs
dillon,
i come on here so often even if i dont write anything. sometimes i start typing, and just delete it all because it doesnt make much sense and my thoughts are kinda all over the place.
i can’t exactly put into words how i feel at this exact moment and i just wish i could call you to try and talk about it. you were my solution to all problems; even the little ones that i over exaggerated. i know you didnt like being “a brother” to girls but you were basically my brother and boyfriend in one.
i think about you everyday and i know you can hear me when i talk to you. i’ve had a hard time in the past year just dealing with everything and i know for a fact, you’re helping me through it. you’re guiding me to success and to be happy for once.
i actually really thought about you last night and i remembered a year from saturday was the last time i saw you. even with all our memories, their so clear to me, i can tell you ever little detail about them. that’s how much i enjoyed being with you. you made me feel like i was literally on the top of the world and you made me laugh harder than i’ve ever laughed just making fun of me or what someone was doing.
it’s just so hard being here without you.
please stay by my side and help me.
but honestly dillon, thank you for being there for me, helping me through everything, and proving to me all guys arent just assholes.
you dont even know how much you changed my life. & as days and months pass by, i know for a fact that its making me a better, stronger, happier person because you are my confidence and i do everything for you.
i love you dillon
<3
It’s a year now, oooh boy do i always think of you, especially before i go to bed. (NOT LIKE THAT YOU NAAASTY) haha. Any who, i always think of how things would be if it would have never happened, but thats me, i always think.
Remember sophomore going into junior year summer school, hahaha that was funny. You’re sooooo lucky my mother didnt go through my phone and see those texts, eeeeeven though you said it was a wrong number lol. You and chris sure did have a blast calling me a bop, even though thats so not true Dilllllooonn.
OH!! remember you had to barrow my book for Dr.Samborski’s class, well when you gave it back i remember reading one of the pages in class and i see the word BOOB on top of the page, i start laughing and i was like uh oh i hope this is a joke, but it turns out it was your book not mine. good thing i erased it, … i think, lol. Well i hope your watching over everyone, especially the three people that need it, you know who im talking about. <3 Love ya BOP!! 🙂
Dillon. I miss you. Its almost been a complete year… Thats soo long.. 🙁 Its crazy how long its been since, i’ve seen you, heard you, talked to you. I think about you every single day, i wear my rip braclet every single day. I never take it off. I wish you were here. I miss you soo much. I called your phone the other night just to here your voice… Disconected… I cried soo hard. Imissyou dillon. Iloveyou.
-Taylor.
It was very hard to disconnect Dillon’s phone and we only did it about two weeks ago. The message from Dillon was garbled and you couldn’t understand it or recognize his voice. I’m sorry. I wish I could hear him too ~
Thank you for understanding.
Much Love<3
Taylor Rosa
Hey dillon,
thought about you alot today,
It’s so hot here and I don’t feel good,
I’m planning a dinnner with friends on friday
I think it would be good, and I think you know just about all of them
I miss you, we were so close,and I miss that.
loveyou
meggyyboo.
sooo its almost 12, and im tired so im gonna go to bed, but just to let you know, tonight was another night that i thought of you.
love ya 🙂
😀 heeeeyy, i was watching the YES dance video, and for some reason, i pictured you doing the fork in the garbage disposal dance. hahah thats like the only funny part in video, but ya i miss you, we all do. love yaaaa 🙂
im watching Jersy shore, and oooh my goodness i honestly feel really innocent haha, these people are sooo dramatic, but any who, i cant sleep so i thought i would write ya something, aha i know its random, but its entertaining me:) any who MAKE ME FALL ASLEEP
i need to get my sleep ooonn, oooh well, alright i cant stop thinking about you, i you know i love you, ttyl 🙂
hey dill,
I kind of did a lot today,
I went to the john muir house so that was cool,
I ran some errands and now I’m on my computer and its acting weird
and I’m kind of irritated :/
but anyways,
I miss you.
it will be a year soon.
I don’t even know what I’m going to do.
My next door neighbors anniversary is on that day,
and it’s so weird that there could be any happiness for anyone on that day, it’s really hard to ponder, but it’s obviously because if something happens the whole world isn’t going to stop,
even though sometimes we wish is would.
iloveyou
meggyboo.
i love you babe
<3
Heyy dill,
today was pretty rough,
wish i could have talked to you.
I’m glad that you are in a better place.
I miss you so much.
<3
lovemeggyboo.
dillon. thank you for what you did for me today. it was really overcast and cold at school today, and as i was waiting for my dad to pick me up i thought of you, as my mind often wonders how you are doing and hoping you are watching over me. i remembered your awesome hugs, and i swear i could feel your arms around me and saying ALI PERALTA I LOVE YOU! and right then, the sun peeked through the clouds and i felt warmth. thank you dillon. i know you are with me, and everyone else. keep us all close as the end of this month approaches. make your presence known. miss you and love you best friend :]
p.s. when i get to see you, we’re getting taco bell and scaring courtney again. :]
love you.
Hey dillonnnn,
I had a dream about you the other night, it was really short, and In my dream I remember going on my myspace, and checking my inbox with a message from you saying hey love. It made me smile when I woke up, I misss you so much, hoping to visit your grave soon.
I also got a new necklace the other day of a butterfly with cool designs in it. For some reason it reminds me of you. I miss you<3
lovemeggyboo.
Not a day goes by that I don’t miss you Dillweed…
Love you!!!!!!!
I wish that I could hold you now
I wish that I could touch you now
I wish that I could talk to you
Be with you somehow
I know you’re in a better place
Even though I can’t see your face
I know you’re smiling down on me
Saying everything’s okay
And if I make it out this life
I’ll see you again someday
I wish, I wish, I wish
I wish, I wish, I wish
– i miss you so much dillon
i wish i could change things but i can’t. it’s the way it is i guess because everything happens for a reason. this month is gonna be rough. stay with me
i love you<3
Dillon. You have been all that i’ve been thinking about. Since September 1st, it just hits me more and more each day harder than before, I miss you so much you don’t even know. I still wish that this was all a dream. and that you are still here. But I know you are happy where you are. I still don’t understand why you’re gone, and why you left us here with unanswered questions. Why, seems to be my main question. I wish you could just come back. This month is going to be more than rough for all of us, and my heart goes out to your family, and you’re other friends. Because i know how hard this hurts. It was a year yesterday that one of my teachers, Mr.Boardrow left us also, so yesterday was pretty rough. I miss your voice, your smile, your laugh, your hugs, your chuckles, your hummor, your advice, your everything. I miss YOU. 🙁 You are one of my truest friends Dillon. You know they say that pictures and memories fade? Well you Dillon, Your memory will NEVER fade. You are a huge piece of my heart that’ll always be missing till i see you again. I cannot wait till I see you again, and so that we can sit on a loaf of bread together. I love you Nemo. You’re my illondaa forever. And no one will ever replace you in my heart. You are my greatest memory, and you’re going to be apart of me forever. I love you honestly, truely, and dearly. I love and miss you Dillon. I hope you’re having a great time up there. Keep lookin down on all of us. We all love and miss you. The 30th is creeping up faster than ever, So i’m asking for you to help me stay strong on that day. Please Dillon.
Iloveyou & I miss you.
– Love ALWAYS and FOREVER,
Taylor Rosa aka, ayylortayy.
Hey dillon,
Sorry I haven’t been on in a few days, i’ve been so busy lately and last night I passed out, I was going to write on here and few nights ago because I had a dream about you and i keep thinking about it I miss you so much. I always look back at old messages or comments., I haven’t been doing to great though, my dad bailed on me again and I’m about ready to give up. I miss you and I love you
meggyboo.
Hey Dill,
I got my powderpuff stuff today. Im pretty excited. The game is Oct. 13th. Im playin for you Dil. Come watch me play. ILoveyou.
-Taylor<3
Dillon, soccer season for co ed has started… memories keep poping into my head from u been on the side lines of my games from the past two years. This season definatly wont be the same. I cant believe its almost been a year. I look at my cookie monster shirt and laugh then i bring myself to tears. and everytime i seee someone wearing an elmo shirt i think to my self.. take that shirt off nobody can work that shirt like you did haha for some reason it just fit your personality perfect. School this year has been soo stressfull dillon likee uggh.. sat. was homecomming and on our way to the school our float got destroyed!! it was miserable but by time the game came my day had gotten better.. and omygoodness i soo wish u were there on saturday!!! like one of the best things had happend at the game.. with an eski person… haha im sure u saw and probably wanted to kick some butt, i know luke would have lol danng i miss you i have so much to say to you and i wish i could just call u like i always did with my problems or wen i was so hyper and couldnt sleep i could just call u and talk to you for hours… Oh yah and junior year sucks by the way if u didnt already know, like seriously its miserable… but ur guiding me i can feel it.. in my roon i have a picture of us at my house working on the stupid mustang which btw is still not finished after three years, anyways i look at the picture all the time and i just talk to it. my brother finds it quite odd but i dont care. but i need to go and do my homework:/ but ill talk to you later budd right before i go to sleep… i love you!:)
my love,
i completely opened up to my friend tanner last night. i completely fell apart and cried all night. I’m miserable, i miss you so incredibly much and it doesn’t help that you’re not here to help me. i don’t think you really realized how much you meant to me and i can’t believe it’s almost been an entire year. it was definitely the hardest, most stressful, depressing year of my life. i think about you every single day & someway, somehow, i get signs from you that you’re still here with me. I’ll never forget about you. i don’t think i ever could. when I’m having good days, i feel like you’re guiding me to success and when I’m having a bad day, you’re punishing me for something i did so I’ll learn from it& I’ll realize what it was eventually.
every time i hear your name or just think about you, i get the chills.
i would give anything in the entire world to have you back.
you were the first guy i said i love you to because i honestly did.
i hope you love it up there. if it made you happy then i should be happy you’re happy.
iloveyou.
please visit me in my dreams tonight.
Dillon,
I applied to PetCo and In-Shape! I hope I get the
job, One of these days im going to bring a turtle
to your grave<3
Iloveyou and Miss you so much.
-ayylortaaa<3
Heyy dill,
well i’m at home right noww.
I’m about to go to sleep in a little because I’m so tiredd.
I don’t really know what to do right now. I’m kinda blank,
and feel a little weird. I feeel like I need a change, but I don’t know what. I miss you so much. <3
iloveyou
meggybo.
Dear illondaaa,
I made a poem tonight. It’s not that good, but here it is…..
I wish you weren’t so far. I wish we weren’t so many miles apart.
I wish you’d come visit me. I wish you were here with me, where you’re supposed to be, happily.
I wish you never left. I wish that you saw that I gave it my all, nothing less.
I wish you were as happy as I was with you in my life, I wish you would have stayed in mine.
I wish you weren’t so far. I wish we weren’t so many miles apart.
I hope you know that you’ll always be in my heart♥
Iloveyou Dillon
-ayylortayy
Heyy dill,
So, Katelyn came over last night and we went to the football game,
and we lost terribly. Then we went back to my house, and hung out. Then we went to the mall today, and were going to my cousins birthday party tonight at pump it up, so hopefully we will have fun. We are watching celebrity ghost stories, its preety intense,
Sometimes Ill be sitting there watching something or having a conversation with someone and ill remember previous conversations that we had, and sometimes I just want to call you to talk about something new. I don’t know. It’s kind of hard to explain, I just want to go back to like a year ago, and live over all the times we were able to talk and tell goodnight stories, to be close again, and talk everyday like usual. I miss that so much.
I love youu
meggyybooo<3
im so sorry i didnt get to do the walk for you, but i did wake up early and ran a whole mile 🙂 but ya, i love and miss you.
You used to call me your angel
Said I was sent straight down from heaven
You’d hold me close in your arms
I loved the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holding me
I miss you
I miss your smile
And i still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it’s different now,
You’re still here somehow
My heart won’t let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
You used to call me your dreamer,
And now I’m living out my dream
Oh how i wish you could see
Everything that’s happenin to me
I’m thinking back on the past
It’s true the time is flying by too fast
I know your in a better place yeah
But i wish that I could see your face, oh
I know where you need to be
Even though it’s not here with me
i love you dillon.
i know you’re still with me. i can feel it.
stay withh me forever<3 and i wont let you dowwn.
Hey illonDaaa. Man this month has just been horrible! Nothing has been goin well for me :\ There are soo many guys you probably want to hit right now. I miss you soo soo much. I can’t do Powder Puff cause my dang back hurts too much. I wear my bracelet every day Dill.
Iloveyou & Miss you so much
-ayylorTaa.
Heyy dill,
Today was not so good, I woke up late,
and I went to school, I had a headache all day! it felt like my day there took so long,
Then I came home and had to do a but load of history, my headache finally went away, I went to the gym and got like three sideaches hella bad :/ wanted to come home and relax to find out my brother is having a party for monday night football.
I’m exhausted. He’s a jerk.
I love youu, and miss you
goodnight<3
Dillll.
Ughh, i’m soo sore and tired. Idk why?
:/ i’ve been so exausted lately.. Ahh.
Well, today was a good day, well a better day.
I still just haven’t grasped the fact that you’re gone.
I miss you dillon.
Iloveyou,
Taylor.
Dillon,
I miss you! You have made such a deep impact on a lot of peoples love and have in a way shown that i need to truely listen ppl. Even going to a new school you still come up. Recently a student killed himself at MC and now i listen to how everyone talks about. You have given me the experience to make it through situations like this so thank you. I still cant help but want to cry anytime someone says the word “suicide”. You are always on my mind dillon. I see an old black camero and hope to see you driving it but i know it’s silly and stupid to think that. your forever in my heart mr.dillon
Heyy dillon,
I just read erin’s post and I completely understand,
I feel the same way,
everytime someone says the word suicide I want to cringe,
We never really notice how much that word comes up in our life untill we have to deal with it :/
Well I just wanted to come on and say that I miss you and love you dilll,
goodnight <3
meggyboo.
dillon,
along with megan’s post, i honestly never really sat down and thought about death before but in this past year it’s the only thing on my mind. i’ll never understand why it had to be YOU of all people. i can’t even put into words how you made me feel. you always put into this mood that no one else has ever done in my entire life. you are the only guy in my life that i never wish would leave me and i’ve gotten through this but not all the way. you are the only person on my mind alll day every single day and i don’t think it will ever change.
you dont know how much you effected me. in good and bad ways. im not exactly sure which one. or maybe a little bit of both.
i want to come visit you but i want you to still be alive. i want to hang out with you and spend time with you laughing and doing whatever. you left me in a place where i don’t know what to say but yet so much to say.
i’m always going to have that regret that i wasn’t the one talking you out of it. i wasn’t the one overreacting because i didn’t believe you. it’s the worst mistake of my entire life and it’s all my fault.
death was the only thing that could
ever seperate us and i screwed it up.
i’m sorry
Kayla ~ The only one who could have convinced Dillon not to do it was Dillon. You didn’t screw it up, he did. Use this as a “life lesson” and know that the only mistake we make in life is not learning. Live with no regrets.
Heyy dill,
Well I had to read this stupid pointless book for english tribe,
and I just finished it today, and the ending turns out that the guy killed himself. I hate school,
I’m going camping this weekend, annd I miss you so much
why does this stuff happen to me, like everyday there is something
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imissyou
loveemeggybooo
Dillon
your one year is next week.
it sucks knowing i havent seen you or talked to you..
i love you so much!!!
A million different thoughts have crossed my mind this year. They all go back to you, and how I wish you were near. I think about your smile, and I think about your laughter. I think about the times we shared and how I’ll always hold them near. I think about the times you’ve missed and how much we wish you were still here.
Love you Dill~
Hey Dillon
I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately. We’ve been talking about suicide and death in my classes and my mind always seems to wander back to you. I can’t believe its almost a year. I can still remember that day vividly and yet at times it still seems unreal to me. Little things make me think of you and make me sad but then I think about how lucky I was to at least get to know you, even though it was only for a short time. Whenever i hear a joke like “she’s not the sharpest tool in the shed” I think back to art and how you always said that to me and brenda. You’re in my prayers Dillon.
Hey dillon,
I’ve been camping, with tessa. It sucked we sat in the rv the whole time.
It was so boring. Then, I got a text message while I was there that My dad went to tahoe with his gf, and got married. On top of that my brother is leaving for the army. All of that is added on the end of the month. I miss you so much, and I talked to you again last night, I think it helps because I can think of more memories. I love you, and I know you are looking down on me, and I can even feel you sometimes.
Thanks for everything you have ever done for me dillon, I would not be the person I am today if it wasn’t for you.
There is so many things you helped me with, especially my dad.
You are the most amazing person I have ever met, and I would do anything in the world to be with you again, I know I will be someday.
I love you
Meggyboo.
Heyy Dill,
Soo, i’ve been so down lately :/ Vinny Warda from Modesto Christian
comitted suicide. And my friends come to me for advice, cause they know i’ve been through this with you. It sucks :/ I miss you so much
Dillon. There’s this song called Zero by Hawk Nelson. I listen to it all the time. I cry when i listen to it but the lyrics are just how i feel. There’s so many songs out there that remind me of you Dillon..
I can’t believe it’ll be a year since you left us, in 2 days..
Iloveyou&Missyou
-ayylortaaa
To Dillons Family
You are always in my thoughts and prayers,especially this week!! I am a mother of a child that struggles with depression and suicidal behavior and this hits home to me.. We have her in the best care we can find, but live with this fear daily!! Dillon was a special boy, and will forever be missed!! Thank you all for helping all the teens through this!! You through your tragedy have been there for so many of our children!! God Bless You!!
Thanks for your kind words. I wish (like Kallie) I could go back a year – I’d hug just a little longer and tighter. So maybe you can do that for me.
i will love you forever.
and a day.
thank you for teaching me how valuable life truly is.
i wish you would have taught me in a different way.
im missing you everday dillon.
my prayers are with your family.
i wish it was the 28th of last year.
i would have been with you.
i could have saved you.
i could have
Hey Dillon, it’s Tuesday, Scout meeting night again. I don’t remember talking to you much today, just a fist-bump as we walk in. I guess I was busy, I guess we all were today. My dad just signed up for tree-lot yesterday, and Fresno is coming up for Post, I wonder how much more hectic my schedule can get? Anyhow, looking forward to seeing you next Tuesday.
-9/29/09
Rest in Peace Dillon. :[
honestly dillon, i don’t want tomorrow to come. i can already feel it being a horrible day. its gonna be exactly one year that you’ve been away from me.
you dont know how much it hurts me not having you here
and not having just someone to talk to.
you were my everything dillon; i cant put it into words.
i just love you and i can’t ever let you go.
:'( It’s happening all over again Dillon.
i miss you. i need you…
…
I want to give your mama a huge hug dillon.
just like you gave me.
It hurts my heart so much to know that i didnt see your pain.
im soooo sorrryyy.
watch over your family today bub, they need you now more than ever.
its been a who year now. we all miss you so much. some of the girls and i were talking tonight and its still unreal to us that you are gone. watch over everyone from up there.
We lost a friend,
So dear to us,
A life so young,
It was not just.
He was a son, A friend,
A classmate, and more,
And now he is above,
With our dear Lord.
He was sweet, and kind,
Always a good friend,
We all will miss him,
But this isn’t the end.
He will live on in,
Our hearts and memories,
From now until forever,
For we will miss him,
Our dear friend,
Dillon Chiulli.
Dillon Edward Chiulli, today September 30, 2010, is officially one whole year since you left us. And it has hit me harder than it ever has before. Finding out you were gone was a complete shock. And a piece of me left. I’m angry, hurt, sad, etc. If i could go back in time, and be there for you more, and listen a little more closely to things that you said, i would in a heartbeat. I feel like a bad friend knowing that you didnt come to me when you were depressed about something. You know that I was just a phone call away.. A phone call.. And Megan, and Kayla, we were all here for you:/ I jsut miss you soo much Dillon. And It’s just soo hard to accept that you are actually gone. Like gone gone. It’s soo hard there’s so many times that i have started to dial your number and have to realize that
“oh.yea.he’s gone..” and then the tears come. And its just 🙁 I’m soo confused. I just want to know why. We all want to know. When we would hang out, you were soo happy. and smiling. Making fun of my dad calling him ramathorn.. Playing soccer with Ashlyn. And playing soccer with Dylan. Just being around us you lightend the mood. Your little texts just brightned my days, my moods, my everything.. Life without you is definitley different. You have taught me soo many things in life. And i thank you. We ALL miss you. You. You made such an impact on so many lives. Whether a person talked to you once, twice, or every single day, that person will NEVER forget you. You made the first impression on everyone, that no one will ever forget. You will never be forgotten. You will never fade. You will never leave our hearts.
I love you so much. And I miss you so much.
illonDaa, don’t forget me.
-love, ayylortaa.
Dillons family, you are in my prayers!
<3 Taylor.
Hey dillon. How’ve you been buddy? 🙂
I’ll just getting ready for school right now so I’ve thought I’d stop by to say I miss you
RIP Dillyyy Pickleee]’: i miss you so much!!! last year on this very day my life changed forever.. (9/30/09)
dillon
i know ive been stopping by a lot, but im here in san diego going to school and it has literally been 107 degrees this whole week.
today i woke up and it was pouring rain.
and now there is a rainbow.
funny how things work out that way.
i know your messing with my mind because thats what you do.
but i want to say thank you and i love you
and im missin you every day <3
To everyone who loved Dillon. We too can’t believe a year has past since we’re heard Dillon’s laugher or saw his bright smile. We wish we could turn back the clock, we miss him. Be kind to yourself & others today and try to remember Dillon with happiness not sadness.
Here is a poem we’d like to share with you:
Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning’s hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there; I did not die.
Forever loved, forever missed.
Dillon,
Its crazy thats its been a year and there hasnt been a day that you havent crossed my mind. My earliest memories have been with you and since you have been gone i forever hold those close to my heart. And when i think of these memories they make me smile and laugh. so thank you for that. To me you will always be the the little boy with bleach blonde hair and smiling blue eyes….and the one who gave me chicken pox in kindergarten. Anyways i just wanted to come by and say hi and that i miss you.
Love Kate
dillon,
i knew today wasn’t gonna go so smoothly. i woke up crying, i tried my hardest to keep it together but i just couldn’t. during my aiding period, i sat in the counselors office talking to him for an hour and a half about this. he kinda helped but kinda didn’t. but i knew you were there in the office right along with me. i know you hate me crying, i know you do, but that’s all i ever do. you don’t know how hurt i’ve been since you left me. this is the one thing thats permanent. you’re not coming back dillon but you’re staying here in spirit with me, at least, that’s what i want to think. everytime i think of your voice, the first thing that comes to mind is talking to you untill like 3am, me whispering because i was supposed to be asleep but you insisted on me talking to you while you watch tv with your dog on your lap and then me falling asleep on the phone and then you finally saying “goodnight kayla chiulli i love you text me tomorrow” it repeats in my head all the time.
honestly, it’s beeen the hardest year of my life but i just have to learn from it because it’ll only make me stronger.
here’s a poem i wrote today:
one year ago today
you sadly left me here
clueless and broken
hoping youre somewhere near
even though its been a year
i think of you every single day
i think what would have happened if i talked to you about this
what would you then say?
you were the first guy i ever loved
and the first that honestly cared
why did this have to happen to YOU
when our relationship could of been shared
i hope you stay with me forever
stay with me by my side
because you are everything to me
and the one who gives me confidence to fly
everything i do is for you
because youre the special to me
as long as you promise me forever
to never spiritually leave me be
this whole experience changed everything
and my outlook on my life
with everything ending, theres a new beginning
but i will always be kayla chiulli, your wife.
Dear Dillon, its crazy that its been a whole year since you have been gone, We all miss you and would do anything to have you back in our lifes but I know you are in a better place now and are looking down upon us with a big smile. R.I.P Dillon
Heyy dillon,
Today was harder than I expected,
I tried not to cry today, but I just couldn’t help it,
I went to your grave, and put purple flowers there. I read you a poem I wrote. I send my love to your family to.
I miss you so much, and I talked to you about so many things, and you were always there. A year has gone by, but I still wish I could hear your voice again. I love you more than you can ever imagine, and I remember so many memories, and Me and my mom were talking about how she called you officer ramrod. You were so funny, and such a quick thinker, you always made me laugh. I am so glad that I had such a great person in my life who was always there for me, you and katelyn mean the world to me, and you guys are my bestfriends. You made a tremendous impact on my life. I learned so much from you, and sometimes when I think of how we acted together it was hard to find one category, we were silly, serious, emotional, and anything anyone could think of, we have pretty much covered it in our late night 5 hour conversations. I really miss that, and just so you know I have a spot in my heart that always will be yours,and only yours. Death can not separate us, I love you Dillon Chiulli. ForeverlovedForevermissed.
loveemeggybooo
R.I.P 093009.
Loveyou.
Hey Dill.
So I found that CD you asked me to make you awhile ago. That I never got to give you.. I put it in the CD player and These songs are totally just like woah. The first song is Everything Changes by Staind. And now its on reply, reminds me of you. Its been 3 days since a year.. And these past couple of days, i’ve changed a lot. Just realized you dont know what you have until its gone. You taught me that Dill. I love you i miss you. You were and still are such an amazing person.
-aylortayyy
Dillon my love.,
Today was my 17th birthday. It was hard not hearing from you and not hearing from you last year either. I just woke up this morning, went out to breakfast and felt like a huge surprise was coming because thats what i dreamed about last night. My friends threw a surprise party for me last night at my work at the hotel downtown and as soon as evrryone jumped out and said surprise, i was still looking for you.
Youre all i wanted for my birthday and i didnt get you.
I miss you so much babe
I love you<3 & you know i mean it.
I just hope youre still with me somehow, someway.
Heyy dillon,
Well I had my first day on friday,
My boss said I did really good,
So I’m glad that worked out, my brother is leaving to go to the army soon,
I just miss you so much and I wish I still had you here to talk to,
I feel so helpless sometimes,
I just hope you knew That I love you so much
and I never ever could imagine my life without you because it would never be the same, and it isn’t. It’s so different, and I hate it.
Yoou always made me in a better mood,
Ily<3
lovemeggyboo.
I just want to let you know I love you
and I’ll never stop loving you.
<3
Heyy dillon,
I miss you so much
and I think about you daily,
I love you so much
and I am glad that I get little reminders of you
all the time,
<3 foreverloved forever missed
Megggyboo.
its hard realizing that your not coming back.
I still hear your voice and see your goofy smile.
life feels so heavy sometimes but you were always there to lighten the load.
I miss you dillon and I think about you everyday.
Its really not fair.
I want you back, just so I could say hi.
well i have not been on Dillon’s site in such a long time. I can not go onto his or Marissa’s without wanting to cry reading what people write. I read all the comments about how people miss Dillon and Marissa but yet it seems like it has been the same things being said over and over again for the past year. I understand how difficult this is for everyone and especially those that were really close to the two. I know it is much easier said then done, but what i am about to say is not in anyway meant to come off rude or disrespectful. But the 2 girls who constantly dread each day that comes because they can not see Dillon make me really upset. Both of you know he can not physically ever come back. I wish I could somehow make you both happier and not feeling like you did when we all first heard of the news. But you have to move on in your life. Dillon will always always always always be in your heart and you will both always love him and want him back, but he is gone. You need to move on for Dillon. He would not want everyone having a bad day all the time because of this. He knew what he was doing and that is the part that upsets me. Everyone he left is always going to miss him. But you really need to try and be happier. I know its easier said than done. But it wont make the grieving period any easier if you keep dwelling on the past. Keep him in your heart as close and you possibly can, but move on. Go find something that can bring happiness to you and find something that you can look forward to each day. Dillon would want you to be happy and have a good time, so do it for him. It just upsets me so much when i read the things people say about feeling it is their fault for what happened. Its not. Just please stop dwelling on the past and move forward. Go do something Dillon would be happy to hear about. Please. and i promise i am not in anyway trying to come off being rude. I just want people to accept what happened and move on in life and try to be happy. thats all.
I agree with this student. There is beauty surrounding us. Dont miss it!! Grab ahold of it!! Live your life!! Dance, Laugh, Smile Love!! There is pain, yes, that is how we grow but there is so many more happy moments!! Please girls, move on ,never forget him, Dillon was so very special, but ,as a song I listen to says’ Cause the pain that you are feeling, cant compare to the joy thats coming!! I promise you!! And Dillon will be there laughing, dancing,and smiling right along with you!! That is how his memory will live on!!
Thank you for agreeing with me on this! It’s like I understand all the pain and emotional stress it causes people, but it wont get any better if you keep dwelling on it. You need to move on from it. That is the only thing to do.
Dear Dillon,
Its been a few days since i’ve been on here. And people need to realize that EVERYONE grieves their own way. Some move on quicker than others, others will move on slowly. I for instance move on slowly. I dont like rushing things, I know i will NEVER forget you wether I move on soon, or in 50 years from now. I will move at my own pace, the pace that i feel comfortable with. I love Dillon. I miss you also. 1 year closer to seeing you again.
-Taylor Rosa.
Heyy dillon,
So today I had to run some errands with my mom,
been busy all day, then I went to the gym
and then katelyn came over and we made cupcakes
and had a cake fight !
it was funn.
Times like those is when i’d call you and me and you and katelyn would have the weirdest conversations.
I miss you so much
i still have the urge to calll you,
ily dilly
lovemeegggyyboo
Heyy dillon,
well this weekend sucked,
I had work saturday night which was good, when I came home my brother was having a party since he’s leaving for the army, and things got hectic,
And right now I’m staying at my dad’s. Shocker right?
I just didn’t wanna be home,
I miss youu and love you bunches
-meggyboo.
Ohh Dillon.
This week has been horribleee.
Monday: First I had detention. Then My mom and I got in a HUGE fight. It wasnt even supposed to turn into an argument. I stood up for her against my dad, and when I told her that she got mad! So I was like confused you know? I thought she was gunna be proud… Obviously not.. And I cried myself to sleep.
Tuesday: I randomly woke up, and my left eye was swollen shut! Like would not open. I like didnt know what to do haha. So i went to sleep. When i woke up it was still swollen! And my right eye was all puffy at the bottom of it. My mom called me Rocky Balboa! Haha.
Then today, Wednesday: STILL swollen. I might have to go to the doctors :/ and you know how i feel about the doctors.. Help.
Iloveyou & Imissyou
-ayylortaa.
i love & miss you dillon <3