Hey dillon,
well haven’t really felt that good,
I don’t remember if I told you but me and my dad had a little
talk about some things, it kinda helped, and
idk
I just wish I could talk to you about it,
I miss you so much,
my brother is leaving this weekend :/.
loveyou
bestfriend
Meggyboo
i wish i could talk to you Dillon, i really do.
you were my everything.
i still sit here thinking about if its really true. i know it’s been so long but my heart isn’t letting me believe you’re gone, forever and you’re not coming back.
i hope i see you in heaven some day
but always remember; i love you
and it wont ever change .
<3
Hey dillon,
mikey left for bootcamp today,
it was really hard to say goodbye,
we’ve gotten so much closer since the divorce
I wanted to talk to you so bad,
I needed some reassurance, I miss you so much
I really love you dillon.
always will,
thanks for being there for me<3
dillon,
some days are harder than others. and today was just one of those days that made me miss you more than any other day .
i just want to talk to you.
it would make my life so much better
but instead i’m here alone.
i miss you .
<3
hey, dillon
Well my brother left for bootcamp,
and I already miss him,
for once in our lives this short period of time we have
gotten along so much better, It just sucks.
I know this will be good for him though,
I miss you do,
I wish I knew the answers to the questions that I have,
but even those answers wouldn’t be good enough
I love you dearly, and I hope you know I love you.
Dillon,
I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately but actually that’s not anything new. I really wish i knew why this had to happen. I don’t know why but honestly, I keep thinking about you in my English & TOPS class . In my English class because we’re reading and writing an essay about which gender is healthier and they had a point in there about suicide. I can’t help but tear up. Also, today in that class, we had a district benchmark essay and the prompt was “write about one experience that changed your life.” and of course you were the first thing that popped in my head; so i wrote about you.
TOPS is a peer helping class letting underclassmen know that were around campus to help them with conflicts. kinda like a therapist sorta… anyways… i always think about you in that class.
I just wish you were here. I wish that everyday actually, but I also hope that you’re safe and happy wherever you are because I would love that.
I’ve been having a lot of conflicts and drama lately and I wish i had someone like you to talk about it to. come talk to me in my dreams. pleeasee babe .
i miss you
<3
you will always be MY love .
Dillon,
this week was just horrible..
fighting with a lot of people. grades slipping.
Brother stabbed me in the back. miss you.
and… The Yankees just lost to the Rangers.. grrrrr.
I wish I could call you and complain to you right now.
🙁
Love always and forever
-aylorrtaa.
Heyy dillon,
I’m at home with autumn, right now.
My phone broke. Well it like won’t charge, so I have to use my brothers
old phone, and I’m not sure about how this one will work,
soo yeah. today was okay I guess.
I miss youu. and wanted to let you know I’m thinking about you.
loveemeggyyboo.
dillon,
i just want to let you know you were one amazing guy and i will never forget about you. i don’t even think that’s possible.
but what keeps me going is that it happened for a reason, and maybe you are happy now. not just your reason, but a reason in life. you know what i mean,. i just wish i could of ended our time together differently. i wish my last words to you were different but i can’t go back now. i just love you dillon and it will be like for the rest of my life. you’ll always have that special place in my heart no matter who or what comes in the future because i LOVE you.
Everytime i told you i loved you, which was soo many times a day, i meant it. every single time . and i know you knew that. I told you multiple times that when i say i love you it means alot more than ily.
The love I had for you was indecrible. It was something I’ve never felt towards anyone and you were the first. & i think that’s special. i’m so glad i got to meet you and have you in my life because its something i learned from and even though it was the hardest experience i’ve be through, it happened for a reason.
forever loved & of course forever missed,
you will always be my love <3
Heyy dillon,
Well I don’t have a phone till tommorow, because it broke,
so that sucks. I waas able to talk to my brother on sunday and he says hes doing okay in the bootcamp, I’m still so nervous for him.
I went to the gym today also, and now I’m home,
I’m so tiredd.
I miss you bunches.
I love you.
<3meggybooo
Dillon,
I miss you so much,
I haven’t been able to go on here for it seems like so long :/
and I think about it every night, thursday and friday I worked, tonight I had a party to go to and I’m home now, and tomorrow I have to work
I miss you :/
I wish I could talk to you so bad.
iloveyou.
meggyboo
Dillon,
In my peer support class on friday, we were sharing stories that have happrned to us that make us stronger. Right when i was about to talk about you, two other people started deeply talking about suicide in general and i fell apart. I tried so hard to keep it together but i just couldnt. I ran outside the classroom and just lost it. I was crying so hard and i kept saying whyy why would he do this?
I still dont understand but when will i know? Never .
I might talk to theclass again on wednesday but im not sure yet.
I just miss you and i will never forget about you no matter what. I hope you know that
You were probably the most amaZing guy ive ever met, and you gave me this feeling of love that no one has ever made me feel.
I love you babe
i just wanted to letttt you know that i wore your reds jersey last night. and actually the last time i saw you, you we’re wearing it too. My friend randomly called me last night and she wanted to go trick or treating. I didn’t really have a costume so i went in my closet, and there was your jersey staring at me. so for Halloween i guess i was a baseball playaaa haha. but anyways, i felt good wearing it and i know you liked that i represented youu 🙂
i lovee & miss you <3
Heyyy dilllon,
I’m home right now, I just got home from the gym, and I’m just watching tv on the computer.
I miss you so much.
I have been thinking about my life alot lately,
and I finally have a plan that I would actually enjoy doing,
I wish i could share my plans with you, and I wish we could have grown old together, and have had more time. I love you so much.
Not a day goes bye without thinking about you.
<3 ily
megggybooo.
Heyy dillon,
Welll, I’m just at home right now.
I just got back from having froyo and
I got some pringles. lol
I amm going to my cousins party tommoroow so I have to make cookies.
Today was not so good at school,
I just wasn’t in a good mood.
miss you<3
lovemeggyboo
dillon,
i’m kind of proud of myself. things are starting to get better but the only thing i’m still missing is you. i’ve become super super close to my friend so we’re basically sisters. i looove it. and guess what? today i spent literally the entire day cleaning out my room and i’m finally done. i cleaned it alll out, threw away soo much stuff and rearranged it. i would just loooooooove it if you came over to see 🙂
my next step is to repaint my roomm on fridayy and get a new beddddd for christmas 🙂 hopefullllly.
oh and btw i got a jobbbb ! and i startt tomorrow. wish me luuckkk
i miss youu<3
and you know ill alwayss love you
no matter whattt
Heyy dillon its megan
I miss you so much, its a surprisingly I had a great time this weekend,
and I got to go to a family reunion, I met a lot of people that I didn’t know, and for the first time in my life, I rid a horse. I love it, I’ve wanted a horse for so long, and it was so much fun, but today was kinda gay, miss you so much
Dear dillon,
So today was okay, it’s Wednesday and we don’t have school tomorrow.
I’m going to katelyn’s to spend the night tonight,
I really miss you and there is so much I want to say,
I got to go,
my ride is here.
love you<3
Heyy dillon, so I’m back from my cousins house,
been there all weekend.
I have been hanging with friends so it is pretty good I guess.
I have school tommorow. yuuck.
but next week is thanksgiving break !
a whole week off. yesssss.
miss you dill,
love you.
heyy dillon,
i miss you. i know i say that alot but its truee. i dont know if i told youu, but i finalllllllllly got a jobb 🙂
i work at PacSun in the mall noww. finalllly i get a real job. like not working for my dad or grandparents. i have a real boss now and she’s super bitchy and other employees told me to look out but i’ll be finnnnne.
anywayz, when i was refolding the jeans for the guys today, ironically the brand had your namee in it: “dillon skinny”. weird huh?
everytime your name comes up somewhere or something happens that reminds me of you, i feel like you’re with me. i almost like to think of it that you’re guiding me to these reminders so ill never forget about you. but TRUST ME, i cannot. that’s just impossible.
i just love you so much
but i would love you so very much more if you came back. then i could REALLY show you how muchh i love you 🙂
i sometimes tell myself that nothing lasts forever, but everytime i say that, i think of you andd rethink what i just said. because that’s the only thing in my lifee that will last forever.
my love for you will last forever dillon.
<3
Dear dillon,
I miss you so much,
today has not been a good day for me, and I just got in a fight with my
mom. There are so many things I wish I could do over.. For one, I wish I would of told you that I loved you more, I wish you would have know that when I said it, I really meant it. I wish I would have made it more clear that you were such a big part of my life, and that I wouldn’t be able to go on without you. You still are a big part of my life, and you send me reminders everyday around me. I know that you loved me, and I know you cared about me but, I always have and always will need you in my life. For the simple fact being you were my best guy friend, and you didn’t judge me, or laugh at me. We got a long so well, and I could burp on the phone and we’d both be like nice one! I miss all those times. We were so comfortable together and it won’t ever be the same with anyone else. I love you more than you know. I miss you like crazy. But I will see you again, I pwomise. <3
hey dilllon,
yesterday i finallllllllllllly got my license 🙂 !
i’m so happy. you have no idea but you probbaly doo kinda because you know how much i talked to you about wishing i had one and a carr so i could come visit you in ripon and so you wouldnt have to come here.
wellll i finally got it thanks to youu. you gave me good luck. right before i went into the dmv, i closed my eyed & looked up in the sky and talked to you. i do that quite alot actually and it makes me feel like you’re stilll here.
stayy with me foreverr& ill make you proud,
i love you dillon,
so verrrry much<3
Heyy dillonn, been busy lately,
I worked yesterday and today, and now I’m finally on thanksgiving break
so I’m at home right now.,
things are the same as usual. We had lightning and thunder last night though ): It was hekka scary. and I just screamed and ran off the couch cause there was a spider crawling on the blanket. I swear they’re out to get me. I miss you so much.
I lovee you.
meggyboo
Hello dillon
As you probably know, today is thanksgiving and youre probably gonna be stuffing your face with food all day in heaven just like i will be here in san jose when i woke up 5 minutes ago, i woke up to 7 text messages from my friends that said why they are thankful for me. I dont know, but for some reason they made me start crying really hard. Then after i replyed to them all, youcame to mind and i thought i would go on here and tell you how much im appreciate you. Okay here it goes,
My love dillon chiulli,
Youve amazed me since day one and you still find a way to amaze me everyday. Im really starting to see the importance of people and life in general. But specifically, i thank god that you came into my liiife. I thank god like everyday. This experience was lifeeee changing for me. Im thankful for meeting you, getting to know you and having the chance to get to realllly know you & be close to you. We had this special connection that ive never had with anyone else. Im constantly reminded of you by the things i do and the places i go.
Youre one of few people i love with all my heart. Youre my love dillon. You were my everything.
I love you i love you i love you
Heyy dillon. sorry that I wasn’t able to come on here and say happy thanksgiving, I was at katelyns house and for some reason I could not find the website ://. It was driving me insane. But anyways dill, today is your mommys birthday and hopefully she felt your presence. Everyone misses you so much. It is still hard. It will always be hard. I really want you to know how much of a difference you made in my life. You were truly and completely the most amazing person to me. You made me a priority. You helped me with so much. I am so thankful to have had all of those crazy memories that we shared, and even though we can’t continue they will always be cherished. I love you so much dillon. I miss you times a gillion! and I will always and only be your meggobaby<3
Dillon im still here, missin you and keepin you close to my heart as always. Im chasin my dreams because of you, for you. You will always be my biggest inspiration. I love you sillydilly. Im workin on my Demo, my songs and others, the first song on the album is the one below.
Thank you for blessing me dilly.
You used to call me everyday
the words mean nothing
without someone to say
now I stand beside myself in the pouring rain
and I just want to see your face
When you’re far away
I miss you
but I know you’re here with me
when you’re far away
I need you
I lie awake it’s ten past three
this empty feeling
and baby I can’t sleep
the only thing I left behind
a smile you can’t see
I need you
When you’re far away
I miss you
But time won’t heal the pain
when you’re far away
I need you
And I won’t go back
and I can’t go back
you’re all I ever needed
I want you back
but you can’t come back
you know I didn’t mean it
I take it back
and still i pray
for one more chance
for one more day with you
with you.
Hey Dillon. I havent writen on here in a long time. I didnt forget about you nor will i ever forget about you. I’ve been really busy with school, and family stuff. Thanksgiving just passed, and Christmas is flying around the corner. I miss you so much. I’ve been having some pretty hard times lately, and i still wish you were here so i could talk to you about them. You seemed to be the only person to understand where i was coming from. In English we have to do this Gift Project. Like we have to give a part of ourselves to the class, and i’m going to do mine the gift of hope and strength inspired by you. It’s going to be hard because i have to talk about how the loss of you has effected me and how it has made me who i am today. You coming into my life had changed me completely, and so did when you left us. So you are my perfect gift for my class, I wish they could have all had you in their lives because you changed my life for the better. I love you and miss you soo much Dillon.
-ayylortaaa.
Heyy dillon,
I miss you so much
I wish I could talk to you so bad it’s driving me insane.
My birthday is coming up, and my brother is coming home for christmas.
So I guess thats a plus.
I wanna talk to you so bad. iloveyouu
hey dill.
i hope you had a great thanksgiving and I hope your family was able to find some happiness to take away from all the pain they have.
I got to come home for thanksgiving and it was sooo great being able to see my family. I ended up going bowling with my mom dad grandma and boyfriend and it was sooo funn.
anyways while we were there, there was a group of little kids next to us bowling, probably around 5 to 8. but there was this boy who looked exactly like you. Seriously as soon as I saw him I couldnt take my eyes off him. I just kept watching his every move. He had these pants on and he was wearing converse but he even had the cute little chubby body. but when he smiled he had the biggest dimples. I just wanted to pick him up and hug him! after a while he noticed that I was staring at him and he got a little shy but then he started playing with one of the spinny chairs and was having soo much fun. He was spinning it soo fast that it would get out of control and his hands couldnt keep up and he would just start laughing like crazy and it made me sooo happy because i would laugh with him and he would turn around and look at me and just laugh harder. It was the best feeling in the world. It was like I was with you. Its crazy because even the littlest things made you sooo happy, like a spinning chair! but im sure you already knew about it because your watching down on me and everyone else. I misss you so much dillon, I never got to tell you how great of a person you were and are. I just wish i could see you again. Its crazy how much you realize you love someone after theyre gone. I think about your smile when im sad and it makes everything a little better.
since i was My grandma always said this little prayer with me and even now when she says goodnight to me we say it
now i lay me down to sleep
i give the lord my soul to keep
and in the morning when i pray
i thank you for another day.
god bless mom and dad and my brother and sister
and all the people fighting for our country
and god bless dillon and his family
watch over them and keep them safe.
I love you dillon, cant wait to see that smile again
xoxox kallie jacobs
Dear dillon,
I can’t believe its been this long,
I miss you so muchh.
I think of you all the time and it still hurts.
I wanna talk to you so bad. I’m so mad at myself for never meeting you.
Never getting to see you in person, and have more memories. :/
Heyy dilly,
Well I got my camera,
I’ve been taking pictures so much for the past couple days
I lovee it,
I miss you so much, I want to talk to you so bad.
It’s driving me nuts.
I don’t think that will every go away
I love you more than you know
Heyy dillon,
I just got back from my work,
Was hanging out with people there.
I really do love my job,
and I’m glad I actually have a job that I like,
I miss you so much.
I’ve probably said that 1 million times on here, and 50 million times this past year and two months.
I can’t ever say it enough.
Things have been going okay for me,
I love youu
wish you were heree.
Heyy dilly,
I’ve been so busy lately :/
I miss you so much.
I hate not being able to talk,
I need to tell you some things
but I really want you to know that I love you,
and i really really really wish
that I could have met you :/
loveyouudill
Heyyy diil,
been working like crazy, my birthday is coming up,
I miss you so much, today was not the greatest. I hope you are watching over me.
I love youuu.
Hii dilllon,
I think about you everyday. Every sinnnnnngle day. I know youre watching over me, i can feel it. Now thinking about you and thinking about an amazing guy like you; puts the biggest smile on my face. Honestly, moments when we talked on the phone or like hung out just talking or watching movies; you made me the hapiest ive ever been. Like the feeling of just being around you, feeling comfortable, and feeling geniunely loved for me. Its something ive never felt before. You never were awkward or boring. We always had the bessst times. I never got enough of you. I would leave and go home and i would text you right when i got in the car. I literallly wish i had more days, hours,minutes, years, idk something with you again. I would do anything in this world to have 1 more time to talk to you. Just one more phone call. Thats all i want.
Im not sure if its good or bad, but ever since i met you& liked you, i compare every guy to you. I think its a good thing for you but a bad thing for them
Because now i have high expectations.
I know youre still watching over me
Only because i know you care .
I love you babe
Forevvaaa & evaaa
It’s been forever since I’ve beenn on here.
Well yesterday we went and picked up mikey from the airport,
he told us a lot of stuff about the army,
I was expecting him to come back and be nicer because in his letters he
talked about how much he missed us, but instead he is being an ass
and trying to control me, but whatever. I don’t have a lot of time with him, so i’m just going to bite my tongue. I miss you so much, today is my birthday, I went to the city. It was alright. I miss you so much,
I would like nothing more just to hear your voice right now.
Heyy dilly,
Well I looked at a video earlier that I made on Oct 4, 2009.
It made me cry,
I miss you so much,
And I will always love you.
<3
lovemeggyboo
Dillon,
I havent been on here in awhile. I miss you so much.
I did a project on you. And my class loved it. I haven’t
forgotten about you, a lot has just been going on. I wish
we could talk Dill. I miss you and love you!
-Taylor
hi dillon.
its almost christmas and it really sucks that your not here.
I reallly hope you have a great christmas, ive been thinking about you lots. and not a day goes by without a thought of you. I miss your beautiful blue eyes. and your silly little chuckle. look over your family. im praying that they find the joy that christmas should bring to everyone. they soo deserve it.
i love you dill
merry christmas.
xoxo
Merry Christmas dilly,
I love you so much,
Talked to your mommy the other day,
hopefully coming to see your family soon,
I miss you, and wish I could be taalking to you right now,
I love you more than anything.
<3meggyboo.
Merry Christmas Dillweed.
Baking cookies wasn’t the same this year without you. You always had to take them off the sheet as soon as they got out of the oven. Every Christmas morning you were always here to play with the boys toys. We miss you Dillon, more than you know.
Merry Christmas… We love you.
The Garrity Family
Dillon,
I’m having some troubles right now,
and I don’t really know what to do,
I miss you so much
and I wish I could talkk to you,
I think I’m going to go write.
I loveyou.
Hiii Dillon,
Happy new year; i’m sure you partiedd it upp in heaven last night just like i did. it was a year and two days agoo that i went to visit karena, alanna, and your parents. That day was awk because I felt like you were there but you physically weren’t. It was weird knowing that you were once there.. you know?
I had a huge talk with my grandma on christmas eve basically about life and you came up somewhere in it. she really does understand me and know me so much better now. i completely opened up to her. i haven’t cried in awhile but that night i just couldn’t hold it in. I drove home crying listening to songs that remind me of you.
I know you’re with me dillon, and you seeem to amaze me every day.
Just like hayden said, I still love you;
no matter what.
I miss always having that guy like you always being there for me, & always being so open and willing to talk about anything.
You will never be forgotten
I love you
<3
Heyy dilll,
Off worrk, and just at home
my brother had some friends over,
Happy new years dill.
Love you so much
Peoplee are really annoying me.
missyouu<3
Heyy dillon,
I miss you so muchh
I have been working more,
and been doing a lot of work at school
:/
it sucks.
I hate starting another new year without you..
Love youu
megggyboo.
dillon,
my friends boyfriends mom died a few days ago. i didn’t exactly know her but my friends talked about her all the time so i feel their pain,…you know? I went to my friend michelle’s house to pick something upp and we started talking to her dad and then that lady came up. We were talking about how she died and all that stuff. and then michelle’s dad was like “well life IS fragile”. & then Tina looked at me. Tina knew that that was the last thing you said to me..
all i did was look away.
I miss you so much dillon.
I think about you everyday and how I wish you were able just to talk to me at least.
Hey dillon,
Well I get my license in a couple weeks,
I’m excited. I just haven’t been happy.
I don’t know. I think to much.
I really wish I could talk to you.
what I would give for one more day with you.
I love you so much.
But I don’t think this hole will
ever heal.
illondaa,
I did a project on you. Your parents sent me pictures, and i sent them the paper I wrote. They were a lot of help! I miss you a lot :/
sorry i havent written in a while. School got pretty hectic. and life at home got a little rocky. I love you and miss you!
-ayylortaaa.
Heyy dillon,
Had a longg night last night,
and then had a long day at work :/
Kinda sucked, but money is money.
I miss you so much, you have nooo idea.
I’m sitting here watching I am legend.
I am procrastinating doing my project..
I love you so muchhh.
Missyouu dill.
Dillon, I miss you so much.
I don’t even know anymore.
Sometimes I feel okay,
sometimes I feel like I can’t take it anymore.
I wish September 30th didn’t happen.
I love you so much.
I just need to talk to you.
<3
I remember calling you all the time, and how close we were
and I just hate that all that had to end.
I hate not being able to make new memories.
I hate not being able to have my questions answered.
I really don't like any of this, and I just wish I could have you back.
I hope you are looking out for me :/
loveyouu
meggyboo.
Heyy dillon,
well I take my license test tomorrow.
You know how nervous and bad I am at test
so please please please be with me.
I miss you so much it hurts.
I lovee youu dill
I’ll come on here to let you know how I did.
But i’m sure you already will know.
<333 lovemeggyboo.
theres so much i could say, but honestly my point is that I just love you dillon ., and i hope you always remember that . You will always be my number one i promise you.
<3
No one will ever come close to compare to you.
You were one of a kind, different than most guys
and I loved everything about youu.
I used to always tell you that I dont say “i love you” to many people; only the important ones in my life; and here it goes:
Babe, I love you.
<3
I hope you're still watching over me.
Heyy dillon,
well I’m just at home right now.
I was in a lot of pain today and I don’t know why.
My back hurt so bad :/
but anyways I can’t wait to be put on my moms insurance so i can drive.
I wanna visit your grave.
I love you dillon
<3meggyboo
Heyy dilly, im sitting in class right now and felt like i really need to talk to you, its hard knowing you cant talk back but I still feel your warmth within Gods grace. Dillon I havent forgot you nor will I ever. I need to see one of those great smiles.. it hurts not hearing you laugh. Monday was my birthday, another year older..and wiser blah blah blah, but it feels like nothing great without you singin me happy bday… miss you dilly i still need you. Love you silly dilly. R.I.P.
heyy dillon <3
Well School has been crazyy.
I have so many assignments and projects due :/
It sucks.
I miss you so much
and guess what, in art class there is an elmo picture that some girl made that is hanging upp,
and some other girl is making another one that I saw when I walked by her deskk today.
It makes me think of youu.
I love youuuuu.
I would give anything if I could at least know you can see these messages from me.
<33
meggyboo.
Yo, it’s my birthday today. I found something interesting today, a quote by Epicurus (341BC-271BC) “Death, therefore, the most awful of evils, is nothing to us, seeing that, when we are, death is not come, and, when death is come, we are not.”
Happy valentines day dill,
<3
I miss you so much.
I love youu.
Theres so much I need to tell you,
and I need your opinion on some thing.
I'm going to go to bed now,
so please stay with me.
loveyourmeggyboo.
I miss you more than you could ever imagine . I just miss always having that one person to talk to about anythinnnng in the world and you making me smile. Your smile and humor was something that always amazed me.
Today wasn’t a good day; I wish I could just call you to talk.
I love you dillon
so much
<3
i will never forget about you. I think about youu everyday knowing that you're peaceful and happpy where ever you are now. If you're happy, then I'm happy .
Dear Dillon,
I miss you soo much,
I’ve been in georgia.
I’m so sorry that I haven’t been able to come on here and write.
I get reminded of you so much, I don’t think you understand how much I wish you were here.
I love youu.
<3 meggyboo.
Dear dillon,
I’ve been really sick lately.
I miss you a lot.
&& I was in art the other day and my art picture got put in the middle of two elmo pictures..
I wish I could talk to you.
I love you dillon.<3
lovemeggyboo
I wishhh I could talk to you. I miss you so much.
I still call your phone when I’m in a bad mood. I used to always talk to you about anything and everything and now I don’t have you. It’s so disappointing knowing youre not gonna answer the phone but I still call anyways.
I know you’re watching over me
<3 I lovee you so much. Don't ever forget that
Hiiiiiii Dillon,
I dont know if this happens to everyone, or because I miss you or what, but I always get the chills when I think about you, just you. but then again, I think that sometimes that happens as a sign to show me that youre right next to me. You are the one person I think about the most and honestly, I know you’re still here with me.
You always reassured me that everything will be okay in the end and to never give up. I won’t let you down. You always gave me confidence and proved to me that not every guy is an asshole. You were always there to talk to me when I had family problems, or friend problems or anything. You always made me laugh and smile. Even though we got into a couple little fights, they didnt last long because we would just say sorry and move on like nothing happened. You truely opened my eyes to becoming a better person & more aware of everything around me and I will never forget the last thing you said to me. “Life is fragile”
You changed my life Dillon, you really did.
and I thank god that I met you & got to know you so well.
Everything happens for a reason and there was a reason we met
and a reason why it didnt work out between us.
I love you dillon.
I wish there was something I could do to see you or talk to you.
I just hope you’re listening when I look up at the sky & talk to you.
Also I wanted to tell you that the 1st Christmas after you left, I got a chain bracelet with a heart dangling down and on the back of the heart, I got engraved “life is fragile”. I wore it everyday for so long until the chain broke. I thought about it , and I was thinking that there was a reason why it broke because maybe I needed to let go of you. So I put the bracelet in my jewelry box. The other day I was going through and I found the broken bracelet. I took the heart off the chain and put it on my keychain with my car keys that I always keep with me. That way, I’ll always be reminded of you and you’ll always be with me.
oh and btw, i put “life is fragile” as my senior quote. <3
Dillon,
I need help. I need to talk to you.
I feel like I’m never good enough and
I dont know what to do. I just wish I had you
here to talk to. I don’t really understand anything anymore.
I love you.
hey.. i see you really miss dillon and you post on here alot but just know your never alone. if you need someone to talk to don’t even hesitate to txt call or anything to talk to me. im a good listener.
I miss you so much dillon,
I am going through a hard time right now,
and I keep getting sick. it’s driving me insane. I think I’m going to drive out to your grave by myself soon. that way I can spend as long as I need there.
I love you so much.
<3 I wish you were still here more than anything in the entire universe.
Dillon,
I miss you soo much.
I thought about you today. I do everyday.
Joey passed away a couple weeks ago and it
totally just tore me apart :/
I miss you illondaa.
-Love ayyylortaa
Hey dillon,
Well I kinda broke down the other night,
I had the worst dream ever and I woke up and I wanted to talk
to you soo bad. So I called my voicemail and I listened to the first one from you and you said you woke up really upset from a bad dream,
Thanks for being there for me dillon<3
I felt like that really did happen for a reason,
It helped me, and made me feel like you were actually there.
I miss you more than you know.
love you <3
dillonn,
i’m not gonna say its my biggest regret, but it kinda is… but i honestly wish i could go back to that one night that we were texting the night before you passed.
i would give anything to go back.
i wish i could just talk to you.
you were always such a good listener and
but i know you’re still listening to me.
i just wish things could have turned out differently.
if you’re happy like you said you wanted to be,
then i have to accept it.
i love you soo much <3
so uh… hey. it’s hard to think i’m talking to you through this. but actually it’s kind of working. idk. dillon i think im bipolar i have mood swings like a beazie and i wish i could txt u and u cud give me advice. i always looked up to u bro. i had no idea at all that u did this. and i wish i cud’ve helped somehow. i never told anyone this but i had a dream not too long after you passed that we were in the sierras and i woke up and u were standing there… and u said don’t tell anyone but im still alive. and the dream ended. and it planted an idea in my head that you were’nt dead and you would just show youself again someday. but you are. and it sucks. the saddest times in my life have been when im thinking of you. you were the best man. i love you. rest in peace.
alright dillon… its taken me awhile to realize this but to be honost… everytime i really think about you and miss you, i get depressed. i get sad and it sucks. so i’ve decided its time to move on, sure i’ll think about u time to time and wish u didn’t do it but i know i’ll see you again one day. i’ll cya bro. cant wait.
I can’t wait to see you again, you have no idea.
You better save me a seat rightttttt next to you in heaven ,
I’ll be theree before you know it 🙂
I loveeeeeeee you
Dillon, I had the worst dream last night,
I really wish I could talk to you.
I hate having dreams like that.
I feel like I need to visit your grave, so I might be going this weekend.
I miss you more than you could ever imagine.
<3 i love you.
Meggybboo
Dillon, it’s still hard to say your name. I miss you so much it’s crazy. Remember when you gave me rides home after school? You had such an awesome car and you knew it too. And we Text the most random stuff to each other hahaha. It’s so hard to understand even now. I really wish I could talk to you… Maybe you’ll vist me? Let me know your ok? Miss you…. Love you
Dillon, I miss you more than you could ever imagine..
I’m so stressed out, and would love to hear your voice right now.
<3
I am just going to go in my bed and curl up in a ball.
Please be with me.
I need you.
Babee,
I went to ripon today with my friend sara . We hung out with ehren for a little bit and hung out with Diego a little after . I honestly wish you were stilll here because I thought to myself soo many times “why isn’t Dillon here, we could be hanging out right now”.
Well since Ive had my license for awhile now, I feel super comfortable driving far places and I plan on coming to your grave probably this week because it’s spring break.
I went to another schools prom last night with my friend Daniel and even though the night was super awkward and stuff, the guy that sat across from me on the party bus to prom honestly was your twin but shorter. It was kinda scary how much you two looked exactly the same . It kinda freaked me out.
I thought about you all of today and I wish you were here so we could talk and hangout . I miss you more than you’ll ever imagine and I’ll never be able to express all my love for you . You thought that no one cared; when clearly everyone cared. You were basically my everything . And now I have nothing . You made me happier than I’ve ever been .
Stay with me <3
no one will ever compare to you .
So I woke up a few days ago and found a pic of u in my drawer. I just moved so everything was put out of order but I saw u and started to think about when u were here with us and started to cry. After awhile and I remember that I Had. Bragimg rights at my ilp meeting and do u want to know what I sayed Dillon I sayed I was lucky to have known u and to have had u in mY life. We never hung out alot but when we did it was always fun like when u tossed a frog at me in my bio class that was so very gross but so very funny:) I just wanted to say that I love u so very much and I hope u are happy and playing baseball in heaven where u can play for days and never get tired. Night Dillon
i got another bracelet today 🙂 idk man but when i have this bracelet on it makes me think of all the fun we cud’ve had if u didnt do what u did. whenever im doin somethin really fun i look at my wrist and see ur name and i think what wud happen if u were still alive. shoot man it wuda been cool. love ya dog later
i miss you with all my heart. i was just thinking about you today. and this is the thought that came into my head. “if you were still here would things be different? would we ever talk? after going off to college would we keep in touch?” it made me so mad at myself that we probably wouldnt have. and thats because i never showed you how important you were to me. I took you for granted, and i want you back. I should have been a better friend and I AM SO SORRY DILLON. when i get to heaven, your the first one i’ll be looking for. and ill give you the biggest bear hug. watch over me, this will get easier i know, but it will never be forgotten. i love you dillon. im so sorry for everything.
Hey Dill. I miss you a lot. My last day of going to high school ever again is less than a month away. scary! Time for the real world. College classes start in the fall. I wish you were here to watch me graduate. :/ I’ll never forget you. You still have that spot in my heart, you always will. I wear your bracelet and ribbon everyday.
I miss you and i love you illonda.
-Tay <3
Hey dillon, I just want to let you know that I haven’t forgot about you,
and that I never will.
I miss you like crazy, and think about you every single day.
I pray every night that you can hear me when I talk to you and tell you how much I love and miss you.
I can’t wait to see you dill,
<3
I love you
meggyboo.
Hey dill, I haven’t written on here in such a long time,
Don’t ever think that I have forgotten about you because that is definitely is not the case and never will be.
I love you with all that I am. & I miss you like crazyy.
<3 meggyboo
Hey dillon. I saw the new hangover yesterday and I have to say it wasn’t nearly as good as the first. But maybe it was because you weren’t there to watch it with me.. That probably it. I kept thinking about you, So I had to write. I still think about you every day and im keeping my head up. love you, Hayden
Dillon,
It’s been a long,tough,good,bad,stressful,fun,sad year but I made it. My last day of school was on friday now I graduate on Thursdayy June 9th. I wish you were here to watch me graduate but I know you’d be so proud of me to see what a stronger, better WOMAN i’ve become…….hahaaha.
Watchh over me pleasee & send me good vibes on thursday.
I looooooove you
<3
Hey Dillon.
I just got off work. and i’m sooo tired. i wish thinking about you today, like i do every single day, and i miss you soo much. Wish you were her illondaa.
Iloveyou.
-Taylorrr
Hey Dippy,
I just started thinking of you like crazy right now. I miss you a lot. What i miss the most are your hugs. They were always comforting. I need one of those right about now. :/ come visit me sometimes okay. 🙂
I love you so much Dippy. And I miss you!!!!!!
<3 Aileen
hey dippy.. happy belated birthday hun. sorry i didn’t tell you on your day.. i hope you partied it up!! and i miss you each day. you will always remain in my heart. i love you dillon.
xoxo aileen
Dillon,
another one of my friends passed today.. It made me miss you even more than i already do. Its really hard without you…
I love you and i miss you illondaa…
-aaylorta <3
Miss you dillon<3
Wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you,
theres no possible way I could ever forget you, and I'd never want to. Even though it hurts. If I had to choose between knowing you and going through the pain, or not knowing you and not going through the pain I'd choose knowing you Anyday, and everyday. I have the most funny, and amazing memories with you. I'd never give up a friendship that special, and I'm so thankful to have those good memories of you, and they will always be with me. Stay close dillon. I love you <3.
It’s been long enough without you. If this is a huge game of hide and go seek, I quit. Just come back.
I miss you too much. I just wish I could talk to you and you would talk back but I guess it’s kind of okay because i know you’re listening .
You will always be my love <3
Dilllon, i miss you so much. I’m wearing your shirt right now.
Ugh. I wish I could talk to you, but I know you are at peace now. I just can’t help but be selfish and wish you were back. love always meggyboo.
Dear dillon,
Saying I want you back is being selfish but it sucks because that’s all I ever think about . Like what would my life be like if you were still here.? Definitely differently than it is now. I think about you every day and I don’t think it will ever change. I’m starting to appreciate the little things in life and make the best out of everything because the last thing you told me was “people need to realize life is fragile”, and honestly that is what I live by now<3
You were such an amazing sweet guy that I will never forget
And you always looked out for me like a big brother.
You were my love, my humor, and the person I would tell anything to.
And I definitely miss it
To me; it's still shocking that your gone but I guess time will heal it. But I will always know that you're always spiritually with me all the time
I love you
<3
Miss you dillon,
i was writing last night, just everything I was feeling and at the end of my letter, I realized I was writing to you. I miss you more than you could ever begin to comprehend. I think about you all the time, and it drives me crazy that I can’t talk to you. I will always love you <3
I miss you so much. Things aren’t so good right now, wish I could talk to you.
I’d really love more then anything to hear your laughter again. That is something I will always cherish. I love you <3
My love Dillon Chiulli,,
Remember when we went to the movies and you put AA in front of your name to make you first in my contacts?!? Well its still there. Youre still in my contacts as “AADillonChiulliMyLove”.
I haven’t cried in awhile but tonight was just one of those nights . I can’t get you off m mind. I miss you more than you could ever imagine. I’ve actually been really good lately and content wIth everything going on . I’m working 3 jobs and starting college in September. I wish I could see your beautiful face. visit me in my dreams tonight.
Missing you everyday<3,
Kayla Fathali
Hey dillon, Miss you alot.
Thought about you a lot today.
I saw that guy today, who made me hurt so bad about you. Who made me breakdown that night. He apologized, but it will never be okay. That was the worst thing someone has ever done to me. I miss you so much dill<3
hey dillon,
i had a dream about you. it was really weird. i woke up crying from it. i like to fall asleep listening to music and sometimes the songs interrupt with my dreams. the song “if heaven werent so far away”-jason moore came on. i dreamed that as i walked into the living room you were on the couch, sitting with my grandpa and my nephew. i gave this huge smile to you and was just about to go give you a hug and you started to disappear. ive been thinking about you a lot recently and i really miss you dillon. i cant believe your really gone. its so hard sometimes.
the other day i was lookin through some old pictures from my freshmen year and i found one of camp. and you were sitting right next to me. but all you could see was your right shoulder and arm, and part of your face. at that moment all i wished was that you would have turned and gotten in the picture.
i love you dillon. i still always think about you. your not forgotten 🙁
Hey dillon, Thought about you today just like every other. Your picture sits on my vanity, along with the candle I burned for you at Stoffer. Im sad to say that your lost face isnt the only one that sits there. In April I lost Brandon…Brandon, my big bro. My family lost Brandon, along with so many others. I never imagined in my life time i would feel the kind of pain i felt for you…TWICE. Our hearts ache daily. I feel ripped off. We were ALL ripped off. The ultimate act of selfishness.. by two selfless people. I love you both. But i am angry! I will never understand why I….WE lost you boys..
Not a day goes by that I dont think about you. Even the most random times but thats better than never right? I wear the bracelet everyday, and I have a picture of you in a frame thats on my dresser that I look at every single day.
I’m starting college in less than a month, send me some good vibes <3
Always thinking of you and how amazing you were,
Kayla <3
I’m torn right now . I just fell apart actually. I was on Facebook and was on this girls pictures and she had a picture of her and her boyfriend and my heart dropped . He honestly looked like you, plus like 5 years because he’s a little older . But with blue eyes and similar face and just everything .
I was in shock because you two look so much alike . It’s crazy. I wish I could post a Picture on here but I can’t since I’m writing to you on my iPhone, not a computer.
As a matter of fact, i just realized its september and it will be two years. It feels just like last week that my heart shattered into pieces but yet it was my junior year which was two years ago. Two years is such a long time and I don’t know how I’m getting by.
It’s so incredible how much you shaped me and my life. You changed everything for me because I look at things completely different. Good things and bad things. I haven’t cried in awhile and now all of a sudden I’m crying when I’m writing this. It’s because you meant the world to me and its so hard not having that close contact with someone anymore that you care about so much that you can’t even put into words.
Like I said; you shaped my life but you shaped it for the better and that’s important to me because YOU made an impact and you were special to me. You weren’t just a phase in my life.
It might sound weird, but I feel like somehow someway you “guide” me to success and being happy and making the right decisions. I appreciate everything that you have done for me in the past and everything you do for me in the future . i dont do a very good job showing my emotions physicallly when you were here and maybe you just didnt know but I love you more than you could ever imagine and sorry if I never proved it to you.
<3
Dillon, I miss you like crazy, it’s getting closer and closer to that two year mark, and I don’t even know what to do. We had a lot of good times together, and I am so thankful to have had you in my life, but I will never stop wishing you were here, that magically you were somehow back again. You know, in the beginning of all this I tried to just tell my self that you were on vacation and that you were coming back, it seemed easier to just deal with it later on, but I couldn’t . I cried everyday for the longest time.. I still cry, and breakdown, but it has gotten better. It still will never be easy, and I will never stop missing you. I love you more than you will ever know. I’m sorry if I didn’t show it as much as I should have. I hope you’re still around me, and helping me try to stay positive.. <3
meggyboo
We are getting ready to commemorate (I think that is how it is spelled ??) the two year anniversary of the day you did the dumbest thing ever….the family and I are headed up to a very special place in the mountains to be together….and I don’t know if it is the fear of being in those sacred spots again after so long….or the fact that I am way to fat to be walking up the mountain!…but I am not looking forward to it bro. I know that once I am up there….I will be seeing you everywhere…and that excites me, but scares me a little. I miss you so much. Been having trouble sleeping again..seems like as soon as that t.v. goes off all I see is you. Its worse of course when I am on the road for work and away from Michelle…but its kicking my ass. I see you all the time, especially in your little niece…who is gonna be two in a few months. I feel you around me sometimes…but it aint enough. I miss you. I was watching this silly show last night…Parenthood……I know, I know….Michelle makes me watch it!….well, there was this seen where the big brother bails his little brother out of a jam and they hug and tell each other how much they mean to each other….I know, laim right? Anyways, it was all I could do to keep from crying. Well…I suppose thats enough of this sappy nonsense…I don’t even like writing on this stupid page but….something drew me to it today.
I miss you. <3 It's been a rough, long road without you, but I know you are watching over me. I hope I can make you smile, and make you proud. I love you.
Hey Dillon.
So im really scared. Tomorow is the day. I miss you so much. And im so friggin mad at you. I believed in you. So much. I dont even know what to believe in anymore. I pushed every single person that ever mattered to me out of my life. Or they pushed me out of theirs. Im not sure who wins the dumbest decision award. You or me. You chose not to live. I choose nothing to live for. I am honestly so scared of loosing people i make sure I have nobody to loose. I guess at some point im going to have to start being honest with myself. You were always good at calling me on my shit. pushing me to be as strong as you knew i was. I just dont get it. I hate the way this world works. I am not going to get into how much i have completely screwed my life up because you have been there every step of the way. But I am going to say that in a way i guess i have commited a form of suicide myself. How do i fix this Dillon. Seriously i need you. I want to be with you tomorow. I want to visit you. I want my mom to be there like she always has been. I want my brothers to be able to tell me that they love me. I want to have the courage to say something. anything. to your mom. I want to be able to see ehren nd bubba nd alana and all the people that ever meant something to you. I want to go back to the last place you parked at school. The last time you gave me a ride home. I want to sit in our biology class and I want to look at that stupid fucking coloring book we had to do. I want to hear you make fun of my shitty pictures. I want to see that elmo shirt. I want to hold on to any part of you i can. I want to go back to that night and text you back instead of falling asleep. but i ran from it all. I started running the day you left this earth and i havent stopped. I want to stop running. I miss you. and i am not ready for tomorow. I still remember jordan and sarahs face in english when they didnt want to tell me what happend to you. I want to have faith in life again. I love you Dillon Chiulli. i really do. And i always did. Just please stay with me tomorow. Dont let me go. You said you would always have my back. But tomorow i need your hand.
Rest In Peace Dillon. Dont ever think i forgot.
With all my love
Anna
Dillon my love,
Two years ago today actually was the last time I spoke to you. And of course it was over a text message. We didn’t have a very long conversation but I guess it was enough. We ended on probably the worst note and I wish I could go back in time and change what I said. The things that you said to me were some things that will never be erased from my mind. Everytime I think about you, I think about the conversation we had. I wish I could of said the right thing, I wish I could of reacted differently, I wish I could of done something.
Two years ago tomorrow was the day that my world shook, crumbled and just stopped. You really don’t understand how diffcult it’s been these past two years but I’m proud to say I’ve gotten through it. It has been probably the biggest phase/ moment or incident thats occured in my life so far. But with every incident or experience you encounter, you grow and learn. I’m so much stronger, confident, and more aware of everything around me. You really did shape me into this almost 18 year old girl I am today.
Please stay with me. You told me you would never leave me. You told me you would always be here with me. And you always told me you would have my back. Don’t let me down now.
And now all I can say is that as much as I want you back, this was your decision, your life and people are going to do what they want. Things like this happen for a reason and it’s just a cycle. You learn the most important things from the ones you love. And I will cherish and remember everything you ever told me, everything you made me realize and everything that you taught me for the rest of my life .
I miss you more than you could imagine
I have confidence i will see you again but for now rest in paradise babe, because
when I get there, it’s bout to get craaaazzzzyyyyyyy.
Watch over me ; I love you <3
Hey bro, just checking in before I go to bed.
I guess it’s because it’s been two years, but not like that really matters. Years are really just abstract anyway, not like you being more or less gone would depend on how long it’s been. Whole thing really pisses me off more than anything else.
Dear dillon, sorry i didnt write on friday.. It was too hard for me. I miss you more than you will ever know. I feel like its been so long since youve been gone.. But it feels like it happend so much more recently. The pain and hurt has eased but i cant help but breakdown sometimes. My heart will always have a special place for you, only for you and thats how it will always be. I love you.
Another month has gone by without you. I miss you more than you could ever imagine .
Even when Im alone or feel alone, I know you’re presence is with me .
Stay with me<3
Hey dillon, I have written on here in a while, I guess its cause I feel closer to you talking to you throughout my day, then behind a computer screen. I love you with all my heart, n I miss you like crazy.
hey Dillon,
ive been thinkin about you a lot lately. i dont really have much else to say just that i miss you more then anything. what i wouldnt give just to talk to you one more time. you come up a lot, especially recently. my roommates found a picture of you and asked who you were. i didnt even want to tell them what happened. i just think about all the memories we could be making. i love you. and your missed like crazy.
So thankful for you <3 you changed me into this independent responsible woman I am today and I'm so happy with myself . Working two jobs, going to school and not being dependent on a guy. Setting my priorities straight.
You give me the confidence to do everything
happy thanksgiving babe.
I hope you're having the time of your life
Don't have too much fun without me;
I'll be there before you know it <3
I looooove you <3
Dillon, I miss you so much. I wish you were here to talk to right now.
I miss our friendship.. our phone calls and text meant so much to me. You could always make me smile, and you were always there. I need you now, not a day goes by that I dont think of you. I love you <3
Merry late Christmas dillon my love.
Sorry I haven’t written anything in awhile. I’m so busy working two jobs and school on top of that . I wish you were here to tell you about my dayyyyyyy and all my funny stories . That’s what I miss most about you <3 but I know you're watching down on me so you already know what happened 😉
Love and miss you babee
– Kaylababyyyy
Hey dillon,
well haven’t really felt that good,
I don’t remember if I told you but me and my dad had a little
talk about some things, it kinda helped, and
idk
I just wish I could talk to you about it,
I miss you so much,
my brother is leaving this weekend :/.
loveyou
bestfriend
Meggyboo
i wish i could talk to you Dillon, i really do.
you were my everything.
i still sit here thinking about if its really true. i know it’s been so long but my heart isn’t letting me believe you’re gone, forever and you’re not coming back.
i hope i see you in heaven some day
but always remember; i love you
and it wont ever change .
<3
Hey dillon,
mikey left for bootcamp today,
it was really hard to say goodbye,
we’ve gotten so much closer since the divorce
I wanted to talk to you so bad,
I needed some reassurance, I miss you so much
I really love you dillon.
always will,
thanks for being there for me<3
dillon,
some days are harder than others. and today was just one of those days that made me miss you more than any other day .
i just want to talk to you.
it would make my life so much better
but instead i’m here alone.
i miss you .
<3
hey, dillon
Well my brother left for bootcamp,
and I already miss him,
for once in our lives this short period of time we have
gotten along so much better, It just sucks.
I know this will be good for him though,
I miss you do,
I wish I knew the answers to the questions that I have,
but even those answers wouldn’t be good enough
I love you dearly, and I hope you know I love you.
I miss you and I love you.
Sorry I havent been writing on here lately. Lifes been a little hectic. again.
Love you,
ayylortaa.
Dillon,
I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately but actually that’s not anything new. I really wish i knew why this had to happen. I don’t know why but honestly, I keep thinking about you in my English & TOPS class . In my English class because we’re reading and writing an essay about which gender is healthier and they had a point in there about suicide. I can’t help but tear up. Also, today in that class, we had a district benchmark essay and the prompt was “write about one experience that changed your life.” and of course you were the first thing that popped in my head; so i wrote about you.
TOPS is a peer helping class letting underclassmen know that were around campus to help them with conflicts. kinda like a therapist sorta… anyways… i always think about you in that class.
I just wish you were here. I wish that everyday actually, but I also hope that you’re safe and happy wherever you are because I would love that.
I’ve been having a lot of conflicts and drama lately and I wish i had someone like you to talk about it to. come talk to me in my dreams. pleeasee babe .
i miss you
<3
you will always be MY love .
Dillon,
this week was just horrible..
fighting with a lot of people. grades slipping.
Brother stabbed me in the back. miss you.
and… The Yankees just lost to the Rangers.. grrrrr.
I wish I could call you and complain to you right now.
🙁
Love always and forever
-aylorrtaa.
Heyy dillon,
I’m at home with autumn, right now.
My phone broke. Well it like won’t charge, so I have to use my brothers
old phone, and I’m not sure about how this one will work,
soo yeah. today was okay I guess.
I miss youu. and wanted to let you know I’m thinking about you.
loveemeggyyboo.
dillon,
i just want to let you know you were one amazing guy and i will never forget about you. i don’t even think that’s possible.
but what keeps me going is that it happened for a reason, and maybe you are happy now. not just your reason, but a reason in life. you know what i mean,. i just wish i could of ended our time together differently. i wish my last words to you were different but i can’t go back now. i just love you dillon and it will be like for the rest of my life. you’ll always have that special place in my heart no matter who or what comes in the future because i LOVE you.
Everytime i told you i loved you, which was soo many times a day, i meant it. every single time . and i know you knew that. I told you multiple times that when i say i love you it means alot more than ily.
The love I had for you was indecrible. It was something I’ve never felt towards anyone and you were the first. & i think that’s special. i’m so glad i got to meet you and have you in my life because its something i learned from and even though it was the hardest experience i’ve be through, it happened for a reason.
forever loved & of course forever missed,
you will always be my love <3
Heyy dillon,
Well I don’t have a phone till tommorow, because it broke,
so that sucks. I waas able to talk to my brother on sunday and he says hes doing okay in the bootcamp, I’m still so nervous for him.
I went to the gym today also, and now I’m home,
I’m so tiredd.
I miss you bunches.
I love you.
<3meggybooo
i love you <3
Dillon,
I miss you so much,
I haven’t been able to go on here for it seems like so long :/
and I think about it every night, thursday and friday I worked, tonight I had a party to go to and I’m home now, and tomorrow I have to work
I miss you :/
I wish I could talk to you so bad.
iloveyou.
meggyboo
Dillon,
In my peer support class on friday, we were sharing stories that have happrned to us that make us stronger. Right when i was about to talk about you, two other people started deeply talking about suicide in general and i fell apart. I tried so hard to keep it together but i just couldnt. I ran outside the classroom and just lost it. I was crying so hard and i kept saying whyy why would he do this?
I still dont understand but when will i know? Never .
I might talk to theclass again on wednesday but im not sure yet.
I just miss you and i will never forget about you no matter what. I hope you know that
You were probably the most amaZing guy ive ever met, and you gave me this feeling of love that no one has ever made me feel.
I love you babe
i just wanted to letttt you know that i wore your reds jersey last night. and actually the last time i saw you, you we’re wearing it too. My friend randomly called me last night and she wanted to go trick or treating. I didn’t really have a costume so i went in my closet, and there was your jersey staring at me. so for Halloween i guess i was a baseball playaaa haha. but anyways, i felt good wearing it and i know you liked that i represented youu 🙂
i lovee & miss you <3
Heyyy dilllon,
I’m home right now, I just got home from the gym, and I’m just watching tv on the computer.
I miss you so much.
I have been thinking about my life alot lately,
and I finally have a plan that I would actually enjoy doing,
I wish i could share my plans with you, and I wish we could have grown old together, and have had more time. I love you so much.
Not a day goes bye without thinking about you.
<3 ily
megggybooo.
Heyy dillon,
Welll, I’m just at home right now.
I just got back from having froyo and
I got some pringles. lol
I amm going to my cousins party tommoroow so I have to make cookies.
Today was not so good at school,
I just wasn’t in a good mood.
miss you<3
lovemeggyboo
dillon,
i’m kind of proud of myself. things are starting to get better but the only thing i’m still missing is you. i’ve become super super close to my friend so we’re basically sisters. i looove it. and guess what? today i spent literally the entire day cleaning out my room and i’m finally done. i cleaned it alll out, threw away soo much stuff and rearranged it. i would just loooooooove it if you came over to see 🙂
my next step is to repaint my roomm on fridayy and get a new beddddd for christmas 🙂 hopefullllly.
oh and btw i got a jobbbb ! and i startt tomorrow. wish me luuckkk
i miss youu<3
and you know ill alwayss love you
no matter whattt
Heyy dillon its megan
I miss you so much, its a surprisingly I had a great time this weekend,
and I got to go to a family reunion, I met a lot of people that I didn’t know, and for the first time in my life, I rid a horse. I love it, I’ve wanted a horse for so long, and it was so much fun, but today was kinda gay, miss you so much
loveyoudill
Dear dillon,
So today was okay, it’s Wednesday and we don’t have school tomorrow.
I’m going to katelyn’s to spend the night tonight,
I really miss you and there is so much I want to say,
I got to go,
my ride is here.
love you<3
Heyy dillon, so I’m back from my cousins house,
been there all weekend.
I have been hanging with friends so it is pretty good I guess.
I have school tommorow. yuuck.
but next week is thanksgiving break !
a whole week off. yesssss.
miss you dill,
love you.
heyy dillon,
i miss you. i know i say that alot but its truee. i dont know if i told youu, but i finalllllllllly got a jobb 🙂
i work at PacSun in the mall noww. finalllly i get a real job. like not working for my dad or grandparents. i have a real boss now and she’s super bitchy and other employees told me to look out but i’ll be finnnnne.
anywayz, when i was refolding the jeans for the guys today, ironically the brand had your namee in it: “dillon skinny”. weird huh?
everytime your name comes up somewhere or something happens that reminds me of you, i feel like you’re with me. i almost like to think of it that you’re guiding me to these reminders so ill never forget about you. but TRUST ME, i cannot. that’s just impossible.
i just love you so much
but i would love you so very much more if you came back. then i could REALLY show you how muchh i love you 🙂
i sometimes tell myself that nothing lasts forever, but everytime i say that, i think of you andd rethink what i just said. because that’s the only thing in my lifee that will last forever.
my love for you will last forever dillon.
<3
Dear dillon,
I miss you so much,
today has not been a good day for me, and I just got in a fight with my
mom. There are so many things I wish I could do over.. For one, I wish I would of told you that I loved you more, I wish you would have know that when I said it, I really meant it. I wish I would have made it more clear that you were such a big part of my life, and that I wouldn’t be able to go on without you. You still are a big part of my life, and you send me reminders everyday around me. I know that you loved me, and I know you cared about me but, I always have and always will need you in my life. For the simple fact being you were my best guy friend, and you didn’t judge me, or laugh at me. We got a long so well, and I could burp on the phone and we’d both be like nice one! I miss all those times. We were so comfortable together and it won’t ever be the same with anyone else. I love you more than you know. I miss you like crazy. But I will see you again, I pwomise. <3
I love you dillyboo.
lovemeggy.
hey dilllon,
yesterday i finallllllllllllly got my license 🙂 !
i’m so happy. you have no idea but you probbaly doo kinda because you know how much i talked to you about wishing i had one and a carr so i could come visit you in ripon and so you wouldnt have to come here.
wellll i finally got it thanks to youu. you gave me good luck. right before i went into the dmv, i closed my eyed & looked up in the sky and talked to you. i do that quite alot actually and it makes me feel like you’re stilll here.
stayy with me foreverr& ill make you proud,
i love you dillon,
so verrrry much<3
Heyy dillonn, been busy lately,
I worked yesterday and today, and now I’m finally on thanksgiving break
so I’m at home right now.,
things are the same as usual. We had lightning and thunder last night though ): It was hekka scary. and I just screamed and ran off the couch cause there was a spider crawling on the blanket. I swear they’re out to get me. I miss you so much.
I lovee you.
meggyboo
I just wanted to let you know that i looooooove you
<3 you havee no idea how much i miss you.
Hello dillon
As you probably know, today is thanksgiving and youre probably gonna be stuffing your face with food all day in heaven just like i will be here in san jose when i woke up 5 minutes ago, i woke up to 7 text messages from my friends that said why they are thankful for me. I dont know, but for some reason they made me start crying really hard. Then after i replyed to them all, youcame to mind and i thought i would go on here and tell you how much im appreciate you. Okay here it goes,
My love dillon chiulli,
Youve amazed me since day one and you still find a way to amaze me everyday. Im really starting to see the importance of people and life in general. But specifically, i thank god that you came into my liiife. I thank god like everyday. This experience was lifeeee changing for me. Im thankful for meeting you, getting to know you and having the chance to get to realllly know you & be close to you. We had this special connection that ive never had with anyone else. Im constantly reminded of you by the things i do and the places i go.
Youre one of few people i love with all my heart. Youre my love dillon. You were my everything.
I love you i love you i love you
Heyy dillon. sorry that I wasn’t able to come on here and say happy thanksgiving, I was at katelyns house and for some reason I could not find the website ://. It was driving me insane. But anyways dill, today is your mommys birthday and hopefully she felt your presence. Everyone misses you so much. It is still hard. It will always be hard. I really want you to know how much of a difference you made in my life. You were truly and completely the most amazing person to me. You made me a priority. You helped me with so much. I am so thankful to have had all of those crazy memories that we shared, and even though we can’t continue they will always be cherished. I love you so much dillon. I miss you times a gillion! and I will always and only be your meggobaby<3
lovemeggyboo;
Dillon im still here, missin you and keepin you close to my heart as always. Im chasin my dreams because of you, for you. You will always be my biggest inspiration. I love you sillydilly. Im workin on my Demo, my songs and others, the first song on the album is the one below.
Thank you for blessing me dilly.
You used to call me everyday
the words mean nothing
without someone to say
now I stand beside myself in the pouring rain
and I just want to see your face
When you’re far away
I miss you
but I know you’re here with me
when you’re far away
I need you
I lie awake it’s ten past three
this empty feeling
and baby I can’t sleep
the only thing I left behind
a smile you can’t see
I need you
When you’re far away
I miss you
But time won’t heal the pain
when you’re far away
I need you
And I won’t go back
and I can’t go back
you’re all I ever needed
I want you back
but you can’t come back
you know I didn’t mean it
I take it back
and still i pray
for one more chance
for one more day with you
with you.
When you’re far away
I need you
Hey Dillon. I havent writen on here in a long time. I didnt forget about you nor will i ever forget about you. I’ve been really busy with school, and family stuff. Thanksgiving just passed, and Christmas is flying around the corner. I miss you so much. I’ve been having some pretty hard times lately, and i still wish you were here so i could talk to you about them. You seemed to be the only person to understand where i was coming from. In English we have to do this Gift Project. Like we have to give a part of ourselves to the class, and i’m going to do mine the gift of hope and strength inspired by you. It’s going to be hard because i have to talk about how the loss of you has effected me and how it has made me who i am today. You coming into my life had changed me completely, and so did when you left us. So you are my perfect gift for my class, I wish they could have all had you in their lives because you changed my life for the better. I love you and miss you soo much Dillon.
-ayylortaaa.
Heyy dillon,
I miss you so much
I wish I could talk to you so bad it’s driving me insane.
My birthday is coming up, and my brother is coming home for christmas.
So I guess thats a plus.
I wanna talk to you so bad. iloveyouu
lovemeggggyboo
hey dill.
i hope you had a great thanksgiving and I hope your family was able to find some happiness to take away from all the pain they have.
I got to come home for thanksgiving and it was sooo great being able to see my family. I ended up going bowling with my mom dad grandma and boyfriend and it was sooo funn.
anyways while we were there, there was a group of little kids next to us bowling, probably around 5 to 8. but there was this boy who looked exactly like you. Seriously as soon as I saw him I couldnt take my eyes off him. I just kept watching his every move. He had these pants on and he was wearing converse but he even had the cute little chubby body. but when he smiled he had the biggest dimples. I just wanted to pick him up and hug him! after a while he noticed that I was staring at him and he got a little shy but then he started playing with one of the spinny chairs and was having soo much fun. He was spinning it soo fast that it would get out of control and his hands couldnt keep up and he would just start laughing like crazy and it made me sooo happy because i would laugh with him and he would turn around and look at me and just laugh harder. It was the best feeling in the world. It was like I was with you. Its crazy because even the littlest things made you sooo happy, like a spinning chair! but im sure you already knew about it because your watching down on me and everyone else. I misss you so much dillon, I never got to tell you how great of a person you were and are. I just wish i could see you again. Its crazy how much you realize you love someone after theyre gone. I think about your smile when im sad and it makes everything a little better.
since i was My grandma always said this little prayer with me and even now when she says goodnight to me we say it
now i lay me down to sleep
i give the lord my soul to keep
and in the morning when i pray
i thank you for another day.
god bless mom and dad and my brother and sister
and all the people fighting for our country
and god bless dillon and his family
watch over them and keep them safe.
I love you dillon, cant wait to see that smile again
xoxox kallie jacobs
Dear dillon,
I can’t believe its been this long,
I miss you so muchh.
I think of you all the time and it still hurts.
I wanna talk to you so bad. I’m so mad at myself for never meeting you.
Never getting to see you in person, and have more memories. :/
I wish I could of had the chance.
I love youu dillly.
Night
loveemeggyboo.
Heyy dilly,
Well I got my camera,
I’ve been taking pictures so much for the past couple days
I lovee it,
I miss you so much, I want to talk to you so bad.
It’s driving me nuts.
I don’t think that will every go away
I love you more than you know
loveemeggyyboo.
dillonbaby, i love you more than anyone .
<3
Heyy dillon,
I just got back from my work,
Was hanging out with people there.
I really do love my job,
and I’m glad I actually have a job that I like,
I miss you so much.
I’ve probably said that 1 million times on here, and 50 million times this past year and two months.
I can’t ever say it enough.
Things have been going okay for me,
I love youu
wish you were heree.
lovemeggybooo.
Heyy dilly,
I’ve been so busy lately :/
I miss you so much.
I hate not being able to talk,
I need to tell you some things
but I really want you to know that I love you,
and i really really really wish
that I could have met you :/
loveyouudill
meggyboo
Hey Dillon,
lol didnt mean to send that but i miss ya dude the way things are should have never even started. We all miss ya like crazy. Gnight
Heyyy diil,
been working like crazy, my birthday is coming up,
I miss you so much, today was not the greatest. I hope you are watching over me.
I love youuu.
<3meggyboo.
Hii dilllon,
I think about you everyday. Every sinnnnnngle day. I know youre watching over me, i can feel it. Now thinking about you and thinking about an amazing guy like you; puts the biggest smile on my face. Honestly, moments when we talked on the phone or like hung out just talking or watching movies; you made me the hapiest ive ever been. Like the feeling of just being around you, feeling comfortable, and feeling geniunely loved for me. Its something ive never felt before. You never were awkward or boring. We always had the bessst times. I never got enough of you. I would leave and go home and i would text you right when i got in the car. I literallly wish i had more days, hours,minutes, years, idk something with you again. I would do anything in this world to have 1 more time to talk to you. Just one more phone call. Thats all i want.
Im not sure if its good or bad, but ever since i met you& liked you, i compare every guy to you. I think its a good thing for you but a bad thing for them
Because now i have high expectations.
I know youre still watching over me
Only because i know you care .
I love you babe
Forevvaaa & evaaa
It’s been forever since I’ve beenn on here.
Well yesterday we went and picked up mikey from the airport,
he told us a lot of stuff about the army,
I was expecting him to come back and be nicer because in his letters he
talked about how much he missed us, but instead he is being an ass
and trying to control me, but whatever. I don’t have a lot of time with him, so i’m just going to bite my tongue. I miss you so much, today is my birthday, I went to the city. It was alright. I miss you so much,
I would like nothing more just to hear your voice right now.
Iloveyou
meggybooo.
Heyy dilly,
Well I looked at a video earlier that I made on Oct 4, 2009.
It made me cry,
I miss you so much,
And I will always love you.
<3
lovemeggyboo
Dillon,
I havent been on here in awhile. I miss you so much.
I did a project on you. And my class loved it. I haven’t
forgotten about you, a lot has just been going on. I wish
we could talk Dill. I miss you and love you!
-Taylor
hi dillon.
its almost christmas and it really sucks that your not here.
I reallly hope you have a great christmas, ive been thinking about you lots. and not a day goes by without a thought of you. I miss your beautiful blue eyes. and your silly little chuckle. look over your family. im praying that they find the joy that christmas should bring to everyone. they soo deserve it.
i love you dill
merry christmas.
xoxo
Merry Christmas dilly,
I love you so much,
Talked to your mommy the other day,
hopefully coming to see your family soon,
I miss you, and wish I could be taalking to you right now,
I love you more than anything.
<3meggyboo.
Btw, you would be the best christmas present ever.
I think about you all the time,
please stay with me.
Merry Christmas Dillweed.
Baking cookies wasn’t the same this year without you. You always had to take them off the sheet as soon as they got out of the oven. Every Christmas morning you were always here to play with the boys toys. We miss you Dillon, more than you know.
Merry Christmas… We love you.
The Garrity Family
Dillon,
not doing to great right now.
I miss you so much,
I want to call you so bad.
I am going to go to katelyns but please stay with me
I need you.
lovemeggyboo.
Dillon,
I’m having some troubles right now,
and I don’t really know what to do,
I miss you so much
and I wish I could talkk to you,
I think I’m going to go write.
I loveyou.
<3meggyboo
Happy New Year Dillon..
Another year without you
I still love you dude forever
<3 Hayden
Hiii Dillon,
Happy new year; i’m sure you partiedd it upp in heaven last night just like i did. it was a year and two days agoo that i went to visit karena, alanna, and your parents. That day was awk because I felt like you were there but you physically weren’t. It was weird knowing that you were once there.. you know?
I had a huge talk with my grandma on christmas eve basically about life and you came up somewhere in it. she really does understand me and know me so much better now. i completely opened up to her. i haven’t cried in awhile but that night i just couldn’t hold it in. I drove home crying listening to songs that remind me of you.
I know you’re with me dillon, and you seeem to amaze me every day.
Just like hayden said, I still love you;
no matter what.
I miss always having that guy like you always being there for me, & always being so open and willing to talk about anything.
You will never be forgotten
I love you
<3
Heyy dilll,
Off worrk, and just at home
my brother had some friends over,
Happy new years dill.
Love you so much
Peoplee are really annoying me.
missyouu<3
I Love You Babee
<3
Heyy dillon,
I miss you so muchh
I have been working more,
and been doing a lot of work at school
:/
it sucks.
I hate starting another new year without you..
Love youu
megggyboo.
dillon,
my friends boyfriends mom died a few days ago. i didn’t exactly know her but my friends talked about her all the time so i feel their pain,…you know? I went to my friend michelle’s house to pick something upp and we started talking to her dad and then that lady came up. We were talking about how she died and all that stuff. and then michelle’s dad was like “well life IS fragile”. & then Tina looked at me. Tina knew that that was the last thing you said to me..
all i did was look away.
I miss you so much dillon.
I think about you everyday and how I wish you were able just to talk to me at least.
Hey dillon,
Well I get my license in a couple weeks,
I’m excited. I just haven’t been happy.
I don’t know. I think to much.
I really wish I could talk to you.
what I would give for one more day with you.
I love you so much.
But I don’t think this hole will
ever heal.
loveyouu
megyyboo
illondaa,
I did a project on you. Your parents sent me pictures, and i sent them the paper I wrote. They were a lot of help! I miss you a lot :/
sorry i havent written in a while. School got pretty hectic. and life at home got a little rocky. I love you and miss you!
-ayylortaaa.
I lovee you more than anyone, dont ever forget that.
I will always be thinking about you<3
Heyy dillon,
Had a longg night last night,
and then had a long day at work :/
Kinda sucked, but money is money.
I miss you so much, you have nooo idea.
I’m sitting here watching I am legend.
I am procrastinating doing my project..
I love you so muchhh.
Missyouu dill.
lovemegggyboo.
Dillon, I miss you so much.
I don’t even know anymore.
Sometimes I feel okay,
sometimes I feel like I can’t take it anymore.
I wish September 30th didn’t happen.
I love you so much.
I just need to talk to you.
<3
I remember calling you all the time, and how close we were
and I just hate that all that had to end.
I hate not being able to make new memories.
I hate not being able to have my questions answered.
I really don't like any of this, and I just wish I could have you back.
I hope you are looking out for me :/
loveyouu
meggyboo.
Heyy dillon,
well I take my license test tomorrow.
You know how nervous and bad I am at test
so please please please be with me.
I miss you so much it hurts.
I lovee youu dill
I’ll come on here to let you know how I did.
But i’m sure you already will know.
<333 lovemeggyboo.
Hey dill,
I just wanted to let you know
that I Got my license today,
<33 love youuu.
theres so much i could say, but honestly my point is that I just love you dillon ., and i hope you always remember that . You will always be my number one i promise you.
<3
I love you Dillon.
No one will ever come close to compare to you.
You were one of a kind, different than most guys
and I loved everything about youu.
I used to always tell you that I dont say “i love you” to many people; only the important ones in my life; and here it goes:
Babe, I love you.
<3
I hope you're still watching over me.
Heyy dillon,
well I’m just at home right now.
I was in a lot of pain today and I don’t know why.
My back hurt so bad :/
but anyways I can’t wait to be put on my moms insurance so i can drive.
I wanna visit your grave.
I love you dillon
<3meggyboo
Heyy dilly, im sitting in class right now and felt like i really need to talk to you, its hard knowing you cant talk back but I still feel your warmth within Gods grace. Dillon I havent forgot you nor will I ever. I need to see one of those great smiles.. it hurts not hearing you laugh. Monday was my birthday, another year older..and wiser blah blah blah, but it feels like nothing great without you singin me happy bday… miss you dilly i still need you. Love you silly dilly. R.I.P.
forever and always missing you dillon.
<333
heyy dillon <3
Well School has been crazyy.
I have so many assignments and projects due :/
It sucks.
I miss you so much
and guess what, in art class there is an elmo picture that some girl made that is hanging upp,
and some other girl is making another one that I saw when I walked by her deskk today.
It makes me think of youu.
I love youuuuu.
I would give anything if I could at least know you can see these messages from me.
<33
meggyboo.
i loveee you dillon
i still think of you everyday
<3
Yo, it’s my birthday today. I found something interesting today, a quote by Epicurus (341BC-271BC) “Death, therefore, the most awful of evils, is nothing to us, seeing that, when we are, death is not come, and, when death is come, we are not.”
Anyhow, just stopping by I suppose.
-Will
Happy valentines day dill,
<3
I miss you so much.
I love youu.
Theres so much I need to tell you,
and I need your opinion on some thing.
I'm going to go to bed now,
so please stay with me.
loveyourmeggyboo.
I miss you more than you could ever imagine . I just miss always having that one person to talk to about anythinnnng in the world and you making me smile. Your smile and humor was something that always amazed me.
Today wasn’t a good day; I wish I could just call you to talk.
I love you dillon
so much
<3
i will never forget about you. I think about youu everyday knowing that you're peaceful and happpy where ever you are now. If you're happy, then I'm happy .
Dear Dillon,
I miss you soo much,
I’ve been in georgia.
I’m so sorry that I haven’t been able to come on here and write.
I get reminded of you so much, I don’t think you understand how much I wish you were here.
I love youu.
<3 meggyboo.
Dear dillon,
I’ve been really sick lately.
I miss you a lot.
&& I was in art the other day and my art picture got put in the middle of two elmo pictures..
I wish I could talk to you.
I love you dillon.<3
lovemeggyboo
I wishhh I could talk to you. I miss you so much.
I still call your phone when I’m in a bad mood. I used to always talk to you about anything and everything and now I don’t have you. It’s so disappointing knowing youre not gonna answer the phone but I still call anyways.
I know you’re watching over me
<3 I lovee you so much. Don't ever forget that
Hey dillon. thought about you again today. remembered alot of things i went through with you. fuckin love you dog. RIP
Hiiiiiii Dillon,
I dont know if this happens to everyone, or because I miss you or what, but I always get the chills when I think about you, just you. but then again, I think that sometimes that happens as a sign to show me that youre right next to me. You are the one person I think about the most and honestly, I know you’re still here with me.
You always reassured me that everything will be okay in the end and to never give up. I won’t let you down. You always gave me confidence and proved to me that not every guy is an asshole. You were always there to talk to me when I had family problems, or friend problems or anything. You always made me laugh and smile. Even though we got into a couple little fights, they didnt last long because we would just say sorry and move on like nothing happened. You truely opened my eyes to becoming a better person & more aware of everything around me and I will never forget the last thing you said to me. “Life is fragile”
You changed my life Dillon, you really did.
and I thank god that I met you & got to know you so well.
Everything happens for a reason and there was a reason we met
and a reason why it didnt work out between us.
I love you dillon.
I wish there was something I could do to see you or talk to you.
I just hope you’re listening when I look up at the sky & talk to you.
Also I wanted to tell you that the 1st Christmas after you left, I got a chain bracelet with a heart dangling down and on the back of the heart, I got engraved “life is fragile”. I wore it everyday for so long until the chain broke. I thought about it , and I was thinking that there was a reason why it broke because maybe I needed to let go of you. So I put the bracelet in my jewelry box. The other day I was going through and I found the broken bracelet. I took the heart off the chain and put it on my keychain with my car keys that I always keep with me. That way, I’ll always be reminded of you and you’ll always be with me.
oh and btw, i put “life is fragile” as my senior quote. <3
Dillon,
I need help. I need to talk to you.
I feel like I’m never good enough and
I dont know what to do. I just wish I had you
here to talk to. I don’t really understand anything anymore.
I love you.
hey.. i see you really miss dillon and you post on here alot but just know your never alone. if you need someone to talk to don’t even hesitate to txt call or anything to talk to me. im a good listener.
I dont really know who you are..
also you said something on my formspring and I dont
even know how you got that either..
I miss you so much dillon,
I am going through a hard time right now,
and I keep getting sick. it’s driving me insane. I think I’m going to drive out to your grave by myself soon. that way I can spend as long as I need there.
I love you so much.
<3 I wish you were still here more than anything in the entire universe.
I thought about you today. Like I do everyday.
I miss you like crazy Dill.
I love and Miss you!
-aylortaaa
Dillon,
I miss you soo much.
I thought about you today. I do everyday.
Joey passed away a couple weeks ago and it
totally just tore me apart :/
I miss you illondaa.
-Love ayyylortaa
Hey dillon,
Well I kinda broke down the other night,
I had the worst dream ever and I woke up and I wanted to talk
to you soo bad. So I called my voicemail and I listened to the first one from you and you said you woke up really upset from a bad dream,
Thanks for being there for me dillon<3
I felt like that really did happen for a reason,
It helped me, and made me feel like you were actually there.
I miss you more than you know.
love you <3
miss you and love you babyboy. wish i could say hi one last time
<3 you
dillonn,
i’m not gonna say its my biggest regret, but it kinda is… but i honestly wish i could go back to that one night that we were texting the night before you passed.
i would give anything to go back.
i wish i could just talk to you.
you were always such a good listener and
but i know you’re still listening to me.
i just wish things could have turned out differently.
if you’re happy like you said you wanted to be,
then i have to accept it.
i love you soo much <3
so uh… hey. it’s hard to think i’m talking to you through this. but actually it’s kind of working. idk. dillon i think im bipolar i have mood swings like a beazie and i wish i could txt u and u cud give me advice. i always looked up to u bro. i had no idea at all that u did this. and i wish i cud’ve helped somehow. i never told anyone this but i had a dream not too long after you passed that we were in the sierras and i woke up and u were standing there… and u said don’t tell anyone but im still alive. and the dream ended. and it planted an idea in my head that you were’nt dead and you would just show youself again someday. but you are. and it sucks. the saddest times in my life have been when im thinking of you. you were the best man. i love you. rest in peace.
alright dillon… its taken me awhile to realize this but to be honost… everytime i really think about you and miss you, i get depressed. i get sad and it sucks. so i’ve decided its time to move on, sure i’ll think about u time to time and wish u didn’t do it but i know i’ll see you again one day. i’ll cya bro. cant wait.
I can’t wait to see you again, you have no idea.
You better save me a seat rightttttt next to you in heaven ,
I’ll be theree before you know it 🙂
I loveeeeeeee you
Dillon, I had the worst dream last night,
I really wish I could talk to you.
I hate having dreams like that.
I feel like I need to visit your grave, so I might be going this weekend.
I miss you more than you could ever imagine.
<3 i love you.
Meggybboo
Dillon, it’s still hard to say your name. I miss you so much it’s crazy. Remember when you gave me rides home after school? You had such an awesome car and you knew it too. And we Text the most random stuff to each other hahaha. It’s so hard to understand even now. I really wish I could talk to you… Maybe you’ll vist me? Let me know your ok? Miss you…. Love you
Dillon, I miss you more than you could ever imagine..
I’m so stressed out, and would love to hear your voice right now.
<3
I am just going to go in my bed and curl up in a ball.
Please be with me.
I need you.
Babee,
I went to ripon today with my friend sara . We hung out with ehren for a little bit and hung out with Diego a little after . I honestly wish you were stilll here because I thought to myself soo many times “why isn’t Dillon here, we could be hanging out right now”.
Well since Ive had my license for awhile now, I feel super comfortable driving far places and I plan on coming to your grave probably this week because it’s spring break.
I went to another schools prom last night with my friend Daniel and even though the night was super awkward and stuff, the guy that sat across from me on the party bus to prom honestly was your twin but shorter. It was kinda scary how much you two looked exactly the same . It kinda freaked me out.
I thought about you all of today and I wish you were here so we could talk and hangout . I miss you more than you’ll ever imagine and I’ll never be able to express all my love for you . You thought that no one cared; when clearly everyone cared. You were basically my everything . And now I have nothing . You made me happier than I’ve ever been .
Stay with me <3
no one will ever compare to you .
So I woke up a few days ago and found a pic of u in my drawer. I just moved so everything was put out of order but I saw u and started to think about when u were here with us and started to cry. After awhile and I remember that I Had. Bragimg rights at my ilp meeting and do u want to know what I sayed Dillon I sayed I was lucky to have known u and to have had u in mY life. We never hung out alot but when we did it was always fun like when u tossed a frog at me in my bio class that was so very gross but so very funny:) I just wanted to say that I love u so very much and I hope u are happy and playing baseball in heaven where u can play for days and never get tired. Night Dillon
i got another bracelet today 🙂 idk man but when i have this bracelet on it makes me think of all the fun we cud’ve had if u didnt do what u did. whenever im doin somethin really fun i look at my wrist and see ur name and i think what wud happen if u were still alive. shoot man it wuda been cool. love ya dog later
i miss you with all my heart. i was just thinking about you today. and this is the thought that came into my head. “if you were still here would things be different? would we ever talk? after going off to college would we keep in touch?” it made me so mad at myself that we probably wouldnt have. and thats because i never showed you how important you were to me. I took you for granted, and i want you back. I should have been a better friend and I AM SO SORRY DILLON. when i get to heaven, your the first one i’ll be looking for. and ill give you the biggest bear hug. watch over me, this will get easier i know, but it will never be forgotten. i love you dillon. im so sorry for everything.
Hey Dill. I miss you a lot. My last day of going to high school ever again is less than a month away. scary! Time for the real world. College classes start in the fall. I wish you were here to watch me graduate. :/ I’ll never forget you. You still have that spot in my heart, you always will. I wear your bracelet and ribbon everyday.
I miss you and i love you illonda.
-Tay <3
Hey dillon, I just want to let you know that I haven’t forgot about you,
and that I never will.
I miss you like crazy, and think about you every single day.
I pray every night that you can hear me when I talk to you and tell you how much I love and miss you.
I can’t wait to see you dill,
<3
I love you
meggyboo.
Dillon, I miss you soo much<3
i'm having an off day today.
I just wish I could talk to you soo bad.
I love you dill 🙁
<3 you
Hey dill, I haven’t written on here in such a long time,
Don’t ever think that I have forgotten about you because that is definitely is not the case and never will be.
I love you with all that I am. & I miss you like crazyy.
<3 meggyboo
Missing you so very much, each and every day, wish you were here to share each day.
Love you pill.
Missing you so very much, each and every day.
Love you pill.
I still think about you everyday.
i lovee you <3
Hey dillon. I saw the new hangover yesterday and I have to say it wasn’t nearly as good as the first. But maybe it was because you weren’t there to watch it with me.. That probably it. I kept thinking about you, So I had to write. I still think about you every day and im keeping my head up. love you, Hayden
Dillon,
It’s been a long,tough,good,bad,stressful,fun,sad year but I made it. My last day of school was on friday now I graduate on Thursdayy June 9th. I wish you were here to watch me graduate but I know you’d be so proud of me to see what a stronger, better WOMAN i’ve become…….hahaaha.
Watchh over me pleasee & send me good vibes on thursday.
I looooooove you
<3
Hey Dillon.
I just got off work. and i’m sooo tired. i wish thinking about you today, like i do every single day, and i miss you soo much. Wish you were her illondaa.
Iloveyou.
-Taylorrr
Hey Dippy,
I just started thinking of you like crazy right now. I miss you a lot. What i miss the most are your hugs. They were always comforting. I need one of those right about now. :/ come visit me sometimes okay. 🙂
I love you so much Dippy. And I miss you!!!!!!
<3 Aileen
I miss you so much..
I always think about you.
I’m watching south park right now,
and it made me miss you even more.
lovee youu <3
megggyybbooo
It’s your birthday tomorrow, going to be hard :/.. Miss you dillon.
<3
meggybooo.
I love you so much.
Happy birthday. Miss you lots 🙂
Happy birthday Dill, <3 you. Missing you each day.
happy birthday dill <3
I miss you so much, today has been pretty tough.
Wish I could hear your voice more than ever.
I love you.
meggyboo.
hey dippy.. happy belated birthday hun. sorry i didn’t tell you on your day.. i hope you partied it up!! and i miss you each day. you will always remain in my heart. i love you dillon.
xoxo aileen
Dillon,
another one of my friends passed today.. It made me miss you even more than i already do. Its really hard without you…
I love you and i miss you illondaa…
-aaylorta <3
Miss you dillon<3
Wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you,
theres no possible way I could ever forget you, and I'd never want to. Even though it hurts. If I had to choose between knowing you and going through the pain, or not knowing you and not going through the pain I'd choose knowing you Anyday, and everyday. I have the most funny, and amazing memories with you. I'd never give up a friendship that special, and I'm so thankful to have those good memories of you, and they will always be with me. Stay close dillon. I love you <3.
It’s been long enough without you. If this is a huge game of hide and go seek, I quit. Just come back.
I miss you too much. I just wish I could talk to you and you would talk back but I guess it’s kind of okay because i know you’re listening .
You will always be my love <3
Dilllon, i miss you so much. I’m wearing your shirt right now.
Ugh. I wish I could talk to you, but I know you are at peace now. I just can’t help but be selfish and wish you were back. love always meggyboo.
Dear dillon,
Saying I want you back is being selfish but it sucks because that’s all I ever think about . Like what would my life be like if you were still here.? Definitely differently than it is now. I think about you every day and I don’t think it will ever change. I’m starting to appreciate the little things in life and make the best out of everything because the last thing you told me was “people need to realize life is fragile”, and honestly that is what I live by now<3
You were such an amazing sweet guy that I will never forget
And you always looked out for me like a big brother.
You were my love, my humor, and the person I would tell anything to.
And I definitely miss it
To me; it's still shocking that your gone but I guess time will heal it. But I will always know that you're always spiritually with me all the time
I love you
<3
Miss you dillon,
i was writing last night, just everything I was feeling and at the end of my letter, I realized I was writing to you. I miss you more than you could ever begin to comprehend. I think about you all the time, and it drives me crazy that I can’t talk to you. I will always love you <3
lovemeggybboo
I miss you so much. Things aren’t so good right now, wish I could talk to you.
I’d really love more then anything to hear your laughter again. That is something I will always cherish. I love you <3
LoveMeggyboo
I just miss you.
plain&simple
My love Dillon Chiulli,,
Remember when we went to the movies and you put AA in front of your name to make you first in my contacts?!? Well its still there. Youre still in my contacts as “AADillonChiulliMyLove”.
I haven’t cried in awhile but tonight was just one of those nights . I can’t get you off m mind. I miss you more than you could ever imagine. I’ve actually been really good lately and content wIth everything going on . I’m working 3 jobs and starting college in September. I wish I could see your beautiful face. visit me in my dreams tonight.
Missing you everyday<3,
Kayla Fathali
Hey dillon, Miss you alot.
Thought about you a lot today.
I saw that guy today, who made me hurt so bad about you. Who made me breakdown that night. He apologized, but it will never be okay. That was the worst thing someone has ever done to me. I miss you so much dill<3
love you.
meggyboo
I miss you so much dill, i wish you were here with me now.
I cherish everything we had, and I love you so much.
Please be with me tonight, I need you.
hey dillon,
i had a dream about you. it was really weird. i woke up crying from it. i like to fall asleep listening to music and sometimes the songs interrupt with my dreams. the song “if heaven werent so far away”-jason moore came on. i dreamed that as i walked into the living room you were on the couch, sitting with my grandpa and my nephew. i gave this huge smile to you and was just about to go give you a hug and you started to disappear. ive been thinking about you a lot recently and i really miss you dillon. i cant believe your really gone. its so hard sometimes.
the other day i was lookin through some old pictures from my freshmen year and i found one of camp. and you were sitting right next to me. but all you could see was your right shoulder and arm, and part of your face. at that moment all i wished was that you would have turned and gotten in the picture.
i love you dillon. i still always think about you. your not forgotten 🙁
I think about you everyday, randomly! I miss you like crazy you dork :/
I love you bunches and bunches (:
Stay watching over us <3
Love Beana (:
Miss you dill<3
Always thinking of you.
Tryna get my stuff together..
i love you.
Im happy to see people still come to remember Dillon, for others its easy to forget:(
Hey dillon, Thought about you today just like every other. Your picture sits on my vanity, along with the candle I burned for you at Stoffer. Im sad to say that your lost face isnt the only one that sits there. In April I lost Brandon…Brandon, my big bro. My family lost Brandon, along with so many others. I never imagined in my life time i would feel the kind of pain i felt for you…TWICE. Our hearts ache daily. I feel ripped off. We were ALL ripped off. The ultimate act of selfishness.. by two selfless people. I love you both. But i am angry! I will never understand why I….WE lost you boys..
Not a day goes by that I dont think about you. Even the most random times but thats better than never right? I wear the bracelet everyday, and I have a picture of you in a frame thats on my dresser that I look at every single day.
I’m starting college in less than a month, send me some good vibes <3
Always thinking of you and how amazing you were,
Kayla <3
I’m torn right now . I just fell apart actually. I was on Facebook and was on this girls pictures and she had a picture of her and her boyfriend and my heart dropped . He honestly looked like you, plus like 5 years because he’s a little older . But with blue eyes and similar face and just everything .
I was in shock because you two look so much alike . It’s crazy. I wish I could post a Picture on here but I can’t since I’m writing to you on my iPhone, not a computer.
As a matter of fact, i just realized its september and it will be two years. It feels just like last week that my heart shattered into pieces but yet it was my junior year which was two years ago. Two years is such a long time and I don’t know how I’m getting by.
It’s so incredible how much you shaped me and my life. You changed everything for me because I look at things completely different. Good things and bad things. I haven’t cried in awhile and now all of a sudden I’m crying when I’m writing this. It’s because you meant the world to me and its so hard not having that close contact with someone anymore that you care about so much that you can’t even put into words.
Like I said; you shaped my life but you shaped it for the better and that’s important to me because YOU made an impact and you were special to me. You weren’t just a phase in my life.
It might sound weird, but I feel like somehow someway you “guide” me to success and being happy and making the right decisions. I appreciate everything that you have done for me in the past and everything you do for me in the future . i dont do a very good job showing my emotions physicallly when you were here and maybe you just didnt know but I love you more than you could ever imagine and sorry if I never proved it to you.
<3
Dillon, I miss you like crazy, it’s getting closer and closer to that two year mark, and I don’t even know what to do. We had a lot of good times together, and I am so thankful to have had you in my life, but I will never stop wishing you were here, that magically you were somehow back again. You know, in the beginning of all this I tried to just tell my self that you were on vacation and that you were coming back, it seemed easier to just deal with it later on, but I couldn’t . I cried everyday for the longest time.. I still cry, and breakdown, but it has gotten better. It still will never be easy, and I will never stop missing you. I love you more than you will ever know. I’m sorry if I didn’t show it as much as I should have. I hope you’re still around me, and helping me try to stay positive.. <3
meggyboo
still thinking about you!
Hey Little Brother,
We are getting ready to commemorate (I think that is how it is spelled ??) the two year anniversary of the day you did the dumbest thing ever….the family and I are headed up to a very special place in the mountains to be together….and I don’t know if it is the fear of being in those sacred spots again after so long….or the fact that I am way to fat to be walking up the mountain!…but I am not looking forward to it bro. I know that once I am up there….I will be seeing you everywhere…and that excites me, but scares me a little. I miss you so much. Been having trouble sleeping again..seems like as soon as that t.v. goes off all I see is you. Its worse of course when I am on the road for work and away from Michelle…but its kicking my ass. I see you all the time, especially in your little niece…who is gonna be two in a few months. I feel you around me sometimes…but it aint enough. I miss you. I was watching this silly show last night…Parenthood……I know, I know….Michelle makes me watch it!….well, there was this seen where the big brother bails his little brother out of a jam and they hug and tell each other how much they mean to each other….I know, laim right? Anyways, it was all I could do to keep from crying. Well…I suppose thats enough of this sappy nonsense…I don’t even like writing on this stupid page but….something drew me to it today.
Love,
Josh
🙁 still in my heart everyday dillon.
i miss you soo soo much.
I miss you. <3 It's been a rough, long road without you, but I know you are watching over me. I hope I can make you smile, and make you proud. I love you.
lovemeggyboo.
Hey Dillon.
So im really scared. Tomorow is the day. I miss you so much. And im so friggin mad at you. I believed in you. So much. I dont even know what to believe in anymore. I pushed every single person that ever mattered to me out of my life. Or they pushed me out of theirs. Im not sure who wins the dumbest decision award. You or me. You chose not to live. I choose nothing to live for. I am honestly so scared of loosing people i make sure I have nobody to loose. I guess at some point im going to have to start being honest with myself. You were always good at calling me on my shit. pushing me to be as strong as you knew i was. I just dont get it. I hate the way this world works. I am not going to get into how much i have completely screwed my life up because you have been there every step of the way. But I am going to say that in a way i guess i have commited a form of suicide myself. How do i fix this Dillon. Seriously i need you. I want to be with you tomorow. I want to visit you. I want my mom to be there like she always has been. I want my brothers to be able to tell me that they love me. I want to have the courage to say something. anything. to your mom. I want to be able to see ehren nd bubba nd alana and all the people that ever meant something to you. I want to go back to the last place you parked at school. The last time you gave me a ride home. I want to sit in our biology class and I want to look at that stupid fucking coloring book we had to do. I want to hear you make fun of my shitty pictures. I want to see that elmo shirt. I want to hold on to any part of you i can. I want to go back to that night and text you back instead of falling asleep. but i ran from it all. I started running the day you left this earth and i havent stopped. I want to stop running. I miss you. and i am not ready for tomorow. I still remember jordan and sarahs face in english when they didnt want to tell me what happend to you. I want to have faith in life again. I love you Dillon Chiulli. i really do. And i always did. Just please stay with me tomorow. Dont let me go. You said you would always have my back. But tomorow i need your hand.
Rest In Peace Dillon. Dont ever think i forgot.
With all my love
Anna
Dillon my love,
Two years ago today actually was the last time I spoke to you. And of course it was over a text message. We didn’t have a very long conversation but I guess it was enough. We ended on probably the worst note and I wish I could go back in time and change what I said. The things that you said to me were some things that will never be erased from my mind. Everytime I think about you, I think about the conversation we had. I wish I could of said the right thing, I wish I could of reacted differently, I wish I could of done something.
Two years ago tomorrow was the day that my world shook, crumbled and just stopped. You really don’t understand how diffcult it’s been these past two years but I’m proud to say I’ve gotten through it. It has been probably the biggest phase/ moment or incident thats occured in my life so far. But with every incident or experience you encounter, you grow and learn. I’m so much stronger, confident, and more aware of everything around me. You really did shape me into this almost 18 year old girl I am today.
Please stay with me. You told me you would never leave me. You told me you would always be here with me. And you always told me you would have my back. Don’t let me down now.
And now all I can say is that as much as I want you back, this was your decision, your life and people are going to do what they want. Things like this happen for a reason and it’s just a cycle. You learn the most important things from the ones you love. And I will cherish and remember everything you ever told me, everything you made me realize and everything that you taught me for the rest of my life .
I miss you more than you could imagine
I have confidence i will see you again but for now rest in paradise babe, because
when I get there, it’s bout to get craaaazzzzyyyyyyy.
Watch over me ; I love you <3
Hey bro, just checking in before I go to bed.
I guess it’s because it’s been two years, but not like that really matters. Years are really just abstract anyway, not like you being more or less gone would depend on how long it’s been. Whole thing really pisses me off more than anything else.
night,
will
Dear dillon, sorry i didnt write on friday.. It was too hard for me. I miss you more than you will ever know. I feel like its been so long since youve been gone.. But it feels like it happend so much more recently. The pain and hurt has eased but i cant help but breakdown sometimes. My heart will always have a special place for you, only for you and thats how it will always be. I love you.
Love,
Meggyboo
Hey hombre I was listening to the new blink and thought of you. This album was perfect for ya, just wish you were here to hear it. Love ya man
Another month has gone by without you. I miss you more than you could ever imagine .
Even when Im alone or feel alone, I know you’re presence is with me .
Stay with me<3
Hey dillon, I have written on here in a while, I guess its cause I feel closer to you talking to you throughout my day, then behind a computer screen. I love you with all my heart, n I miss you like crazy.
<3
lovemeggyboo
hey Dillon,
ive been thinkin about you a lot lately. i dont really have much else to say just that i miss you more then anything. what i wouldnt give just to talk to you one more time. you come up a lot, especially recently. my roommates found a picture of you and asked who you were. i didnt even want to tell them what happened. i just think about all the memories we could be making. i love you. and your missed like crazy.
Missing you each and every day! Hope you and Grandma have a wonderful Thanksgiving together. I will miss you both, terribly.
Love You Pill.
Miss you each and everyday. I hope you and Grandma have a great Thanksgiving together, we miss you both terribly.
Love You Pill.
So thankful for you <3 you changed me into this independent responsible woman I am today and I'm so happy with myself . Working two jobs, going to school and not being dependent on a guy. Setting my priorities straight.
You give me the confidence to do everything
happy thanksgiving babe.
I hope you're having the time of your life
Don't have too much fun without me;
I'll be there before you know it <3
I looooove you <3
Dillon, I miss you so much. I wish you were here to talk to right now.
I miss our friendship.. our phone calls and text meant so much to me. You could always make me smile, and you were always there. I need you now, not a day goes by that I dont think of you. I love you <3
meggyboo
Merry late Christmas dillon my love.
Sorry I haven’t written anything in awhile. I’m so busy working two jobs and school on top of that . I wish you were here to tell you about my dayyyyyyy and all my funny stories . That’s what I miss most about you <3 but I know you're watching down on me so you already know what happened 😉
Love and miss you babee
– Kaylababyyyy
The things I would do for you …… <3
Love you babeeee