Dillon I’m gonna miss you. You were always good to me, ever since I first moved to Ripon. You were one of the first people I got to know, and you always knew how to make me laugh. Man I remember those days in Colony Oak when we’d hang out during break and play soccer, and everytime you’d kick the ball your shoe would go flyin. Those were good times bro. I miss you a lot, but I’ll always remember you man.
Dillon I’m goin to miss you bro. Everyone is goin to miss you. You were and still are a really good friend to me and I’ll always remember you. I’ll see you later bro.
Dillon… its so hard to believe this happened.. you are someone that can never be replaced in the lives of so many people.. the best memory i have of you is hanging out in washington and new york.. we had so much crazy fun.. and i was so mad at you, cuz you made us walk all the way down 3 manhattan blocks just to find that toystore.. you will be missed, no one can live up to you.. goodbye kid.. Rest in peace..
Don’t forget what he did to us at camp. We were so mad at the time but when I look back on it now, it’s hilarious. =) He’s the only one we would have let get away with it.
I remember when I first met Dillon, it was in 8th grade he went on the NY trip with us (it was Ripona and C.O. I believe…haha Weston sucked) and we went all around the east coast basically and we stayed in this hotel somewhere in/near/around/etc. Washington D.C., so me and him go to the lobby and there are these girls there. He looks at me and goes “Which one you want?”, and me (trying to be respectful) goes “What?” when I really did notice them on the couch. “Blonde or red?”…then he goes up and starts talking to them and he just looks at me and mouthes the words “I GOT THE RED!” So I took the blonde…that was pretty much my first B.A. moment, which I couldn’t’ve been without the help of Dillon C.
God bless you and your family! Take charge of Heaven big guy!
And anybody that sees this blog, I also made a facebook group for Dillon called “RIP Dillon C.” a lot like this, tell stories about Dillon, do whatever you need to do
Dillon,
You were the closest guy friend I have ever had. You were always there for me no matter what. I have had a lot of laughs with you and those I will never forget. I remember times in 6th through 8th grade when you would call me just for the heck of it. And how you always wanted me to have parties because of my orchard. haha we had a lot of good times together. But one thing I regret is Freshman year when I really wanted to go to the winter formal but didn’t have anyone to go with. You offered to take me. We had plans that we would go to formal together and the week before I backed out because I just didn’t feel like going. I was reminded of that tonight and it killed me because that would have been a great memory that I could have had with you but didn’t. We drifted apart the past two years but we randomly started talking again this year, just a few weeks ago. I miss you so much. Rest in peace my best guy friend ever, I love you.
Kelsey
Dillion Chiulli,
i’m not even sure what to say right now, im at such a loss for words and nothing makes sense. this honeslty doesnt feel real, and its not going to feel real for a long time. i grew up with you, we went to the same elementary school, and i cant even comprehend this happend to you. i dont have any great memories to share with people about you, because sadly, we dont have many to share. i always knew you as the happy guy on campus with the hugest and cutest smile ever. you will be missed more then anyones words can ever express and you will always be rememberd. the fact that so many people had so many great memories about you is amazing, and you were amazing. and you still are. thank you for that. miss you.
I remember when Bubba, Hayden and Dillon came over to my house. I had a 24-pack of chip bags. When I went to get my second bag, Dillon asked me to pass him another bag. In the end, he ate like 10 bags of chips; and i’m not even over exaggerating. I fucking miss you Dillon!
Dillon, you were one of the 1st people i met when i moved to Ripon last year. that one party in modesto was sick, and floatin tha river with you was hella cool too. We didn’t hang out that much, but you always had some funny shit to say, and you were always down to give me a ride when I needed one. I’ll miss you
Dillon, our family is going to miss you so much. We will especially miss you walking in the house and making yourself at home every morning! We love you and you will always be in our hearts, forever.
i will never for get when me and dillon chilln in the red hole at games at freshmen year he was the best guy anyone could meet…im sad that he gone but now i no he no’s that everyone loves him and god well keep him safe lets take this in to heart to call some one if you feel down because people do love you and were here for you i love you dillon and i will always think about u
So what can I say about you Dillon. You were an amazing guy. Made me laugh my ass off in all the classes I ever had with you. I loved seeing you making fun of kids just to cheer up other people that were down. I’m going to miss the hell out of you bro. I really will.
Rest In Peace.
Dillon I love u and will miss you forever I loved our times at taco bell and you yelling at the bio teachers about ur cheesy beef burrito u were one of my best friends I love u so much
Dillon,
i will never forget you. you were a very random guy. Even though the last words you probably said to me is “i suck at life” or it could have been “you play sick jokes on people” your still a hecka funny guy. I remember that one time when i went to your house when we got kicked out of danielles birthday party and so we went to your house and watched anime and you had taken alannas phone and you were playing with the FML application and you kept laughing to yourself and alanna kept saying that they are not funny and you just kept saying outloud that they are. You were a very loved guy. Senior year will be different without you. I will enjoy listening to stories about you. And graduation this year, will be way different without you, knowing you since elementary school, this is a bummer and this wont hit me for a while. We all LOVE you. Ill see you soon hopefully.
Dillon,
I am so lost of words right now. A lot of us are wondering why you did this..because to have such an amazing guy like you gone is just horrible to our lives. You always made me laugh..always picked on me but it was all fun and games. You were one to joke around a lot, especially in Mr. Gilman’s Marine Biology class. I’m pretty sure Gilman is going to miss you counting his “fishy days” haha. Although we haven’t gotten the chance to get to know each other more..I’ll still remember the short but good memories you’ve put into my life. Shine bright in Heaven. We miss and love you.
Dillon,
You were the first friend I’ve ever made in Ripon. You embraced me with your golden heart and your genuine soul. With love, respect, and nothing but kindness you opened me to your life. You barely knew my name, but that’s all it took for you to become friends with me. Although when High school started we seperated and weren’t as close as we were, I’ve always considered you a good friend. I remember when I was sitting at lunch, with no food. You gave me your burrito and Frutista Freeze haha. In all honesty, you are one of, if not the nicest human being I’ve ever met. Time after time you put others in front of yourself. I’m sorry to see you go, I wish I could have had a chance to say how much I love and respect you. Forever will you be in my heart. I will miss your dearly.
Your Old Friend,
Zack
Dillon Chiulli, I wish I could’ve known u like hayden did, just from hearing and witnessing with my own eyes i knew you were a great person, and i pray to whatever god or creator there is that the afterlife is a gift and the relief of pain upon your soul, those who did know u well were granted the honor to be graced by your awesomeness and ability to make others laugh, that in its own is a key trait most people dont have. I remember the time when u drew for me like a perfect pic of arthas (sadly i know it had to do with wow, but still) i wish u didnt throw it away tho 🙁 anways, I’ll miss ya bro, your death truly made me realize how life is the true hell.
-your friendly neighbor hood tree beast (logan)
Dillon, you were the reason why camp was so fun my freshman year, you always made me laugh no matter what was happening, especially when joe was pissed haha. I remember when we tied those two kids legs together with rubber bands and made them march together. Youve been a great friend and you always made people laugh no matter how pissed off they ever were at you.
May god bless your soul
-Cody Solano
Dillon, lets see so many memories…when we were at camp last year were the best ones like when you decided it was a good time to jump up and down in my room naked when Devon shirk and i were trying to study….we will all miss your sexual and racist humor and all the good times a lot of people shared with you and lastly when you would drive me home and wanted to act like a racecar driver and decided to drive 30 miles an hour and make a sharp left turn go on the sidewalk and park on my grass we will miss you Dillon may God rest on your soul
-Mitchell Green-
Dillon, i didnt really get the chance to get to really know you. From what i did know you you were a great guy. I will never forget camp of 08. You always made whatever we were doing fun and not just every one could do that. we will all hold you dear in our hearts. May God grant peace to your soul.and forever rest in peace.
-Devon S. Shirk
I still remember the time when Dillon just strait up whipped it out during my JROTC period my junior year haha. That was the thing I liked about Dillon, he never really cared what others thought of him and he was always doing the most hillarious things. I’ll always remember him as the class clown. When I look back and remember the things he did I can’t help, but laugh. I miss you Dillon RIP
i know your in a better place and out of your misery and pain. but JROTC softball will never be the same without you. i am going to miss you helping me put my catchers gear on when ever i would put the leggings on wrong. its going to be complicated being able to put the gear on right now that you are gone. i miss always seeing you walk by at lunch and insted of smiling we would make these funny growling looking faces to echother. there always will be a special HUGE spot for you in my heart just for you. there wont EVER be a moment wehn i wont b thinking of u. i love you sooooooooooo much i hope your in a happy place were ever you are i hope to see u soon i will miss you hitting the softball over the fence and never doing the 100 push-ups for it.
love always and 4ever,
your softball buddy,
♥Morgan Scott♥
I remember freshman year Dillon and i got the bright idea to tie jack dethrow and keenan sullivans legs together with a rubber band and make them march and if they got off step the rubber band would snap and hit both of their shins i can think of a millon memories where we would do stupid stuff like that
I have a memory of the first time me and dillon really got to hang out. we were fixing up an abandoned house raising money for a Washington DC trip, in normal dillon style he destroyed most of everything he touched… dillon i know your reading this up there.. you should know all your friends are thinking about you. rest in peace buddy ill never forget playing softball with us. i remember your last words to me were “ill let you get to 3rd base for 5 bucks.” ..we wern’t the “closest” of friends but i always felt like in a way you were close to everyone who knew you.. goodbye dillon.. we’ll always have the memories.
-Sam
Dillon i wish i could have known you better, but its not hard to tell that you were a great guy. But even though i didnt know you that well, Ill nver forget you. R.I.P Dillon
Dillon. For right now all i can think of is why. I love you so much you know that. We’ve been bestfriends since 8th grade ever since we discovered our love for the same things.
Some people believe their loved ones come back into life as butterflies. Yesterday i was pretty convinced you came back as a fly. While sitting and trying to let this all sink in, a fly kept landing on me pretty sure i liked it. When I tried to get rid of it it landed on my water cup and i automatically thought of you and how you would always eat and drink my food. At this point i thought you were reincarnated into a fly.
I hope your pain is gone now, we’ll meet up one day :]
i love youu
dillon,
you were by far the coolest,nicest,care-free and funniest guy ive ever had the honor of meeting. there was never a dull moment whenever you were around. im really gonna miss that. i remember once at camp you had to do a skit where u had to wear that little blue dress, bra and all, and you were the only one out of everyone who didnt want to take it off afterwards. i wasnt there for that one but i saw some pics and i sure wish i was. you have had such a huge impact on so many peoples lives. including my own. nobody will ever be able to replace you at RHS. you truly are a one-of-a-kind kid who i hate to see be gone from this world…gone but not forgotten…we all will always have the memories and will forever. i am so glad to have the honor of being able to call you my friend. you are such an awesome roll model for every single person out there and i defintatly think that there needs to be more people out in this world like you. you will always have a place in my heart and mind. i miss you so damn much and ill never forget you dude.
RIP dillon chiulli
your friend,
-cameron scott
Chewwwy! Today was so hard in 6th without you. as soon as i walked into the door i just started crying into tommy’s shoulder. i kept looking to the left of me where you used to frequently sit during art. rolling up on mrs harveys chair like a goon. i cant even explain how upset i was to hear what happened to you. We werent best friends, but you were someone i could always rant to. Either in advisory or in art, you were just always there. I took your kindness granted and i wish i could have spent more time with you because you really were an amazing guy. when i was in the shittiest moods and tried to hide it you always just knew how to make me smile or spill everything to you. I just wish you knew how much everyone cared about you, even if we didnt always show it. Ill never forget art 2,3, and 4 with you. And sgt. perry’s advisory, where some of the most life changing talks took place. Im just going to miss you so much, art, advisory, econ, just everyday, wont be the same without your happy-go-lucky attitude and your voice yelling “hey kara brown!” at me. it was never kara, always kara brown. and im still pissed cuz you got a camaro and i didnt! lol you were always someone who unerstood my love for classic cars. I hope theres nacos in heaven for you chew. i will never forget you, i wish you were graduating with us dillon. rest in paradise
Dillon,
I didn’t get to know you very well. But I certainly am sad. Every time I would see you, you had a big smile on your face, and everybody with you did too. Everyone has been so quiet. Hey man, by the looks of this you will be missed and that’s a promise. R.I.P. Dillon.
-Looiee/Luis
P.S. Me and Dillon went to Colony Oak together which makes it even harder for me… 🙁
Dillon you were the coolest T.A. ever. Velasco’s class was awesome last year. HaHa. Good times bro. You’re gonna be missed by everyone dude. Why did you do this? I hope you found peace bro. R.I.P.
Dillon, i know we werent the best of friends but you were there to help me with rifle in our competition we were in together, whenever there was a sport in JROTC you were there, you were almost everywhere i swear. i am going to miss you for years to come but i know that you are in a better place and that no harm will ever come to you. You will remain in my heart always and forever. Thanks for being there even when i didnt need you at the moment. i love you man.
Dippy, wow.. what can I say about this? Everyone is in total shock at this point. I really am going to miss your crazy butt. I’ve known you since the 6th grade. And i’m really glad that i had the opportunity to spend elementary with you. Ha ha yesterday me and Geneva were talking about you, and well, reminscing you can say, and she brought up how when we were all younger you had the BIGGEST crush on her. =) You would always give her little knic-knacks. She really enjoyed them.. Me and Courtney were also talking about how back in our freshman year how the three of us were in Apache. Yeee! Fun times. You were the highlight of the whole company. Not once did you not make us laugh. You were ALWAYS cracking jokes. -deep breath- I’m really going to miss you Dillon. I miss you now to tell you truth. Save a spot for me up there. I want to catch up once it’s my turn. Rest in peace hun.
I LOVE YOU!
Dillon Chiulli, I cant believe what has happened.. Ahh I will remember the fun memories we made together!! Like wow i remember just last year i had a fat crush on you, and i couldn’t get the courage to tell you.. and also omg In my art class you would come in, sit down and look at me like i was crazy because i got up running around saying omg i suck at art and you would say no you don’t and say hey do you have any fruit snacks haha. Also another time you were at practice and me and my friend got up and yelled Dillon Chiulli!!! And you missed the pitch and was like grr you girls!! lol Well I will always miss you and think about you every day because it was my thing to see you drive by everyday and just smile:)I’m happy i got to meet you and make memories i feel so lucky to have known you…
School and my art class wont be the same anymore..
Rest in Peace Mann
Dillion. i dont even know wat to say. You were one of the happiest most funniest person I know. YOu always made the camps fun, the skits were 10x’s better with you in them and even tho you always would get in trouble you were always smiling. you never let one time thing get in the way of you haveing a good day. Marine Biology is never going to be the same without you. Who is going to count Mr. Gilmans fishy shirts? 🙁 i cant beleive this actually happend. You really have no idea how many people are effected by this. Dillion you always made me laugh and even though we only hung out like once or twice, you would still act like we knew each other for the longest time. i love you Dillion and im really going to miss you. Rest In Peace hun
See you on the other side
Dillon, you are my best fucken friend. I hope you know that i thought you were the best even though i gave you shit. I dont know how to show how i love someone and im sorry i couldnt express my self to show that to you. i am fucking sorry man i am I somewhat blame myself for your depression and your pain instead of a friend i was a dick who acted cool around others. i know now when i was making fun of you when i should have tried to help prevent it. I remember the 5th grade i had no friends at colony oak and you were the only person interested in talking to me. I knew from the start a true friend had appeared. When i got the news man i couldnt believe it i walked into Avid and ran out. I wish you would have talked to someone i wish i was able to stop you. I am sorry Dillon i wont ever forgive myself you did so much for me and i used you. I wrote this as an apology and im Sorry man i am!
-Ehren Griesheimer
Heyy Ehren. Don’t blame yourselff for dillon’s depression.. I know its so hard not to. Cause i DID feel the same way.. He wanted so many chances to date me. I’d say ok and never give them to him. And it would make him so sad. Dillon had so many other problems other than friends.. I guess they just all built upp.. And he couldn’t handle them even though he WAS the strongest person ive EVER knownn..
I readd your entre andd.. i feltt your pain..
Dillon, hmm how do u explain such a great guy i didn’t know you that well we had a few conversations here and there over the last two years and i know you always had fun at camp becuase i remember that camp last year u petrified the shit outta taj for soo long lol you set apache up for jokes for the rest of the week lol i wish we coulda talked more and became better friends u were always a great friend and a great person im sure ur going to get heaven cause they’ll ask why you shuld be there and ull say cuz ur funny and they say okay haha i miss you and we all will see you up there buddy
-Kyle C. Bodenschatz
Dillon. I can’t believe your gone. I don’t know why you went, but I hope that wherever you are know your happy. We all miss you =/. You know, your still in my phone as DILLON HAS A HUGE PENIS, just like you put yourself in there as. I’m not going to change it ever. I remember back to our Freshmen year in Apache company, we fought all the time about the stupidest things all the time. But it was friendly fighting. You brought us so many funny times. In JROTC, we’ll think of you every time somebody brains someone lol. We’re dedicating the softball games to you, and the cart. You would think it was awesome man. And we’re going to kick navy ass just for you. The last time I saw you, I saw you smiling, and in your softball shirt, and driving the car you loved. That’s how I will always remember you. Sorry for all the shit I ever gave you, I never meant it.
Love, Amber.
hey dillon i really don’t know what went wrong in life. u were always such a happy guy and everyone loved you for that! i remember when i was new at that school u showed me around and made me open up =] i miss you so much! your such a great person and u always knew how to cheer me up when i was down. if i knew u were going through stuff i woulda tried to help u as much as i could because u always did that for me, i love you soo much your prolly the coolest person i have ever met. i remember when u were dressing up emo and accidently pierced ur lip it was a funny day and it sucks u had to go soo soon u were so young. i really wonder what you would have grown up like. i think you would be a succesful man with a beautiful family. i know so many of us are going to miss you like crazy. u were the nicest guy i have met! i love you and hope your in a better place now. love, ashley
Dillon.i dont really know you but i remember the one time i met you.i was working at barnwood and my hands were full so you opened the door for me and after i said thankyou you introduced yourself to me and we sparked up a little conversation.lol.you seemed so sweet and its very sad that you are gone.
Dillon,
Idk what I’m going to do not seeing you everyday. There was never a dull moment when you were around. You were either making fun of people or just saying things to make people smile. I remember the first time I met you, two years ago. The whole time we were together you were picking on me, but I didn’t get mad, I just laughed. I’m gonna miss you always and forever, and ill always cherish the good times we had together. I love youu
R.I.P. Dillon Chiulli
Like many others, I’m so confused about everything now. This whole thing has turned my world upside down. I’m not 100% sure about anything anymore. Nothing seems to make sense at all. I can’t wrap my head around the whole concept. I’m just so damn frustrated. I guess I just want to know why. I can’t even begin to contemplate what the reasoning is behind all of this. I just keep telling myself that everything happens for a reason, but there is no way I will ever understand the reason that this had to happen. It hurts and I miss him. I will never forget the last words he said to me. “Damn Jack, you run like the Nazis are right behind you.” It was funny because I am Jewish. We were at JROTC conditioning, and was running like crazy around the bases on the softball field. Dillon was a great kid and an incredible person. I will miss him. I will always remember his laugh, his goofy personality, and his unquestionably kind heart. May he forever rest in peace.
Dillon,
So remember our first memory out the few we had? It was your birthday and you guys invited Holly and I to the movies. Your mom drove us and we were all squished in your car. When we got the the movie we were a little late. Love Guru or whatever was what we saw… then we went movie hoping until your mom came and we went into the Hulk. We all wanted to stay cause that was sucha better movie then Love Guru. Then we went back to your house and chilled for days. Member Bubba? “He’s in Japan!” Ah man, you had a great sense of humor. Then we all sang Happy Birthday… And then member coming into my room for the first time and like freaking out about my sound system? You thought it was the coolest thing ever. You put on Bad Touch and I was like what is this?! But I soon loved it. I can just see you now, sonic in one hand and my ipod in the athor. Our last memory was when we all wantd to play cider pong but we had no cider… You jumped up and said don’t worry guys I got it. Then you went and got the cider and ping pong balls. We weren’t that close but those times we spent together I’ll always remember. You had such a big heart and I’m sad that I didn’t get a better chance to get to know you. I’m sorry for all the pain you felt. I hope you see how many people’s lifes you played a role in. Stay funny as ever man.
Rachel
Dillon,
You will forever be missed and remembered. You were an amazing friend. You could always make me laugh, even when I was having the worst day. We’ve all taken you for granted at some point in time, but that will not alter how you are remembered. REst in peace Dillon. I already miss you. –Love Kimberly Stegner
Hey man, I cried.. AGAIN today. ): still missing you bro.
Apparently someone’s talking shit about you.
You know what? They’re getting their ass kicked.
Maybe by me, maybe not me.
All you need to know is whatever i do, is for you bro.
Rest in Peace.
Bubba, Hayden and Ehren miss you; you should visit them.
Dillon,
I didnt know you all that much but the couple times i saw you or talked to you, you always made me laugh! Like one time i was eating lunch at the tables and you sat by me and said “your name is macy right?” so I said “yeah” and you said “like the store macy’s?” I laughed and said “yeah” so you said “im going to call you j.c. pennys!!” and you walked away. It was funny and ill never forget that. You had a lot of friends and people who cared about you. You will be missed Dillon…very much. i hope you feel better now and all the weight is lifted from your shoulders. JROTC was fun 🙂 Just because your in another place dosnt mean you can stop being the funny guy you were. Rest In Peace Dillon.
-Macy
Dillon,
i dont know why you had to go..it shocked me to hear you were gone..you will always be remembered in our hearts. you were and amazing person. always made me laugh by cracking jokes..damn man. im going to miss you. we all are. there was never a dull moment with your crazy ass. haha
Dillion,
We never did get to hang out as much as i wouldve liked to, but the memories we did share will forever be in my heart. football games were a blast when you were there. thanks for all the rides too lol. my first day at ripon high you were already acting like we were best friends. I still have your sunglasses that your wearing in the picture above. i pulled them out today and cried, your gone and it dosnt feel right. i miss you big guy. when i get to heaven ill give your glasses back but i want my pink ones back! lol but for now you can have them 🙂 i mean its probably really bright there right? try not to pull any major pranks on anyone important, i know you thrive on that but god will probably kick your ass lol. I love you buddy, save a seat for me next to you…
-Ill remember you always and forever
Dillon,
I honestly wish I could of talked to you more this year and I wished we didn’t fall apart like we did through out highschool. I remembered all the times at Colony Oak when we would argue and make fun of each other. Although it sucked at the time, I really wish you were here to argue with me cuz then at least I would get to talk to you. I miss art freshman year when it was you, me, brenda, ashley, kelsey, and eladio. That was my favorite class of all time. It just hit me just now that you’re really gone. I know youre in a better place but I’m selfish and I just wish you were still here. 🙁
DeAr DiLlOn I mIsS yOu. YoU pRoBaBlY nEvEr KnEw HoW i FeLt FoR yOu BuT i FoUnD yOu To Be OnE oF tHe FeW tO mAkE mE sMiLe WhEn I wAs AnGrY. yOuR cOmMeNtS mAdE mE lAuGh WhEn I tHoUgHt It WaS hArD tO SmIlE. iN jRoTc I oNcE fElT lOsT bUt LaUgHiNg WaS hOw YoU mAdE mY fInD mY sElF WhEn I wAs In A dArK pLaCe. I dOn’T uNdErStAnD wHy YoU wEnT sO sOoN bUt I wIsH yOu EvEr LaStInG pEaCe.AnD I hOpE yOu DoN’t FeEl PaIn AnY mOrE lEt YoU wOnDeRfUl SpIrIt ReSt In HeAvEnLy PeAcE. wItH mUcH lOvE
LiZeTtE
dillon…..my little cabbage patch kid…i cant believe ets true i relly cant…i can remember everyday at lunch freshman year u wud begg, bribe, and yell at me too give u a massage…an how we hav the same shoes those dirty old red shoes an how u promised too be my shoe buddy forever….what happened too forever….im gonna miss u more then i can possibly describe…ill always regret getting mad at u for kissing me cause i kissed back so i couldntve of possbily got mad at u…the last thing u said too me is “nice job handleing those bats tooday,…u should hanlde mine sometime soon…” i blew you a kiss and walked away…
ill love you forever and always with all my heart
your wife/personal massager…<3
Dillon,
You don’t know how fucking much this hurts me. You may have thought that no one loved you, but man, I can’t even put into words how much I loved you. I just really really wished you would have talked to me about it. I don’t know what to do man. The rest of this year is going to be so hard for me.
Best friends forever. Til the end. Every night i stayed at your house. Disneyland. Blink. Intense talks. Fighting over Antioch Megan. She really did love you Dillon, and you left us without ever meeting her.
I could go on and on. Dillon you made the wrong decision. Life has it’s rough patches, and Dillon, Kayla is not the right person to talk about this stuff too. I’m your BEST FRIEND. Til it’s my time now we cannot be.
Dillon, may you rest in peace. Heaven better be one hell of a place (no pun intended). Visit me some time man. We’ve talked about this before.
My heart goes out to you,
I FUCKING LOVE YOU.
You were the most amazing guy i’ve ever met. People up there are enjoying you just as much as we enjoyed you.
Dillon,
You were the most sweetest and funniest guy i knw. evn tho i didnt knw u dat well but i wish i got to knw u beta tho. i will nvr forget thoze dayz in art wit u, lyk az soon az i walk in u wuld yell”Krystal can u give me a massage” n of courze i couldnt say no. N all thoze timez u wuld aruge with zack n the others to get a massage 4m me lol. Or how that one time u tryed to jerk in clazz n i showed u how it waz done n u got mad n said u dnt lyk it no mre cuz u couldnt get it rite man im gunna mizz thoze dayz in art. Art iznt gunna b the same witout u buddy u made the clazz fun all the time n nw itz juz sad n quite. U were the loudezt perzon there lol. But now i can c u r in a beta place were u wnt hve to b sad n nothin can hurt u nomre. N i bet ur playn prankz or bazeball up there huh lol. well juz membr every will alwyz love u n mizz u n N alwyz in our heartz n prayz. I guezz thiz iz goodbye Dillon 4 nw i juz wizh i got to knw u beta. Tke care up there.–
MAZZAGE BUDDY KRYSTAL
dillon no chuuuleeee,
remember when the day when you FINALLY asked me why i called you that? and i told you it was because in spansh chulo means handsome and so i would call you dillon no chuuuleee to mess with you and you started trying to make up mean nick names for me after that? like ball sack and a whole bunch of lame ones and you just kept coming up short man. but its ok. dillon you left too soon. now that your gone i honestly realize how much i appreciated you and wish that you could be here with all of us one more time, at least to say good bye. you left too soon and left us with so many questions. i just want to let you know that i love you man. i will ALWAYS remember you and the way you would always walk, as kallie often said “on his tip toes”, you really did man. i just cant stop picturing your big blue green eyes and the long eyelashes that surrounded them. i will see you again dillon, i love you and we ALL miss you. never forget that.
love “dumbass”
Dillon.. its hard still to believe youre gone. you were always the funniest kid. i have so many memories of you, but the one i will forever remember is my 13th birthday party. you opened like 15 cans of soda and just started throwing it on my garage floor and then before i knew it you were sliding through it… (theres still a stain there by the way) i never was able to get it off.. and also how you shoved hot cheetos up your nose.. i found the picture of that this morning.. i know we didnt really talk all that much in high school, and i regret that more than anything.. but i more grateful than anything else in thr world that we were friends in elementary school. you were always the nicest person.. and i remember i used to have the hugest crush on you in like 6th grade.. i think we went out for like 45 minutes lol. i’ll always remember you buddy.. youll always have a special place in my heart. i’ll see you again one day 🙂
Dillon,
I will forever miss you. Although we never really got to know each other, I feel like I have known you forever. You were indeed the life of art, with your smile and jokes. Working on the homecoming poster with you was indeed a pleasure, even though you would ditch Kara, Christian, Claudia and I to go inside. Thanks for all the laughs. I will miss you. -Emily
dillon,
(aka: my teddy-bear)
I dont even know where to begin. You mean sooo much to me. It is impossible to describ my love for you, but im gonna give it my best shot. You are my best friend. i tell you everything. You always make me laugh… even when your saying something mean! Somehow i never seemed to get mad at you. Well, we would argue, but we got over it because you would say something ridiculous! I had a hard year as a freshman, but i always knew that you were there for me and no matter how badly i screwed up u would always love me. you have such an amazing gift in finding the good in people and loving them unconditionally. i will never forget when i wrote “dillon loves anna” on one of your shoes and “anna loves dillon” on the other one. i thought i was so cool and i was so proud of it. but you just laughed at me and told me that if you had to claim me then i had to claim you too. oooh and that time i was wearing white shorts and you kicked me in my butt nd got them all dirty. you felt so bad, but i just started laughing because only you would do that. i try to remember all the good times, but i also remember all the talks we had. you opened up to me and told me thing you were feeling. i didnt understand how deeply these things were hurting you. im so sorry i wasnt there for you more. but i truley do love you with all my heart. so much that you took part of me with you. i dont know if i should be angry with you or thank you. part of me is angry because you are such a great person and its not fair that you had to deal with so much pain. im angry with myself that i couldnt take it away. but another part of me is just so thankful for the time i did spend with you. i am so lucky to have gotten to know you so well. i sat in the last place you parked at school today. i remember i complained because it was like impossible to get into the car. i made you promise to never park there again. i take it back now though, i would give anything for you to be able to park there again. you are so good to me too. you gave me a ride home every day and never ever complained. even though it was in the opposite direction of your house. i wish i could have the opportunity to tell you how much you mean to me. i prayed for the first time in i dont know how long. i never pray because i believe in making your own happieness, but u know that cuz iv already told you that. but i prayed today, and not to god, but to you. i prayed that you would gice me a sign to let me know you were there. something funny so i could smile. you are always the person making people smile. we have marine biology together with mr. gilman. it is definately not my favorite class, but i looked forward to it everyday because it is my only class with you. i dont know what im going to do without you being there to make fun of my coloring. i dont want to sit here and complain, but im so lost dillon. you are the only person that i tell absolutely everything to and i dont know who to turn to now. im so lost without you. i dont understand how if your life wasnt worth living then how could mine be? u know? you are such an amazing and unique person with so much carisma and life. i have a whole knew perspective on life now. life seems like a waste of time. if they say heaven is a better place then why are we draggin out are misery. isnt it human nature to do whatever makes us happy? people keep telling me that people that commit suicide have a chemical imbalance. i dont believe that. i think they are the ones that have the courage to go after their happiness. i think its the rest of us that are cowards. i dont know. maybe im wrong. im not really sure of anything anymore. i just want you to know that you are my dependable teddy-bear that i love dearly. u are handsome and adorable. u left us all with wonderful thoughts of you. there is not one person that truely dislicked you. you are my hero. you are always your own flirtacious person. ill be with you laughing some day in the future. im sure of it! and i hope you are wearing that elmo shirt that always made me smile. only you could pull that off. im trying to think of what you would say right now and all i can come up with is “stay in school kid!” i used to hate when you said that, but now i hold on to the memory of you saying it for dear life.
Dillon, no words can explain how I’m feeling right now. When I heard I hoped that it was just some stupid rumor and that I would see you later in the parking lot. I can’t keep myself from crying every time I think of you. It sucks that we haven’t talked much in the last two years but I will always remember the good’ol times freshman and sophomore year. Art freshman year will always be one of my favorite classes. I’ll always remember your constant jokes and how you always made me laugh. I’ll always remember when you found that bike with the missing tire in the bushes. I miss you. I hope your pain is gone now. Rest in peace.
dillon
i never really got to know you man and i didnt think the best of you but i jsut misunderstood you if i could go back i would have gotten to know you better you had so many friends that need you you deserved a full life man
your a great guy
Rest In Paradise my friend
Dillion-
I seriously considered you my brother. You were seriously over my house as much as my brother, and I always had the best damn time when you were around. Whether it was you giving my rides everywhere, or telling me im cute when we pass by in the hallway, you were always there for me, and i love you for that. you may have been three years older than me, and have been my brothers friend, but i always considered you my friend too. I hope you’re up in heaven reading this, because you owe me. You promised me you were going to help me get a wall of pussy, filled with plaques that have the named of every girl ive banged inscribed in it. You said we were going to fill up pizza plus’s walls with plaques of pussy on it. So once im up there with you, you owe me big time. Dillion, whether we were going to a Blink-182 concert, sitting in a car talking about wisdom sticks, or just chilling at my house, you were always the fucking funniest kid ive ever met, always full of life and love, and were a true friend.
I love you dillion, tear it up in the afterlife.
and just for you, ill get our pussy wall started. You see.
dillon..i miss you man..i want you back here,just to keep you a little bit longer..i cant believe youre gone and i still dont..we had funny ass memories together even though it wasnt too many,im so fucking happy i got to know you and youre an amazing person..you didnt have to go..we all love you and want yo back..i still dont understand it and i dont think i ever will..i will never forget you man..sleepover wass thee sheitt with you(: ill see you when its my time&&we will have so many more memories up there..rest in peace babyy..we miss you at home=/ i love you forever and everrr
-leslie
Sorry guys imma rewrite it. So im a junior i have known Dillon for god knows how long and i have slept on that one couch for as long as i can remember. Me and Dillon always argued about stupid shit and we would laugh later. Well here i am saying im sorry. I am sorry for thoses hurtful pranks i pulled on your cars. I am sorry for yelling at you when you were right and i was in a bad mood. I am sorry for always trying to embarres you infront of people. i am sorry for ignoring your problems. I am sorry for encouraging others to talk shit about you and i would laugh. I am sorry for the countless times that i let you down when i would try to avoid you during school. I am sorry for only telling people you were just my ride instead of telling them you were one of my friends. I am sorry for making up excuses as to why i hang out with you. I am sorry for never inviting to you anywhere. I am sorry for calling you last when you were my last resort. I am sorry for always getting mad at you when you started liking the same things as me. I am sorry for always telling you that you were ugly and fat. I am sorry for all the times i put you through stress with Megan when i told her the things you trusted me with.I am sorry for all theses things idk how to make it up to you. I mean you were my only friend at Colony Oak and im sorry that i didnt treat you the same way you taught me. I will help look after your mom and dad. Me bubba and hayden will still go over there and make sure that those couches are not empty. So basically what i am trying to say is im sorry and im trying to make it up to you. If i was writing this in paper the ink would’ve spread by now. Your friendship is something i will cherish for the rest of my life so heres my apology….
-Ehren Griesheimer
Dillon it’s sad to think I will no longer see u at school for u to smack me upside the head lol=) But since the first time back in elementry when i met u i had the greatest times. Do you remember the time in 6th grade when we got referals because you called me a monkey and then i went up and hit you =) i remember both of us sitting in the office waiting for Mrs. Kahl and then she finally called us in and we just started busting up laughing =) and how we keeped getting in more trouble because we couldnt stop laughing at Mrs. Kahl. I have so many memories with u from elementry till my sophmore year at camp. You got me through that whole year making me laugh and telling me your funny story’s that sometimes made no sense cause you had just made them up. I love you so much Dillon and will miss you so much.
-Jackie
Dillon, dude we used to be good friends back in the days.Then i moved away about two years ago and we lost contact.Man i wish we kept in contact cuz we were really good friends.its hard to believe your gone.i still remember the days when me and you would ride our bikes around and go to honda hills and everything.i remember us trying to fix our bikes and not know what the heck we were doing.those were the good times that will always be missed with you dude.i knew your for about 3 years and it was some of the most amazing times of my life.Everytime i was hanging out with you it was just constant smile and non-stop laughing.you always made everyones day better at school by being so funny and just yourself.dude words could never explain how i feel in my heart that your gone……this instantly brought tears to my eyes to know i would never talk to you again.i know everyone loved you so much and everyone is so sad about you being gone.like i said words could never explain anyones feelings about how they will miss you and the terrible feeling of you being gone dude.i just want you to know in that better place there going to take care of you man and i will always love you in my heart and in my feelings even though we didnt talk for awhile it wont be the same without you here dude.i miss you and always will..the most love i have goes to ou man i love you dude and R.I.P. your in the place of perfection now now let your light shine bro!much love-Justyn Johnson
Dillon You were like an older brother to mee we hung out together and spent the night at your house and had so muck fun. we had the biggest pillow fight ever. i will miss u so much. ur in a better place now i love you man RIP/
Dillon. This week has been the worst of my life. I just really can’t believe this is happening and that your gone. You will always have a place in my heart and I will never ever forget you. You have always been the sweetest guy. I remember the first time I met you, Goekan was trying to take your phone away and you pointed to mine in my pocket and said “why don’t you take hers?” I was really glad he didn’t take mine. But after you apologized for almost getting my phone taken away, we became good friends. I will never forget our long talks after school. I remember asking you a million questions and you never got frustrated like most people would. You explained everything to me. And that time we went snowboarding for Megan’s birthday. While all the other guys went on the big hills, you stayed with us girls the whole time on the tiny bunny hill and made sure we made it down safely every time. And your snowball fight while we were searching for Louie. I’m pretty sure it was you that fell into the giant hole. lol There is also that time that we attacked you with water balloons. And you guys whipped out noodles and WB40 to throw at us. Even though Libby got sick, it was a great night that I will never forget. Today I found your shirt. Last week when I needed a shirt for cross country you took the one off your back and let me use it. You were an awesome guy and I miss you so much. I really wish you were still here. I love you Dillon and I miss you so much. I can’t even begin to describe how I feel right now. I’m shocked and confused. I don’t know what to think about it. I hope that all your pain is gone but I just really wish you would have thought this through and talked to someone. There are so many people down here that love you so very much and just wish you were still here. I’m still waiting for you to walk up, and give me the biggest most amazing hugs that you used to always give me. You were a great guy with the nicest and sweetest personality. I wanna thank you for all the amazing memories we had and for always finding a way to put a smile on my face no matter what kind of day i’m having. I love you Dillon and I wish I could see your handsome face again. RIP Dillon and I hope heaven is as good as you hoped. Have fun up there and don’t forget that you will always be remembered for your caring heart(: Love You
I didn’t get to know you well man but you were in my JROTC class your freshman year… you always gave me a good laugh and you were in my mind a good friend to me in JROTC… latly i havn’t seen you around i been moving all over the place further and further from ripon wish we could have hung out more… i’m living out in stockton so to go to ripon every day woulda been a hassle… but what i do know about you.. is you always had a smile on your face… so all this is so overwelming to me… i remember in JROTC every time we went to go to push ups he’d be the only one down there making me laugh because i had just returned from basic training 2 days before that… so i needed a good laugh, well gonna miss ya man R.I.P. Dillon!
Dillon, you were in my company the first year i joined JROTC. You made me laugh all the time. I couldn’t believe the news when I found out. Your were an amazing guy. I haev so many JROTC memories of you just playing around and being the cool funny guy who made everyone laugh. I am sad that i didn’t get to talk to you one more time and hear one more funny joke before your departure from this life. I will miss you deeply. R.I.P.
Love,
Janelle
DILLON, WE HAD SOME GOOD TIMES LAST YEAR IN JROTC.LOL…EVEN THOUGH I WAS IN A DIFFERENT SCHOOL AWAY FROM ALL OF YOU GUYS, ALL OF YOU GUYS WERE ALWAYS IN MY MIND…ESPECIALLY THE CRAZY TIMES DURING 4TH PERIOD.HAHA….THE MEMORIES WILL ALWAYS LIVE ON BRO…REST IN PEACE…
Dillon, DillyDog or my favorite chilli dog(:
man oh man freshman year was so much fun! i still remember how you would always get in trouble in Mr. Gilmans class. cyclone! oh geez things wont be the same with out you. I am gonna miss ya buddy. we had some good times, i remember i got mad at you because you took like eight days to sign my yearbook but when you finally gave it back it was done all creativly and awesome. you and your artisic ablilities! they were amazing.. the next pacaso.! (: well i already miss you! 🙁
rest in peace buddy. we all miss you dearly.
We lost a friend, So dear to us, A life so young, It was not just. He was a son, a friend, a classmate, and more, and now he is above, with our dear Lord. He was sweet, and kind, always a good friend, we all will miss him, but this isn’t the end. He will live on in our hearts and memories, from now until forever, for we will miss him, our dear friend, Dillon Chiulli.
I’m gonna miss ya Dillon and all the crazy jokes you always made. I’ll never forget how you use to always want whatever food or drink i had in my hands. Especially if it was a Monster energy drink. We are all miss you so much. We all loved you.
we’ll all miss you dillon. we all love you. you are in a better place now. i havent stopped thinking about you. ive cried a lot. even though we werent really close ill never forget you and ill miss getting punched everyday:'(”’ goodnight…
Dillon this is my first year at Ripon High and I didn’t really know you but im gong to miss haring you yell at Azbill sayin if she didn’t shut-up you would hit her in the face with the softball! God Bless Your Soul Dillon!!
dillon.
dog i remember meeting you in biology.
we used to kiick it and chill.
but we had some ruff patches.
and things went down that shouldnt of.
i never knew dog.
i didnt know u felt the way u did.
i wish i could have been there for you bro.
i thought u were unbreakable dude.
i remember people would say shiit and i didnt even thiink it bothered you.
noone could breakk it dude.
i wiish none of that shiit happened between us dude.
you were a cool dude.
but ayye.
your gigiin wiith dre now in heavenn.
but hey when i meet u in heaven ill bring the beers.
dillon.
you will be truly missed.
personally-i will miss the way you and shane made fun of me constantly about everything i did.
(especailyy daydream with my mouth open)
thanks for always making me laugh when no one could.
i hope you realize you were truly loved and will be forever in our hearts.
we love you<33
Dillion Chewy… bro i loved spelling your name like that… Hey I dont know what made you pull and fade away from our lives but fuck bro i miss you. Your were the nicest mo fo in the world and i knew you loved me and would do anything for me just like i would for you. I wish you came to me or hayden and talked but that was your choice.. I hope you know know how much everyone really cared for you but now you are in Gods hands and ik he will take care of you just like you took care of all of us. But anyways i love you man and not a day will go by where i wont shed a single tear.. fuck man RIP
Dillon, you were by far one of thee nicest people I have ever met. We went to good ‘ol Colony Oak together and that’s where it all began. High School came and we didn’t really talk that much and then this year came around, our Senior year, and you always said hello to me before English. You would walk in the class before me and say “Hey April” and I was probably cranky that day and replied “Hi.” You then said something hilarious which put a huge smile on my face. We will always save your seat in Economics and English. You can’t be replaced Dillon. We love you soo much and wish you could have stayed to know that. You had such an amazing future ahead of you with baseball and your determination, you could have done anything at all. You will NEVER be forgotten. Each day someone or a group of people will think about you. You can now be completely free in heaven. Please let your best friends know you’re still here, don’t freak them out, just hug them and tell them you love them. We’re all looking forward to visiting you when it’s our time. Make heaven laugh.
We love you, always & forever,
April Wright
Dillon!! Why did you have to go!?!? I miss you so much bro…. I remember the first time I met you, you were one of my first friends last year at RHS. I met you in JROTC and the rest of the year was just so great with you. I remember when I messed around a lot and you had to deal with me cause I was so annoying. But I remember all the fun times we had, we would wear the same shirts accidentally and I wouldn’t take mines off because it was always fun. I looked up to you man, I never had a chance to actually tell you that, but when I do meet you one day I will. You were the funniest and worry-free guy I have ever met. When I found out about you, I didn’t know how to react till now because it’s too unbelievable… I miss you way too much and remembering you will carry on as I life through my life. Glod bless you and R.I.P. Dillon
Dillon
Dude I’m praying for you every day up there. I pray you walk upon the streets of gold. Man I remember finally telling myself one day that I was going to actually start doing my homework AT HOME because I knew I wouldn’t get it done as long as you were sitting at my lunch table because you would make me laugh so much. Man I loved you right off the bat dude. I’m going to miss your reds shirt and you hiding your hat from the golf cart guy every day across the table from me. I’m also sorry that you were disappointed with Megan Fox’s situation and I was too homie. Pizza plus was chill last friday night dude and I remember going home that night and telling myself that you were a true friend to anyone and everyone. You proved that to me the first time I met you freshman year. You made life fun day to day in your own way and that’s what made you such a great person. You would do anything for anyone without EVER expecting something in return. I regret not telling you I loved you more often than I did Dillon because you deserved it. Being around you was never boring and I can’t thank you enough for that. God will treat you well up there Dillon. Treat you the way you should have been treated at all times down here. We all miss you Dillon. We all love you. I’m sorry you didn’t see that before. I’m sure you’ve found the fruit snacks up there already my friend and I’m sure they are better than any crap we get down here. I love you man. You’ll always be on my heart. Dillon, LIVE in peace. Death is not the end, it’s just the next chapter to life my friend.
Love always,
Dan Cap
My Cabbage patch kid…you know you were still left like that in my phone for like ever…well i’ve go some pretty amazing memories with you…you were in my squad in rotc and it was pretty epic. and when you text me its my birthday make me a cake..so i actually did and bought you a cabbage patch card just for you.me and my mom seriously could not stop laughing.Or when you broke my window and said put it back together with duck tape they wont notice. i’ve go so many great memories with you and i wouldnt trade any of it for the world….it was such and honor to have known you and your family…your and amazing person..i love you cappage patch kid….
love courtney
Dillon, damn.
You were the last person I thought this could happen to.
We weren’t friends, but JROTC with you was so much fun.
Skits and everything.
So many people miss you.
Just reading all of these posts show it.
R.I.P.
Wow.. where do I start? When I heard what happened my heart dropped.. I couldn’t believe it. I have to say that you are the last person in the world I would have ever expected this from. How can someone with so much LIFE all of the sudden be gone? I still can’t believe it..
I had you as my cadet in JROTC sophomore year. I saw so much potential in you.. I remember how frustrated I would get because you would always goof around. Being the Rotcy Nazi that I was, I wanted you to take it as seriously as I did. I wanted you to find the potential that I saw in you and run with it. But you didn’t care, your main concern was putting a smile on everyone’s face. I will admit that no matter how frustrated I would get with you when you would crack a joke or make a scene, I was dying of laughter on the inside. You are one of the funniest people I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. Your smile, your laugh, your sense of humor.. you always had a way of lighting up the darkest room. I hope you understand that I respect you for the person you were. You could have done anything you wanted to do.. and I was right. You have always been the kind of person where if you wanted something bad enough, you went for it. You would never second guess yourself or let anyone get in your way. I hope you have finally found the happiness you had been longing for all this time. You have had such an impact on everyone’s life and I hope you know how much we all miss you. You were a friend to everyone in one way or another.. I knew you would go far.. R.I.P.
I met Dillon while hangin out at the Koch house with Grant & Hayden. He was a good friend, always laughing and smiling. He would give me a ride home from school all the time, and if u know where i live its kinda funny. Its a short ride. Every time I make that walk I will think of him. I will never turn a corner at Ripon High without expecting him to jump out and pick me up and throw me around. He used to tell me all the time that when I grew up I was gonna be a pus*y magnet. Good times.. He was awesome and I will miss him.
Dillon. Aka Chilli D. So your pretty much going to be missed by every single person in Ripon. I don’t think you realize how many people truely care about you. Some people just never showed it. Including me. I haven’t talked to you in a long time, and i regret that. But from what i hear you are still the same loving and silly Dillon you use to be. I just wish you were still here so i could make new memories with you. It’s really sad to know that you were that sad and didn’t tell anyone. Lots of people would have been here for you and supported you. You just needed to speak up. Well its to late now. I hope you are happy and painfree where ever you may be now. Hopefully in heaven. You are in my heart and prayers till the day i die. Love you (: see you soon.
wow….. i miss you so much im still in shock dillon, why did you leave us? wish you got the chance to realize that so many people love you and care for you… this wont make any sense but i will see you one day i promise and well laugh and joke around like we did in 6th with miedinzki i promise that one day my friend one day…. ill love you always and care for you even though you will wont be here in person i still believe your spirit will be with us all… ill carry you in my heart dillon
love always and forever, Hilary
Sorry for my previous comment.
I was just trying to show dillons sense of humor,
i didnt mean to offend anyone.
i love dillon forever, and im sorry if i offended anyone.
There is no doubt that Dillon is loved and will be missed. He touched lives through his friendship and personality, clearly shown by the entries on this page. But the one thing that I want to point out is that no one saw this coming. Dillon’s fun attitude and outgoing personality masked the sadness inside. How could this have been avoided? What part do we play? “Smile at someone, know someone, say something, ask the question, make the call, take the drive. Every life is priceless and fragile. We get to guard and fight and care, for the people around us. There are plenty of things to fight about and for over the course of our lives – let’s remember that people are the most important thing, the brightest surprises on the planet. Let’s remember that every single person has a story entirely unique and incredibly important, but not everyone can see it. And what a privilege that we get to do our best to remind and invite people, to believe better things, to believe that it’s possible to change, to believe that life is worth living… We’re not saying that it’s easy. But we’re saying that it’s worth it.” It is NEVER too late to ask for help if you feel helpless, there is hope for the hopeless. “Maybe it starts when we push back at the stereotype and the lies that fuel the stigma that says pain is something we’re not allowed to talk about, or that pain is for people a certain age who dress a certain way and like a certain song. Those are lies. The truth is that pain is part of being human. The questions will continue to come. We all get stuck in moments. The good news is that there is also hope and love and change. The good news is that we were meant for friends. The good news is counseling and treatment. The good news is that we don’t have to go alone.”
If you or a friend is struggling with sadness or depression, please seek help. It never had to be this way.
You’re exactly right! We are never alone in the place we call life. Even when we feel no one will listen; God is there listening to our fears and thoughts.
Dillon, you little shit, you don’t even realize what a little brother you were to me and a big brother you were to the little ones that adored you so much. It will be hard not seeing smoky and the bandit making our midnight runs to taco bell, your red jersey and clown shoes, your millions of soda cans everywhere, you’re
“eeehhhhhh” laugh.
We will miss you dearly Dillon, I’m sure we will see you out front playing with the kids and one day and I will pin you down on the grass again!!
Love you kid.
Dillon,
you were such an amazing person
and i am so lucky i was able to call you my friend.
It hurts that your gone
but your not in pain anymore
You were someone that walked into my life and so quickly left it
But you have helped me so much as a person
And even though it makes me cry to think about not being able to see your face at break or atleast talk in passing, your happy now and your with the angels now.
You are truely free now
but i still will miss having you in my life.
XOXO
emily
Dillon, I knew you since elementary school. We were great childhood friends but unfortunately we grew apart when we got to high school. I remember when you would call my house every night like 3 times. You would always take my money and my food, but I didn’t mind at all. Hanging out at recess and with Kelsey and Alanna after school or at the mall are some of my fondest memories of growing up. Your natural ability to make people laugh and smile lives on in everyone’s hearts. I hope you know now that we were laughing with you all along. Our whole school has been silent these past few days and it breaks my heart to think that you are gone and now everyone is such a mess. Unfortunately it had to take this to make everyone come together and express their love to you. Third period was a chilling experience today without you. Your now empty chair will always remind me of our friendship, but I want you to know that it never died. People change and unfortunately grow apart. Feelings do not always change however. I will always love you as my dear friend. May you be at peace and smile once more, love.
Lizzie
Dillon,
I never knew you felt this way.
You always seemed so happy and carefree.
4th period Marine Biology will never be the same without you.
You made that class fun, your song to Mr. Gilman was so funny.
I’ve been singing it in my head all week.
Everyone in that class misses you so much.
There won’t be a day that goes by that I won’t think of you.
I wish I would have took the time to talk to you more when I had the chance.
I miss you.
I really do.
Everyone at RHS misses you, you may not have noticed how you made in impact on each and every student there.
But all that matters is that you are happy now.
R.I.P Dillon Chiulli
I will always remember you.
i didnt know Dillon but i heard all the funny stories. i wish i could have met him. his kindness was known all around school. he’s not gone he’s not physically here for us to see face to face, hug him, and tell him things. we can still talk to him just in a different way. don’t forget that because he will always be there for everyone. things like this happen and we can not stop this thing but we can try to help it. we can always look back and say how much he meant to all of us. but we cant change what has happpend. so lets remeber him and love him. because he is Dillon Chiulli!
xoxo,
Hayley
wow…i dont really know what to say…all i can say is that Dillon was the best guy friend ever. i have known Dillon from the CO days. and the NY and DC trip. he made the bus rides a lot of fun.. he liked to pick on me but it was a good kind like best friend kind. i loved him as a brother i will miss seeing his face and his car…lol when i see a shoting star i think that dillon is car racing in the sky and he wants us all to know that he is looking over us :D…i will miss dillon and his funnyness in the years to come…. car in the sky my friend we all love you and will always miss you.
Dillon,
I didnt know you very well but you were the person who stood out the most out of anyone i knew. you wernt afraid of being yourself. you never thought about what other people thought. the only really funny memory i had with you is when i was on second base playing softball and you hit the ball and it came and hit me in the head but i still cought it. everyone rushed to me but i was ok. you sat there saying “sorry” i was fine and then afterward evveryone had lughed. you aways made me laugh when i was down or just not in th mood. i also remember this one time i was just running the basses for other people and you yelled at me to put a helmet on but i refused. you just said “if you get hurt it wont be my fault, i told you to put one on!”. you alway made me laugh. i will always love you as a really good friend. not everything has gone through my head just yet… it just wont click for me. i will always miss you and your weird sense of humor. rest in peace.
-Kristie
I did not know Dillon,however my heart breaks for all you that were touched by him. You all need to know that even though life is hard and you may not see a light in your darkness it will come. Learn from your friend,love him,remember him,but learn from him. We your parents love you, and are here for you no matter what, come to us, go to a teacher,someone you trust but know we only want the best for you, and be kinder to each other,sometimes even a smile can be the difference for someone! So Dillon rest in peace, you were so obviously loved
I’m still waiting for those DC shoes man, they were named after you the entire time. Every time i look in the sky i picture you laughing your ass off holding that dollar i lent you god knows when. I love you man and will never forget you. wherever you are your not resting in peace cuz your making some angel laugh their ass off and causing havoc wherever you go. I love ya man.
Dillon~
I miss you so much. Whenever I eat gummy worms, I will think of all the times you just randomly threw them at people. High school won’t be the same without you 🙁 Rest in Peace my friend.
Love always~ Lauren
Dillion,
you were one crazy kid let me tell you…lol there are so many memorise in Jrotc and winter formal. I remember before winter formal we went to chills for dinner and you and matt stood by the door and opened the door for people saying “welcome to chills have a chilli day” it was hilarious but then someone came over and said that you guys couldnt do that anymore it was funny, and when you hit on the waitress and you gave her your number on the receipt that was funny. You always had a way to make people laugh and you will be missed very much R.I.P Dillion
I have only met Dillon on a couple of occasions, when I was a chaperone. He was a very outgoing person. Very funny, touched many hearts. I can see why so many loved him! He has touched all 3 of my kids one way or another..Thank you for that Dillon! All 3 were in JROTC and that is how they knew him. I wish to tell his family that I am so sorry for your loss..He touched so many! God Bless! And I hope that all of his friends keep strong and keep going, dont let hurt rule you.
Dillon Chiulli, Dilly you were my best friend. I love you so much dillon. You meant the world to me, you were always there for me no matter what. I can’t stand not talking to you dill. It’s killing me from the inside out. I can’t believe this is happening. I can’t believe your gone. I would have never expected to loose you:( You are so important to me and now you’re gone:( It’s sucked the life out of me dill. It’s crazy. My mom checks on me every five minutes. I can’t stop crying. How can I be happy without you dilly. You were the one that made me happy. We were so close. Whenever I was having problems you were the first one I would call, you were the only one I could depend on, and now that your gone I don’t have anyone. Do you know how hard that is dilly?:( I feel so alone. I keep looking at my phone, just waiting for your text messages but they never come. I keep waiting for my phone to ring and see your name on my caller id. I keep calling your phone just to hear your voice on your voicemail. 🙁
You don’t know how messed up I am dilly. I can’t take this. I really need you dillon, you kept me going. I really miss you dill. I can’t begin to explain how much you mean to me dill. I hope you realize that you are the only one that made me feel strong, and actually worth something, you helped me through so much, and you knew me better than I knew my self. You were so protective over me dill.
You watched out for me. You can’t leave me dill. You can’t. I can’t get through anything without you.
Who is going to tell me everything is okay, who is going to make me laugh by saying the simplest things, who is going to tell me stories.
No one. Dillon Chiulli, I miss you dearly:,( I wish I could have helped you, I wish you would of called me. I can’t begin to explain the guilt I have for not talking to you more that night.
Please come and visit me dill, Iloveyou. Rest in peace.
You were truly an amazing person with an unsurpassed capability to make people laugh. I remember at Colony Oak when we were in P.E. and we played baseball, and afterwards I asked you “How long have you played Baseball?” And you responded “SINCE I WAS BORN!!!” That always stuck with me as being another Dillion moment. We all miss you dearly Dillon Chiulli, it’s a shame that you thought that this was what you needed to do. It’ll be hard to graduate this year knowing that your not going to be there, but then again, you will.
Dillon Chiulli,
u were a very blithe person who lit up everyones day. you will be truly missed by all who have come to noe you, i forget the good times we shared at JROTC camp, even though you got in so much trouble. I was really excited that you were going to be in seventh period. i couldnt wait for you to walk in that door and say something that made us all laugh. I was devistated to hear bout ur death, you were taken away from us to soon, and u were to damn young. you had a whole life ahead of you.
All i could do after i heard about ur death is cry and cry till i couldn’t cry anymore. I had so many questions going through my head: how?why?what? All i noeis that once our time is done here on earth, and we move on to heaven, i noe that u will be there to greet us, and welcome us into gods heavenly kingdom.
Dillon Chiulli, i love you more than words can say. may u be welcomed into gods holy kingdom. Rest In Paradise. Cant wait to see you again. U r in my prayers.
Love,
maddison downey
hey dillon,
i was just thinking of you. you remember how i said i would never get married? you were like shocked or something. you asked why. i said i didnt see the point in being legally bound to someone and that i didnt believe in love anyway. you told me you were going to prove me wrong. that you were going to sweep me off my feet, take me in your arms, and the second i looked you in your eyes i was going to fall deeply in love with you. then you said you were going to marry me and we were going to live happily ever after. then i was looking at you like you were crazy. and you said if that didnt work then you were going to drug me and force me to marry you and lock me in your basement untill i did fall in love with you. i couldnt help but laugh. its funny to picture you, my teddy bear, doing something like that. every day after that conversation we would fight about our kids. i wanted to adopt and you wanted our own. well i wont go in to detail bout our conversations. i was just thinking though and im sorry. i do like you. a lot. but i was always to embarresed to admit it because people already gave me a hard time for being your friend. i let high school get to me instead of following my heart. i didnt realize that i wasnt going to get a chance with you. you always talked about soul mates and all that mushy stuff and i would laugh at you. but i honestly think you were mine. i love you dillon. buti think i would have fallen in love with you with a little more time. you know how you asked me to take a chance with you? i wish i did now. i have so many things to say to you. well i guess i have said them to you actually, but i have so many things i want to tell you face to face. your big blue/green eyes stareing back at me. one of the last conversations we had i told you i loved your eyes. you smiled and said good. because our kids are going to have the same eyes. i miss you dillon. more then you can imagine. you are always in my thoughts, dreams, and heart. and you are forever walking with me. 😉
love,
Anna (aka: Annalicious)
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
p.s- i talked to your mom. she is a wonderful woman who i admire dearly. your parents are both amazing. now i know how you got to be such a big hearted teddy-bear.
Just thinking about you Dillon. I miss you more than i thought i would. You always on my mind and in my heart and i just wanted to remind you of that. I cant wait to hug you again one day, because you owe me one, as well as everyone else you have left behind. I love you dillon, life truly is not the same without you there to cheer me up everyday.
dillon.
well i never knew you.
said hi a few times.
saw you drive by me everyday as i waslked home.
with your sunglasses on and blasting your music.
i saw you that way the day before you left.
and thats the same image i have in my head.
reading all these comments makes me want to cry.
all these people you left.
never told them goodbye.
i asked myself why.
i do not know the answer.
and i probably never will.
i hope you are happier now.
not having to deal with whatever pain you were dealing with.
i hope that everyone can move on.
the pain wont go away.
but it will eventually not be as bad.
im sorry for everyone who was so affected by this.
and dillon.
take care up there in heaven.
we will all always have you in our hearts.
even people who didnt know you that well.
everyone misses you.
more than you know.
rest well dillon.
see you again some day.
The only real memory of you Dillion is when you came to pick up my daughter, Kaitlyn, for Sadies Hawkins. You looked so nice and acted like a real gentleman. Kaitlyn told me you were very nice and that I would like you but I didn’t know until I met you. I normally know by the first meeting if someone is a nice person or not, and I liked you from that first meeting. Your dad was very nice and polite, when he brought you to pick Kaitlyn up, and I saw you were just the same.
I just wanted to let you and your family know that I have been praying for you all and I will continue to pray.
Dillon,
you where a good kid..you never didnt anything bad…you had good friends and a good family…they will all miss you and i hope you will miss them….they love you and i just hope you stay safe and in everyones hearts for ever. i will see you in many years from now. i cant wait till we meat again
dear dillon,
I know i wrote once before but there are a few things i need to say.
When you left this world i heard many things from the people who loved you with all their hearts. One of which is “you were taken so soon”. I would not use those words i would say god has asked for you to join him earlier then we would have expected. Life seems short now that you are no longer with us. I believe that god does things for a reason even if i don’t understand why this happend and what the reason is. But i still believe every thing happens for a reason even if i don’t see it. That to me is how i deal with this part of life. It’s funny because i cried for you but not for my mothers twin who has cancer.I guess its because you were a very good person. I also don’t believe you took your life i feel that you may have been murdered because the night before i heard of your death you seemed so happy. At practice you laughed and played like a pro. So it’s hard to think about not having you here with us. Dillon i don’t want to seem corny but i feel that you were one of a kind. No one will ever be like you in this life time. Please don’t feel pain any more let your spirti reast. I have a prayer for you and here it goes.
LET GO, AND LET GOD
Today i let go and i let God
take charge of this life of mine.
Now in the dark corners of my soul,
His light is beginning to shine.
All of the cares and worries that
I have carried around for so long
He has lifted them from my shoulders,
and filled my heart with love.
Problems that were overwhelming
suddenly seem very small,
and come what may, starting today,
I know I can handle them all.
If you are troubled,
‘LET GO AND LET GOD’
take charge of your life for you, and
however dark life’s shadows seem,
His light will come shining through.
D.A. Orth
With this prayer i hope you rest in the hands of Lord and his father our God. those who read this many think i am weird or what ever but i do not care because i wrote this based on how i feel at this moment. and to be quite frank i believe in the power if faith ever lasting. because when you are down thats all you have left other this you brain and heart.
Dillon,
I didn’t know you, but as soon as I heard your name and what had happened I remembered seeing your happy face all through the halls of Ripon High. Now I wish I would have taken the time to experience the motivation behind that captivating smile. Your influence will forever be engraved on the hearts of those who knew and loved you. May your soul rest with the angels tonight.
hey dillon,
well i was thinking about you, as usuall. and i realized that you are the only person i ever sang for. u basically had to beg me and as much as i didnt want to i did. u told me i was really good and i shudnt be afraid. well i was never afraid of anything when i was around you. you have no idea what you meant to me dillon. well anyway my poin in writing to you… again… is because i wrote you a song. its not perfect but its honest and i guess thats all that counts. i dont know if you here me but i sing it jut about a thousand times a day. i love you dillon. and just so you know, you are the ONLY boy i have ever written a song for. its called “free with you”.
i hope you like it!
Why did you leave me hangin on all by myself?
I’m fallin deeper and deeper
I don’t know where I’m gonna land
You’re supposed to be here holdin my hand
My head is spinnin,
How do I make it stop?
Ohhh I’m so lost
cuz…
Chorus:
Your open arms were my safe place
I turned to you when I fell down
You picked me up and stayed around
When I look up I see
I see the blue oceans running through your eyes
The green of life growing in them
It’s the only place I see the world where it makes sense
Please wait for me patiently
Like you always do
One of these days I’ll be free
Free with you
Your smile is my light
And since it’s been shut off
I’ve been stumbling around in the dark
Everything is tumbling down on top of me
I don’t know which way to go
Afraid to make a wrong turn
I’m just surviving day by day
I wish you could have stayed
To point out the right way
cuz…
Chorus:
Your open arms were my safe place
I turned to you when I fell down
You picked me up and stayed around
When I look up I see
I see the blue oceans running through your eyes
The green of life growing in them
It’s the only place I see the world where it makes sense
Please wait for me patiently
Like you always do
One of these days I’ll be free
Free with you
Oh oh ooooh I love you so
I hope you know
How much you mean to me
I’ll keep you with me
Walking on my journey
‘Till the day I’m lead back to you
I’ll be ready to sink into one of your teddy-bear hugs
Just like I used to
But until then rest in peace my friend
And remember I think you’re a perfect ten
Cuz…
Chorus:
Your open arms were my safe place
I turned to you when I fell down
You picked me up and stayed around
When I look up I see
I see the blue oceans running through your eyes
The green of life growing in them
It’s the only place I see the world where it makes sense
Please wait for me patiently
Like you always do
One of these days I’ll be free
Free with you
dillon,
this is kind of random but it made me smile. I remember when we were having one of are ridiculous arguements and just calling eachother whatever names we could think of. you one… like you always did! but i remember saying “geez dillon! you are such a pill!” and your response to that was “ill give you a doce of the dill pill any day!” so i started calling you my dill pill. and wenever i was having a bad day i would always ask you to give me a dose of the dill pill. im pretty sure you meant it in some kind of flirty, cute, some what perverted way, but i took it as you would cheer me up. anyway i caught myself saying it today, at first i sort of wanted to cry. but i couldnt help but giggle a little. so even though your not physically here, you are still finding ways to make me laugh. i was so mad at you when you left because you said you would always be here for me, but im not mad at you any more. i realized that you always will be here in small little ways. and you will always be in my heart. i love you dillon chiulli.
love always,
anna
p.s.- i could use a dose of the dill pill! ;D
Well Dillon its been a rough couple of days since you passed. I didnt know what to think when I heard the news. I then tried to think of the good times we shared together and I cant believe I forgot so many of the good times we spent together. The main memory that I have the best rememberence of is when we shared 1st period together in Spanish2 and you came to school with your lip pierced and I had no idea what to think of it. Here you were in class with a swollen lip and some random ring in your lip. I couldnt help but laugh but I knew it was your nature to make people laugh even though some times you did it while hurting yourself. The last memory I could think of was when we played baseball together and your dad was our coach. You were always the goof ball on the team always no matter what you some how would make someone laugh. We went on that year and got 2nd place. Im glad I got to know you and say you were part of my life. You will always be missed but never forgotten, Rest in Paradise My Friend!
Kyle Eisenga
Dillon was a very unique and special person. He had so many friends of so many ages. I don’t think he realized how special he was to all of us. We all ask ourselves WHY? We all feel guilty. None of us knew he was this troubled. If he just let someone know, we could have helped him through these times.
Some of you know my family and Dillon’s adult friends that he hung out with on his street. We all loved him. He ate more meals at my house that I can’t even count. If my kids didn’t finish what was on there plate, Dillon would. He wasn’t just the neighborhood kid. He was part of our family. He became both of my boys big brother. He became Conner’s best friend, even though Conner is only 9. He spent holidays, days, nights and weekends with us. He always walked in like he lived here.
We all have so many feelings. We are hurt, sad, confused and angry. Do you think Dillon would have done this if he knew the hurt we all feel? Could he imagine how hard it was to tell my 5 year old and 9 year old that Dillon died. And then try to explain it. I don’t think Dillon thought this through. I really hope it was more of an accident and a cry for help, but it went too far.
To say goodbye is just too hard. So, Dillon if you see us from heaven: just remember you will never be forgotten, you will always be loved and we will always hold a spot in our hearts for you.
Love you always, The Garrity’s and all your adult crazy friends on Franklin Lane.
P.S. Dillon, beer pong will never be the same without you….
I remember the first day i met you…i was chilling with hayden and WHAM, there you were giving me the biggest hug ever. You used to call me your teddy bear. Man i miss those hugs and laughs i experienced with you. I miss our intense convos during lunch and break.You were a great friend and you would always be there for me. I know that your in a better place now…but i wish you talked to us. I miss your smile and your laugh. You brought so many great things to not only my life but to everyones. I love you man!!!
Its been a week sense you left me dillon. You left us. Theres a huge hole in my heart that can never be filled again. Luke called me wednesday while i was in history and told me what happened. i started crying so hard when i found out. I kept saying no no nono he’s not gone. but it just hit me last night. and i cant beleive your gone. your were and always will be my dsl(dirty secret lover) while your up there i need to you get some bread and sit on it. i’ll do the same. i remember when you said that to me. i was crying because my parents. and you said, “Babe. go get some bread.. and just.. sit.. sit on that loaf of bread.” you made me laugh so hard. I love you so much dillon i miss you so much. you were supposed to go to my graduation. :/ you were supposed to walk me down the aisle. iloveyou dillon. You brought me cookies when i was at soccer at stouffer park. And that was the last time i saw you. i should have told you iloveyou more. im so srry. you changed my life so much dillon. twice. when i met you and when you left me. you tought me so much. you were so happy.. i didn’t know how much pain you really were in until now. alli have left is Luke. :/ imissyou babee. iloveyou. i remember when we started talking in piglatin out of no where. and we changed our myspaces to illondaa and aylortaa. and we posted bullitens hours upon hours just talking baout dumnb shit. annoying the other poeple. haha. im going to miss you babe. so much. you were my world. my best friend. my everything. iloveyou. and i can’t believe your gone. ill be seeing you<3
RIP
-Taylor(Dsl)(aylortaa)
I'm going to your viewing and funeral. i'll se eyou then.
iloveyou
RIP illondaa
I will never forget all the times we spent together and all the memories i have with you. Laughing was one of the best things you would get out of me, you always knew how to make me laugh and put a smile on my face no matter how mad or sad i was you knew how to bring out the best in me.
I could call you at anytime of the day and you would answer ur phone and txt me back everytime i txt you no matter what time it was.
I will always remember when me and alyssa would go to ur baseball games and we would bother you during the game and you would get in trouble by ur coach but you didnt care you were just happy that we were at ur game even if we werent watching, just knowing we were there made you happy.
I will also miss the times when we went to the movies, you were just the best person to go to the movies with cus we would talk the whole time and be loud and throw popcorn at people.
I remember you ALWAYS calling me “kid” i hated that and it would make me so mad and when i would call you “kid” you would laugh at me, i wish i could hear you call me kid one more time..
Last summer when we went bowling with me you alyssa hayden and bubba, we were lising to music on ur phone and singing and i remember you and alyssa singing “fall for you” to me it was so cute and everytime i listen to that song i think of you and just smile.
I thank you so much for being there for me, making me a happy person and talking to me about things i couldnt talk to anyone about. You were always a happy person i just never believe this happend to you.
Im going to miss you every much.Today i was in class wondering what you were doing right now & Whats it like where you were.?
I guess i will find out what its like up their one day but for now i know forsure that ur looking down at all of us not hurting anymore.
I will see you again one day and You will always have a place in my heart.
Love you lots.
Kels
Dillon,
I remember the first time I met you. You were so happy and laughed the whole time. We texted every day for a couple months and we could keep a conversation going all day and never run out of things to say. It felt like I’d known you forever. I told you my feelings and a lot of things I wouldn’t have told other people. When I was unhappy, you never failed to cheer me up. We never really got to hang out, I was always busy with other things. I felt like I put you off a lot and was just like oh i’ll hang out with you later. I’m so sorry for that. I remember you were going to come to my game last year and you went to the wrong school and you were so mad, but you got over it. Then there was that one day that we got into a dumb fight a couple months ago. Then we never talked again. And it was so stupid of me to be like that and I shouldn’t have acted the way I did. A few weeks ago I was going to text you and apologize but I put it off, again. Now that it’s come to this I know that I really should have just done it right then and there. I want to apologize for all of that now since I have no other way to do so. Hope you can forgive me for all of that. I really do care about you, and I’ll miss you. And I always told you I would draw you a picture with me and you in it and I never did, but I’m going to now. I hope you are happy where you are. Everyone loves you so much and misses you. We all care so much for you. I’ll see you in heaven someday.
Love,
Taylor
dillon,
i miss you maaaaan! i feel like part of me is gone. that my life is completely turned upside down. i love you so so much dillon chiulli. i think ill probably write you everyday because i feel connected to you when i do. i dont really know who else to talk to that just understands what im saying like you do. today i went to your viewing. i was petrified to go, but i needed to go for you. so i, as you would say, “grew a sak” and made myself go. it was one of the hardest things iv ever done. i cried a lot. but then i sat by myself and i was thinking. i know thats your body and everything, but that was definately not you there. your spirit wasnt there. and i knew deep down that it was just different. but i also knew that i carried your spirit with me. so yes i was sad, but i had you by my side the whole time. just like you promised. you are truely the best friend i have ever had. you put up with my crap and only gave me love in return. you are my hero dillon chiulli. i love and adore you. sleep good tonight my teddy-bear!
unconditional love,
anna
P.S- you are one handsome dude!
Dillon,
I went to your viewing yesterday.
Even though I didn’t know you that well, I just felt I had to.
Looking at you felt to unreal. I half expected you to get up..
I signed your casket, and when I sat down, I couldn’t help but cry.
Watching the video of all the pictures of your life on the screen was just so sad..
I hope your in a better place now.
So many people miss you.
-Brandy.
Ducky, I wish you hadnt thrown your life away.
So many people loved you.
& I know i wasnt there as much as I could have
and im sorry.
Its the sadess thing to not hear from you anymore.
Wheneever we would talk you always sounded so happy.
and you could ALWAYS make me laugh.
Im so happy, God let me meet someone as great as you are.
I know everything happends for a reason. You left us for a reason.
God took you away from us way to soon. </3
YOU KNOW you will always be in my heart i can promise you that 🙂
R.I.P your in a happier place now, Ducky.
You will never be forgotten.
illondaa. i went to your funeral today with Katie, and Alyssa. When your niece went up babe. it killed me. Then Hayden and Bubba… I remember you ALWAYS making me laughh. you knew how to. No matter what mood you were in you alaways put me in a better mood. You always put eberyone elses feelings before your own. you made me such a better person inside and out. You babe were amazing. You ALWAYS called me kid. you know how annoying that was??! haha. but. idk. im so sorry i never gave you that chance you wanted with me. You could have still been here. i could have saved you:[ and thats what kills me. It hurts knowing that i couldnt make you happy enough to stay here. i cant wait till i see you again. I thank god everyday now that i had the privlage of knowing someone so great. so passionate as you. They played the song “why” by Rascal Flatts at your funeral. and it fits so well with whats happend. Im so sad that you took your own life.. But you are in a better place. I remember you bringing me cookies at stouffer park haha. and you met Dante. you were SOOOO mad at me! And you called my dad Ramaathorn from Supper trroopers haha. My dad was talking about today. My family is sad too. Ashlyn understands it a little more than dylan. Dylan doesnt \understand at all.. I call your phone everynight. just to hear your voice. It hurts not to get a response. Im so torn up dillon.. im not myself. there is a hole in my heart. and it will never be filled. i will see you again someday. but someday isnt close enough.. Iloveyou so much DSL. You were my bestfriend. i could tell you everything. you were so many peoples best friend babe.. But you were mine. and i wish i could have one more day with you.. i would do anyting for one more day with you actually. Iloveyou so muchh Dillon Edward Chiulli. Dsl. illonDaaa. My world. Iloveyou. YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTEN. You are still here with me. i’ll never let you go.
-Taylor
Dillon dangg memories, i met dillon my freshman year when he would ta my spanish class. We never really hung out on the weekends… but had hella memories in spanish. We stole walkie talkies and used them in the class to piss the sub off. Also he was a hella good artist he would draw funny things all the time on the board in spanish when we would have subs… we would have fights in class by throwing things at people or eachother… Dillon had to be the funniest person i met my high school life. He could always make me laugh… My favorite moment was when we were going to the mall and there was hella traffic so he would turn up the music all the way and put on this song that was only sirens.. so cars would get out the way. surprisingly it worked. R.I.P Dillon you will be dearly missed. we ALL LOVE yuu bruh.
Dillon ohh jeeze, the first time i met you was about the third week of school and you came up to me randomly as i was walking to class saying “damn your hella short” and i looked at you and though who the hek is this kid?? haha any ways you walked me to my class and that was the day that i new i was goin to love high school. we always hung out at school and u always had something to say about me being vertically challenged. man we had lots of laughs cuz u either said something soooo innapropriate or u just did something really stupid:)
you were definatly one of a kind. espescially with your elmo shirt! how many fights did we get in over that shirt? i had a cookie monster shity and u had elmo ofcourse cookie monster is better, we never did get the chance to both wear our shirts together on the same day i wish we had. I have no clue what im goin to do without the person who always made my day when i was in a bad mood!! i really wish you were here with all us rite now, but ur in a better place and i cant wait to see ya soon. Alot of people say that today at the funeral wsas saying goodbye… naw it wsas saying see ya later brah! i love you and ill definatly miss you but ill never forget u!!!!
<3
dill pill,
well today was ur funeral. i was so scared to go, but i found a lot of comfort in it. the place was packed man. and it was all for you. i gave a speech too. im not really sure it made much sense. its kind of hard for me to try to explain exactly how much you mean to me. i really dont think i got my poin across that well, but as long as you know im cool with it. im so bad at public speaking… so u better appreciate it! i love you. oh! and i also read my song. iv never shared my music with anyone so once again that was all for you. then came the burrial. thats when i broke. i was so terrified to go. iv never been to a burrial. but by the time it was over i was terrified to leave. i felt like if i left then i was leaving you. i didnt want to walk away from you dillon. i needed you. i still need you. and by the way, i met your neice. adeal. she is adorable. i saw her crying so i gave her a butterfly. the same one me, alanna, karina, your mom, mrs. harvey, danielle, and you have. she asked me how i knew you so i told her you are my best friend. she said your her favorite uncle. then she asked me to be her friend. i said of course and gave her a hug. then at the gathering i played with her. she really loves you dillon. please keep her safe. i gave her my number and i honestly hope she calls me. i feel like she is the little kid that was always in you. i think as much as i like to say its me she needs, its really her that i need. she is part of you dillon and i see it. im going to love her just like i know you did. your parents are amazing dillon. they have so much stength and love. they are my inspiration. when your dad hugged me today it felt just like one of your hugs. he is so much like you dillon. like you are my hero, so are your parents. my love for them is the same as my love for you. i guess its because they are so much part of you that im hangin on to them like i always hung on to you. i also hung out with alanna, karina, and sophie tonight. i was telling them that it is just like you to bring people together. iv always liked alanna but she is becoming one of my best friends. you will always be my very best friend though. i love you dillon chiulli. stay with me hun, i dont know what to do without you.
goodnight,
anna
Oh Anna, I thought you did a wonderful job on your speech and your song. You did get your point across. I also noticed you giving Adael a hug and I saw her with the butterfly, that was very sweet of you. I keep reading these entries hoping against hope to make sense of why Dillon would take his life. Unfortuntely I don’t think we’ll ever have the answers to all our questions. But seeing everyone’s love for him and reading the stories does help keep his memory alive. I know we all miss him dearly. You were a great friend, I can see that. He was very lucky to know you!
dillon! today i was walking pass muellers class to bring something to mr. mayfield’s class and i just started busting up laughing, cuz i rememberd how last year we were walking to advisory and i totally triped on the step right in front of muellers class and i wss laughing so hard on the ground and you were laughing so hard that you were on the ground too and everyone was looking at us heka weird but we didnt care. man i miss u bro, i dont have any one to walk to advisory with me any more, but yesterday when i was walking all by my self i could feel you right by my side, i really wish that u were here but things happen. You always supported me with my decisions that ive made and im supporting yours, even though i know its hard on soooo many people i respect your decision and ull have to guide me and every one else through hard times. And now that your in heavan you know everything so it makes it even easier for u to guide us, and you always liked easy:) well i love ya dude see ya later, cant wait to talk to you agian:)
<3
dillon,
why did youuu have to go? we were getting SO close.
everytime we talked or hung out we got closer and closer, im not kidding. you didnt make anythinnnnnnng awkward and i cannott believe you’re gone. i first thought it was a nightmare but since the funeral, its obviously real. but its so shockingg to me. you never seemed like that type of person. you were alllllways so happy around me and stuff. like whhhhhhyyyyy? 🙁 im so saddd now. i feeel like i have no one.
your funeral was so hard for me. seeing your baby pictures and then your senior picture, omg. holding onto that balloon, i felt like i was holding your hand for the last time. when i let go of the balloon, i felt like i was letting you free. loosing you and you not being in my life anymore and not talking to me makes me so sad, you had so much to look forward to and your whole family looooved you. you have no idea how many people came. the place was packkkked and some people didnt even get in and some peoplee sat on the floor likee me. loll. but seriously dillon, you hurt so many peopple && you thought no one cared. you mean the entire world to me and i wish you were still here so we could spend even more time together. but the time we had together was amazing and im so gladd i met you. you’re amazing and onee of a kind,. you were ALWAYS there for me no matter what and putting upp with my shit.
i’ve never met somebodyy like you before and i really wish i could of been more with you. you were my bestfriend, my bigbrother, my father, and my almost boyfriend. i trusted you with everything and you alwayssssssssssssss made me feeel better about everything. you gaave me so much confidence. i miss you everyday and i wish you could just call me or text me just so i knew you were still alive. this just breaks my heart. words couldnt explain how much i liked/loved you. you know how much of a connnection we had. i put you number one in my life, definately. but you’re in a better placee now.
so i wish you the best and i hopee you’re happier thann you’ve ever beeeeen.
you are amazing and you will alwayss have that special placee in my heart. you are the only guy i’ve ever said “i love you” to because i think saying those 3 words mean SO MUCH than just saying “ily” i could say ily to anyone but when i say “i love you” to someone i mean it from the bottom of my heart. so dillon chiulli; i love you babeeyy.
Foreverr&&Always <3
kaylaaababyy.(:
dillon,
oh dillon dillon dillon! i cant wait to meet up so we can talk again. well in person anyway. cause i do talk to you pretty much all day long. im going through the wierdest feelings lately. like i feel like iv lost soo much, yet i feel closer to you every day. today i thought i saw you. i know thats crazy, but its true. he was wearing a red t-shirt and had sunglasses on his head backwards. i thought it was your elmo t-shirt. i love that shirt. anyway my heart sped up and my stomach dropped. im pretty sure my face went white because i felt like i was going to pass out. when i realized it wasnt you i started crying. im not sure if it was because once again the realization that im not going to be able to sink into one of your teddy-bear hugs hit me or the fact that i think im losing my mind. this whole haulusination thing i am not cool with. but i think its kinda normal. what is normal anyway? right dillon. ha you always said that when i told you that you werent normal. i always told you normal was boreing anyway. so ya other then that my day was just another day. 4th period is depressing but i have alanna and ehren in that class and i dont think they know but they are the only reason i get through that class. i honestly couldnt do it with out them. ehrin is so strong. i know he misses you but he really is my inspiration to keep it together. and alanna has been so good to me. you really have great friends. and you are truelly loved.
especially by me.
i love you dillon!
love always and always,
anna
dillon,
marine biology sucks without you, its too quiet, and i hate that the desk behind me is empty.
i always look at your seat when i walk in and all i hear is you saying “dont give me that look mary” i swear one day you said it to me like 12 times..i had to count:) only because you were making funny inappropriate comments. anyways, i hope and know your in a better place now.. someday, all of our fourth period will play maringo or marine biology bingo together, as a full class, you, gilman and the rest of us.. it’ll be funn…and we get candy after:). we miss you dillon, you have no idea. rest in peace..<3MaryTimothy
hey dillon,
morning!
so i had a dream last night and you were in it. we were camping… not really sure why… and there was a ton of people with us. we were sitting around the campfire and you were telling stories. but then you voice started to fade and i woke up. i havnt really decided on what this dream means but ill let you know when i do. it was kind of wierd though. i always used to tell you bout my really random dreams and you used to tell me that the only reason i get these random dreams is because im a nut. then i would say im not stupid cuz i thought you meant that my brain was as small as a nut. you would laugh at me sooo much and i would get annoyed. untill one day i realized why you were laughing so hard at me. when you called me a nut you just meant i was crazy. you didnt even mean i was dumb. well it kind of made me feel like not the smartest person in the world but whatever. geez you gave me so much crap for that. you would NEVER let me live that one down! but that was just one of the reasons i loved you so much!
i hope you are having a good day up there in freedom!
oh my gosh! guess what i just thought of!-
Hakuna Matata! What a wonderful phrase
Hakuna Matata! Ain’t no passing craze
It means no worries for the rest of your days
It’s our problem-free philosophy
Hakuna Matata!
Hakuna Matata! Hakuna matata!
Hakuna Matata! Hakuna matata!
Hakuna Matata! Hakuna matata!
Hakuna Matata! Hakuna–
It means no worries for the rest of your days
-maaan! we used to sing that all the time!! well i hope your living out our moto up there! but you still have obligations down here buddy! there are a lot of people that love and still need you to stay with them. so stick around my teddy-bear friend!
i love you more then you can imagine my friend.
Love Always,
Anna
AKA: Annalicious
Heyyy budd. i forgot to add… I remember the last time i saw you.. you brought me like a millon coookies cause i was starving haha. Andd When you drove away the back of your car said I LOVE YOU BABY! i was laughing soo hard. Then later that night you told me to make you a CD. And i did.. But now it sits on my dresser and i dont know what to do with it.. I can’t throw it awayy. but i cant keep it. I really wish you were here still to tell me what to do. you were always good at that :] I wrote I love you! illondaaa! and “go get some bread and just sit on it” Mann i have never laughed sooo hard until i met you. you always had a way of cheering me up even when you were down. I love you dillon i miss you. I said hi to your parents at your funeral.. They miss you more than anything. And Josh Babbyyyy.. He’s sooooo down Dillon. Come to visit me baby.
-Iloveyou<3
*Taylorr
hey taylor
im not really sure who you are but i know dillon and if he loves you then i do too. 🙂
but i was just reading your blog and i do have some advice. the cd your talking about… well i think you should keep it. i know its probably really hard to look at it now but it will mean so much to you. i know cuz i have a pair of shoes that say “anna loves dillon” on one of them and on the other “dillon loves anna”. when i first heard the news about dillon i was so upset that i threw them away. luckily my principal held on to them and made me keep them. now i hold on to them for dear life because its one way i keep dillon with me. i have TONS of stuff that remind me of dillon. its comforting now though. i understand that everybody goes through things in stages and in their own way so take your time, but please dont get rid of that cd. i dont know you but im pretty sure you will regret it.
btw my name is anna and dillon was my best friend. i know there is a lot of people saying that but he truely was mine. he drove me home every day. i had marine bio with him. i am really close to him. im only a sophmore and he pretty much looked out for me since iv gotten to high school. so ya thats just to let yu know kind of who i am so im not just a random person.
-Anna
Dillon was a once in a lifetime guy. Never will there be another Dillon and for that, his life will never be forgotten. He shall forever live on in our memories, whether they’re big or small, but most of all in our hearts. We will love you forever Dillon!!!
dillon,
k so u know how you always bugged me to be on the dance team? well i audition tonight. im only doin this for you. im pretty excited but kind of nervous. wish me luck! i love you dillon.
love always,
Anna
hey Dillon,
i remember the first time i met you, you just came up to me and said hi i’m Dilon. haha it was random but funny..then the next thing i know..my mom tells me some guy is stealing her air fresheners out of her car and she doesn’t know who it is..then the next day i see dillon sneaking into my moms car after school and stealing them and he didn’t even know who she was..it was the funniest thing ever and i will never forget how much you made my day simply by stealing my mom’s air fresheners..but thank God you did because those are the great memories i get to live with about the famous dillon chiulli who put so many smiles on so many faces..i love you and i think you are amazing. and i wish i had the opportunity to tell you that before you left us.
Dillon was a great
, fun , funny,
cool, amazing, nice,
sweet, awsome guy.
if you never knew him, i wish u did.
anyone he was around he could make laugh.
he just had this way about him,
that could always cheer you up.
he was always a friend.
i got to know him over the past cupple years, and im glad i did.
he was such a fun guy to be around.
i would babysit 4 his 2 neighbor boys, and every time i babbysat he was over.
in fact haha the first time i ever baby sat for them, he was there.
he was just pretty much part of their family.
he was like their 3rd son.
so ya he would always come over to play with the boys when ide babysit, and half the time i would have to endup pretty much babysiting him. 😛
one time mary and danny came home and were all “like what the heck, y are my pictures all crooked?” and all i hada say was “Dillon” and there like “ohhhhh! haha of course”
he was so much fun i miss him.
we all do
iknow i didnt know him as much as many of u did, but i was still affected by this because he was still my friend.
he was so nice.
like when it was really late and i was babysitn he would always check in and like ask if i needed anything,
or if he was leaving to go somewhere out friday night he tell me i could call him if i needed anything again.
he was just so nice and i looked forward to see what crazy thing he did next.
when i think of him i try not to be sad, but its too hard. he touched everyones life.
but we all still need to remember the good fun times we had with him.
the fun crazy thing that he would do and his contagous laugh and his crazy bandanas he would always ware!
haha i laugh just thinking about that.
but thats what we all need to do, is to remember him with happy memberies.
plz i ask that we keep his family close in our hearts and pray 4 their loss, because 4 them im sure its the toughest time in their lives.
we all love and miss you dillon!
luv ya dillweed! (as evan would always call ya) 😀
Hey love,
i’m sorry its taken so long for me to write. idk wat to say other than i miss you sooooooooooo damn much. ive been really angry with you lately. i wish you would’ve talked to me, or any of us for that matter. its been a few weeks and i still can’t focus on this. i still think i’m gonna see you at school or swerving into my court with your stupid music on:p i wish you were here with me so you could help me with all of the stupid stuff that’s been going on, but lately i realized that you wouldn’t want me to waste my time on it. everyone here misses you dork. especially my mom she misses you coming into the house screaming and bleeding all over her floor after getting bit by max. now that i think about it that day was awesome even though we were worried sick about you, you didn’t even care that you got attacked by a dog! you just said it was worth it cuz you got to lie on my lap on the way home:) you’re such a dork and idk what i’m gonna do without you. i’ve been trying really hard to tell myself your happy and i hope to God you are. i know you were having a hard time dillon but i wish you could see how many people love you. i can’t wait to see you again love. i’m always thinking about you and i won’t ever stop. i love you dillon. forever and always.
Meg
Hey man i just got done listening to Blink 182. Remember that fagget across from up who we think was tripping on Acid lol and was dancing with some guys that were just sitting lol. Or that time me and you were just sitting in your front yard and your neighbors were so fuckin close to fighting lol. Well i miss you i cant even listen to the music we all listened to. Its hard to go to your house and hear how quiet and how full your pantry is with all the food. Just looking at your padres i wanna break down but i dont want anyone to give me sympothy cause i dont want others to think im weak or i just want all to surround me with attention. Lol i also mob your hat almost every day only had it for a week and have gotten it taken away by the golf cart guy twice…. Oh ya your one heavy son of a bitch lol
well imma bounce later and i love your (never said that to anyone)
-Ehren aka Shitbrick
i miss u… i cant stop thinking about u. its like im never going to believe ur REALLY gone. like the first week ina half i felt like this had to be some horrible dream and it wanst fer realzz… 🙁 i kept waaiting 4 some one to come and say that it wasnt really u and i kept wanting to text u making sure ur okay… i really wana talk to ya. i wish u could come back…… we all miss u so much 🙁
i hada dream about u the other day. it was like we were all at mary’s house and u were just eating. ha like ya alwayz doo.:p but ya it was horrribe cuz i saw ur face and heard ur voice but like i knew that something was going to happen to u, but i was unable to tell u & i wanted to just give u a big hug but i cudlnt do that either. it was like i hada just watch u and couldnt stop u or tell anyone who could of stoped u… i wish u could see how much peepelz luv u…
words cannot explain how i feel.
all i have to say is that; you changed my life and
i love you with all my heartt.
i cant believe this really happened.
i miss you so much babyy.
&& you were cutest boy with the cutest smile, the prettiest eyes i’ve ever seeeeeeen;, and the best personality a person could have. you alwayss made me laugh no mattter what and come upp with some inappropriate jokess allllll the time. sometimess about my MOM?! . hahaa. you are amazing && one of a kind.
this will take me so longg to get through.
rest in paradiseeeeeee.
okay so i just though bout how when u were over playing hecka rough with conner and evan and like little nick wanted to get in on it, so u started tossen him around and like u droped him and he hit his head and like it made a big swolen bump on his facelike right away. hahaha i started flipen out cuz he was crying and wouldnt stop and like i though his mom was going to be hecka mad so i made u tell her so if she was mad it would be at u hahah and u did. but it was so sweet like u just have a way with kids cuz u got him to hold the little ice pack thing on his face and were able to cheer him up and make him stop crying. .. but haha member when he like looked up and we saw his bump apear with in like less than a min. , and we looked at eachother with a face that just said “ohhhhhhhhhh crrrrrraaaaaap!” and then we started laughing haha
cuz we didnt wana freak him out. hahaha luv ya funny good times THX!!
“there’s a sparkle in your eye that only i see and a place in your heart where only i wanna be”
1. you being in my life made it complete.
2. i can’t go a day without thinking about you && cry.
3. the way you always made me smile and laugh; i’m speechless.
4. you effected everyone’s lives in so many ways.
5. no matter what; i will love you forever and always. i will never forget this. but from this, it makes me stronger and more aware and cautious. as cheesy as it sounds; i learn something new everyday. i reallly do.
6. i’ve met alottt of guys in my life; but ever since i met you my freshman year; i knew we would be so close && friends forever. why did you leave so sooon? you are one of a kind and my best guy friendd.
7. everything i do and everywhere i go reminds me of you.
i have one wish, only one.
i wish for you on 11:11 everyday in my US History class .
i wish that i had one more day with you to really explain to you how much i love you. you meant the world to me.
but now my wish is that you are soo happy with where you are right now; the happiest you’ve ever beeeen because after everything you did for me and everyonee else; you deserve to be so happy :).
i hopee to see you again sooon. ill give you the biggest hug in the wooorld.
“There’s always gonna be that one thing you wish for but never get & that one mistake that you can never take back & most of all that one memory you would do anything for, just to have it happen all over again”
hey dillon.
please dont be mad at me for not writing like i promised. i dont know how to deal. iv been trying EVERYTHING to get through this. there is only two things that help. the first u already know. and its only for you to know. nd the second is your parents. your alive to me when im around them. i stopped by your house for a coulple minutes to talk to your parents. they gave me your orange converse and im still trying to figure out the perfect place to put them. i also took my permit test yesterday. i missed it by two, but ill take it again on monday and im gonna pass for sure. your mom called me to see how i did on it. it was really sweet and she really touched my heart. i guess that runs in your family. 😉 im not sure wat else to say dillon. i havnt even felt the least bit angry till now. im falling apart, but im keeping a strong front. i guess its what i do best. i used to talk to you all the time bout me and my mom. even though we are pretty close we have had our hard times. you used to tell me i was being too stubborn and i needed to let her in. but im mad at you now. you are the only person that i talk to absolutely everything about. and you left me. i need you dillon. please stay with me. i can hear you in my head constantly. a night i cant sleep because i cant get your voice out of my head. im mad but im so sad at the same time. idk how i feel about anything. nothing is making sense. you better be happy though. because i need for you to be happy for me to be ok. please dillon, i know i cry at night and practically beg you to get out of my head, but dont listen to me. dont leave me. i still need you in my life. i love you dillon chiulli. i truly do. and im going to start writing again. trying to ignore everything didnt help so im going to try my best to face it. the truth is im scared. you know that i think being scared is the worst feeling in the world. so help me dillon. i need a dose of the dill pill. 😀
i love you.
cant live without you.
and miss you more then you will ever know.
love always,
anna
sleep good hun
hey dillon.
i could really use you riht now man. im not really sure what is wrong with me. everything is bugging me and i dont know what to do about it. i started basketball i figured it would be good for me so i can get back in shape and i thought it would help me get som fustrations out. but all it does is piss me off more because its yet another thing that im stuggling with. sports used to come so easy to me and they were never really work. but whatever. im going to give it everything in me because i dont want to quit on yet another thing. i miss you so much dillon. i need one of those pep talks you always gave me. im losing myself dillon. i used to be able to do anything i wanted. i had so much confidene. i mean i didnt like think i was the greatest thing in the world but i definately believed in myself. im not really sure i do anymore though. everything is so hard. and it seems it only got that way since i havent been able to hg you every day. i dont know how im supposed to make it in this world when you couldnt even. you are so much stronger then me. i dont get it dillon. i love you sooo much. i hope like a little kid that it gets better but i know deep down it doesnt. every single person i know is miserable because of something. nobody is just ever happy. i cant count on anyone like i count on you. did you know that you are the only person that i saw smile ALL the time. but iv been thinking. maybe that was your front. you didnt know how to deal so you didnt. but every time i think that i get scared because that is exactly what i do. i put on a front. not wanting anybody to know how i feel because i dont want to drag them down with me. u know?
well i love you with all my heart dillon. please come into my dream and smile at me tonight. im tired of having nightmares. actually im just tired. i need to sleep! lol.
always thinking of you, always loveing you, always missing you.
love always,
anna
i started to fall in love with you; enough said.
you were my dream come true.
you sre perfect. more than perfect. you werent like any other guy.
i hopee you’re so happy whereever you are. i feel liike its still a nightmare but 3 weeks have gone by and you still havent texted me. im waiting for that one call or text to tell me your back or were here all along.
you mean the world to me and im falling apart without you. you kept me going with confidence. day by day my life is getting worse. from the day i lost you, everything is going downhill. my friends; my grades; my family. so much.. im completely fallling apart without you and i wish i could just talk to you. no one will ever replace you. you were so special to me and made me feel important. you have no idea how im learning so muchh from this. im completely different now. i’ve realized how closee you should keep your friends because you never know what mightt happen to them. why did this have to happen to you? why did this have to happen to make me realize this? why? this is what you wanted. you wanted to be happy. you told me flat out. “im never happy. i want to finally be happy” well dillon, i hope you are happier than you’ve ever been and you’re loving it whereever you are. i would do anything in this world to have you back. im having so many problems with friends and stufff and you were the only guy i felt like i could talk about that stuff to and give me advice and actually have a real conversation unlike some people. you were like my big brother and my best friend even though you hated me saying that cause you wanted to be more. hhaa. you were unique and one of a kind. why can’t i have you back in my life? why can’t you come to my house again? why can’t you come to my winterball? why can’t you just call me right now? whywhywhywhy.
everynight trying to go to sleep i can still hear your voice talking to me; that lets me know you’re always nextt to me in spirit. and for all of our inside jokes; things have come upp lately to remindd me of youu. i will never forget them. you will ALWAYS be my love. forever&&always.
btw; in my highschool scrapbook, im dedicating a pagee to you so i will remember you forever and ever.(: goodnight<3
It’s hard to say goodbye but it’s like i just can’t.
I keep having these dreams about you.
the other night i had one and we were just talking. And we were laughing but then you had to go.
then i woke up and remembered your gone.
And i don’t want you to be gone.
I wish you knew how much you mean’t to so many people. I wish tyou knew how much you meant to me.
Maybe you know now? But i dont know.
I wish i could just talk to you. Hear your voice again.
But i can’t
And i ask myself
WHY?
I wish you knew how many people loved you. I wish you didn’t feel so depressed that you had to do this. Theres so many i wishes but i cant know anymore
i love you so much
Rest in peace
Dillon I’m gonna miss you. You were always good to me, ever since I first moved to Ripon. You were one of the first people I got to know, and you always knew how to make me laugh. Man I remember those days in Colony Oak when we’d hang out during break and play soccer, and everytime you’d kick the ball your shoe would go flyin. Those were good times bro. I miss you a lot, but I’ll always remember you man.
R.I.P
Dillon I’m goin to miss you bro. Everyone is goin to miss you. You were and still are a really good friend to me and I’ll always remember you. I’ll see you later bro.
Dillon… its so hard to believe this happened.. you are someone that can never be replaced in the lives of so many people.. the best memory i have of you is hanging out in washington and new york.. we had so much crazy fun.. and i was so mad at you, cuz you made us walk all the way down 3 manhattan blocks just to find that toystore.. you will be missed, no one can live up to you.. goodbye kid.. Rest in peace..
Don’t forget what he did to us at camp. We were so mad at the time but when I look back on it now, it’s hilarious. =) He’s the only one we would have let get away with it.
I remember when I first met Dillon, it was in 8th grade he went on the NY trip with us (it was Ripona and C.O. I believe…haha Weston sucked) and we went all around the east coast basically and we stayed in this hotel somewhere in/near/around/etc. Washington D.C., so me and him go to the lobby and there are these girls there. He looks at me and goes “Which one you want?”, and me (trying to be respectful) goes “What?” when I really did notice them on the couch. “Blonde or red?”…then he goes up and starts talking to them and he just looks at me and mouthes the words “I GOT THE RED!” So I took the blonde…that was pretty much my first B.A. moment, which I couldn’t’ve been without the help of Dillon C.
God bless you and your family! Take charge of Heaven big guy!
And anybody that sees this blog, I also made a facebook group for Dillon called “RIP Dillon C.” a lot like this, tell stories about Dillon, do whatever you need to do
Dillon,
You were the closest guy friend I have ever had. You were always there for me no matter what. I have had a lot of laughs with you and those I will never forget. I remember times in 6th through 8th grade when you would call me just for the heck of it. And how you always wanted me to have parties because of my orchard. haha we had a lot of good times together. But one thing I regret is Freshman year when I really wanted to go to the winter formal but didn’t have anyone to go with. You offered to take me. We had plans that we would go to formal together and the week before I backed out because I just didn’t feel like going. I was reminded of that tonight and it killed me because that would have been a great memory that I could have had with you but didn’t. We drifted apart the past two years but we randomly started talking again this year, just a few weeks ago. I miss you so much. Rest in peace my best guy friend ever, I love you.
Kelsey
Dillion Chiulli,
i’m not even sure what to say right now, im at such a loss for words and nothing makes sense. this honeslty doesnt feel real, and its not going to feel real for a long time. i grew up with you, we went to the same elementary school, and i cant even comprehend this happend to you. i dont have any great memories to share with people about you, because sadly, we dont have many to share. i always knew you as the happy guy on campus with the hugest and cutest smile ever. you will be missed more then anyones words can ever express and you will always be rememberd. the fact that so many people had so many great memories about you is amazing, and you were amazing. and you still are. thank you for that. miss you.
I remember when Bubba, Hayden and Dillon came over to my house. I had a 24-pack of chip bags. When I went to get my second bag, Dillon asked me to pass him another bag. In the end, he ate like 10 bags of chips; and i’m not even over exaggerating. I fucking miss you Dillon!
Dillon, you were one of the 1st people i met when i moved to Ripon last year. that one party in modesto was sick, and floatin tha river with you was hella cool too. We didn’t hang out that much, but you always had some funny shit to say, and you were always down to give me a ride when I needed one. I’ll miss you
Dillon, our family is going to miss you so much. We will especially miss you walking in the house and making yourself at home every morning! We love you and you will always be in our hearts, forever.
i will never for get when me and dillon chilln in the red hole at games at freshmen year he was the best guy anyone could meet…im sad that he gone but now i no he no’s that everyone loves him and god well keep him safe lets take this in to heart to call some one if you feel down because people do love you and were here for you i love you dillon and i will always think about u
So what can I say about you Dillon. You were an amazing guy. Made me laugh my ass off in all the classes I ever had with you. I loved seeing you making fun of kids just to cheer up other people that were down. I’m going to miss the hell out of you bro. I really will.
Rest In Peace.
Dillon I love u and will miss you forever I loved our times at taco bell and you yelling at the bio teachers about ur cheesy beef burrito u were one of my best friends I love u so much
Dillon,
i will never forget you. you were a very random guy. Even though the last words you probably said to me is “i suck at life” or it could have been “you play sick jokes on people” your still a hecka funny guy. I remember that one time when i went to your house when we got kicked out of danielles birthday party and so we went to your house and watched anime and you had taken alannas phone and you were playing with the FML application and you kept laughing to yourself and alanna kept saying that they are not funny and you just kept saying outloud that they are. You were a very loved guy. Senior year will be different without you. I will enjoy listening to stories about you. And graduation this year, will be way different without you, knowing you since elementary school, this is a bummer and this wont hit me for a while. We all LOVE you. Ill see you soon hopefully.
Dillon,
I am so lost of words right now. A lot of us are wondering why you did this..because to have such an amazing guy like you gone is just horrible to our lives. You always made me laugh..always picked on me but it was all fun and games. You were one to joke around a lot, especially in Mr. Gilman’s Marine Biology class. I’m pretty sure Gilman is going to miss you counting his “fishy days” haha. Although we haven’t gotten the chance to get to know each other more..I’ll still remember the short but good memories you’ve put into my life. Shine bright in Heaven. We miss and love you.
Dillon,
You were the first friend I’ve ever made in Ripon. You embraced me with your golden heart and your genuine soul. With love, respect, and nothing but kindness you opened me to your life. You barely knew my name, but that’s all it took for you to become friends with me. Although when High school started we seperated and weren’t as close as we were, I’ve always considered you a good friend. I remember when I was sitting at lunch, with no food. You gave me your burrito and Frutista Freeze haha. In all honesty, you are one of, if not the nicest human being I’ve ever met. Time after time you put others in front of yourself. I’m sorry to see you go, I wish I could have had a chance to say how much I love and respect you. Forever will you be in my heart. I will miss your dearly.
Your Old Friend,
Zack
Dillon Chiulli, I wish I could’ve known u like hayden did, just from hearing and witnessing with my own eyes i knew you were a great person, and i pray to whatever god or creator there is that the afterlife is a gift and the relief of pain upon your soul, those who did know u well were granted the honor to be graced by your awesomeness and ability to make others laugh, that in its own is a key trait most people dont have. I remember the time when u drew for me like a perfect pic of arthas (sadly i know it had to do with wow, but still) i wish u didnt throw it away tho 🙁 anways, I’ll miss ya bro, your death truly made me realize how life is the true hell.
-your friendly neighbor hood tree beast (logan)
Dillon, you were the reason why camp was so fun my freshman year, you always made me laugh no matter what was happening, especially when joe was pissed haha. I remember when we tied those two kids legs together with rubber bands and made them march together. Youve been a great friend and you always made people laugh no matter how pissed off they ever were at you.
May god bless your soul
-Cody Solano
Dillon, lets see so many memories…when we were at camp last year were the best ones like when you decided it was a good time to jump up and down in my room naked when Devon shirk and i were trying to study….we will all miss your sexual and racist humor and all the good times a lot of people shared with you and lastly when you would drive me home and wanted to act like a racecar driver and decided to drive 30 miles an hour and make a sharp left turn go on the sidewalk and park on my grass we will miss you Dillon may God rest on your soul
-Mitchell Green-
Dillon, i didnt really get the chance to get to really know you. From what i did know you you were a great guy. I will never forget camp of 08. You always made whatever we were doing fun and not just every one could do that. we will all hold you dear in our hearts. May God grant peace to your soul.and forever rest in peace.
-Devon S. Shirk
I still remember the time when Dillon just strait up whipped it out during my JROTC period my junior year haha. That was the thing I liked about Dillon, he never really cared what others thought of him and he was always doing the most hillarious things. I’ll always remember him as the class clown. When I look back and remember the things he did I can’t help, but laugh. I miss you Dillon RIP
i know your in a better place and out of your misery and pain. but JROTC softball will never be the same without you. i am going to miss you helping me put my catchers gear on when ever i would put the leggings on wrong. its going to be complicated being able to put the gear on right now that you are gone. i miss always seeing you walk by at lunch and insted of smiling we would make these funny growling looking faces to echother. there always will be a special HUGE spot for you in my heart just for you. there wont EVER be a moment wehn i wont b thinking of u. i love you sooooooooooo much i hope your in a happy place were ever you are i hope to see u soon i will miss you hitting the softball over the fence and never doing the 100 push-ups for it.
love always and 4ever,
your softball buddy,
♥Morgan Scott♥
I remember freshman year Dillon and i got the bright idea to tie jack dethrow and keenan sullivans legs together with a rubber band and make them march and if they got off step the rubber band would snap and hit both of their shins i can think of a millon memories where we would do stupid stuff like that
R.I.P Dillon
I have a memory of the first time me and dillon really got to hang out. we were fixing up an abandoned house raising money for a Washington DC trip, in normal dillon style he destroyed most of everything he touched… dillon i know your reading this up there.. you should know all your friends are thinking about you. rest in peace buddy ill never forget playing softball with us. i remember your last words to me were “ill let you get to 3rd base for 5 bucks.” ..we wern’t the “closest” of friends but i always felt like in a way you were close to everyone who knew you.. goodbye dillon.. we’ll always have the memories.
-Sam
Dillon i wish i could have known you better, but its not hard to tell that you were a great guy. But even though i didnt know you that well, Ill nver forget you. R.I.P Dillon
roses were red,violets were blue, but life turned gray,without you.
Dillon. For right now all i can think of is why. I love you so much you know that. We’ve been bestfriends since 8th grade ever since we discovered our love for the same things.
Some people believe their loved ones come back into life as butterflies. Yesterday i was pretty convinced you came back as a fly. While sitting and trying to let this all sink in, a fly kept landing on me pretty sure i liked it. When I tried to get rid of it it landed on my water cup and i automatically thought of you and how you would always eat and drink my food. At this point i thought you were reincarnated into a fly.
I hope your pain is gone now, we’ll meet up one day :]
i love youu
dillon,
you were by far the coolest,nicest,care-free and funniest guy ive ever had the honor of meeting. there was never a dull moment whenever you were around. im really gonna miss that. i remember once at camp you had to do a skit where u had to wear that little blue dress, bra and all, and you were the only one out of everyone who didnt want to take it off afterwards. i wasnt there for that one but i saw some pics and i sure wish i was. you have had such a huge impact on so many peoples lives. including my own. nobody will ever be able to replace you at RHS. you truly are a one-of-a-kind kid who i hate to see be gone from this world…gone but not forgotten…we all will always have the memories and will forever. i am so glad to have the honor of being able to call you my friend. you are such an awesome roll model for every single person out there and i defintatly think that there needs to be more people out in this world like you. you will always have a place in my heart and mind. i miss you so damn much and ill never forget you dude.
RIP dillon chiulli
your friend,
-cameron scott
Chewwwy! Today was so hard in 6th without you. as soon as i walked into the door i just started crying into tommy’s shoulder. i kept looking to the left of me where you used to frequently sit during art. rolling up on mrs harveys chair like a goon. i cant even explain how upset i was to hear what happened to you. We werent best friends, but you were someone i could always rant to. Either in advisory or in art, you were just always there. I took your kindness granted and i wish i could have spent more time with you because you really were an amazing guy. when i was in the shittiest moods and tried to hide it you always just knew how to make me smile or spill everything to you. I just wish you knew how much everyone cared about you, even if we didnt always show it. Ill never forget art 2,3, and 4 with you. And sgt. perry’s advisory, where some of the most life changing talks took place. Im just going to miss you so much, art, advisory, econ, just everyday, wont be the same without your happy-go-lucky attitude and your voice yelling “hey kara brown!” at me. it was never kara, always kara brown. and im still pissed cuz you got a camaro and i didnt! lol you were always someone who unerstood my love for classic cars. I hope theres nacos in heaven for you chew. i will never forget you, i wish you were graduating with us dillon. rest in paradise
Dillon,
Dillon,
I didn’t get to know you very well. But I certainly am sad. Every time I would see you, you had a big smile on your face, and everybody with you did too. Everyone has been so quiet. Hey man, by the looks of this you will be missed and that’s a promise. R.I.P. Dillon.
-Looiee/Luis
P.S. Me and Dillon went to Colony Oak together which makes it even harder for me… 🙁
Dillon you were the coolest T.A. ever. Velasco’s class was awesome last year. HaHa. Good times bro. You’re gonna be missed by everyone dude. Why did you do this? I hope you found peace bro. R.I.P.
Dillon, i know we werent the best of friends but you were there to help me with rifle in our competition we were in together, whenever there was a sport in JROTC you were there, you were almost everywhere i swear. i am going to miss you for years to come but i know that you are in a better place and that no harm will ever come to you. You will remain in my heart always and forever. Thanks for being there even when i didnt need you at the moment. i love you man.
Dippy, wow.. what can I say about this? Everyone is in total shock at this point. I really am going to miss your crazy butt. I’ve known you since the 6th grade. And i’m really glad that i had the opportunity to spend elementary with you. Ha ha yesterday me and Geneva were talking about you, and well, reminscing you can say, and she brought up how when we were all younger you had the BIGGEST crush on her. =) You would always give her little knic-knacks. She really enjoyed them.. Me and Courtney were also talking about how back in our freshman year how the three of us were in Apache. Yeee! Fun times. You were the highlight of the whole company. Not once did you not make us laugh. You were ALWAYS cracking jokes. -deep breath- I’m really going to miss you Dillon. I miss you now to tell you truth. Save a spot for me up there. I want to catch up once it’s my turn. Rest in peace hun.
I LOVE YOU!
Dillon Chiulli, I cant believe what has happened.. Ahh I will remember the fun memories we made together!! Like wow i remember just last year i had a fat crush on you, and i couldn’t get the courage to tell you.. and also omg In my art class you would come in, sit down and look at me like i was crazy because i got up running around saying omg i suck at art and you would say no you don’t and say hey do you have any fruit snacks haha. Also another time you were at practice and me and my friend got up and yelled Dillon Chiulli!!! And you missed the pitch and was like grr you girls!! lol Well I will always miss you and think about you every day because it was my thing to see you drive by everyday and just smile:)I’m happy i got to meet you and make memories i feel so lucky to have known you…
School and my art class wont be the same anymore..
Rest in Peace Mann
Dillion. i dont even know wat to say. You were one of the happiest most funniest person I know. YOu always made the camps fun, the skits were 10x’s better with you in them and even tho you always would get in trouble you were always smiling. you never let one time thing get in the way of you haveing a good day. Marine Biology is never going to be the same without you. Who is going to count Mr. Gilmans fishy shirts? 🙁 i cant beleive this actually happend. You really have no idea how many people are effected by this. Dillion you always made me laugh and even though we only hung out like once or twice, you would still act like we knew each other for the longest time. i love you Dillion and im really going to miss you. Rest In Peace hun
See you on the other side
Dillon, you are my best fucken friend. I hope you know that i thought you were the best even though i gave you shit. I dont know how to show how i love someone and im sorry i couldnt express my self to show that to you. i am fucking sorry man i am I somewhat blame myself for your depression and your pain instead of a friend i was a dick who acted cool around others. i know now when i was making fun of you when i should have tried to help prevent it. I remember the 5th grade i had no friends at colony oak and you were the only person interested in talking to me. I knew from the start a true friend had appeared. When i got the news man i couldnt believe it i walked into Avid and ran out. I wish you would have talked to someone i wish i was able to stop you. I am sorry Dillon i wont ever forgive myself you did so much for me and i used you. I wrote this as an apology and im Sorry man i am!
-Ehren Griesheimer
Heyy Ehren. Don’t blame yourselff for dillon’s depression.. I know its so hard not to. Cause i DID feel the same way.. He wanted so many chances to date me. I’d say ok and never give them to him. And it would make him so sad. Dillon had so many other problems other than friends.. I guess they just all built upp.. And he couldn’t handle them even though he WAS the strongest person ive EVER knownn..
I readd your entre andd.. i feltt your pain..
sorry but who is this?
Dillon, hmm how do u explain such a great guy i didn’t know you that well we had a few conversations here and there over the last two years and i know you always had fun at camp becuase i remember that camp last year u petrified the shit outta taj for soo long lol you set apache up for jokes for the rest of the week lol i wish we coulda talked more and became better friends u were always a great friend and a great person im sure ur going to get heaven cause they’ll ask why you shuld be there and ull say cuz ur funny and they say okay haha i miss you and we all will see you up there buddy
-Kyle C. Bodenschatz
Dillon. I can’t believe your gone. I don’t know why you went, but I hope that wherever you are know your happy. We all miss you =/. You know, your still in my phone as DILLON HAS A HUGE PENIS, just like you put yourself in there as. I’m not going to change it ever. I remember back to our Freshmen year in Apache company, we fought all the time about the stupidest things all the time. But it was friendly fighting. You brought us so many funny times. In JROTC, we’ll think of you every time somebody brains someone lol. We’re dedicating the softball games to you, and the cart. You would think it was awesome man. And we’re going to kick navy ass just for you. The last time I saw you, I saw you smiling, and in your softball shirt, and driving the car you loved. That’s how I will always remember you. Sorry for all the shit I ever gave you, I never meant it.
Love, Amber.
hey dillon i really don’t know what went wrong in life. u were always such a happy guy and everyone loved you for that! i remember when i was new at that school u showed me around and made me open up =] i miss you so much! your such a great person and u always knew how to cheer me up when i was down. if i knew u were going through stuff i woulda tried to help u as much as i could because u always did that for me, i love you soo much your prolly the coolest person i have ever met. i remember when u were dressing up emo and accidently pierced ur lip it was a funny day and it sucks u had to go soo soon u were so young. i really wonder what you would have grown up like. i think you would be a succesful man with a beautiful family. i know so many of us are going to miss you like crazy. u were the nicest guy i have met! i love you and hope your in a better place now. love, ashley
Dillon.i dont really know you but i remember the one time i met you.i was working at barnwood and my hands were full so you opened the door for me and after i said thankyou you introduced yourself to me and we sparked up a little conversation.lol.you seemed so sweet and its very sad that you are gone.
gone but never forgotten 🙂
love, Samantha
Dillon,
Idk what I’m going to do not seeing you everyday. There was never a dull moment when you were around. You were either making fun of people or just saying things to make people smile. I remember the first time I met you, two years ago. The whole time we were together you were picking on me, but I didn’t get mad, I just laughed. I’m gonna miss you always and forever, and ill always cherish the good times we had together. I love youu
R.I.P. Dillon Chiulli
Like many others, I’m so confused about everything now. This whole thing has turned my world upside down. I’m not 100% sure about anything anymore. Nothing seems to make sense at all. I can’t wrap my head around the whole concept. I’m just so damn frustrated. I guess I just want to know why. I can’t even begin to contemplate what the reasoning is behind all of this. I just keep telling myself that everything happens for a reason, but there is no way I will ever understand the reason that this had to happen. It hurts and I miss him. I will never forget the last words he said to me. “Damn Jack, you run like the Nazis are right behind you.” It was funny because I am Jewish. We were at JROTC conditioning, and was running like crazy around the bases on the softball field. Dillon was a great kid and an incredible person. I will miss him. I will always remember his laugh, his goofy personality, and his unquestionably kind heart. May he forever rest in peace.
Dillon,
So remember our first memory out the few we had? It was your birthday and you guys invited Holly and I to the movies. Your mom drove us and we were all squished in your car. When we got the the movie we were a little late. Love Guru or whatever was what we saw… then we went movie hoping until your mom came and we went into the Hulk. We all wanted to stay cause that was sucha better movie then Love Guru. Then we went back to your house and chilled for days. Member Bubba? “He’s in Japan!” Ah man, you had a great sense of humor. Then we all sang Happy Birthday… And then member coming into my room for the first time and like freaking out about my sound system? You thought it was the coolest thing ever. You put on Bad Touch and I was like what is this?! But I soon loved it. I can just see you now, sonic in one hand and my ipod in the athor. Our last memory was when we all wantd to play cider pong but we had no cider… You jumped up and said don’t worry guys I got it. Then you went and got the cider and ping pong balls. We weren’t that close but those times we spent together I’ll always remember. You had such a big heart and I’m sad that I didn’t get a better chance to get to know you. I’m sorry for all the pain you felt. I hope you see how many people’s lifes you played a role in. Stay funny as ever man.
Rachel
Dillon,
You will forever be missed and remembered. You were an amazing friend. You could always make me laugh, even when I was having the worst day. We’ve all taken you for granted at some point in time, but that will not alter how you are remembered. REst in peace Dillon. I already miss you. –Love Kimberly Stegner
Hey man, I cried.. AGAIN today. ): still missing you bro.
Apparently someone’s talking shit about you.
You know what? They’re getting their ass kicked.
Maybe by me, maybe not me.
All you need to know is whatever i do, is for you bro.
Rest in Peace.
Bubba, Hayden and Ehren miss you; you should visit them.
Dillon,
I didnt know you all that much but the couple times i saw you or talked to you, you always made me laugh! Like one time i was eating lunch at the tables and you sat by me and said “your name is macy right?” so I said “yeah” and you said “like the store macy’s?” I laughed and said “yeah” so you said “im going to call you j.c. pennys!!” and you walked away. It was funny and ill never forget that. You had a lot of friends and people who cared about you. You will be missed Dillon…very much. i hope you feel better now and all the weight is lifted from your shoulders. JROTC was fun 🙂 Just because your in another place dosnt mean you can stop being the funny guy you were. Rest In Peace Dillon.
-Macy
Dillon,
i dont know why you had to go..it shocked me to hear you were gone..you will always be remembered in our hearts. you were and amazing person. always made me laugh by cracking jokes..damn man. im going to miss you. we all are. there was never a dull moment with your crazy ass. haha
rest in peace bro.
love you.
amber
Dillion,
We never did get to hang out as much as i wouldve liked to, but the memories we did share will forever be in my heart. football games were a blast when you were there. thanks for all the rides too lol. my first day at ripon high you were already acting like we were best friends. I still have your sunglasses that your wearing in the picture above. i pulled them out today and cried, your gone and it dosnt feel right. i miss you big guy. when i get to heaven ill give your glasses back but i want my pink ones back! lol but for now you can have them 🙂 i mean its probably really bright there right? try not to pull any major pranks on anyone important, i know you thrive on that but god will probably kick your ass lol. I love you buddy, save a seat for me next to you…
-Ill remember you always and forever
Dillon,
I honestly wish I could of talked to you more this year and I wished we didn’t fall apart like we did through out highschool. I remembered all the times at Colony Oak when we would argue and make fun of each other. Although it sucked at the time, I really wish you were here to argue with me cuz then at least I would get to talk to you. I miss art freshman year when it was you, me, brenda, ashley, kelsey, and eladio. That was my favorite class of all time. It just hit me just now that you’re really gone. I know youre in a better place but I’m selfish and I just wish you were still here. 🙁
DeAr DiLlOn I mIsS yOu. YoU pRoBaBlY nEvEr KnEw HoW i FeLt FoR yOu BuT i FoUnD yOu To Be OnE oF tHe FeW tO mAkE mE sMiLe WhEn I wAs AnGrY. yOuR cOmMeNtS mAdE mE lAuGh WhEn I tHoUgHt It WaS hArD tO SmIlE. iN jRoTc I oNcE fElT lOsT bUt LaUgHiNg WaS hOw YoU mAdE mY fInD mY sElF WhEn I wAs In A dArK pLaCe. I dOn’T uNdErStAnD wHy YoU wEnT sO sOoN bUt I wIsH yOu EvEr LaStInG pEaCe.AnD I hOpE yOu DoN’t FeEl PaIn AnY mOrE lEt YoU wOnDeRfUl SpIrIt ReSt In HeAvEnLy PeAcE. wItH mUcH lOvE
LiZeTtE
dillon…..my little cabbage patch kid…i cant believe ets true i relly cant…i can remember everyday at lunch freshman year u wud begg, bribe, and yell at me too give u a massage…an how we hav the same shoes those dirty old red shoes an how u promised too be my shoe buddy forever….what happened too forever….im gonna miss u more then i can possibly describe…ill always regret getting mad at u for kissing me cause i kissed back so i couldntve of possbily got mad at u…the last thing u said too me is “nice job handleing those bats tooday,…u should hanlde mine sometime soon…” i blew you a kiss and walked away…
ill love you forever and always with all my heart
your wife/personal massager…<3
Dillon,
You don’t know how fucking much this hurts me. You may have thought that no one loved you, but man, I can’t even put into words how much I loved you. I just really really wished you would have talked to me about it. I don’t know what to do man. The rest of this year is going to be so hard for me.
Best friends forever. Til the end. Every night i stayed at your house. Disneyland. Blink. Intense talks. Fighting over Antioch Megan. She really did love you Dillon, and you left us without ever meeting her.
I could go on and on. Dillon you made the wrong decision. Life has it’s rough patches, and Dillon, Kayla is not the right person to talk about this stuff too. I’m your BEST FRIEND. Til it’s my time now we cannot be.
Dillon, may you rest in peace. Heaven better be one hell of a place (no pun intended). Visit me some time man. We’ve talked about this before.
My heart goes out to you,
I FUCKING LOVE YOU.
You were the most amazing guy i’ve ever met. People up there are enjoying you just as much as we enjoyed you.
Love,
your best friend Hayden.
Dillon,
You were the most sweetest and funniest guy i knw. evn tho i didnt knw u dat well but i wish i got to knw u beta tho. i will nvr forget thoze dayz in art wit u, lyk az soon az i walk in u wuld yell”Krystal can u give me a massage” n of courze i couldnt say no. N all thoze timez u wuld aruge with zack n the others to get a massage 4m me lol. Or how that one time u tryed to jerk in clazz n i showed u how it waz done n u got mad n said u dnt lyk it no mre cuz u couldnt get it rite man im gunna mizz thoze dayz in art. Art iznt gunna b the same witout u buddy u made the clazz fun all the time n nw itz juz sad n quite. U were the loudezt perzon there lol. But now i can c u r in a beta place were u wnt hve to b sad n nothin can hurt u nomre. N i bet ur playn prankz or bazeball up there huh lol. well juz membr every will alwyz love u n mizz u n N alwyz in our heartz n prayz. I guezz thiz iz goodbye Dillon 4 nw i juz wizh i got to knw u beta. Tke care up there.–
MAZZAGE BUDDY KRYSTAL
dillon no chuuuleeee,
remember when the day when you FINALLY asked me why i called you that? and i told you it was because in spansh chulo means handsome and so i would call you dillon no chuuuleee to mess with you and you started trying to make up mean nick names for me after that? like ball sack and a whole bunch of lame ones and you just kept coming up short man. but its ok. dillon you left too soon. now that your gone i honestly realize how much i appreciated you and wish that you could be here with all of us one more time, at least to say good bye. you left too soon and left us with so many questions. i just want to let you know that i love you man. i will ALWAYS remember you and the way you would always walk, as kallie often said “on his tip toes”, you really did man. i just cant stop picturing your big blue green eyes and the long eyelashes that surrounded them. i will see you again dillon, i love you and we ALL miss you. never forget that.
love “dumbass”
Dillon.. its hard still to believe youre gone. you were always the funniest kid. i have so many memories of you, but the one i will forever remember is my 13th birthday party. you opened like 15 cans of soda and just started throwing it on my garage floor and then before i knew it you were sliding through it… (theres still a stain there by the way) i never was able to get it off.. and also how you shoved hot cheetos up your nose.. i found the picture of that this morning.. i know we didnt really talk all that much in high school, and i regret that more than anything.. but i more grateful than anything else in thr world that we were friends in elementary school. you were always the nicest person.. and i remember i used to have the hugest crush on you in like 6th grade.. i think we went out for like 45 minutes lol. i’ll always remember you buddy.. youll always have a special place in my heart. i’ll see you again one day 🙂
rest in peace.
love always, chelsye. 🙂
Dillon,
I will forever miss you. Although we never really got to know each other, I feel like I have known you forever. You were indeed the life of art, with your smile and jokes. Working on the homecoming poster with you was indeed a pleasure, even though you would ditch Kara, Christian, Claudia and I to go inside. Thanks for all the laughs. I will miss you. -Emily
dillon,
(aka: my teddy-bear)
I dont even know where to begin. You mean sooo much to me. It is impossible to describ my love for you, but im gonna give it my best shot. You are my best friend. i tell you everything. You always make me laugh… even when your saying something mean! Somehow i never seemed to get mad at you. Well, we would argue, but we got over it because you would say something ridiculous! I had a hard year as a freshman, but i always knew that you were there for me and no matter how badly i screwed up u would always love me. you have such an amazing gift in finding the good in people and loving them unconditionally. i will never forget when i wrote “dillon loves anna” on one of your shoes and “anna loves dillon” on the other one. i thought i was so cool and i was so proud of it. but you just laughed at me and told me that if you had to claim me then i had to claim you too. oooh and that time i was wearing white shorts and you kicked me in my butt nd got them all dirty. you felt so bad, but i just started laughing because only you would do that. i try to remember all the good times, but i also remember all the talks we had. you opened up to me and told me thing you were feeling. i didnt understand how deeply these things were hurting you. im so sorry i wasnt there for you more. but i truley do love you with all my heart. so much that you took part of me with you. i dont know if i should be angry with you or thank you. part of me is angry because you are such a great person and its not fair that you had to deal with so much pain. im angry with myself that i couldnt take it away. but another part of me is just so thankful for the time i did spend with you. i am so lucky to have gotten to know you so well. i sat in the last place you parked at school today. i remember i complained because it was like impossible to get into the car. i made you promise to never park there again. i take it back now though, i would give anything for you to be able to park there again. you are so good to me too. you gave me a ride home every day and never ever complained. even though it was in the opposite direction of your house. i wish i could have the opportunity to tell you how much you mean to me. i prayed for the first time in i dont know how long. i never pray because i believe in making your own happieness, but u know that cuz iv already told you that. but i prayed today, and not to god, but to you. i prayed that you would gice me a sign to let me know you were there. something funny so i could smile. you are always the person making people smile. we have marine biology together with mr. gilman. it is definately not my favorite class, but i looked forward to it everyday because it is my only class with you. i dont know what im going to do without you being there to make fun of my coloring. i dont want to sit here and complain, but im so lost dillon. you are the only person that i tell absolutely everything to and i dont know who to turn to now. im so lost without you. i dont understand how if your life wasnt worth living then how could mine be? u know? you are such an amazing and unique person with so much carisma and life. i have a whole knew perspective on life now. life seems like a waste of time. if they say heaven is a better place then why are we draggin out are misery. isnt it human nature to do whatever makes us happy? people keep telling me that people that commit suicide have a chemical imbalance. i dont believe that. i think they are the ones that have the courage to go after their happiness. i think its the rest of us that are cowards. i dont know. maybe im wrong. im not really sure of anything anymore. i just want you to know that you are my dependable teddy-bear that i love dearly. u are handsome and adorable. u left us all with wonderful thoughts of you. there is not one person that truely dislicked you. you are my hero. you are always your own flirtacious person. ill be with you laughing some day in the future. im sure of it! and i hope you are wearing that elmo shirt that always made me smile. only you could pull that off. im trying to think of what you would say right now and all i can come up with is “stay in school kid!” i used to hate when you said that, but now i hold on to the memory of you saying it for dear life.
Dillon, no words can explain how I’m feeling right now. When I heard I hoped that it was just some stupid rumor and that I would see you later in the parking lot. I can’t keep myself from crying every time I think of you. It sucks that we haven’t talked much in the last two years but I will always remember the good’ol times freshman and sophomore year. Art freshman year will always be one of my favorite classes. I’ll always remember your constant jokes and how you always made me laugh. I’ll always remember when you found that bike with the missing tire in the bushes. I miss you. I hope your pain is gone now. Rest in peace.
dillon
i never really got to know you man and i didnt think the best of you but i jsut misunderstood you if i could go back i would have gotten to know you better you had so many friends that need you you deserved a full life man
your a great guy
Rest In Paradise my friend
Dillion-
I seriously considered you my brother. You were seriously over my house as much as my brother, and I always had the best damn time when you were around. Whether it was you giving my rides everywhere, or telling me im cute when we pass by in the hallway, you were always there for me, and i love you for that. you may have been three years older than me, and have been my brothers friend, but i always considered you my friend too. I hope you’re up in heaven reading this, because you owe me. You promised me you were going to help me get a wall of pussy, filled with plaques that have the named of every girl ive banged inscribed in it. You said we were going to fill up pizza plus’s walls with plaques of pussy on it. So once im up there with you, you owe me big time. Dillion, whether we were going to a Blink-182 concert, sitting in a car talking about wisdom sticks, or just chilling at my house, you were always the fucking funniest kid ive ever met, always full of life and love, and were a true friend.
I love you dillion, tear it up in the afterlife.
and just for you, ill get our pussy wall started. You see.
Dillon, we werent really friends but you were a cool dude and I will miss u bro……
dillon..i miss you man..i want you back here,just to keep you a little bit longer..i cant believe youre gone and i still dont..we had funny ass memories together even though it wasnt too many,im so fucking happy i got to know you and youre an amazing person..you didnt have to go..we all love you and want yo back..i still dont understand it and i dont think i ever will..i will never forget you man..sleepover wass thee sheitt with you(: ill see you when its my time&&we will have so many more memories up there..rest in peace babyy..we miss you at home=/ i love you forever and everrr
-leslie
Sorry guys imma rewrite it. So im a junior i have known Dillon for god knows how long and i have slept on that one couch for as long as i can remember. Me and Dillon always argued about stupid shit and we would laugh later. Well here i am saying im sorry. I am sorry for thoses hurtful pranks i pulled on your cars. I am sorry for yelling at you when you were right and i was in a bad mood. I am sorry for always trying to embarres you infront of people. i am sorry for ignoring your problems. I am sorry for encouraging others to talk shit about you and i would laugh. I am sorry for the countless times that i let you down when i would try to avoid you during school. I am sorry for only telling people you were just my ride instead of telling them you were one of my friends. I am sorry for making up excuses as to why i hang out with you. I am sorry for never inviting to you anywhere. I am sorry for calling you last when you were my last resort. I am sorry for always getting mad at you when you started liking the same things as me. I am sorry for always telling you that you were ugly and fat. I am sorry for all the times i put you through stress with Megan when i told her the things you trusted me with.I am sorry for all theses things idk how to make it up to you. I mean you were my only friend at Colony Oak and im sorry that i didnt treat you the same way you taught me. I will help look after your mom and dad. Me bubba and hayden will still go over there and make sure that those couches are not empty. So basically what i am trying to say is im sorry and im trying to make it up to you. If i was writing this in paper the ink would’ve spread by now. Your friendship is something i will cherish for the rest of my life so heres my apology….
-Ehren Griesheimer
Dillon it’s sad to think I will no longer see u at school for u to smack me upside the head lol=) But since the first time back in elementry when i met u i had the greatest times. Do you remember the time in 6th grade when we got referals because you called me a monkey and then i went up and hit you =) i remember both of us sitting in the office waiting for Mrs. Kahl and then she finally called us in and we just started busting up laughing =) and how we keeped getting in more trouble because we couldnt stop laughing at Mrs. Kahl. I have so many memories with u from elementry till my sophmore year at camp. You got me through that whole year making me laugh and telling me your funny story’s that sometimes made no sense cause you had just made them up. I love you so much Dillon and will miss you so much.
-Jackie
Dillon, dude we used to be good friends back in the days.Then i moved away about two years ago and we lost contact.Man i wish we kept in contact cuz we were really good friends.its hard to believe your gone.i still remember the days when me and you would ride our bikes around and go to honda hills and everything.i remember us trying to fix our bikes and not know what the heck we were doing.those were the good times that will always be missed with you dude.i knew your for about 3 years and it was some of the most amazing times of my life.Everytime i was hanging out with you it was just constant smile and non-stop laughing.you always made everyones day better at school by being so funny and just yourself.dude words could never explain how i feel in my heart that your gone……this instantly brought tears to my eyes to know i would never talk to you again.i know everyone loved you so much and everyone is so sad about you being gone.like i said words could never explain anyones feelings about how they will miss you and the terrible feeling of you being gone dude.i just want you to know in that better place there going to take care of you man and i will always love you in my heart and in my feelings even though we didnt talk for awhile it wont be the same without you here dude.i miss you and always will..the most love i have goes to ou man i love you dude and R.I.P. your in the place of perfection now now let your light shine bro!much love-Justyn Johnson
Dillon You were like an older brother to mee we hung out together and spent the night at your house and had so muck fun. we had the biggest pillow fight ever. i will miss u so much. ur in a better place now i love you man RIP/
Dillon. This week has been the worst of my life. I just really can’t believe this is happening and that your gone. You will always have a place in my heart and I will never ever forget you. You have always been the sweetest guy. I remember the first time I met you, Goekan was trying to take your phone away and you pointed to mine in my pocket and said “why don’t you take hers?” I was really glad he didn’t take mine. But after you apologized for almost getting my phone taken away, we became good friends. I will never forget our long talks after school. I remember asking you a million questions and you never got frustrated like most people would. You explained everything to me. And that time we went snowboarding for Megan’s birthday. While all the other guys went on the big hills, you stayed with us girls the whole time on the tiny bunny hill and made sure we made it down safely every time. And your snowball fight while we were searching for Louie. I’m pretty sure it was you that fell into the giant hole. lol There is also that time that we attacked you with water balloons. And you guys whipped out noodles and WB40 to throw at us. Even though Libby got sick, it was a great night that I will never forget. Today I found your shirt. Last week when I needed a shirt for cross country you took the one off your back and let me use it. You were an awesome guy and I miss you so much. I really wish you were still here. I love you Dillon and I miss you so much. I can’t even begin to describe how I feel right now. I’m shocked and confused. I don’t know what to think about it. I hope that all your pain is gone but I just really wish you would have thought this through and talked to someone. There are so many people down here that love you so very much and just wish you were still here. I’m still waiting for you to walk up, and give me the biggest most amazing hugs that you used to always give me. You were a great guy with the nicest and sweetest personality. I wanna thank you for all the amazing memories we had and for always finding a way to put a smile on my face no matter what kind of day i’m having. I love you Dillon and I wish I could see your handsome face again. RIP Dillon and I hope heaven is as good as you hoped. Have fun up there and don’t forget that you will always be remembered for your caring heart(: Love You
I didn’t get to know you well man but you were in my JROTC class your freshman year… you always gave me a good laugh and you were in my mind a good friend to me in JROTC… latly i havn’t seen you around i been moving all over the place further and further from ripon wish we could have hung out more… i’m living out in stockton so to go to ripon every day woulda been a hassle… but what i do know about you.. is you always had a smile on your face… so all this is so overwelming to me… i remember in JROTC every time we went to go to push ups he’d be the only one down there making me laugh because i had just returned from basic training 2 days before that… so i needed a good laugh, well gonna miss ya man R.I.P. Dillon!
Dillon, you were in my company the first year i joined JROTC. You made me laugh all the time. I couldn’t believe the news when I found out. Your were an amazing guy. I haev so many JROTC memories of you just playing around and being the cool funny guy who made everyone laugh. I am sad that i didn’t get to talk to you one more time and hear one more funny joke before your departure from this life. I will miss you deeply. R.I.P.
Love,
Janelle
DILLON, WE HAD SOME GOOD TIMES LAST YEAR IN JROTC.LOL…EVEN THOUGH I WAS IN A DIFFERENT SCHOOL AWAY FROM ALL OF YOU GUYS, ALL OF YOU GUYS WERE ALWAYS IN MY MIND…ESPECIALLY THE CRAZY TIMES DURING 4TH PERIOD.HAHA….THE MEMORIES WILL ALWAYS LIVE ON BRO…REST IN PEACE…
Dillon, DillyDog or my favorite chilli dog(:
man oh man freshman year was so much fun! i still remember how you would always get in trouble in Mr. Gilmans class. cyclone! oh geez things wont be the same with out you. I am gonna miss ya buddy. we had some good times, i remember i got mad at you because you took like eight days to sign my yearbook but when you finally gave it back it was done all creativly and awesome. you and your artisic ablilities! they were amazing.. the next pacaso.! (: well i already miss you! 🙁
rest in peace buddy. we all miss you dearly.
We lost a friend, So dear to us, A life so young, It was not just. He was a son, a friend, a classmate, and more, and now he is above, with our dear Lord. He was sweet, and kind, always a good friend, we all will miss him, but this isn’t the end. He will live on in our hearts and memories, from now until forever, for we will miss him, our dear friend, Dillon Chiulli.
I’m gonna miss ya Dillon and all the crazy jokes you always made. I’ll never forget how you use to always want whatever food or drink i had in my hands. Especially if it was a Monster energy drink. We are all miss you so much. We all loved you.
we’ll all miss you dillon. we all love you. you are in a better place now. i havent stopped thinking about you. ive cried a lot. even though we werent really close ill never forget you and ill miss getting punched everyday:'(”’ goodnight…
Dillon this is my first year at Ripon High and I didn’t really know you but im gong to miss haring you yell at Azbill sayin if she didn’t shut-up you would hit her in the face with the softball! God Bless Your Soul Dillon!!
dillon.
dog i remember meeting you in biology.
we used to kiick it and chill.
but we had some ruff patches.
and things went down that shouldnt of.
i never knew dog.
i didnt know u felt the way u did.
i wish i could have been there for you bro.
i thought u were unbreakable dude.
i remember people would say shiit and i didnt even thiink it bothered you.
noone could breakk it dude.
i wiish none of that shiit happened between us dude.
you were a cool dude.
but ayye.
your gigiin wiith dre now in heavenn.
but hey when i meet u in heaven ill bring the beers.
ayy romp in peace bruhh
tyler
dillon.
you will be truly missed.
personally-i will miss the way you and shane made fun of me constantly about everything i did.
(especailyy daydream with my mouth open)
thanks for always making me laugh when no one could.
i hope you realize you were truly loved and will be forever in our hearts.
we love you<33
Dillion Chewy… bro i loved spelling your name like that… Hey I dont know what made you pull and fade away from our lives but fuck bro i miss you. Your were the nicest mo fo in the world and i knew you loved me and would do anything for me just like i would for you. I wish you came to me or hayden and talked but that was your choice.. I hope you know know how much everyone really cared for you but now you are in Gods hands and ik he will take care of you just like you took care of all of us. But anyways i love you man and not a day will go by where i wont shed a single tear.. fuck man RIP
Love always,
Bubba
Dillon, you were by far one of thee nicest people I have ever met. We went to good ‘ol Colony Oak together and that’s where it all began. High School came and we didn’t really talk that much and then this year came around, our Senior year, and you always said hello to me before English. You would walk in the class before me and say “Hey April” and I was probably cranky that day and replied “Hi.” You then said something hilarious which put a huge smile on my face. We will always save your seat in Economics and English. You can’t be replaced Dillon. We love you soo much and wish you could have stayed to know that. You had such an amazing future ahead of you with baseball and your determination, you could have done anything at all. You will NEVER be forgotten. Each day someone or a group of people will think about you. You can now be completely free in heaven. Please let your best friends know you’re still here, don’t freak them out, just hug them and tell them you love them. We’re all looking forward to visiting you when it’s our time. Make heaven laugh.
We love you, always & forever,
April Wright
Dillon!! Why did you have to go!?!? I miss you so much bro…. I remember the first time I met you, you were one of my first friends last year at RHS. I met you in JROTC and the rest of the year was just so great with you. I remember when I messed around a lot and you had to deal with me cause I was so annoying. But I remember all the fun times we had, we would wear the same shirts accidentally and I wouldn’t take mines off because it was always fun. I looked up to you man, I never had a chance to actually tell you that, but when I do meet you one day I will. You were the funniest and worry-free guy I have ever met. When I found out about you, I didn’t know how to react till now because it’s too unbelievable… I miss you way too much and remembering you will carry on as I life through my life. Glod bless you and R.I.P. Dillon
Dillon
Dude I’m praying for you every day up there. I pray you walk upon the streets of gold. Man I remember finally telling myself one day that I was going to actually start doing my homework AT HOME because I knew I wouldn’t get it done as long as you were sitting at my lunch table because you would make me laugh so much. Man I loved you right off the bat dude. I’m going to miss your reds shirt and you hiding your hat from the golf cart guy every day across the table from me. I’m also sorry that you were disappointed with Megan Fox’s situation and I was too homie. Pizza plus was chill last friday night dude and I remember going home that night and telling myself that you were a true friend to anyone and everyone. You proved that to me the first time I met you freshman year. You made life fun day to day in your own way and that’s what made you such a great person. You would do anything for anyone without EVER expecting something in return. I regret not telling you I loved you more often than I did Dillon because you deserved it. Being around you was never boring and I can’t thank you enough for that. God will treat you well up there Dillon. Treat you the way you should have been treated at all times down here. We all miss you Dillon. We all love you. I’m sorry you didn’t see that before. I’m sure you’ve found the fruit snacks up there already my friend and I’m sure they are better than any crap we get down here. I love you man. You’ll always be on my heart. Dillon, LIVE in peace. Death is not the end, it’s just the next chapter to life my friend.
Love always,
Dan Cap
My Cabbage patch kid…you know you were still left like that in my phone for like ever…well i’ve go some pretty amazing memories with you…you were in my squad in rotc and it was pretty epic. and when you text me its my birthday make me a cake..so i actually did and bought you a cabbage patch card just for you.me and my mom seriously could not stop laughing.Or when you broke my window and said put it back together with duck tape they wont notice. i’ve go so many great memories with you and i wouldnt trade any of it for the world….it was such and honor to have known you and your family…your and amazing person..i love you cappage patch kid….
love courtney
Dillon, damn.
You were the last person I thought this could happen to.
We weren’t friends, but JROTC with you was so much fun.
Skits and everything.
So many people miss you.
Just reading all of these posts show it.
R.I.P.
Wow.. where do I start? When I heard what happened my heart dropped.. I couldn’t believe it. I have to say that you are the last person in the world I would have ever expected this from. How can someone with so much LIFE all of the sudden be gone? I still can’t believe it..
I had you as my cadet in JROTC sophomore year. I saw so much potential in you.. I remember how frustrated I would get because you would always goof around. Being the Rotcy Nazi that I was, I wanted you to take it as seriously as I did. I wanted you to find the potential that I saw in you and run with it. But you didn’t care, your main concern was putting a smile on everyone’s face. I will admit that no matter how frustrated I would get with you when you would crack a joke or make a scene, I was dying of laughter on the inside. You are one of the funniest people I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. Your smile, your laugh, your sense of humor.. you always had a way of lighting up the darkest room. I hope you understand that I respect you for the person you were. You could have done anything you wanted to do.. and I was right. You have always been the kind of person where if you wanted something bad enough, you went for it. You would never second guess yourself or let anyone get in your way. I hope you have finally found the happiness you had been longing for all this time. You have had such an impact on everyone’s life and I hope you know how much we all miss you. You were a friend to everyone in one way or another.. I knew you would go far.. R.I.P.
Love,
Kayla
I met Dillon while hangin out at the Koch house with Grant & Hayden. He was a good friend, always laughing and smiling. He would give me a ride home from school all the time, and if u know where i live its kinda funny. Its a short ride. Every time I make that walk I will think of him. I will never turn a corner at Ripon High without expecting him to jump out and pick me up and throw me around. He used to tell me all the time that when I grew up I was gonna be a pus*y magnet. Good times.. He was awesome and I will miss him.
Dillon. Aka Chilli D. So your pretty much going to be missed by every single person in Ripon. I don’t think you realize how many people truely care about you. Some people just never showed it. Including me. I haven’t talked to you in a long time, and i regret that. But from what i hear you are still the same loving and silly Dillon you use to be. I just wish you were still here so i could make new memories with you. It’s really sad to know that you were that sad and didn’t tell anyone. Lots of people would have been here for you and supported you. You just needed to speak up. Well its to late now. I hope you are happy and painfree where ever you may be now. Hopefully in heaven. You are in my heart and prayers till the day i die. Love you (: see you soon.
wow….. i miss you so much im still in shock dillon, why did you leave us? wish you got the chance to realize that so many people love you and care for you… this wont make any sense but i will see you one day i promise and well laugh and joke around like we did in 6th with miedinzki i promise that one day my friend one day…. ill love you always and care for you even though you will wont be here in person i still believe your spirit will be with us all… ill carry you in my heart dillon
love always and forever, Hilary
Sorry for my previous comment.
I was just trying to show dillons sense of humor,
i didnt mean to offend anyone.
i love dillon forever, and im sorry if i offended anyone.
There is no doubt that Dillon is loved and will be missed. He touched lives through his friendship and personality, clearly shown by the entries on this page. But the one thing that I want to point out is that no one saw this coming. Dillon’s fun attitude and outgoing personality masked the sadness inside. How could this have been avoided? What part do we play? “Smile at someone, know someone, say something, ask the question, make the call, take the drive. Every life is priceless and fragile. We get to guard and fight and care, for the people around us. There are plenty of things to fight about and for over the course of our lives – let’s remember that people are the most important thing, the brightest surprises on the planet. Let’s remember that every single person has a story entirely unique and incredibly important, but not everyone can see it. And what a privilege that we get to do our best to remind and invite people, to believe better things, to believe that it’s possible to change, to believe that life is worth living… We’re not saying that it’s easy. But we’re saying that it’s worth it.” It is NEVER too late to ask for help if you feel helpless, there is hope for the hopeless. “Maybe it starts when we push back at the stereotype and the lies that fuel the stigma that says pain is something we’re not allowed to talk about, or that pain is for people a certain age who dress a certain way and like a certain song. Those are lies. The truth is that pain is part of being human. The questions will continue to come. We all get stuck in moments. The good news is that there is also hope and love and change. The good news is that we were meant for friends. The good news is counseling and treatment. The good news is that we don’t have to go alone.”
If you or a friend is struggling with sadness or depression, please seek help. It never had to be this way.
Dillon, you ARE loved and will be missed.
You’re exactly right! We are never alone in the place we call life. Even when we feel no one will listen; God is there listening to our fears and thoughts.
Dillon, you little shit, you don’t even realize what a little brother you were to me and a big brother you were to the little ones that adored you so much. It will be hard not seeing smoky and the bandit making our midnight runs to taco bell, your red jersey and clown shoes, your millions of soda cans everywhere, you’re
“eeehhhhhh” laugh.
We will miss you dearly Dillon, I’m sure we will see you out front playing with the kids and one day and I will pin you down on the grass again!!
Love you kid.
Dillon,
you were such an amazing person
and i am so lucky i was able to call you my friend.
It hurts that your gone
but your not in pain anymore
You were someone that walked into my life and so quickly left it
But you have helped me so much as a person
And even though it makes me cry to think about not being able to see your face at break or atleast talk in passing, your happy now and your with the angels now.
You are truely free now
but i still will miss having you in my life.
XOXO
emily
Dillon, I knew you since elementary school. We were great childhood friends but unfortunately we grew apart when we got to high school. I remember when you would call my house every night like 3 times. You would always take my money and my food, but I didn’t mind at all. Hanging out at recess and with Kelsey and Alanna after school or at the mall are some of my fondest memories of growing up. Your natural ability to make people laugh and smile lives on in everyone’s hearts. I hope you know now that we were laughing with you all along. Our whole school has been silent these past few days and it breaks my heart to think that you are gone and now everyone is such a mess. Unfortunately it had to take this to make everyone come together and express their love to you. Third period was a chilling experience today without you. Your now empty chair will always remind me of our friendship, but I want you to know that it never died. People change and unfortunately grow apart. Feelings do not always change however. I will always love you as my dear friend. May you be at peace and smile once more, love.
Lizzie
Dillon,
I never knew you felt this way.
You always seemed so happy and carefree.
4th period Marine Biology will never be the same without you.
You made that class fun, your song to Mr. Gilman was so funny.
I’ve been singing it in my head all week.
Everyone in that class misses you so much.
There won’t be a day that goes by that I won’t think of you.
I wish I would have took the time to talk to you more when I had the chance.
I miss you.
I really do.
Everyone at RHS misses you, you may not have noticed how you made in impact on each and every student there.
But all that matters is that you are happy now.
R.I.P Dillon Chiulli
I will always remember you.
Love,
Sara Knight
i didnt know Dillon but i heard all the funny stories. i wish i could have met him. his kindness was known all around school. he’s not gone he’s not physically here for us to see face to face, hug him, and tell him things. we can still talk to him just in a different way. don’t forget that because he will always be there for everyone. things like this happen and we can not stop this thing but we can try to help it. we can always look back and say how much he meant to all of us. but we cant change what has happpend. so lets remeber him and love him. because he is Dillon Chiulli!
xoxo,
Hayley
wow…i dont really know what to say…all i can say is that Dillon was the best guy friend ever. i have known Dillon from the CO days. and the NY and DC trip. he made the bus rides a lot of fun.. he liked to pick on me but it was a good kind like best friend kind. i loved him as a brother i will miss seeing his face and his car…lol when i see a shoting star i think that dillon is car racing in the sky and he wants us all to know that he is looking over us :D…i will miss dillon and his funnyness in the years to come…. car in the sky my friend we all love you and will always miss you.
Dillon,
I didnt know you very well but you were the person who stood out the most out of anyone i knew. you wernt afraid of being yourself. you never thought about what other people thought. the only really funny memory i had with you is when i was on second base playing softball and you hit the ball and it came and hit me in the head but i still cought it. everyone rushed to me but i was ok. you sat there saying “sorry” i was fine and then afterward evveryone had lughed. you aways made me laugh when i was down or just not in th mood. i also remember this one time i was just running the basses for other people and you yelled at me to put a helmet on but i refused. you just said “if you get hurt it wont be my fault, i told you to put one on!”. you alway made me laugh. i will always love you as a really good friend. not everything has gone through my head just yet… it just wont click for me. i will always miss you and your weird sense of humor. rest in peace.
-Kristie
I did not know Dillon,however my heart breaks for all you that were touched by him. You all need to know that even though life is hard and you may not see a light in your darkness it will come. Learn from your friend,love him,remember him,but learn from him. We your parents love you, and are here for you no matter what, come to us, go to a teacher,someone you trust but know we only want the best for you, and be kinder to each other,sometimes even a smile can be the difference for someone! So Dillon rest in peace, you were so obviously loved
I’m still waiting for those DC shoes man, they were named after you the entire time. Every time i look in the sky i picture you laughing your ass off holding that dollar i lent you god knows when. I love you man and will never forget you. wherever you are your not resting in peace cuz your making some angel laugh their ass off and causing havoc wherever you go. I love ya man.
Dillon~
I miss you so much. Whenever I eat gummy worms, I will think of all the times you just randomly threw them at people. High school won’t be the same without you 🙁 Rest in Peace my friend.
Love always~ Lauren
Dillion,
you were one crazy kid let me tell you…lol there are so many memorise in Jrotc and winter formal. I remember before winter formal we went to chills for dinner and you and matt stood by the door and opened the door for people saying “welcome to chills have a chilli day” it was hilarious but then someone came over and said that you guys couldnt do that anymore it was funny, and when you hit on the waitress and you gave her your number on the receipt that was funny. You always had a way to make people laugh and you will be missed very much R.I.P Dillion
Love Ashlyn
I have only met Dillon on a couple of occasions, when I was a chaperone. He was a very outgoing person. Very funny, touched many hearts. I can see why so many loved him! He has touched all 3 of my kids one way or another..Thank you for that Dillon! All 3 were in JROTC and that is how they knew him. I wish to tell his family that I am so sorry for your loss..He touched so many! God Bless! And I hope that all of his friends keep strong and keep going, dont let hurt rule you.
Dillon Chiulli, Dilly you were my best friend. I love you so much dillon. You meant the world to me, you were always there for me no matter what. I can’t stand not talking to you dill. It’s killing me from the inside out. I can’t believe this is happening. I can’t believe your gone. I would have never expected to loose you:( You are so important to me and now you’re gone:( It’s sucked the life out of me dill. It’s crazy. My mom checks on me every five minutes. I can’t stop crying. How can I be happy without you dilly. You were the one that made me happy. We were so close. Whenever I was having problems you were the first one I would call, you were the only one I could depend on, and now that your gone I don’t have anyone. Do you know how hard that is dilly?:( I feel so alone. I keep looking at my phone, just waiting for your text messages but they never come. I keep waiting for my phone to ring and see your name on my caller id. I keep calling your phone just to hear your voice on your voicemail. 🙁
You don’t know how messed up I am dilly. I can’t take this. I really need you dillon, you kept me going. I really miss you dill. I can’t begin to explain how much you mean to me dill. I hope you realize that you are the only one that made me feel strong, and actually worth something, you helped me through so much, and you knew me better than I knew my self. You were so protective over me dill.
You watched out for me. You can’t leave me dill. You can’t. I can’t get through anything without you.
Who is going to tell me everything is okay, who is going to make me laugh by saying the simplest things, who is going to tell me stories.
No one. Dillon Chiulli, I miss you dearly:,( I wish I could have helped you, I wish you would of called me. I can’t begin to explain the guilt I have for not talking to you more that night.
Please come and visit me dill, Iloveyou. Rest in peace.
You were truly an amazing person with an unsurpassed capability to make people laugh. I remember at Colony Oak when we were in P.E. and we played baseball, and afterwards I asked you “How long have you played Baseball?” And you responded “SINCE I WAS BORN!!!” That always stuck with me as being another Dillion moment. We all miss you dearly Dillon Chiulli, it’s a shame that you thought that this was what you needed to do. It’ll be hard to graduate this year knowing that your not going to be there, but then again, you will.
RIP My friend
Dillon Chiulli,
u were a very blithe person who lit up everyones day. you will be truly missed by all who have come to noe you, i forget the good times we shared at JROTC camp, even though you got in so much trouble. I was really excited that you were going to be in seventh period. i couldnt wait for you to walk in that door and say something that made us all laugh. I was devistated to hear bout ur death, you were taken away from us to soon, and u were to damn young. you had a whole life ahead of you.
All i could do after i heard about ur death is cry and cry till i couldn’t cry anymore. I had so many questions going through my head: how?why?what? All i noeis that once our time is done here on earth, and we move on to heaven, i noe that u will be there to greet us, and welcome us into gods heavenly kingdom.
Dillon Chiulli, i love you more than words can say. may u be welcomed into gods holy kingdom. Rest In Paradise. Cant wait to see you again. U r in my prayers.
Love,
maddison downey
hey dillon,
i was just thinking of you. you remember how i said i would never get married? you were like shocked or something. you asked why. i said i didnt see the point in being legally bound to someone and that i didnt believe in love anyway. you told me you were going to prove me wrong. that you were going to sweep me off my feet, take me in your arms, and the second i looked you in your eyes i was going to fall deeply in love with you. then you said you were going to marry me and we were going to live happily ever after. then i was looking at you like you were crazy. and you said if that didnt work then you were going to drug me and force me to marry you and lock me in your basement untill i did fall in love with you. i couldnt help but laugh. its funny to picture you, my teddy bear, doing something like that. every day after that conversation we would fight about our kids. i wanted to adopt and you wanted our own. well i wont go in to detail bout our conversations. i was just thinking though and im sorry. i do like you. a lot. but i was always to embarresed to admit it because people already gave me a hard time for being your friend. i let high school get to me instead of following my heart. i didnt realize that i wasnt going to get a chance with you. you always talked about soul mates and all that mushy stuff and i would laugh at you. but i honestly think you were mine. i love you dillon. buti think i would have fallen in love with you with a little more time. you know how you asked me to take a chance with you? i wish i did now. i have so many things to say to you. well i guess i have said them to you actually, but i have so many things i want to tell you face to face. your big blue/green eyes stareing back at me. one of the last conversations we had i told you i loved your eyes. you smiled and said good. because our kids are going to have the same eyes. i miss you dillon. more then you can imagine. you are always in my thoughts, dreams, and heart. and you are forever walking with me. 😉
love,
Anna (aka: Annalicious)
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
p.s- i talked to your mom. she is a wonderful woman who i admire dearly. your parents are both amazing. now i know how you got to be such a big hearted teddy-bear.
Just thinking about you Dillon. I miss you more than i thought i would. You always on my mind and in my heart and i just wanted to remind you of that. I cant wait to hug you again one day, because you owe me one, as well as everyone else you have left behind. I love you dillon, life truly is not the same without you there to cheer me up everyday.
dillon.
well i never knew you.
said hi a few times.
saw you drive by me everyday as i waslked home.
with your sunglasses on and blasting your music.
i saw you that way the day before you left.
and thats the same image i have in my head.
reading all these comments makes me want to cry.
all these people you left.
never told them goodbye.
i asked myself why.
i do not know the answer.
and i probably never will.
i hope you are happier now.
not having to deal with whatever pain you were dealing with.
i hope that everyone can move on.
the pain wont go away.
but it will eventually not be as bad.
im sorry for everyone who was so affected by this.
and dillon.
take care up there in heaven.
we will all always have you in our hearts.
even people who didnt know you that well.
everyone misses you.
more than you know.
rest well dillon.
see you again some day.
agree.
The only real memory of you Dillion is when you came to pick up my daughter, Kaitlyn, for Sadies Hawkins. You looked so nice and acted like a real gentleman. Kaitlyn told me you were very nice and that I would like you but I didn’t know until I met you. I normally know by the first meeting if someone is a nice person or not, and I liked you from that first meeting. Your dad was very nice and polite, when he brought you to pick Kaitlyn up, and I saw you were just the same.
I just wanted to let you and your family know that I have been praying for you all and I will continue to pray.
Dillon,
you where a good kid..you never didnt anything bad…you had good friends and a good family…they will all miss you and i hope you will miss them….they love you and i just hope you stay safe and in everyones hearts for ever. i will see you in many years from now. i cant wait till we meat again
“I noticed how beautiful the sky was the other day and then i realized it’s because you’re up there.”
RIP, Dillon. Don’t let the sky be your limit. Enjoy the wind.
dear dillon,
I know i wrote once before but there are a few things i need to say.
When you left this world i heard many things from the people who loved you with all their hearts. One of which is “you were taken so soon”. I would not use those words i would say god has asked for you to join him earlier then we would have expected. Life seems short now that you are no longer with us. I believe that god does things for a reason even if i don’t understand why this happend and what the reason is. But i still believe every thing happens for a reason even if i don’t see it. That to me is how i deal with this part of life. It’s funny because i cried for you but not for my mothers twin who has cancer.I guess its because you were a very good person. I also don’t believe you took your life i feel that you may have been murdered because the night before i heard of your death you seemed so happy. At practice you laughed and played like a pro. So it’s hard to think about not having you here with us. Dillon i don’t want to seem corny but i feel that you were one of a kind. No one will ever be like you in this life time. Please don’t feel pain any more let your spirti reast. I have a prayer for you and here it goes.
LET GO, AND LET GOD
Today i let go and i let God
take charge of this life of mine.
Now in the dark corners of my soul,
His light is beginning to shine.
All of the cares and worries that
I have carried around for so long
He has lifted them from my shoulders,
and filled my heart with love.
Problems that were overwhelming
suddenly seem very small,
and come what may, starting today,
I know I can handle them all.
If you are troubled,
‘LET GO AND LET GOD’
take charge of your life for you, and
however dark life’s shadows seem,
His light will come shining through.
D.A. Orth
With this prayer i hope you rest in the hands of Lord and his father our God. those who read this many think i am weird or what ever but i do not care because i wrote this based on how i feel at this moment. and to be quite frank i believe in the power if faith ever lasting. because when you are down thats all you have left other this you brain and heart.
Dillon,
I didn’t know you, but as soon as I heard your name and what had happened I remembered seeing your happy face all through the halls of Ripon High. Now I wish I would have taken the time to experience the motivation behind that captivating smile. Your influence will forever be engraved on the hearts of those who knew and loved you. May your soul rest with the angels tonight.
hey dillon,
well i was thinking about you, as usuall. and i realized that you are the only person i ever sang for. u basically had to beg me and as much as i didnt want to i did. u told me i was really good and i shudnt be afraid. well i was never afraid of anything when i was around you. you have no idea what you meant to me dillon. well anyway my poin in writing to you… again… is because i wrote you a song. its not perfect but its honest and i guess thats all that counts. i dont know if you here me but i sing it jut about a thousand times a day. i love you dillon. and just so you know, you are the ONLY boy i have ever written a song for. its called “free with you”.
i hope you like it!
Why did you leave me hangin on all by myself?
I’m fallin deeper and deeper
I don’t know where I’m gonna land
You’re supposed to be here holdin my hand
My head is spinnin,
How do I make it stop?
Ohhh I’m so lost
cuz…
Chorus:
Your open arms were my safe place
I turned to you when I fell down
You picked me up and stayed around
When I look up I see
I see the blue oceans running through your eyes
The green of life growing in them
It’s the only place I see the world where it makes sense
Please wait for me patiently
Like you always do
One of these days I’ll be free
Free with you
Your smile is my light
And since it’s been shut off
I’ve been stumbling around in the dark
Everything is tumbling down on top of me
I don’t know which way to go
Afraid to make a wrong turn
I’m just surviving day by day
I wish you could have stayed
To point out the right way
cuz…
Chorus:
Your open arms were my safe place
I turned to you when I fell down
You picked me up and stayed around
When I look up I see
I see the blue oceans running through your eyes
The green of life growing in them
It’s the only place I see the world where it makes sense
Please wait for me patiently
Like you always do
One of these days I’ll be free
Free with you
Oh oh ooooh I love you so
I hope you know
How much you mean to me
I’ll keep you with me
Walking on my journey
‘Till the day I’m lead back to you
I’ll be ready to sink into one of your teddy-bear hugs
Just like I used to
But until then rest in peace my friend
And remember I think you’re a perfect ten
Cuz…
Chorus:
Your open arms were my safe place
I turned to you when I fell down
You picked me up and stayed around
When I look up I see
I see the blue oceans running through your eyes
The green of life growing in them
It’s the only place I see the world where it makes sense
Please wait for me patiently
Like you always do
One of these days I’ll be free
Free with you
well… thats it hun! i love you!
dillon,
this is kind of random but it made me smile. I remember when we were having one of are ridiculous arguements and just calling eachother whatever names we could think of. you one… like you always did! but i remember saying “geez dillon! you are such a pill!” and your response to that was “ill give you a doce of the dill pill any day!” so i started calling you my dill pill. and wenever i was having a bad day i would always ask you to give me a dose of the dill pill. im pretty sure you meant it in some kind of flirty, cute, some what perverted way, but i took it as you would cheer me up. anyway i caught myself saying it today, at first i sort of wanted to cry. but i couldnt help but giggle a little. so even though your not physically here, you are still finding ways to make me laugh. i was so mad at you when you left because you said you would always be here for me, but im not mad at you any more. i realized that you always will be here in small little ways. and you will always be in my heart. i love you dillon chiulli.
love always,
anna
p.s.- i could use a dose of the dill pill! ;D
Well Dillon its been a rough couple of days since you passed. I didnt know what to think when I heard the news. I then tried to think of the good times we shared together and I cant believe I forgot so many of the good times we spent together. The main memory that I have the best rememberence of is when we shared 1st period together in Spanish2 and you came to school with your lip pierced and I had no idea what to think of it. Here you were in class with a swollen lip and some random ring in your lip. I couldnt help but laugh but I knew it was your nature to make people laugh even though some times you did it while hurting yourself. The last memory I could think of was when we played baseball together and your dad was our coach. You were always the goof ball on the team always no matter what you some how would make someone laugh. We went on that year and got 2nd place. Im glad I got to know you and say you were part of my life. You will always be missed but never forgotten, Rest in Paradise My Friend!
Kyle Eisenga
Dillon was a very unique and special person. He had so many friends of so many ages. I don’t think he realized how special he was to all of us. We all ask ourselves WHY? We all feel guilty. None of us knew he was this troubled. If he just let someone know, we could have helped him through these times.
Some of you know my family and Dillon’s adult friends that he hung out with on his street. We all loved him. He ate more meals at my house that I can’t even count. If my kids didn’t finish what was on there plate, Dillon would. He wasn’t just the neighborhood kid. He was part of our family. He became both of my boys big brother. He became Conner’s best friend, even though Conner is only 9. He spent holidays, days, nights and weekends with us. He always walked in like he lived here.
We all have so many feelings. We are hurt, sad, confused and angry. Do you think Dillon would have done this if he knew the hurt we all feel? Could he imagine how hard it was to tell my 5 year old and 9 year old that Dillon died. And then try to explain it. I don’t think Dillon thought this through. I really hope it was more of an accident and a cry for help, but it went too far.
To say goodbye is just too hard. So, Dillon if you see us from heaven: just remember you will never be forgotten, you will always be loved and we will always hold a spot in our hearts for you.
Love you always, The Garrity’s and all your adult crazy friends on Franklin Lane.
P.S. Dillon, beer pong will never be the same without you….
Dillon,
I remember the first day i met you…i was chilling with hayden and WHAM, there you were giving me the biggest hug ever. You used to call me your teddy bear. Man i miss those hugs and laughs i experienced with you. I miss our intense convos during lunch and break.You were a great friend and you would always be there for me. I know that your in a better place now…but i wish you talked to us. I miss your smile and your laugh. You brought so many great things to not only my life but to everyones. I love you man!!!
RIP
ZACH A.K.A Teddy Bear
Its been a week sense you left me dillon. You left us. Theres a huge hole in my heart that can never be filled again. Luke called me wednesday while i was in history and told me what happened. i started crying so hard when i found out. I kept saying no no nono he’s not gone. but it just hit me last night. and i cant beleive your gone. your were and always will be my dsl(dirty secret lover) while your up there i need to you get some bread and sit on it. i’ll do the same. i remember when you said that to me. i was crying because my parents. and you said, “Babe. go get some bread.. and just.. sit.. sit on that loaf of bread.” you made me laugh so hard. I love you so much dillon i miss you so much. you were supposed to go to my graduation. :/ you were supposed to walk me down the aisle. iloveyou dillon. You brought me cookies when i was at soccer at stouffer park. And that was the last time i saw you. i should have told you iloveyou more. im so srry. you changed my life so much dillon. twice. when i met you and when you left me. you tought me so much. you were so happy.. i didn’t know how much pain you really were in until now. alli have left is Luke. :/ imissyou babee. iloveyou. i remember when we started talking in piglatin out of no where. and we changed our myspaces to illondaa and aylortaa. and we posted bullitens hours upon hours just talking baout dumnb shit. annoying the other poeple. haha. im going to miss you babe. so much. you were my world. my best friend. my everything. iloveyou. and i can’t believe your gone. ill be seeing you<3
RIP
-Taylor(Dsl)(aylortaa)
I'm going to your viewing and funeral. i'll se eyou then.
iloveyou
RIP illondaa
Dillon,
I will never forget all the times we spent together and all the memories i have with you. Laughing was one of the best things you would get out of me, you always knew how to make me laugh and put a smile on my face no matter how mad or sad i was you knew how to bring out the best in me.
I could call you at anytime of the day and you would answer ur phone and txt me back everytime i txt you no matter what time it was.
I will always remember when me and alyssa would go to ur baseball games and we would bother you during the game and you would get in trouble by ur coach but you didnt care you were just happy that we were at ur game even if we werent watching, just knowing we were there made you happy.
I will also miss the times when we went to the movies, you were just the best person to go to the movies with cus we would talk the whole time and be loud and throw popcorn at people.
I remember you ALWAYS calling me “kid” i hated that and it would make me so mad and when i would call you “kid” you would laugh at me, i wish i could hear you call me kid one more time..
Last summer when we went bowling with me you alyssa hayden and bubba, we were lising to music on ur phone and singing and i remember you and alyssa singing “fall for you” to me it was so cute and everytime i listen to that song i think of you and just smile.
I thank you so much for being there for me, making me a happy person and talking to me about things i couldnt talk to anyone about. You were always a happy person i just never believe this happend to you.
Im going to miss you every much.Today i was in class wondering what you were doing right now & Whats it like where you were.?
I guess i will find out what its like up their one day but for now i know forsure that ur looking down at all of us not hurting anymore.
I will see you again one day and You will always have a place in my heart.
Love you lots.
Kels
Dillon,
I remember the first time I met you. You were so happy and laughed the whole time. We texted every day for a couple months and we could keep a conversation going all day and never run out of things to say. It felt like I’d known you forever. I told you my feelings and a lot of things I wouldn’t have told other people. When I was unhappy, you never failed to cheer me up. We never really got to hang out, I was always busy with other things. I felt like I put you off a lot and was just like oh i’ll hang out with you later. I’m so sorry for that. I remember you were going to come to my game last year and you went to the wrong school and you were so mad, but you got over it. Then there was that one day that we got into a dumb fight a couple months ago. Then we never talked again. And it was so stupid of me to be like that and I shouldn’t have acted the way I did. A few weeks ago I was going to text you and apologize but I put it off, again. Now that it’s come to this I know that I really should have just done it right then and there. I want to apologize for all of that now since I have no other way to do so. Hope you can forgive me for all of that. I really do care about you, and I’ll miss you. And I always told you I would draw you a picture with me and you in it and I never did, but I’m going to now. I hope you are happy where you are. Everyone loves you so much and misses you. We all care so much for you. I’ll see you in heaven someday.
Love,
Taylor
dillon,
i miss you maaaaan! i feel like part of me is gone. that my life is completely turned upside down. i love you so so much dillon chiulli. i think ill probably write you everyday because i feel connected to you when i do. i dont really know who else to talk to that just understands what im saying like you do. today i went to your viewing. i was petrified to go, but i needed to go for you. so i, as you would say, “grew a sak” and made myself go. it was one of the hardest things iv ever done. i cried a lot. but then i sat by myself and i was thinking. i know thats your body and everything, but that was definately not you there. your spirit wasnt there. and i knew deep down that it was just different. but i also knew that i carried your spirit with me. so yes i was sad, but i had you by my side the whole time. just like you promised. you are truely the best friend i have ever had. you put up with my crap and only gave me love in return. you are my hero dillon chiulli. i love and adore you. sleep good tonight my teddy-bear!
unconditional love,
anna
P.S- you are one handsome dude!
Dillon,
I went to your viewing yesterday.
Even though I didn’t know you that well, I just felt I had to.
Looking at you felt to unreal. I half expected you to get up..
I signed your casket, and when I sat down, I couldn’t help but cry.
Watching the video of all the pictures of your life on the screen was just so sad..
I hope your in a better place now.
So many people miss you.
-Brandy.
Ducky, I wish you hadnt thrown your life away.
So many people loved you.
& I know i wasnt there as much as I could have
and im sorry.
Its the sadess thing to not hear from you anymore.
Wheneever we would talk you always sounded so happy.
and you could ALWAYS make me laugh.
Im so happy, God let me meet someone as great as you are.
I know everything happends for a reason. You left us for a reason.
God took you away from us way to soon. </3
YOU KNOW you will always be in my heart i can promise you that 🙂
R.I.P your in a happier place now, Ducky.
You will never be forgotten.
illondaa. i went to your funeral today with Katie, and Alyssa. When your niece went up babe. it killed me. Then Hayden and Bubba… I remember you ALWAYS making me laughh. you knew how to. No matter what mood you were in you alaways put me in a better mood. You always put eberyone elses feelings before your own. you made me such a better person inside and out. You babe were amazing. You ALWAYS called me kid. you know how annoying that was??! haha. but. idk. im so sorry i never gave you that chance you wanted with me. You could have still been here. i could have saved you:[ and thats what kills me. It hurts knowing that i couldnt make you happy enough to stay here. i cant wait till i see you again. I thank god everyday now that i had the privlage of knowing someone so great. so passionate as you. They played the song “why” by Rascal Flatts at your funeral. and it fits so well with whats happend. Im so sad that you took your own life.. But you are in a better place. I remember you bringing me cookies at stouffer park haha. and you met Dante. you were SOOOO mad at me! And you called my dad Ramaathorn from Supper trroopers haha. My dad was talking about today. My family is sad too. Ashlyn understands it a little more than dylan. Dylan doesnt \understand at all.. I call your phone everynight. just to hear your voice. It hurts not to get a response. Im so torn up dillon.. im not myself. there is a hole in my heart. and it will never be filled. i will see you again someday. but someday isnt close enough.. Iloveyou so much DSL. You were my bestfriend. i could tell you everything. you were so many peoples best friend babe.. But you were mine. and i wish i could have one more day with you.. i would do anyting for one more day with you actually. Iloveyou so muchh Dillon Edward Chiulli. Dsl. illonDaaa. My world. Iloveyou. YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTEN. You are still here with me. i’ll never let you go.
-Taylor
Dillon dangg memories, i met dillon my freshman year when he would ta my spanish class. We never really hung out on the weekends… but had hella memories in spanish. We stole walkie talkies and used them in the class to piss the sub off. Also he was a hella good artist he would draw funny things all the time on the board in spanish when we would have subs… we would have fights in class by throwing things at people or eachother… Dillon had to be the funniest person i met my high school life. He could always make me laugh… My favorite moment was when we were going to the mall and there was hella traffic so he would turn up the music all the way and put on this song that was only sirens.. so cars would get out the way. surprisingly it worked. R.I.P Dillon you will be dearly missed. we ALL LOVE yuu bruh.
Dillon ohh jeeze, the first time i met you was about the third week of school and you came up to me randomly as i was walking to class saying “damn your hella short” and i looked at you and though who the hek is this kid?? haha any ways you walked me to my class and that was the day that i new i was goin to love high school. we always hung out at school and u always had something to say about me being vertically challenged. man we had lots of laughs cuz u either said something soooo innapropriate or u just did something really stupid:)
you were definatly one of a kind. espescially with your elmo shirt! how many fights did we get in over that shirt? i had a cookie monster shity and u had elmo ofcourse cookie monster is better, we never did get the chance to both wear our shirts together on the same day i wish we had. I have no clue what im goin to do without the person who always made my day when i was in a bad mood!! i really wish you were here with all us rite now, but ur in a better place and i cant wait to see ya soon. Alot of people say that today at the funeral wsas saying goodbye… naw it wsas saying see ya later brah! i love you and ill definatly miss you but ill never forget u!!!!
<3
dill pill,
well today was ur funeral. i was so scared to go, but i found a lot of comfort in it. the place was packed man. and it was all for you. i gave a speech too. im not really sure it made much sense. its kind of hard for me to try to explain exactly how much you mean to me. i really dont think i got my poin across that well, but as long as you know im cool with it. im so bad at public speaking… so u better appreciate it! i love you. oh! and i also read my song. iv never shared my music with anyone so once again that was all for you. then came the burrial. thats when i broke. i was so terrified to go. iv never been to a burrial. but by the time it was over i was terrified to leave. i felt like if i left then i was leaving you. i didnt want to walk away from you dillon. i needed you. i still need you. and by the way, i met your neice. adeal. she is adorable. i saw her crying so i gave her a butterfly. the same one me, alanna, karina, your mom, mrs. harvey, danielle, and you have. she asked me how i knew you so i told her you are my best friend. she said your her favorite uncle. then she asked me to be her friend. i said of course and gave her a hug. then at the gathering i played with her. she really loves you dillon. please keep her safe. i gave her my number and i honestly hope she calls me. i feel like she is the little kid that was always in you. i think as much as i like to say its me she needs, its really her that i need. she is part of you dillon and i see it. im going to love her just like i know you did. your parents are amazing dillon. they have so much stength and love. they are my inspiration. when your dad hugged me today it felt just like one of your hugs. he is so much like you dillon. like you are my hero, so are your parents. my love for them is the same as my love for you. i guess its because they are so much part of you that im hangin on to them like i always hung on to you. i also hung out with alanna, karina, and sophie tonight. i was telling them that it is just like you to bring people together. iv always liked alanna but she is becoming one of my best friends. you will always be my very best friend though. i love you dillon chiulli. stay with me hun, i dont know what to do without you.
goodnight,
anna
Oh Anna, I thought you did a wonderful job on your speech and your song. You did get your point across. I also noticed you giving Adael a hug and I saw her with the butterfly, that was very sweet of you. I keep reading these entries hoping against hope to make sense of why Dillon would take his life. Unfortuntely I don’t think we’ll ever have the answers to all our questions. But seeing everyone’s love for him and reading the stories does help keep his memory alive. I know we all miss him dearly. You were a great friend, I can see that. He was very lucky to know you!
dillon! today i was walking pass muellers class to bring something to mr. mayfield’s class and i just started busting up laughing, cuz i rememberd how last year we were walking to advisory and i totally triped on the step right in front of muellers class and i wss laughing so hard on the ground and you were laughing so hard that you were on the ground too and everyone was looking at us heka weird but we didnt care. man i miss u bro, i dont have any one to walk to advisory with me any more, but yesterday when i was walking all by my self i could feel you right by my side, i really wish that u were here but things happen. You always supported me with my decisions that ive made and im supporting yours, even though i know its hard on soooo many people i respect your decision and ull have to guide me and every one else through hard times. And now that your in heavan you know everything so it makes it even easier for u to guide us, and you always liked easy:) well i love ya dude see ya later, cant wait to talk to you agian:)
<3
dillon,
why did youuu have to go? we were getting SO close.
everytime we talked or hung out we got closer and closer, im not kidding. you didnt make anythinnnnnnng awkward and i cannott believe you’re gone. i first thought it was a nightmare but since the funeral, its obviously real. but its so shockingg to me. you never seemed like that type of person. you were alllllways so happy around me and stuff. like whhhhhhyyyyy? 🙁 im so saddd now. i feeel like i have no one.
your funeral was so hard for me. seeing your baby pictures and then your senior picture, omg. holding onto that balloon, i felt like i was holding your hand for the last time. when i let go of the balloon, i felt like i was letting you free. loosing you and you not being in my life anymore and not talking to me makes me so sad, you had so much to look forward to and your whole family looooved you. you have no idea how many people came. the place was packkkked and some people didnt even get in and some peoplee sat on the floor likee me. loll. but seriously dillon, you hurt so many peopple && you thought no one cared. you mean the entire world to me and i wish you were still here so we could spend even more time together. but the time we had together was amazing and im so gladd i met you. you’re amazing and onee of a kind,. you were ALWAYS there for me no matter what and putting upp with my shit.
i’ve never met somebodyy like you before and i really wish i could of been more with you. you were my bestfriend, my bigbrother, my father, and my almost boyfriend. i trusted you with everything and you alwayssssssssssssss made me feeel better about everything. you gaave me so much confidence. i miss you everyday and i wish you could just call me or text me just so i knew you were still alive. this just breaks my heart. words couldnt explain how much i liked/loved you. you know how much of a connnection we had. i put you number one in my life, definately. but you’re in a better placee now.
so i wish you the best and i hopee you’re happier thann you’ve ever beeeeen.
you are amazing and you will alwayss have that special placee in my heart. you are the only guy i’ve ever said “i love you” to because i think saying those 3 words mean SO MUCH than just saying “ily” i could say ily to anyone but when i say “i love you” to someone i mean it from the bottom of my heart. so dillon chiulli; i love you babeeyy.
Foreverr&&Always <3
kaylaaababyy.(:
Is this the Kayla from San Jose? this was sweet. :]
or san diego? or san something or other?!
Awhhhh.. Kayla im sooo sorryy he left you like this.. and soo soon. if you need anything you can text me. 681-1476
dillon,
oh dillon dillon dillon! i cant wait to meet up so we can talk again. well in person anyway. cause i do talk to you pretty much all day long. im going through the wierdest feelings lately. like i feel like iv lost soo much, yet i feel closer to you every day. today i thought i saw you. i know thats crazy, but its true. he was wearing a red t-shirt and had sunglasses on his head backwards. i thought it was your elmo t-shirt. i love that shirt. anyway my heart sped up and my stomach dropped. im pretty sure my face went white because i felt like i was going to pass out. when i realized it wasnt you i started crying. im not sure if it was because once again the realization that im not going to be able to sink into one of your teddy-bear hugs hit me or the fact that i think im losing my mind. this whole haulusination thing i am not cool with. but i think its kinda normal. what is normal anyway? right dillon. ha you always said that when i told you that you werent normal. i always told you normal was boreing anyway. so ya other then that my day was just another day. 4th period is depressing but i have alanna and ehren in that class and i dont think they know but they are the only reason i get through that class. i honestly couldnt do it with out them. ehrin is so strong. i know he misses you but he really is my inspiration to keep it together. and alanna has been so good to me. you really have great friends. and you are truelly loved.
especially by me.
i love you dillon!
love always and always,
anna
santa cruz?
san francisco?
santa monica?
santa maria?
san jouquin(jAuquin) county?
San louis obispo?
SAN SOMETHING!!!
san joseeee. loll.
dillon,
marine biology sucks without you, its too quiet, and i hate that the desk behind me is empty.
i always look at your seat when i walk in and all i hear is you saying “dont give me that look mary” i swear one day you said it to me like 12 times..i had to count:) only because you were making funny inappropriate comments. anyways, i hope and know your in a better place now.. someday, all of our fourth period will play maringo or marine biology bingo together, as a full class, you, gilman and the rest of us.. it’ll be funn…and we get candy after:). we miss you dillon, you have no idea. rest in peace..<3MaryTimothy
hey dillon,
morning!
so i had a dream last night and you were in it. we were camping… not really sure why… and there was a ton of people with us. we were sitting around the campfire and you were telling stories. but then you voice started to fade and i woke up. i havnt really decided on what this dream means but ill let you know when i do. it was kind of wierd though. i always used to tell you bout my really random dreams and you used to tell me that the only reason i get these random dreams is because im a nut. then i would say im not stupid cuz i thought you meant that my brain was as small as a nut. you would laugh at me sooo much and i would get annoyed. untill one day i realized why you were laughing so hard at me. when you called me a nut you just meant i was crazy. you didnt even mean i was dumb. well it kind of made me feel like not the smartest person in the world but whatever. geez you gave me so much crap for that. you would NEVER let me live that one down! but that was just one of the reasons i loved you so much!
i hope you are having a good day up there in freedom!
oh my gosh! guess what i just thought of!-
Hakuna Matata! What a wonderful phrase
Hakuna Matata! Ain’t no passing craze
It means no worries for the rest of your days
It’s our problem-free philosophy
Hakuna Matata!
Hakuna Matata! Hakuna matata!
Hakuna Matata! Hakuna matata!
Hakuna Matata! Hakuna matata!
Hakuna Matata! Hakuna–
It means no worries for the rest of your days
-maaan! we used to sing that all the time!! well i hope your living out our moto up there! but you still have obligations down here buddy! there are a lot of people that love and still need you to stay with them. so stick around my teddy-bear friend!
i love you more then you can imagine my friend.
Love Always,
Anna
AKA: Annalicious
Heyy good morning illondaaa. I miss you soo much.. its been over a week,, and i still feel a lot of pain. I miss you:/
Love Taylor
Heyyy budd. i forgot to add… I remember the last time i saw you.. you brought me like a millon coookies cause i was starving haha. Andd When you drove away the back of your car said I LOVE YOU BABY! i was laughing soo hard. Then later that night you told me to make you a CD. And i did.. But now it sits on my dresser and i dont know what to do with it.. I can’t throw it awayy. but i cant keep it. I really wish you were here still to tell me what to do. you were always good at that :] I wrote I love you! illondaaa! and “go get some bread and just sit on it” Mann i have never laughed sooo hard until i met you. you always had a way of cheering me up even when you were down. I love you dillon i miss you. I said hi to your parents at your funeral.. They miss you more than anything. And Josh Babbyyyy.. He’s sooooo down Dillon. Come to visit me baby.
-Iloveyou<3
*Taylorr
hey taylor
im not really sure who you are but i know dillon and if he loves you then i do too. 🙂
but i was just reading your blog and i do have some advice. the cd your talking about… well i think you should keep it. i know its probably really hard to look at it now but it will mean so much to you. i know cuz i have a pair of shoes that say “anna loves dillon” on one of them and on the other “dillon loves anna”. when i first heard the news about dillon i was so upset that i threw them away. luckily my principal held on to them and made me keep them. now i hold on to them for dear life because its one way i keep dillon with me. i have TONS of stuff that remind me of dillon. its comforting now though. i understand that everybody goes through things in stages and in their own way so take your time, but please dont get rid of that cd. i dont know you but im pretty sure you will regret it.
btw my name is anna and dillon was my best friend. i know there is a lot of people saying that but he truely was mine. he drove me home every day. i had marine bio with him. i am really close to him. im only a sophmore and he pretty much looked out for me since iv gotten to high school. so ya thats just to let yu know kind of who i am so im not just a random person.
-Anna
Hey Anna. Thank you so much for the advice. i really needed it. And i know a little about you. Dillon did talk about you now and then 🙂
Dillon was a once in a lifetime guy. Never will there be another Dillon and for that, his life will never be forgotten. He shall forever live on in our memories, whether they’re big or small, but most of all in our hearts. We will love you forever Dillon!!!
dillon,
k so u know how you always bugged me to be on the dance team? well i audition tonight. im only doin this for you. im pretty excited but kind of nervous. wish me luck! i love you dillon.
love always,
Anna
hey Dillon,
i remember the first time i met you, you just came up to me and said hi i’m Dilon. haha it was random but funny..then the next thing i know..my mom tells me some guy is stealing her air fresheners out of her car and she doesn’t know who it is..then the next day i see dillon sneaking into my moms car after school and stealing them and he didn’t even know who she was..it was the funniest thing ever and i will never forget how much you made my day simply by stealing my mom’s air fresheners..but thank God you did because those are the great memories i get to live with about the famous dillon chiulli who put so many smiles on so many faces..i love you and i think you are amazing. and i wish i had the opportunity to tell you that before you left us.
R.I.P We love you
Alissa and Debbie Vickers
Dillon, Today is hard, I miss you.
I don’t know what to do.
I can’t stop thinking about you. I want to talk to you soo bad.
Pleasee come back ? </3 ):
Dillon was a great
, fun , funny,
cool, amazing, nice,
sweet, awsome guy.
if you never knew him, i wish u did.
anyone he was around he could make laugh.
he just had this way about him,
that could always cheer you up.
he was always a friend.
i got to know him over the past cupple years, and im glad i did.
he was such a fun guy to be around.
i would babysit 4 his 2 neighbor boys, and every time i babbysat he was over.
in fact haha the first time i ever baby sat for them, he was there.
he was just pretty much part of their family.
he was like their 3rd son.
so ya he would always come over to play with the boys when ide babysit, and half the time i would have to endup pretty much babysiting him. 😛
one time mary and danny came home and were all “like what the heck, y are my pictures all crooked?” and all i hada say was “Dillon” and there like “ohhhhh! haha of course”
he was so much fun i miss him.
we all do
iknow i didnt know him as much as many of u did, but i was still affected by this because he was still my friend.
he was so nice.
like when it was really late and i was babysitn he would always check in and like ask if i needed anything,
or if he was leaving to go somewhere out friday night he tell me i could call him if i needed anything again.
he was just so nice and i looked forward to see what crazy thing he did next.
when i think of him i try not to be sad, but its too hard. he touched everyones life.
but we all still need to remember the good fun times we had with him.
the fun crazy thing that he would do and his contagous laugh and his crazy bandanas he would always ware!
haha i laugh just thinking about that.
but thats what we all need to do, is to remember him with happy memberies.
plz i ask that we keep his family close in our hearts and pray 4 their loss, because 4 them im sure its the toughest time in their lives.
we all love and miss you dillon!
luv ya dillweed! (as evan would always call ya) 😀
RIP my friend
l <3 v e KELCIE
Hey love,
i’m sorry its taken so long for me to write. idk wat to say other than i miss you sooooooooooo damn much. ive been really angry with you lately. i wish you would’ve talked to me, or any of us for that matter. its been a few weeks and i still can’t focus on this. i still think i’m gonna see you at school or swerving into my court with your stupid music on:p i wish you were here with me so you could help me with all of the stupid stuff that’s been going on, but lately i realized that you wouldn’t want me to waste my time on it. everyone here misses you dork. especially my mom she misses you coming into the house screaming and bleeding all over her floor after getting bit by max. now that i think about it that day was awesome even though we were worried sick about you, you didn’t even care that you got attacked by a dog! you just said it was worth it cuz you got to lie on my lap on the way home:) you’re such a dork and idk what i’m gonna do without you. i’ve been trying really hard to tell myself your happy and i hope to God you are. i know you were having a hard time dillon but i wish you could see how many people love you. i can’t wait to see you again love. i’m always thinking about you and i won’t ever stop. i love you dillon. forever and always.
Meg
Hey man i just got done listening to Blink 182. Remember that fagget across from up who we think was tripping on Acid lol and was dancing with some guys that were just sitting lol. Or that time me and you were just sitting in your front yard and your neighbors were so fuckin close to fighting lol. Well i miss you i cant even listen to the music we all listened to. Its hard to go to your house and hear how quiet and how full your pantry is with all the food. Just looking at your padres i wanna break down but i dont want anyone to give me sympothy cause i dont want others to think im weak or i just want all to surround me with attention. Lol i also mob your hat almost every day only had it for a week and have gotten it taken away by the golf cart guy twice…. Oh ya your one heavy son of a bitch lol
well imma bounce later and i love your (never said that to anyone)
-Ehren aka Shitbrick
i miss u… i cant stop thinking about u. its like im never going to believe ur REALLY gone. like the first week ina half i felt like this had to be some horrible dream and it wanst fer realzz… 🙁 i kept waaiting 4 some one to come and say that it wasnt really u and i kept wanting to text u making sure ur okay… i really wana talk to ya. i wish u could come back…… we all miss u so much 🙁
i hada dream about u the other day. it was like we were all at mary’s house and u were just eating. ha like ya alwayz doo.:p but ya it was horrribe cuz i saw ur face and heard ur voice but like i knew that something was going to happen to u, but i was unable to tell u & i wanted to just give u a big hug but i cudlnt do that either. it was like i hada just watch u and couldnt stop u or tell anyone who could of stoped u… i wish u could see how much peepelz luv u…
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
miiiiiiiiiiiiiisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
yyyyyyyyyyyyooooooooooooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooottttttt!
we love u
I miss you man. enough said.
words cannot explain how i feel.
all i have to say is that; you changed my life and
i love you with all my heartt.
i cant believe this really happened.
i miss you so much babyy.
&& you were cutest boy with the cutest smile, the prettiest eyes i’ve ever seeeeeeen;, and the best personality a person could have. you alwayss made me laugh no mattter what and come upp with some inappropriate jokess allllll the time. sometimess about my MOM?! . hahaa. you are amazing && one of a kind.
this will take me so longg to get through.
rest in paradiseeeeeee.
okay so i just though bout how when u were over playing hecka rough with conner and evan and like little nick wanted to get in on it, so u started tossen him around and like u droped him and he hit his head and like it made a big swolen bump on his facelike right away. hahaha i started flipen out cuz he was crying and wouldnt stop and like i though his mom was going to be hecka mad so i made u tell her so if she was mad it would be at u hahah and u did. but it was so sweet like u just have a way with kids cuz u got him to hold the little ice pack thing on his face and were able to cheer him up and make him stop crying. .. but haha member when he like looked up and we saw his bump apear with in like less than a min. , and we looked at eachother with a face that just said “ohhhhhhhhhh crrrrrraaaaaap!” and then we started laughing haha
cuz we didnt wana freak him out. hahaha luv ya funny good times THX!!
XOXOXOXO KELC
“there’s a sparkle in your eye that only i see and a place in your heart where only i wanna be”
1. you being in my life made it complete.
2. i can’t go a day without thinking about you && cry.
3. the way you always made me smile and laugh; i’m speechless.
4. you effected everyone’s lives in so many ways.
5. no matter what; i will love you forever and always. i will never forget this. but from this, it makes me stronger and more aware and cautious. as cheesy as it sounds; i learn something new everyday. i reallly do.
6. i’ve met alottt of guys in my life; but ever since i met you my freshman year; i knew we would be so close && friends forever. why did you leave so sooon? you are one of a kind and my best guy friendd.
7. everything i do and everywhere i go reminds me of you.
i have one wish, only one.
i wish for you on 11:11 everyday in my US History class .
i wish that i had one more day with you to really explain to you how much i love you. you meant the world to me.
but now my wish is that you are soo happy with where you are right now; the happiest you’ve ever beeeen because after everything you did for me and everyonee else; you deserve to be so happy :).
i hopee to see you again sooon. ill give you the biggest hug in the wooorld.
“There’s always gonna be that one thing you wish for but never get & that one mistake that you can never take back & most of all that one memory you would do anything for, just to have it happen all over again”
hey dillon.
please dont be mad at me for not writing like i promised. i dont know how to deal. iv been trying EVERYTHING to get through this. there is only two things that help. the first u already know. and its only for you to know. nd the second is your parents. your alive to me when im around them. i stopped by your house for a coulple minutes to talk to your parents. they gave me your orange converse and im still trying to figure out the perfect place to put them. i also took my permit test yesterday. i missed it by two, but ill take it again on monday and im gonna pass for sure. your mom called me to see how i did on it. it was really sweet and she really touched my heart. i guess that runs in your family. 😉 im not sure wat else to say dillon. i havnt even felt the least bit angry till now. im falling apart, but im keeping a strong front. i guess its what i do best. i used to talk to you all the time bout me and my mom. even though we are pretty close we have had our hard times. you used to tell me i was being too stubborn and i needed to let her in. but im mad at you now. you are the only person that i talk to absolutely everything about. and you left me. i need you dillon. please stay with me. i can hear you in my head constantly. a night i cant sleep because i cant get your voice out of my head. im mad but im so sad at the same time. idk how i feel about anything. nothing is making sense. you better be happy though. because i need for you to be happy for me to be ok. please dillon, i know i cry at night and practically beg you to get out of my head, but dont listen to me. dont leave me. i still need you in my life. i love you dillon chiulli. i truly do. and im going to start writing again. trying to ignore everything didnt help so im going to try my best to face it. the truth is im scared. you know that i think being scared is the worst feeling in the world. so help me dillon. i need a dose of the dill pill. 😀
i love you.
cant live without you.
and miss you more then you will ever know.
love always,
anna
sleep good hun
hey dillon.
i could really use you riht now man. im not really sure what is wrong with me. everything is bugging me and i dont know what to do about it. i started basketball i figured it would be good for me so i can get back in shape and i thought it would help me get som fustrations out. but all it does is piss me off more because its yet another thing that im stuggling with. sports used to come so easy to me and they were never really work. but whatever. im going to give it everything in me because i dont want to quit on yet another thing. i miss you so much dillon. i need one of those pep talks you always gave me. im losing myself dillon. i used to be able to do anything i wanted. i had so much confidene. i mean i didnt like think i was the greatest thing in the world but i definately believed in myself. im not really sure i do anymore though. everything is so hard. and it seems it only got that way since i havent been able to hg you every day. i dont know how im supposed to make it in this world when you couldnt even. you are so much stronger then me. i dont get it dillon. i love you sooo much. i hope like a little kid that it gets better but i know deep down it doesnt. every single person i know is miserable because of something. nobody is just ever happy. i cant count on anyone like i count on you. did you know that you are the only person that i saw smile ALL the time. but iv been thinking. maybe that was your front. you didnt know how to deal so you didnt. but every time i think that i get scared because that is exactly what i do. i put on a front. not wanting anybody to know how i feel because i dont want to drag them down with me. u know?
well i love you with all my heart dillon. please come into my dream and smile at me tonight. im tired of having nightmares. actually im just tired. i need to sleep! lol.
always thinking of you, always loveing you, always missing you.
love always,
anna
i started to fall in love with you; enough said.
you were my dream come true.
you sre perfect. more than perfect. you werent like any other guy.
i hopee you’re so happy whereever you are. i feel liike its still a nightmare but 3 weeks have gone by and you still havent texted me. im waiting for that one call or text to tell me your back or were here all along.
you mean the world to me and im falling apart without you. you kept me going with confidence. day by day my life is getting worse. from the day i lost you, everything is going downhill. my friends; my grades; my family. so much.. im completely fallling apart without you and i wish i could just talk to you. no one will ever replace you. you were so special to me and made me feel important. you have no idea how im learning so muchh from this. im completely different now. i’ve realized how closee you should keep your friends because you never know what mightt happen to them. why did this have to happen to you? why did this have to happen to make me realize this? why? this is what you wanted. you wanted to be happy. you told me flat out. “im never happy. i want to finally be happy” well dillon, i hope you are happier than you’ve ever been and you’re loving it whereever you are. i would do anything in this world to have you back. im having so many problems with friends and stufff and you were the only guy i felt like i could talk about that stuff to and give me advice and actually have a real conversation unlike some people. you were like my big brother and my best friend even though you hated me saying that cause you wanted to be more. hhaa. you were unique and one of a kind. why can’t i have you back in my life? why can’t you come to my house again? why can’t you come to my winterball? why can’t you just call me right now? whywhywhywhy.
everynight trying to go to sleep i can still hear your voice talking to me; that lets me know you’re always nextt to me in spirit. and for all of our inside jokes; things have come upp lately to remindd me of youu. i will never forget them. you will ALWAYS be my love. forever&&always.
btw; in my highschool scrapbook, im dedicating a pagee to you so i will remember you forever and ever.(: goodnight<3
It’s hard to say goodbye but it’s like i just can’t.
I keep having these dreams about you.
the other night i had one and we were just talking. And we were laughing but then you had to go.
then i woke up and remembered your gone.
And i don’t want you to be gone.
I wish you knew how much you mean’t to so many people. I wish tyou knew how much you meant to me.
Maybe you know now? But i dont know.
I wish i could just talk to you. Hear your voice again.
But i can’t
And i ask myself
WHY?
I wish you knew how many people loved you. I wish you didn’t feel so depressed that you had to do this. Theres so many i wishes but i cant know anymore
i love you so much
Rest in peace